Chapter 52, self-depravity
There was silence between heaven and earth for a while, Qin Ruosu saw Yuan Shifei's figure stiffen for a moment, she quickly buried her head, and could only hear her violent heartbeat.
Seeing that he didn't reply for a long time, Qin Ruosu asked cautiously, "First ...... Mr? ”
"Susu." He called softly.
Qin Ruosu's heart jumped to her throat, knowing that he would refuse, but she still couldn't help but have a hint of hope.
She stared at him unblinkingly, until his cold words spat out word by word: "Actually, I know," after a pause, his tone tinged with apology, "But, I'm sorry......"
When he said this, there was a little emptiness in his voice, like a child who suffers from gains and losses, but he couldn't bear to show the anxiety in his heart. He paused, and then returned to his quiet expression.
Her heart twitched violently, her heart was disappointed and painful, a touch of desperate sourness silently vineed, although she had also made mental preparations for rejection, at this moment, she still had spineless red eyes.
She squatted at the water's edge, saw her reflection in the water, her low-hanging sideburns were obliquely inserted and inlaid with pearls and jasper, her cloud-like hair looked soft and moist, her beautiful eyes were full of color, and the flowers and moon looked like hibiscus.
She reached out and touched her beautiful cheek, what was the use of having such a good skin? He still won't take a look at it, and he still doesn't like it......
Thinking so, bean-sized tears rolled down the turbulent river.
Yuan Shifei looked down at her, watching her cry and tremble, his eyes contained countless complex and messy emotions, but he still had a straight face, even though his pupils revealed a thick burning and concern.
Just when he was at a loss, he saw Situ Jun coming from here with a horse from a distance, and immediately sat Ren Yuanfei, and the two talked and laughed.
The two walked over, and when they looked at this embarrassing scene, they seemed to have guessed something, Qin Ruosu's eyes were still red, and he had obviously cried, while Yuan Shifei looked depressed again.
Ren Yuanfei and Situ Jun glanced at each other and did not speak.
The atmosphere was gone, and several people had to hurry back to the mansion.
After going back, Yuan Zhengfei was like a different person, often not returning at night, lingering in Jinyulou.
Qin Ruosu was getting thinner and thinner, and stayed in the boudoir all day without saying a word.
Boss Qin had no choice, so he had to send someone to ask Ren Yuanfei to discuss the strategy.
At that time, Ren Yuanfei was discussing the decoration of the new store with Liu Xiaohuai, and after receiving the invitation letter from Boss Qin, he handed over the things in his hand to her and said goodbye to Yu Xiaohuai.
Since Qin Ruosu's confession was rejected, her mood has been very low, Ren Yuanfei looked at her with some regret, "Don't worry, it will be fine after a while." ”
Ren Yuanfei sighed, his eyes were confused, in fact, every woman wants to know what kind of existence she is in the heart of the man she loves, and she hopes that she is unique and unique.
"You think I'm still sad about being rejected by him?" Qin Ruosu suddenly raised her head and looked at her with a stunned expression.
"And what are you?" Ren Yuanfei was a little puzzled.
"Sister Yuanfei, he has changed." Qin Ruosu said in horror, her whole body trembling uncontrollably.
"Don't worry, say slowly, what's going on?" Ren Yuanfei finally found that the problem was a little serious, and she looked serious.
Qin Ruosu wanted to speak for several times before he said: "After returning home that day, I was relieved to cry, since he didn't like me, I didn't force it, I just wanted to be by his side silently, and I didn't show him love again, I was afraid that he would annoy me, so I kept my distance from him deliberately, but ......" said this, her nose couldn't help but sour, and her eyes were red and said: "He seems to have fallen suddenly, no matter what delicious food he cooks for him, he has no appetite, throw it out for me, and stay in Jinyulou every night, As long as I have time, I paint crazy in the study, all the paintings are Fan Yu, and recently I started beating people, and my maids were injured by him, I think...... He loves Fan Yu too much, and it won't be good. ”
Ren Yuanfei looked at Qin Ruosu in a daze, as if he couldn't understand what she was expressing for a moment, what did it mean that it wouldn't be better? How did he become like this now, even if Su Su confessed to him, he didn't have to go crazy as if he was stimulated by something, right? Unless......
Thinking of this, Ren Yuanfei frowned, and comforted Su Su: "That's it, I'll let Situ Jun go and see him, you don't have to worry too much, you take care of your body is the most important thing, understand?" ”
Qin Ruosu wiped her tears and nodded gratefully.
After Ren Yuan flew away, Qin Ruosu couldn't sleep after thinking about it, and taking advantage of the vast night, she got dressed and sneaked out of the back door.
When Qin Ruosu came to Jinyulou, the proprietress of Jinyulou and Boss Qin were also acquaintances and old friends, and when she saw his daughter come to this kind of place, she was first surprised, and then hurriedly asked, "But your father asked you to come?" ”
Qin Ruosu's face flushed, and he said shyly: "No, I'm here to find Yuan Gongzi." After speaking, he asked expectantly, "Is he here?" ”
The proprietress looked at him with a strange look, but it soon dawned on her, guessing that this Su Su was probably also one of Yuan Gongzi's new loves, and kindly reminded her: "Yuan Gongzi is indeed ...... here" As she spoke, her tone flickered, "But, ...... He's not serious, you don't want a tendon, there are a lot of good men here, and another day my mother will help you find a good character. ”
Qin Ruosu subconsciously opened his mouth to argue, but after thinking about it, he gave up.
When Qin Ruosu was taken to Yuan Shifei's room, she knocked on the door for a long time but no one answered, she suspected that he deliberately did not open the door, so she had to stand outside and shout: "Sir, are you not there?" Please come home with me! If you don't come out, I won't go!" ”
Hearing the movement, someone finally opened the door, it was a girl, disheveled and disheveled, as if she had just woken up, she looked at Qin Ruosu with drunken eyes, Qin Ruosu took the opportunity to look inside, although she only glanced at it, but she was sure that the man lying on the bed without clothes was him!
He also seemed to see her, and said to the singer, "Close the door, leave her alone!" ”
Now although it is early summer, but in recent days there has been a continuous rainstorm, and it is still a little cold at night, she is eager to come out, she is already thinly dressed, and she is sick, she is even more afraid of such a cold night, and after a while, she is shivering from the cold, about three or four hours have passed, Yuan Shifei finally opened the door, and her haggard face was faintly angry, "Are you crazy?" ”
Qin Ruosu raised her head and smiled hard, "Sir, it's almost dawn, come back to the house with me!" ”
Yuan Shifei saw that she was so cold that she could not speak, so he silently drove the singer away, pulled her into the house, and poured her a cup of hot water.
Qin Ruosu held the teacup, looked at him pitifully, and found that his hair seemed to be growing again, the scum on the side of his mouth was scum, he had never trimmed it, he looked sloppy and prodigal, his eyes were blank, and he poured tea carelessly, and her heart suddenly throbbed.
It hurt so much that her hand holding the teacup trembled a little.
In her heart, he should be Peng Zhi migrating to the south of the world, the water hits three thousand miles, and the one who sways up is 90,000 miles, a bird belonging to the sky, surrounded by clouds and the moon, chic and wanton, but how did he become what he is now?
Yuan Shifei couldn't bear to blame her anymore when he saw her like this, but he didn't want her to be in the same room with such an embarrassed self, so he said: "Go back, I have my own life." ”
Seeing that Qin Ruosu was still standing, he got up and dragged her up, and didn't let go until he saw her face full of tears.
Qin Ruosu cried and wiped her tears, like a child who had been wronged.
Seeing that Yuan Shifei simply sat motionless on the bed, she cried even more fiercely, and said inarticulately: "Sir, don't practice yourself anymore, if it is because of the words of the woods that day that you become a burden, if you want to leave, I will never stop you, I just ask you to be good...... I don't want anything anymore, I just ask you to ...... well."
Yuan Shifei looked at her calmly, but couldn't suppress the tremor of his voice, "You ......"
Qin Ruosu nodded, "Can I leave now?" ”
"You go back." Yuan Shifei closed his eyes, looking a little painful.
Qin Ruosu bit her lower lip and looked at him in disbelief, and suddenly she wiped away her tears, trying to make her voice normal: "Okay...... Since you like it so much, you like to play with women, right? Isn't it just willing to fall, you dare, I dare, anyway, you are also recruiting singers now, I am always better than them, cleaner than them, why can't it be me? And I still like you so much, I'll listen to you whatever you say, come on......"
Saying that, Qin Ruosu turned off the lights and began to loosen his clothes.
Yuan Shifei was completely stunned by her, Teng came over, took a coat from his bed, wrapped her tightly, and roared: "What are you doing?" ”
"What do you say?"
"Enough! Do you think I'm going to like you if you're like this? I'm only going to hate you even more! Yuan Shifei turned his back and pointed to the door: "Get out!" ”
Qin Ruosu burst into tears again, and her heart was overwhelmed with sadness, but all these sadnesss were because of the man in front of him, and she felt sorry for him!
also felt pity for herself, she couldn't help him with anything, she could only watch him fall into the bottomless abyss......
Yuan Shifei sent her to the Qin Mansion, and before she could go in, he spoke, and said in a tired tone: "Take good care of yourself." ”
Hearing his soft voice, Qin Ruosu's strength seemed to collapse in an instant, and hot tears slowly fell down the corners of his eyes, indescribably sad, with hatred, "Isn't it just a dead man?" Are you concerned? So many years! ”
Qin Ruosu finally couldn't help but shout out the suppressed words in his heart.
Yuan Shifei did not speak, but turned to leave.
Qin Ruosu's heart suddenly swelled with an indescribable feeling, his heart was sour, and he ran towards him desperately under the sultry night, and suddenly hugged him from behind, his cheek pressed against his back, as if only in this way could he have a sense of stability in his heart.
Yuan Shifei was stunned, hesitated, and still broke her fingers one by one.
Qin Ruosu looked at him who was walking away, but she couldn't resist the burning pain coming from inside her body, and before she was about to lose consciousness, she only heard a sigh from afar, which seemed to be mixed with endless eagerness, Su Su?
Her eyes were closed, she was really tired.