Tang Jingqing couldn't understand the state of mind at the end of the season, because from the beginning of their acquaintance, he only saw the eldest lady who was high up and didn't know the suffering of the people. Ji Mo never told him this, and the story about her in the Ji family, Ji Shuyun, and her mother is what she wants to hide the most

Scars, to say it, are nothing more than spreading the wound in front of people again without any help.

In April in Shenyang City, the spring light is warm, but it can't warm the heart at the end of the season.

April is her least disliked month, because her mother Yao Qinyin and Ji Shuyun chose to enter the marriage together on a sunny spring day in April, and occasionally she will wonder if it is because of the pronunciation of "four" and "death", so it is destined that this marriage will end without a problem after all.

That day, she was playing with Jingle Bell in a freshwater villa when she received the news that her mother had committed suicide in a nursing home, her blood seemed to be congealed, and she wanted to cry but found that her tears had long since dried up.

"Miss Ji, please come to the hospital as soon as possible to take a look, at present, Ms. Yao's condition has been stabilized, fortunately, the wound is not deep, and it was found early, so there is no major problem."

"Thank you, thank you, Nurse Li, I'll be here right now."

I hung up the phone in a panic, hurriedly picked up the keys and mobile phone and went out, knowing that my current state was not suitable for driving, so I took an Uber and rushed to the hospital.

When you walk into the hall, you can smell the familiar smell of disinfectant water, and those unbearable memories flood into your mind like a flood.

It's going to be fine, it's going to get better, don't be afraid. Looking for Yao Qinyin's ward over and over again as if chanting a spell, she thought of when she was 13 years old, her mother once fell down the stairs and hit her foot and was cut by the sharp steps marble, a long cut was bleeding, the driver of the house happened to be absent, and the other servants ran away after seeing it,"

Yao Qinyin, who was sick", they were all afraid, more things are better than less, and they can avoid them. The 13-year-old Ji Mo couldn't put Miss Qianjin's score, and no one helped her, so she carried her mother to the hospital, because Yao Qinyin's leg was bleeding, and many taxi drivers passing by felt bad luck and no one was willing to take her

Their mother and daughter went to the nearest hospital to treat the wound, that time Yao Qinyin was stitched 9 stitches on her leg, the end of the season was deeply impressed, the powerlessness of watching the blood in her mother's body flow out little by little made her afraid, this was finally silent for many years, and this fear climbed into her heart again.

"Mom! Mother! What happened to you? ”

When Ji Mo walked into Yao Qinyin's hospital room, he felt distressed to see her eyes closed, as if she hadn't had a good rest for a long time.

"Miss Ji, you're here." "Hello Nurse Li, why did my mother suddenly have this like this?" Nurse Li was invited to nurse Yao Qinyin at the end of the season, and she has been with their mother and daughter for all these years, and it is actually very tiring to take care of a "problematic" patient, but on the one hand, because of the high remuneration given at the end of the season, on the other hand

She is also very talkative, and she is more or less sympathetic to the mother and daughter in their future relationship.

"What else can I do, every April, your mother will become very sensitive, sometimes I can't tell the difference, obviously I have been so confused, how can I always remember the most confused things so clearly?"

Nurse Li got up and handed a copy of "You Are the April Day in the World" to Ji Mo's hand, Ji Mo was of course familiar with this book, which was Yao Qinyin's favorite Lin Huiyin's book. Maybe it's because of Ji Shuyun who she married in April, maybe she was also called a "generation of talented women" like Lin Huiyin, maybe the sentence "It's love, it's warmth, it's hope, you are the April day in the world." It really sounded her heart, but it was a pity that she recited it over and over again

None of this book can be her salvation. Ji Mo sat next to Yao Qinyin, took over the work from Nurse Li's hands, picked up the doctor's report at hand, adjusted the speed of the drip again, and twisted a towel to gently wipe her mother's face. The years have carved a deep imprint on her face, and the fine lines at the corners of her eyes suggest that her mother is aging at the end of the season, and occasionally she will think, can a person really love only one person in his life? At the age of 24, she is not sure that maybe she will love Tang Jingqing for the rest of her life, but now she still has expectations, and at the end of the season, she has always found a bottom line in her heart, that one

Once the bottom line is broken, she tells her that even if she loves again, she must learn to leave, but when the bottom line is broken again and again, she will hesitate - does such a bottom line really exist for her? She feared that one day she would follow the same path as her mother.

"At the end of the season, from tomorrow onwards, I will ask the teacher to come over and practice ballet for an extra hour every day."

"Mom, I don't want it."

"What did you say?"

"Mom, Xiao Mo's feet hurt, can we not practice ballet?"

At what age is this conversation? I can't remember the end of the season anymore, but I remember that from the very beginning, her father would also laugh and watch the end of the little season learn ballet in the window at the door of the dance room, and when class ended, he would hug her and say, "Today we are also very good." ”

But I don't know when it started, Dad's hugs became less and less, and even fewer and fewer people saw Dad's later, and then Mom's temper became worse and worse.

"It's useless, you're useless! How could I have given birth to such a useless daughter as you. The belt fell again and again under the small figure of Ji Mo, she wanted to escape but there was no way out, and finally when Yao Qinyin was tired, she would lock Ji Mo in a small storage room and punish her for not eating.

Then in the evening, he hugged the end of the season and cried bitterly as if he was awake: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" Little Finish! Mom, I'm sorry! I shouldn't have hit you, obviously you didn't do anything wrong! ”

Every time Ji Mo wants to hate his mother, he will be hugged by her so gently, Yao Qinyin secretly carried Ji Mo back to the room, and carefully medicated her, the kind of look that looks at her wounds will also hurt makes Ji Mo very distressed.

She wanted to say, Mom is okay, Xiao Mo doesn't hurt. As she grew older, she gradually understood the reason why her father did not come back, she knew that she had a "little sister" who was very good at dancing, and she saw her mother go to the psychiatrist and constantly take antidepressant drugs, and she put herself when the side effects of the drug made her feel uncomfortable

Shut up in the room.

How can you hate such a mother? Hate her mother for loving her too much? Or hate her for being too weak?

"Mom, is it okay for you to divorce Dad?"

At the end of the past season, I persuaded her to let go, not to admit defeat but to choose to give her new life and another possibility in life.

"Xiao Mo, what stupid things are you talking about, I won't divorce your father, even if I die, I will be Mrs. Ji!"

Mom's paranoia grows day by day, and eventually pushes herself into a bottomless abyss.

"Miss Ji, you go back and rest first, it's late, it's okay to have me here."

Nurse Li's words reminded her that it was already more than 10 o'clock in the evening at the end of the season, and she hadn't been in contact with the villa for so long. Walking out of the gate of the hospital, the night in April was still a little cool, only wore a thin cardigan when I went out, and pulled up my coat at the end of the season, and when I walked out of the hospital, I found that the mobile phone had long been out of power, and when she came to take a taxi, it was paid by the mobile phone, and now there is no wallet and no electricity and I can't even go back, I considered it

gave up the idea of borrowing a phone from Nurse Li, and slowly walked to the freshwater villa while it was night.

In the afternoon, when I was in the hospital, I wanted to call Tang Jingqing and tell her that she was in the hospital, but I thought that Tang Jingqing didn't like her to look for him casually, so I gave up.

At the end of the season, I found out that she and Yao Qinyin were really mother and daughter, one had just been discharged from the hospital, and the other was hospitalized again, maybe their mother and daughter should really burn high incense. The road back to Tamsui Villa is not long, just walk all the way along Binjiang Avenue, the neon lights of the city are bustling and lively everywhere, just walking alone on the riverside and looking at the colorful colors on both sides of the river always makes the end of the season feel out of place, obviously only 24 years old She occasionally feels herself

The state of mind is already 74 years old, and it would be nice if there was a choice in life to start over.

When I returned to the villa, it was half past 12 o'clock in the evening, and I walked for more than two hours to return home, which had exhausted the end of the season, and when I walked into the living room, I unexpectedly saw Tang Jingqing sitting on the sofa reading documents.

"Jingqing? You haven't slept yet. ”

"Do you know what time it is?" The steady man sat on the sofa knowing that she had returned, but he still did not leave the gaze of the document, and he used a calm tone with a strong force that could not be ignored.

"I'm sorry, something happened, I'm late."

"You won't call when you come back?"

Ji Mo just wanted to open his mouth when Tang Jingqing's stern tone was scolded back: "Don't tell me that your phone is out of battery, as an adult, don't you even have such a little ability to deal with things?" ”

Maybe it was because her late return made him unhappy, Ji Mo didn't want to explain anything, and she also knew that Tang Jingqing didn't have the slightest interest in her and her mother's affairs: "Sorry, I won't be next time, I'm a little tired, I'll go upstairs first, good night." ”

But it was the attitude of wanting to settle things and not caring at the end of the season that made Tang Jingqing unhappy, he sat here and worried for a night, and when he came back, the little woman sent him away with such a few painless words?

Because of Ji You's previous incident, when he didn't see Ji Mo's figure when he got home, his first reaction was that she had an accident again, and later the maid said that she received a call from Yao Qinyin that she was in an accident and was in a hurry to go to the hospital, so he gradually relaxed. But waited and waited, didn't wait for her to come back, and didn't have any phone from her, I didn't want to deceive myself and say that I couldn't worry about it, so I asked the driver to call her to see where she was going to send a car to pick her up, but the mobile phone was accidentally turned off, and immediately asked someone to check which hospital Yao Qinyin lived in and then let the driver pick it up

But he told him the news that he had missed, and now he really didn't know his whereabouts at the end of the season, which made Tang Jingqing uneasy. So seeing such an attitude at the end of the season, how could he not be angry?