Chapter 193: Can't let go
No, no, no, it's certainly not like that! ”
Qiao Wenhan screamed as he retreated, and then had a headache to death, unable to think at all. I haven't seen each other for many years, and the romantic reunion turned out to be this way of unfolding.
"I died, for you. Of course, I didn't die, hanging from a tree by the sea, only my coat floated down. In the end, he was found by fishermen and saved. ”
"You say, why am I making all this up to deceive you?"
"When you decided not to die with me for the sake of your heir qualifications, you should think about how to start over in the future."
Cai Mengyu smiled, but Qiao Wenhan was completely shocked by the unreality.
"I don't know, I don't know, I really don't know, I ...... I don't know. ”
Qiao Wenhan held his face in both hands, and the whole person shrunk into a ball, squeezed into Cai Mengyu's small sofa. Poor and miserable.
He couldn't forgive a cowardly self, couldn't admit it, but couldn't deny it. What position does Cai Mengyu have to slander him, he, a scumbag, may have died long ago in her heart.
"Do you know why I'm here today?"
"I don't know."
Qiao Wenhan no longer dared to look directly into Cai Mengyu's eyes, he also had memory confusion, the memory of his betrayal of Cai Mengyu was deleted by him on his own initiative, and it was replaced by another affectionate version for him to reminisce when he dreamed back at midnight, in order to cover up his cowardice and hypocrisy.
If this is the case, he will probably not be able to let go of it for the rest of his life, and he will not be able to forgive what he has done.
"Old man Qiao asked me to come, after I didn't die, I finally went to Europe, and no one told me, I was an orphan, which is more convenient. Life in Europe was particularly difficult, and if it weren't for Old Man Qiao's help, they might have died long ago. ”
The misunderstanding of my grandfather over the years was actually from the self-hypnosis of an unfilial son. Thinking of this, Qiao Wenhan's head hurt so much that it was about to explode.
"What about Morrowind, does he know the whole story?"
"Of course he knows, he has even cooperated with you for so many years, and he has been infamous for you to get out of the shadows smoothly. I fell in love with my sister-in-law, eloped with my sister-in-law, and finally forced my sister-in-law to jump off the cliff. And all this...... It's all because of you, my heir to the Jinqiao Group. ”
Cai Mengyu's coldness and indifference can freeze people to death.
Qiao Wenhan's illusions were completely shattered. His memory has been hit hard, and after restarting, in order to avoid remembering that fragment that was too self-reproachful, he actually tampered with it himself, and forced the whole family to live with him with wrong memories.
"I'm such a real asshole."
Qiao Wenhan's face drooped, and his hair was lifeless. Shapeless, messy and scattered.
"You are, but you still have a family that loves you, which I can't envy. I can understand that your grandfather is against us falling in love, but at the last moment, at the moment when you proposed to commit suicide together, you chose to live. I hated you so much, I hated you so much at that time, so I chose to jump without looking back. Even though I already know that you can't go to hell with me, I'm willing to die. ”
Cai Mengyu talks about the past so calmly, as if she is describing other people's experiences, not her own.
"My heart was dead at that time, so I swore that I would never see you again, and I would no longer have any contact with the Qiao family, and I didn't care if you were alive or not."
Su Chenfeng listened to every word, like a knife.
He was ashamed of what he had done, and he understood why he chose to take the initiative to tamper with this memory, because his hypocrisy would definitely make him embarrassed.
"Do you still hate me?"
Qiao Wenhan asked tentatively.
"Of course not, No, you see."
Cai Mengyu stretched out her left hand, and the wedding ring on her ring finger was so dazzling. She actually got married three years ago, and her husband is a university researcher, so he can talk about poetry and literature with her, and he can travel and chat with her.
"Are you, already, married?"
"Yes, I got married three years ago, I'm sorry, I didn't notify you."
Cai Mengyu seemed indifferent to Qiao Wenhan's attitude, her heart for Qiao Wenhan was all dead, in the cold wind and cold rain that day, in the cold bitter tears on the beach that day.
As long as he didn't die at that time, he decided to live a good life in the future.
"Then your husband, who is he......"
"You don't need to ask, he's just an ordinary person, with an ordinary appearance, an ordinary figure, an ordinary education, and even his salary and income. However, I especially like his ordinary. ”
The worst thing in the world is that the person he loved deeply chose to marry someone who was completely inferior to himself and spend the rest of his life together.
"And you, do you love him?"
Compared with the elation at the beginning, Qiao Wenhan's mood has fallen to the bottom.
"Of course, he's the two people I love the most in the world, and the other one, my son. I'm one and a half years old this year. ”
The successive shocking messages made Qiao Wenhan a little unbearable, he just fantasized about how to reunite with Cai Mengyu, how to confess again, how to have a candlelight dinner together, and how to continue the love in the past.
It's a pity that people are not as good as heaven. The results he had never thought of appeared, and they were so sudden. crushed all his dreams at once, and broke them open to show him.
"So, are you happy?"
Qiao Wenhan actually had no confidence in asking this question, because he knew what Cai Mengyu would definitely answer, and what he had already thought of.
"Of course, I am very happy, my husband has successfully obtained a green card, our whole family is now living in France, a small city with a good environment, compared to the life with you before, of course, it is poorer, but I think I am an orphan, born not suitable for glory and wealth, and the current life is more suitable for me."
"Did you suddenly appear this time to get revenge on me? I did such an excessive thing back then. ”
Qiao Wenhan's tone was weak, completely devoid of domineering and pampering.
"No, I'm here to save you. This is what Old Man Qiao meant, I just want to repay him a favor. I was too young and very ignorant, thinking that Mr. Qiao prevented us from falling in love, just because the door was not right, and the result was ...... It turned out that he was protecting me. Fortunately, by the time I knew, it wasn't too late. ”
Cai Mengyu stood up and poured herself a glass of water, and also poured a glass for Qiao Wenhan.
"I'm not thirsty, you drink."
Qiao Wenhan refused, he didn't have any sensory needs now, he didn't even need to breathe, and he didn't need to live.
"If needed, I can find Su Chenfeng, he can prove that everything I said today is true."
Cai Mengyu saw Qiao Wenhan's appearance, fortunately, the state is not too bad, so she accepts her unbearable self, maybe she can love and live better and more honestly in the future.
"You don't have to look for him, he's been having a bad time lately. I'm here today, actually, ......"
"Actually, you want to rebuild the old relationship with me?"
"Hahaha, I can guess, Old Man Qiao told me a lot, about you, I know how to resolve such symptoms. So I'm here today, even though I'm just passing through on a business trip, but I hope you'll be brave enough to come out of the memories of the past. ”
Cai Mengyu sat next to Qiao Wenhan, put her hand on Qiao Wenhan's hand, and sent a letter to his hand, which was cold.
"It's hard to admit your faults, and hopefully you'll be strong. I've heard that you've found a nice girl and hope she's lucky enough to get your true love, not like me. ”
Cai Mengyu's words made Qiao Wenhan feel that suddenly a lightning bolt split his head.
When I looked at my watch, it was already half past ten.
Today he made an appointment to see An Xiaoxi, but as soon as Cai Mengyu appeared, he forgot everything and couldn't remember it at all. remembered that An Xiaoxi had asked him again and again before, if Cai Mengyu appeared again, who would he choose.
He didn't answer at the time, replacing it with silence. An Xiaoxi was heartbroken, and finally collapsed in the family strife, becoming what she is today.
Qiao Wenhan suddenly rubbed his hair vigorously. Say aloud, "What kind of man am I?" What kind of man am I?!!! ”
Cai Mengyu watched calmly from the sidelines, thinking, can such a person really become mature? Can you really get strong from the memories of the past? It seems that the decision is still on Qiao Wenhan, or on the girl named An Xiaoxi.
"Say, am I still qualified to fall in love with anyone now?"
Qiao Wenhan was asking Cai Mengyu almost in a pleading tone. He had no idea who else he deserved to love. An Xiaoxi also had no way to forgive herself.
He really became a love outcast. Maybe the only one who can really accept him is the Anna who has pretended to be Cai Mengyu.
It's a pity that the only one died because of him.
He, who harmed people and hurt so many women, still carried out the banner of affection. Qiao Wenhan couldn't accept it, couldn't forgive himself like this. But what if you don't forgive? He is now the heir to the Jinqiao Group.
He also has to take on everything in the family business, and even the honor and disgrace of a family. His treachery, his hypocrisy and cowardice, were all for this family? He wasn't sure.
……
"Oops, I'm starving, this dead Qiao Wenhan is really unreliable, you don't send food here so late!"
An Xiaoxi was rolling around in the hospital bed with hunger, Qiao Wenhan was really a liar, and said that he would come to see her, but he didn't show up until the early hours of the morning. It's so disappointing.
"Qiao Wenhan, you big bastard! I hate you! ”