Xue Xinyan was depressed when she returned home, as if she was buried in her heart, and I wanted to talk to her, but she locked herself in the room and didn't say a word.

I wondered if the lady had told her something, otherwise she wouldn't have been in this negative state at all.

I didn't ask her, I just got dressed and walked downstairs.

I came to the park, there were many children running and flying kites in the park, parents following behind, happy and happy little faces, parents pampered and worried, for fear that the child would trip or fall and be injured.

In the middle of summer, the cement road of the park is dry and scorching, the roadside wildflowers compete for beauty, the butterflies in the flowers are dancing, bringing up bursts of fragrance, the forest is lush in the depths of the park, there is an artificially dug pond on the outside of the trees, the lotus flowers in the pond are dotted, a few swallows fly over, bring a wave of ripples, the sun shines down, the pond water is golden and bright, flashing with dazzling waves, three hundred meters away from the pond is a rockery, the wild vines on the rockery are long, a few roses crawl out in the gap of the rockery, lying there weakly.

I've never looked at this park so closely, I remember when I was in middle school, there was a large iron shelf stacked in this place all the year round, I don't know what it was used for, maybe I didn't have the opportunity to witness the changes in this place, or even the whole town, over the years.

I let go of my thoughts, woke up from a coma, more than a year of boredom have been released, I don't know how many memories this small city can bring to my life, whether it is good or bad, happy and happy, or sad and sad, all with the sunset of the park dissipated in the blue pond, deep into the water, completely forgotten, the former Wang Tao died, he died in that mudslide, he took away all the youth, golden years, you should not have any luxury now, you can only choose to accept fate or give up fate, Or maybe think of that long time as a dream that you can never wake up from.

I wandered aimlessly, the afterglow of the setting sun shone on the graceful willow strips, mottled broken shadows scattered in a small clearing under the tree, under the tree sat an old man with sunglasses, in front of him was placed a canvas, the canvas was pressed on a waterproof paper, the paper was painted with the heavenly stems and the earthly branches, the Qiankun gossip map, densely written with hexagrams, I passed by him, did not intend to stay.

As he was about to walk by, the old man said, "Does the young man have any problems?" ”

I was a little curious, was he talking to me, I looked left and right, this place is just me, it must be me.

I stood there, looked at him in amazement, and didn't speak.

The old man continued: "Young man, you are emotionally unstable, and you have a lot of things in your heart. ”

I wonder if this old man can see me, and if he can, why is he still wearing sunglasses.

I walked in and asked tentatively, "Can you see me?" ”

The old man laughed and said, "You are not transparent air, how can I not see it." ”

I was surprised and asked, "The sun has set, why are you still wearing sunglasses?" ”

After the old man took off his sunglasses, I looked at it in horror, his two eyes were completely sunken into the sockets, and I couldn't see the two eyeballs at all, I took a step back and asked a little incoherently, "You, how did you see me?" Besides, how do you know I'm a boy? Also, how do you know I'm preoccupied? ”

I asked him a lot of questions, and he smiled bitterly after hearing this, and said: "Young man, don't be impatient, I didn't mean to scare you, I'm over half a hundred years old, and I have read countless people, if I can't tell whether your footsteps are male or female, what am I still messing with here." ”

I became even more curious and asked, "Then how do you know that I have something on my mind?" ”

The old man made a fool of himself: "A thousand daughters seek a way, be good at marrying people who are destined, the master predicts the truth, never deceives, guides the lost, and plans for the destined people." ”

I saw that he had a great intention of calculating my future, so I lost interest, because I had never believed in evil since I was a child, and I was a typical representative of materialism, so I said to the old man: "Sir, thank you for seeing that I have something on my mind, but my mind has just been thrown into the pond in the park, so I have nothing to worry about now, you always walk slowly." ”

After speaking, I turned to leave, and the clear and hoarse voice of the old man who had just taken two steps sounded behind me: "The hustle and bustle of the red dust, the years are quiet, the young man must remember to be cautious in the future, and act in a low-key manner, so that everything will be fine." ”

I think this gentleman is inexplicable, no one will say such words, everyone will advise you to be cautious, low-key and keep a safe or something, I ignored him, and walked straight in the direction of home.

I bought some vegetables in the supermarket downstairs, and bought some meat, planning to go home to treat myself, it happened that Xue Xinyan didn't eat at home, and walked home after buying vegetables, and just downstairs, I saw the eye-catching Bentley parked there, I shivered unnaturally, why did this old witch come again.

I went upstairs and opened the door, and when I walked into the house, I heard the sound of stir-frying in the kitchen, I thought it was Xue Xinyan who was hungry and cooking, and when I walked in, I saw that there were all kinds of seafood treasures on the board, and the clams were fried in the pot, and the smell was fragrant, I looked down at the dishes in my hand, and simply stuffed them into the refrigerator.

When she saw me standing behind her, she turned around and bared her teeth and grinned, "Look at it, it's not your share." ”

When I heard this, I was furious, and I retorted: "I said this lady, what do you mean that you don't have my share, you trespassed into my house and used my kitchen, with my permission, do you know that your current behavior is a crime." ”

The noble lady turned around and pulled the pot a few times, then turned around and said, "Don't use that legal knowledge to coax me, I came to visit my daughter, and it is a matter of course to cook a meal for my daughter, do I still need your permission?" ”

I said without showing weakness: "Yo, look at what you said is the Tao, then let me ask you, whose house is this?" Who is this kitchen for? ”

She put the clams on the plate, sprinkled some coriander on them, and then turned to me and said, "Is your kitchen very expensive, okay, how much does the kitchen use for an hour, I will pay you, and you don't have to argue with me about some pointless things here." ”

I was so angry that I was about to lose my mind, and then Xue Xinyan came over and said, "You two will quarrel when you meet, can you be quiet for a while, I have made it clear that you don't always come here, why do you want to come." ”

The lady wiped her hands with an apron and said, "Xinyan, Mom just wants to cook you a meal, and you can also try Mom's craftsmanship." ”

After speaking, she glanced at me fiercely, and I greeted in my heart that there was no man in her ancestor.

Xue Xinyan said indifferently: "You don't have to do this, I have promised you, and I won't regret it." ”

I was shocked when I heard this, what thoughts did this old woman instill in Xinyan when she took her out all morning, and what did Xinyan promise her.

I looked at Xue Xinyan with a puzzled expression, she seemed to understand my doubts in my eyes, and said softly: "Xiaotao, you come in with me." ”

I couldn't understand anything, I couldn't say anything in front of the lady, so I thoughtfully followed Xue Xinyan to her bedroom.

After coming in, Xue Xinyan closed the door with her backhand, and after thinking for a moment, she said lightly: "Xiaotao, I can't stay here anymore, I want to go back to the south with her." ”

My mind was in turmoil, and I tried to figure out what she meant, and she continued: "She sometimes messes up and doesn't manage the company well, and I have a daughter under my knees, and I can't bear to see her so old and anxious to run the company every day, I want to help her." ”

I stared at her with my eyes, but my heart was mixed, seven up and eight down, could it be that the bad premonition before, is this it, I thought for a while and said: "Xinyan, I understand you, you and your mother have been reunited for so many years, it is a happy thing, I can't control your departure, but ......"

Xue Xinyan seemed to understand something, and she hurriedly added: "Xiao Tao, I'm not going alone, I want to take you with me, haven't you always wanted to go to the south, this time you go with me, we can still be together over there." ”

I understand Xue Xinyan, she is always thinking about others, and she can also understand my feelings, because we are already engaged, if there is no noble lady, it is likely that we will be able to get married this year, I didn't expect her to be born out of thin air and come to my house, but once she comes, she is safe, she always has to face, Xinyan has her own considerations and plans, of course I can't be selfish enough to keep and cry.

I took her hand, put it to my lips and kissed it, and said softly: "Xinyan, no matter where you go, I want you to be happy every day, but I can't go with you, I also have my own plans, you have your mother to take care of you over there, of course it's not appropriate for me to go, besides, I don't agree with your mother, you can't stand it when you meet, so..."

After Xue Xinyan heard this, she lowered her head and thought, I think her psychology is not good, she should have made a lot of determination to agree to the noble lady, after all, they have the blood of a family in their bodies, I am just a passerby in her life, maybe in a few years, she will completely forget about me.

Xue Xinyan raised her head and said to me solemnly, "Xiaotao, let's get married." ”

I looked at her in shock, she obviously realized that I was confused by what she had just said, and she added: "As long as we get married, she can't do anything to you, you are my husband, there is legal protection, even if she does everything to obstruct it, there is no way, because the wood is already in the boat, she has nothing to say." ”

I looked at her with a look of relief, touched her hair, and said softly: "Xinyan, I understand what you mean, I also want to marry you, I dream of it, but not now, at this juncture, we get married, not only can we not get your mother's blessing, even if we get married, she will not admit it." ”

Xue Xinyan hurriedly said: "Then what should I do, there are two choices now, one is to get married immediately and let her shut up, and the other is that you go with me, I will be at ease, I will not leave by myself and leave you here alone." ”

Her words touched me again, my nose was a little sour, I hugged her into my arms, and comforted: "Xinyan, you go with her first, give me two years, you also have two years to calm down, two years will pass soon, and now that information technology is so developed, can't you see WeChat videos." ”

After Xue Xinyan heard this, she sobbed in my arms, I hugged her tightly in distress, she sobbed and said: "You have to wait for me, you have to contact me every day, don't mess with flowers, otherwise let me know that I can't spare you, and I'm not allowed to go to that Qin Xiaolan." ”

I listened to her explain a lot, but my heart was warm, I gently pushed her away, her beautiful eyes were already full of tears, and her gorgeous red lips were still seductive, I lowered my head and kissed them tenderly.

That night was the last meal I had with Xue Xinyan in so many years, and it was also the most sad meal I ate, her mother had been busy serving her vegetables, telling her to pack her luggage after eating and leave tomorrow morning.

When Xue Xinyan left, she cried so much that she couldn't extricate herself, my heart felt like it was cut by a knife, the pain was unbearable, I sent her downstairs, she refused to get into the car, the lady kept persuading, dragging her, and then coaxed her into the car, she lowered the window, crying and said: "You must wait for me, you will marry me in two years, and I will not marry anyone except you." ”

I also rubbed my reddened eyes and said to her, "Don't worry, Xinyan, you have to take care of yourself over there, I'll send you a video." ”

I wanted to take her hand, the lady kicked the accelerator, and the car drove out of the community, I looked at the direction where the car disappeared, my world became black and white, all the memories of Xue Xinyan in my mind were rapidly flipping, from meeting, knowing, loving, and parting, every frame of the picture passed in front of me, I couldn't live without her, this girl who guarded me at the bedside for eight years, in the best youth, golden years, she was wasted on a vegetative person, I was sad.

That night, I bought a lot of wine, drank it myself at home, I opened Xue Xinyan's bedroom over and over again, I thought she hadn't left yet, and she could drink and chat with me, but it was an unrealistic dream, a voice in my heart told me that she was gone, and I screamed loudly "She didn't leave"

The voice said, "Wake up and recognize the reality, now that the people around you are gone, you are left alone, standing alone." ”

I pounded my head and shouted angrily, "It's a dream, everyone is in a dream, they haven't abandoned me." ”

The voice smiled gloomily: "You have been dreaming for too long, and now you are still living in a dream, how pitiful, pathetic, conceited. ”

I shook my head vigorously, covered my face with my hands, bit my lip tightly, and the hot liquid in my eyes couldn't stop flowing.

That night, I was like ten years old, my heart has become vicissitudes, I woke up in the morning, I used WeChat to book a ticket to the south, I don't know where I want to go, I only know that it is a coastal city, I know that I can't stay in this small city anymore, then I will really collapse, I will really fall into the darkness and can't extricate myself.

I bought a ticket for the afternoon, so I had time to pack my luggage in the morning, but there was nothing to pack, nothing more than a few single clothes, some toiletries, and some documents.

At noon, I made myself a meal, and after eating a full meal, I glanced at the time, half past one, half past two trains, and there was still an hour, I cleaned up the house again, and when I cleaned up to Xue Xinyan's bedroom, I stood there, in a trance, and my thoughts were blank.

I didn't tell my parents about going to the south, and they would definitely not agree to it when they found out, so I just cut it off first.

I took a taxi to the train station, there were not many people at the station, I glanced at the time, there was still half an hour, I bought a bottle of mineral water, just took a sip, the loudspeaker in the waiting hall broadcast: "The train to ××× will depart soon, please go to the ticket gate to check your ticket immediately." ”

I hurriedly carried my luggage to the ticket gate, the ticket inspector was busy with a pen to draw the ticket, I found the carriage and sat down, put the luggage on the luggage rack, my luggage was not much, it was easy to put it on the shelf, and I was sitting with a middle-aged man about 40 years old.

He has a lot of luggage, big bags and small bags, he is very small, I help him stuff the luggage into the shelf, he is very honest, give me a boiled corn, and say: "This is my daughter-in-law's newly cooked, my own home-grown bud rice, especially fragrant, young man, you taste." ”

I also nibbled on it unceremoniously, the taste is indeed very sweet, and then chatted and learned that this fellow went to the south to work, he worked as a bricklayer in an engineering team, and followed the boss's project, that is, where the contractor contracted the work, he followed the bricklayer wherever he went, and the number of times he went home in a year was limited, and he could come back at most three times, and when he came back to see his daughter-in-law and children, he had to go back in a hurry.

I saw that he had calloused hands and feet, and his face was full of wrinkles, reflecting the vicissitudes of age that were not suitable for him.

I really regret why I didn't download novels or TV series on my phone in advance, I really had nothing to do along the way, most of the people in the carriage were holding their mobile phones to watch, only I was at a loss to look around.

I didn't know when I fell asleep in a daze, I dreamed of Xue Xinyan, she stood on a podium with a confident face, there were thousands of people under the stage, she spoke generously, spoke passionately, I stood under the stage, looked at her proudly, completely infected by her demeanor, someone suddenly pushed me around, I turned around to check, and found that thousands of people in the audience suddenly evaporated like the world, disappeared without a trace, I was terrified, and then looked at Xue Xinyan on the stage, she also disappeared.

Someone next to me pushed me again, I turned around in a little panic, there was still no one, I was frightened, I ran away, but no matter how I ran, I was standing still, I was in a cold sweat, the hand that pushed me just now has now turned into a slap, I woke up suddenly.

It turned out to be the eldest brother who was sitting together, who was patting me and said anxiously: "Young man, why did you sleep so deeply, I told you not to wake up for a long time, and you arrived at the station." ”

After I listened, I quickly looked out the window, it was dark outside, I looked at my watch, at 3:10 in the morning, I thought to myself, have I been in the car for so long, it's already early in the morning, no wonder I slept so deeply, I took off my luggage, and the eldest brother who was sitting with me still had two stops to arrive, so I said goodbye to him in a hurry.

I stood on the platform, the heat of the place was unbearable, I took off my coat, took it in my hand, and looked at this strange city, and thus began my trip to a foreign place.