He froze, holding this position motionless. The breath from my nose and lips wafted across my neck, and I felt a burst of burning fire quickly sweep from the place where he bit to the base of my ear, burning my cheek. I subconsciously shrank away from his lips and teeth, and I couldn't tell what was going on, but I kept shaking so hard that I couldn't hold it down.

He seemed to finally react to what I just said, and held up his arms to keep some distance from me, but he still didn't mean to move away, so he surrounded me in the middle of his arms, and changed the topic when he lowered his head and spoke: "Sushu Shenzun, you asked me why I chased out last night." ”

“…… Well. "I tilted my head sideways, not daring to look at him.

He hesitated for a moment, then his fingers reached into the hair behind my ear, his palm pressed against my cheek, and he turned my face so that I had to look at him, and his pany-colored eyes were fixed on mine. It was in this look of staring at each other that he whispered, "If I say...... What am I willing to do? ”

"Huh?" I was stunned, feeling that his words didn't match the words, "What would you like?" ”

He was stunned and glared at me.

"How...... What's wrong? ”

He frowned, and a thin anger appeared on his face: "Didn't you forget? ”

This god was at a loss, and Mu Mu said: "I forgot something......"

His fingers behind my ears suddenly tightened, and my face was turned back by him, my cheek was only against the mattress, and my neck was exposed again because of this movement, and before I could react, I saw him suddenly bow his head and bite hard at the skin and flesh above his neck.

I couldn't hold back, and with a "hiss", I gritted my teeth and gasped. Ben Shenzun couldn't figure out his brain circuits at all: "I said Meng Ze...... Why are you biting me? ”

"Does it hurt?"

I struggled to get away, and I thought he was very frightened today: "Why don't I bite you?" ”

With another force of his fingertips, he clasped my neck again, and when he looked up, he smiled a little desolate and helpless: "Sushu Shenzun, you really talked nonsense about me last night." ”

"I've been talking a lot of nonsense lately, can you explain which one it is......"

He looked at me with a grim expression, "You asked me last night if I wanted to marry you, and you said that if I was willing to marry you, you would marry me." ”

I was shocked, "Huh? ”

"I chased you out last night to ask you what if I said I would." As he spoke, his eyes dimmed, "But now it seems that what you said last night was really a joke." ”

"You're kidding me, aren't you? You thought I was joking last night, too? I finally relented and sighed, "You think I'm not serious and I'm lying to you, so you said no last night?" ”

"Hmm." He nodded, and asked again, "What if I want to now, what did you say last night?" ”

My brain twitched: "Are you confessing to the same god now?" ”

The immortal who leaned over to look at me with his arms propped up and said softly, "Yes." ”

If I had left it last night and looked at his serious appearance now, my brain would have been hot and I would have agreed, and I would have hit it off with him and hoped that we would be able to marry the next day. But now, he said that he was confessing to me, but I suddenly remembered a big event, which I and he had, that is, Liangyu and Nie Su.

I know the weight of Nie Su in my heart, and I'm afraid I can't forget him in this life. But I clearly know that I can't treat him as all in this life, the immortal who was attached to Uncle Yin Baihuang in the mortal world once told me: "The illusory things that emerge in my heart, although they are the mirror image of the water and the moon, cannot be shaped, but life and death are in my heart." If you think that this person you have in your heart is still there, then he can still accompany you for three lifetimes. ”

But what I've always thought about is that I don't want to live forever in my heart Nie Su, I want a living him.

And I knew it couldn't be.

As I thought last night, I won't forget Nie Su, and I haven't been sorry for Nie Su. But I wish there was a god who could be my companion, someone to accompany me when I was drinking, someone to comfort me when I was sad.

That's why I added a sentence last night, "Feelings and the like can be deepened in the future".

This is what I think about Nie Su and Meng Ze.

But I don't know what kind of feelings Meng Ze has for me, and I don't know what position he puts Liangyu in his heart.

We all had sweethearts who cared about us, so some things must be clarified and said in advance, so that we can live together in the future so as not to cross into each other's thunder pool.

Seeing that I didn't answer for a long time, he lowered his voice and said, "What are you thinking?" ”

After a little consideration, I asked directly, "You once loved Liangyu, and you haven't forgotten her for decades, right?" Seeing that his expression changed slightly, I said again, "A few days ago, we were drinking on the top of the Muhua Building in the mortal world, and then you got drunk and unintentionally walked to the Star Picking Pavilion, you said that you can never forgive yourself, do you remember?" ”

Behind my ears, his fingers, buried in my hair, quivered, and I could feel them clearly.

I slipped out between his arms and was about to stand up, but he grabbed my wrist again and whispered, "Don't go." ”

I touched the part of my neck and smiled, "I'm not leaving, I'm just afraid that if you continue to maintain this position, if you don't like what I say, you will come and bite me." But he still didn't let go.

I had no choice but to sit on the edge of the bed, and when I stood upright, I felt the pain on my body very clearly, I looked up at him, and I didn't think about covering up Nie Su's matter, "Meng Ze, if you don't know how to answer Liangyu's matter. The deity will first talk about what he has experienced. Seeing that he had been standing, he said, "You sit down first, and look at me condescendingly like this, which makes me a little nervous." ”

He let go, leaned over and lit the candle in the white jade lampshade next to him, sat back on the chair on the edge of the bed, and said lightly: "You say." ”

The light of the candle flame jumping up warmed half of the wall in a trance, and it also made my voice a little shaky, after 140,000 years, I returned to this god realm, this is the first time I have talked about my feelings for Nie Su with an immortal: "As you know, I have been asleep for 140,000 years, and I have been awakened and returned for less than half a year. This dream is too long, too long, and coming back is no longer something that can be described by a simple sentence of 'things are people'. 140,000 years ago, I also had a favorite immortal, I don't know if you have heard of it, this immortal is the god who was personally enshrined by the emperor's grandfather - Lord Nie Su. ”

He shook his head, unable to see any other emotion, just responded lightly: "I really don't know." ”

"Well, I was only 40,000 years old when he died, and you weren't born yet." I lowered my head and picked at my fingers, and continued, "Actually, I was raised by him, and before I was 30,000 years old, I was not a god, and I was always with him. So probably for this reason, after I consciously had an idea, I liked him very much. ”

He ...... Does he like you? ”

I shook my head and smiled, "Even I don't know about this question, maybe I like it or not." He didn't tell me explicitly when he was dying, which is a regret to this day. ”

I thought that I would have to talk about the matter with Nie Su for a long, long time, but now that I have settled here in "This is my regret so far", I feel that it is the end. The past is really irrevocable, those entanglements that I once thought were difficult to say a thousand words will finally be regretted, and the rest will be sealed in my heart forever and can no longer be said.

There was a slight smile in his eyes when he looked at me, probably sympathetic or distressed, "Is Sushu Shenzun finished?" ”

I was in a trance for a while, and felt that there was always something else when he called out the Sushu Shenzun, not because he deliberately kept his distance at that time, but because of his respect for me after listening to my past.

"When that's all said and done, there may be one more thing, if you don't mind, I'll mention it." I said, "Although Nie Su and I have lived together for 30,000 years, he and I have never crossed the ......."

He interrupted me and looked serious: "You don't need to mention it. I don't mind what happened in the past. He lowered his eyes and said, "I'm not a good fairy either." As you probably already know, I've married many ladies. Speaking of this, he smiled, "You didn't know that I was Meng Ze, do you remember how often you scolded me for being a bastard back then?" I was probably curious at the time, thinking that scolding people and bastards should be done behind the scenes, why did you deliberately say it to me every time. ”

I raised my hand to cover my face, but the embarrassment couldn't stop it, "This incident is ...... Just forget about it. ”

He took my hand off my face, moved a little closer, and stared at me in the eye, so that I had to look at him. It seems that only in this way can the words spoken be taken seriously, "Sushu Shenzun, next, I will tell you about Ayu." ”

"You say."

"Maybe you know something from Chang Jue or Jing Chen," he leaned over to me, stroking the hair hanging down from his forehead for me, "but I also hope you can listen to me once." I liked her so much that I almost got her back. But that's when I learned that she had put all her affection on Changjue. At that time, and even for tens of thousands of years later, I was a cruel and irascible fairy, and I hurt her. But I also know that her heart is not with me, and I also know that I can't take care of her compared to Changjue. If you want to ask me what kind of feelings I have for Ayu now, it is that she has a place in my heart, and the guilt for her makes me dare not like her anymore. ”

"Well, I know, I also have a place for Nie Su in my heart. You and I may be similar in many ways. I said.

"As for the other ladies, I was doing ridiculous things. Later, they were sent away, and there is one thing that I will mention, if you mind. That is, I have kissed Wen'er, but I have never ...... to Ayu or other ladies."

"You don't need to mention it," I felt relaxed and couldn't help laughing, "No wonder I didn't find the twenty or thirty ladies that Yun Yan said when I first came to Xuanluo Palace, and it turned out that they asked you to send them away." It's a pity. ”

He leaned over a few more moments, his face resting less than an inch away from me, his fingers digging into the hair behind my ear, gently clasping his neck, and his voice low enough that only me and he could hear: "There is one more thing I want to mention. What kind of emotions does Sushu Shenzun have for me? ”