Since Qin Lao entered the operating room, several people were more anxious outside, but they were unusually calm.

Qi Haoting finally couldn't sit still, walked up to Yan Yuan, lowered his head and looked at him and said, "Let's talk."

When Yan Yuan heard this, he recovered from his self-blame, he also had thousands of questions to ask him, the light in the operating room was still on, he nodded and stood up.

Guan Guan was silent, she saw the eye contact between the two men clearly, and knew that some words should be said clearly, so she didn't bother them, and sat alone in her seat and waited.

The two walked to the rest room of the hospital, Yan Yuan stood by the window, looking at the scenery outside, thinking that when he finally saw Xing Fei again, she looked out the window quietly.

How was she feeling at that time? Sad, lonely, or resentful?

With his hand in his pocket, he didn't touch the cigarette, and then he remembered that he had quit, and when he missed her in those years, he would subconsciously look for cigarettes, wanting to use nicotine to numb his own nerves.

"She married you of her own free will?" Qi Haoting stood not far from him, looked at his back and asked.

Yan Yuan turned his head and pondered the answer to his question.

She had said that she would never marry him, and that she should not have done so voluntarily.

"It's not." He said lightly, with a wry smile.

This answer surprised Qi Haoting and was not surprised, in his opinion, Xing Fei had loved Yan Yuan for so many years, and she was unwilling to get married, but according to her stubborn nature, her unwillingness seemed reasonable.

"Do you know I don't like you?" He continued.

Yan Yuan replied: "I'm the same as you."

"How can it be the same, we are in different circumstances and play different roles." Qi Haoting said slowly, his current serious and sad appearance has completely lost his previous romantic posture.

"You said you helped that woman, right?" Yan Yuan looked downstairs, Qi Haoting looked at him in some surprise, he was too calm, and the calm words didn't seem to come out of his mouth.

"You know? You can tell Xing Fei directly, wouldn't it be more desirable for you to be exposed. ”

Yan Yuan shook his head slightly, "Even if I tell her, she won't appreciate it, in fact, you know, how much I hope she can accept me like you." ”

Hearing this, Qi Haoting's face changed slightly, "Yan Yuan, you just don't know how to cherish it now, over the years, I have watched her become stronger, and her love for you is beyond my reach." ”

What does this phrase mean? Yan Yuan really looked at him at this time.

"I don't know exactly what she did before, but it hurt her a little fatally, and as you can imagine, we met because she snatched a burger from me."

Yan Yuan listened carefully, he never knew this, and he was most curious, Xing Fei's situation had reached that level.

"When she was an intern reporter, she ran around day and night, just to be able to turn positive, and never saw the day when she slacked off, she was like an alarm clock in her bones, reminding her to rush forward at any time."

"She didn't want to talk to me too much, she seemed to be very reluctant to communicate with people, it took me a lot of effort to make her willing to open up to me, and the name Yan Yuan she mentioned the most was Yan Yuan."

"When you come back, I think my efforts over the years have turned to ashes, she loves you, she has always loved you, from the moment she knew that you came back, she was even willing to give up the place she had worked hard for many years in order to get close to you, and be a broken reporter in your company!"

Qi Haoting's eyes fluctuated when he said this, and he followed the words to recall everything he and Xing Fei had.

It was in this retrospect that he found that everything was really like a dream, ethereal and illusory, and in the end, he was still the outsider.

Yan Yuan didn't make a sound for a long time, and before he could react from it, a huge shock hit his heart, and every word of Qi Haoting seemed to shatter him.

Xing Fei loves him like that, but what has he done?!

He told her to quit her job, ruining her dream of being a journalist, and she lost her job and became a vagrant.

Intensified her work, which caused her to be injured multiple times, leaving her already scarred body even weaker.

She was ridiculed and attacked by everyone because of herself, and he had no ability to protect her!

Damn, he really damn it, he did so much damage to her.

Since they met, he has not made Xing Fei happy, seeing that she is becoming more and more sad, and her bad attitude towards herself is caused by him.

He fell into deep remorse, he owed Xing Fei too much, where was the pain she experienced less than herself?

Qi Haoting put down the phone here and looked at Yan Yuan, who was frowning, "The operation is over, we can go back." ”

When they went back, Xing Fei had already been transferred to the intensive care unit, and Qin Lao came out after changing his clothes, looking at Yan Yuan's expression that also became heavy.

"I have something to tell you." Elder Qin called Yan Yuan alone.

Yan Yuan felt bad and listened nervously.

"Her leg has undergone many surgeries, which a girl can bear, her bones are now very fragile, and she can't make any more mistakes, otherwise, I'm afraid she will be disabled."

Qin Lao has no one in the medical community who does not admire him, Yan Yuan did not question what he said, and what he said now is probably already a reduction in severity.

He won't let Xing Fei get hurt again, and he won't allow himself to make mistakes again, "Okay, I'll pay attention." ”

Sending Qin Lao away, Yan Yuan came to the window of the intensive care unit, Xing Fei closed his eyes quietly, if he removed the miscellaneous wire tubes and limbs tied with thick gauze around him, he really breathed evenly as if he was asleep.

He covered his heart, and the moment he saw Xing Fei, he knew what he had been obsessed with all these years.

He originally hated Xing Fei for being better off than himself, but she was laughing and laughing with other men after all the pain he had experienced.

But now he understands that Xing Fei's peace is his most sincere wish.

He put his hand on the glass window and stroked her cheek from a distance, his eyes full of affection and pain.

In the endless night, Xing Fei stood in the dark in confusion, there was no light around her, she couldn't see the direction clearly, and her sense of fear increased.

Where is this? How could she be here, is this the only way to go after death?

Suddenly, a light flashed in front of her, like a door opened, guiding her forward.

"Let's go, you shouldn't be here." A voice rang in her ears, and she looked around vigilantly, but it was still silent.

"Who are you?" She asked, echoing endlessly.

No one responded, making her suspect that what she had just said was just her own hallucination.

The light was too strong, shining with a golden light, and she lifted her foot and walked slowly over.

As soon as she stepped in, she felt a huge suction, opened her eyes violently, and gasped.

With only the sound of a heart rate monitor in her ears, she returned to her mind and realized that she was in the hospital.

She felt imprisoned and unable to move, and pain took over her entire body and mind.

Every cell was aching, hot, as if countless bugs were gnawing at her bones.

She wanted to catch and drive the worms out, but all over her body, only her eyeballs could move freely.

Breathing is also heavy, relying on the oxygen mask on the face to breathe.

"Click", the door opened with a small sound, and Xing Fei stared in that direction until the nurse walked into her line of sight.

I don't know what the nurse looked at, and then she said softly, "Can you hear me?" I wink when I can. ”

Xing Fei blinked obediently.

"Can you see me? Blink as well. ”

Xing Fei blinked again.

The nurse nodded, took note of the paperwork in hand, and withdrew.

Xing Fei wanted to stop her, but she couldn't make a sound.

I don't know how long it took, there was another knock on the door, and Xing Fei immediately looked over.

Guan Guan walked in wearing an antibacterial suit, and when he saw Xing Fei crying again, he forcibly suppressed his tears.

Xing Fei wanted to smile at her and comfort her, but she couldn't.

"Feifei, you must get better, we are all waiting for you." Guan Guan's voice was crying, "By the way, Yan Yuan is also here, he came early in the morning." ”

When Xing Fei heard this, her heart was full of bitterness, he would come, he would take care of everything, and he would have spare time to care about her life or death.

"Do you want to see him? I can let him in. ”

Xing Fei used her best strength to shake her head slightly, she didn't want to see him, at this time, she didn't want to find guilt.

Guan Guan was still talking to her warmly, Xing Fei kept listening, but her eyelids gradually sank, and her consciousness began to drift again.

The nurse came in, "She needs plenty of rest, she'd better get out now." ”

Guan Guan glanced at Xing Fei worriedly, and finally walked out nostalgically.

Xing Fei fell asleep again, she dreamed in a dream that she and Yan Yuan were divorced, at the moment she left the Civil Affairs Bureau, she was never more relaxed, she left the city, went to Shanghai, entered the best company as a reporter, and with certain rights, she cleared her father's crime, and the two of them spent the rest of their lives together.

In this dream, she was extremely stable, without sadness, and without fleeing from Tibet.

But everything is a dream, and when she wakes up, she is still suppressed by reality.

If the dream is reality, then everything she is suffering now will be a dream, and she wants to return to that beautiful and carefree world completely.

Sleep, just sleep like this, there's nothing to be nostalgic about.

"The patient is in a very bad condition right now, she seems to be running away, and she still doesn't want to wake up." Yan Yuan invited the top doctor to come over.

Yan Yuan's face sank as he listened, he knew what Xing Fei was running away from, I was afraid he was running away from him.

"Let me in, I'll wake her up." Qi Haoting volunteered to step forward.

Although Yan Yuan didn't want to agree, he knew that there was no way, and now he was nothing.

Qi Haoting entered the intensive care unit, and Xing Fei closed her eyes tightly and kept sleeping.

"Xing Fei." He whispered.

"Are you really going to sleep like this? I don't agree, you still owe me a lot of money and favors. ”

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