Xie Yinan's tone of voice was as weak as ever, with a bit of fragility, not deep or shallow poking at the softest place in Tang Jingqing's heart.

"I've been busy lately, so I don't have time to come and see you, so don't think about it." Tang Jingqing caressed her cheek.

Knowing how strong a character she is, remembering that she was far less capable than she is now when she was a child, she often followed him and Jing Lin and whispered "Jingqing" and "Jingqing".

"How can I blame you, I know you're busy, but in the past few days, I miss you very much."

"Sleep, I'll be here with you."

"Stay with me nowhere to go?"

"Yes."

"Stay here with me all night?"

"Yes."

"Well, you can't lie to me."

"Yes."

"I'll hold your hand and sleep all night."

"Well, sleep, I'm here."

Xie Yinan quietly closed his eyes with a satisfied smile, Tang Jingqing turned off the lights in the ward, and the figures of two people could be faintly seen in the dark space.

"Jingqing, what do you think would be if we were still together?"

"It's me who I'm sorry for you."

Regarding this question, Xie Yinan has asked many times, but Tang Jingqing can't answer it every time, "if" is meaningful, then people in the world will not have regrets.

"Do you remember when you were in high school? Your grades are very good, you were admitted to the best high school in Shenyang City, and I can only study in a general high school, obviously the school is 5 kilometers away, you insist on picking me up and going to school almost every day. ”

"Your school is far away, of course Aunt Xie will worry about you."

"Yes, if it weren't for my mom, maybe you wouldn't have insisted on sending me so hard, but I'm still happy. By the way, Jingqing, do you remember the time when you came to pick me up one year during the rainstorm in Shenyang City? ”

"The one that had a flat tire? I remember that it was raining so hard that I couldn't find the place where the car was repaired, so I pushed the car back. ”

In those difficult but humble days, there are too many memories that belong to the two of them.

"yes, I was thinking that I would have to buy a very expensive bike that wouldn't break down in the future."

"Yinan, you don't have to work so hard." After experiencing real poverty, Tang Jingqing naturally knew why Xie Yinan was so desperate that he was admitted to the hospital.

"When the hell did I start working so hard? Probably from the moment you started studying in the United States. ”

"Xiao Nan ......"

"I didn't send you the day you went to the United States."

"Because you said you had an exam that day?"

"I lied to you, in fact, I didn't dare to send you, I was afraid that I would say something to stay on impulse, so I could only wait for the take-off time on the bench outside the airport secretly, and after you left, my life suddenly lost its focus. Thinking that you are working hard in the wider world, how can you be worthy of you if you don't work hard? That's why I've worked so hard. ”

"Thank you. But, Xiao Nan, I'm not worth your effort. ”

"It was for you in the past, but now it is for yourself."

"I can feed you if you need it." is not a lover, and if he can't be a husband and wife, he will also treat her as a relative.

"Aunt Hua also said that you would raise me, but why do you raise me?"

"Yinan, we are family, and we have always been like this."

"But I don't want to be your family, I want you!" Xie Yinan, who was completely out of control, sat up from the bed, and only saw her eyes shining with tears in the dark.

"Jingqing, are we good together, even if I don't have a name, I want to be with you."

What a humble request for a woman. Xie Yinan threw herself into Tang Jingqing's arms, looking for his lips.

There has never been any substantive relationship between them, which has always been the reason why she can't feel at ease, and she regrets that in order to maintain her image in Tang Jingqing's heart, she never did anything beyond the bounds, and the too pure feelings in the past have become the shackles of the distance between them.

"No, Yinan, you're fine, so I can't wronged you."

"It's okay Jingqing, it's okay."

"Don't think about it, close your eyes, you need to get a good night's sleep now, and I will be by your side."

Xie Yinan knew that he couldn't be too anxious now, so he followed his words and closed his eyes, but he never let go of the hand holding him.

Tang Jingqing looked at Yi Nan who had fallen asleep, and his mood was very complicated. He didn't have much emotional experience, and he was even less pitiful about love, but he was really moved by Xie Yinan when he was still ignorant and didn't know what it was.

In the second year of his study in the United States that year, Tang Jingqing, who was funded by well-wishers, did not have much capital to let him fly back and forth between China and the United States, and a person would naturally have lonely times abroad, but of course he was a man, of course, he could not be hypocritical and put his words on his lips all day long, and his time was spent on studying, thinking about succeeding quickly, returning to China soon, and creating better living conditions for his family.

Knowing that in order to come to the United States to see him once, she worked for a whole year and washed hundreds of bowls to get a round-trip ticket, how could Tang Jingqing not be moved?

After being together is just a natural result of obedience to the heart, the long-distance transnational love lasted for 3 years, when he returned to Shenyang, he was found by the Tang family to inherit the identity of the prince of the Tang family, and he was in love for 2 years and had plans to get married, in fact, at the age of 25, he did not have a strong idea of marriage, but at that time Xie Yinan already wanted to marry, thinking that she would accompany him when it was the most difficult, if he didn't plan to spend more time on love in the future, if he finally married her, there was not much difference between marrying at the age of 25 or marrying at the age of 35, So he allowed her to be careful, but unfortunately he didn't expect that his grandfather was so dissatisfied with the marriage that the proud Xie Yinan couldn't accept the Tang family's concept of the family, and took the opportunity of the TV station to go out for training and chose to "break up" and leave to put pressure on Tang Jingqing, but instead gave the opportunity to intervene at the end of the season, which made her not hate, so Xie Yinan could only use Tang Jingqing's sense of responsibility, and sure enough, Tang Jingqing liked Xie Yinan's set very much

Knowing that his married status is not suitable for getting too close to her anymore, but every time he looks at her sad expression, he will arouse his guilt.

is like Ji Shuyun back then, because he was sorry that his other daughter couldn't give her a righteous and bright identity, ignoring Ji Mo and snubbing Ji Mo became a way to alleviate his guilt; Tang Jingqing is the same, because he hurt Xie Yinan, he can't promise her any future, so ignoring the end of the season and snubbing the end of the season is the biggest compensation for Xie Yinan.

It's just that he doesn't want to believe that the memories of his first love have become more and more blurred in the long river of time, and even the previously mentioned bicycle he has almost forgotten what it looks like, and perhaps the most untested thing is the human heart.

At this time, Tang Jingqing felt the mobile phone vibrate, and took it out to see that it was sent at the end of the season; /p>

"Jingqing, are you still busy in the company?"

Rubbing the keyboard with the finger of the reply, how to reply?

Married for more than two years, he has long been accustomed to putting Xie Yinan before the end of the season, accompanying her to eat, go shopping, and help her in her career, Tang Jingqing has always felt that it should be taken for granted, but at this time, when he took Xie Yinan's hand and accompanied her bedside, he suddenly felt a sense of guilt.

"Yes, I'm busy."

The screen was pressed and clicked on many times, and finally three ambiguous words were returned to her.

Busy, right? It's just not in the company.

Since the winter solstice that day, Tang Jingqing clearly saw the stubbornness at the end of the season.

Recalling that in the two years since Jing Lin's accident, she has never said anything that doubted Yunsheng once, and has always believed him unconditionally.

Yun Sheng is just her cousin, if she were an ordinary person, she might have lost Yun Sheng a long time ago, even if she wanted to make Zhao Yonghua happy, she would push Yun Sheng to the front against her will, but Ji Mo had never done this once, she knew how bad the environment she lived in, and she never even thought about betraying Yun Sheng.

Not only that, but he also sent Yun Sheng to the best hospital for nursing care, and carried all the attacks towards Yun Sheng in a vegetative state alone.

At the end of such a season, is it really Tang Jingqing's personality and weak person?

Maybe even he didn't find out about it, I don't know when, he thought about the end of the season more and more often, but it wasn't until the end that he decided that she was the oxygen he relied on for survival, and he always thought that his sense of existence was very low, and he always felt that it was dispensable, so that one day when he was completely lost, he really realized what it meant to miss and breathe.

He perfunctory the end of the season with a white and lying text message, thinking that everything was fine, but he didn't know that there was a woman standing silently at the bottom of the building where Xie Yinan was in the ward, looking up at a room that had already turned off the lights and couldn't leave for a long time.

In the evening, she received an unknown text message, telling him that Tang Jingqing was in Xie Yinan's ward, and Ji Mo was no longer interested in these, where did he accompany Xie Yinan?

But today I couldn't help but run to the hospital, even she didn't know what kind of truth she wanted to see, when her little cooper parked and walked around the parking lot and saw Tang Jingqing's Maybach, nakedly laughing at her ignorance, just don't you know? Wouldn't it be nice if you didn't see it?

Every time she endured in the past, she hypnotized herself over and over again, and it turned out that the impact when she really saw it was indeed something she couldn't bear.

If in this marriage, her love is destined to be less than that of a long-term companion, and her love is destined to be a one-man show, do you at least give yourself a chance to choose to leave?

How long did you stand downstairs at the end of the season that night and how did you leave? I couldn't remember it in a daze, and when I returned to the empty freshwater villa alone, I found that my heart had become even emptier.

"Jingle Bell, it's just the two of us today."

"I'm sorry, I left you alone at home in front of me, and I won't be able to do it in the future."

He returned, and half an hour after she returned to the Tamsui Villa, she had expected to be overjoyed by his return...... I didn't feel anything.