Chapter 36: The Pain of Losing a Mother
Luo Ying's tomb is placed on the highest point on the top of the mountain, where you can best look up at the night starry sky.
Cao Ran stood at the door of Zhu Xuan's room with a bowl of noodle soup in his hand, he had locked himself in his room for three whole days, not eating, drinking, or speaking.
She stood in front of the door for a long time, her snow-white face solidified, until the lights were on in the other rooms, and his room was still dark. Cao Ran turned in the direction of the kitchen, she had tried all the words of comfort and persuasion, if it weren't for the guard in front of the door who was desperately blocking him, she would have thought about splitting the door and pulling him out so that the scorching sun could get rid of the mildew on him.
"Stop." His voice came from the room.
Cao Ran paused to make sure he had heard correctly, and turned around to stand at the door, the room was still dark, and he couldn't see him clearly. Because he hadn't spoken for too long, his voice was hoarse: "Accompany me to the mountains." His tone could not be denied.
The moon was very large, and it thoroughly illuminated the path in the mountains and forests, and he walked slowly all the way, and she didn't dare to speak first. For three days, through a door, she persuaded him, comforted him, enlightened him, encouraged him, and finally scolded him, insulted him, and stimulated him.
"Why don't you speak, aren't you quite able to talk these days?" He squinted at Cao Ran beside him.
She sneered, "You...... You're not going to be angry, are you? I was hot-headed and said a lot of irritating things, and now I really regret it.
He chuckled: "I know that I will be angry and dare to scold so hard, do you know that I will be very faceless in front of my subordinates." ”
"Why, hehe, you must have heard it wrong. I've been comforting and encouraging you. She laughed dryly twice, embarrassed to hide her weakness.
He didn't get angry, raised the corners of his mouth and chuckled, "Thank you for telling me so much, although I don't remember most of them, but the effect is not bad." ”
Cao Ran looked at him in the moonlight, "I'm a little uncomfortable with you talking so seriously." ”
Zhu Xuan raised his eyebrows slightly, glared at her, turned his head to look straight ahead, and quickened his pace: "I remember what you scolded me, if you dare to be presumptuous to me in front of others next time, I will cut off your tongue." ”
Cao Ran, who was left behind in a few steps, blinked his round eyes and muttered in a low voice: "I know that he loves to hold grudges!" ”
Arriving at the top of the mountain, the moon and stars are scarce, and Luo Ying's body lies under the inconspicuous earthen bag, they stand in front of Luo Ying's grave, and Zhu Xuan brushes away a few leaves that have fallen on the stone stele.
He looked up at the bright full moon and said in a deep voice: "Mother likes full moon nights the most, and she said that it was on such a night that she met her drunken father, and they fell in love at first sight. As soon as her father saw her, he said that she was a fairy in the sky, and he said that only a fairy would still be fairy without any embellishment. He looked at Cao Ran, his eyes were hazy, "She shouldn't be in love with him." ”
At the age of twelve, Zhu Xuan was sent to Yuqing Mountain to worship his colleagues as a teacher, although he was a prince, he was no different from others if he was not valued by the royal family. At the age of fifteen, he passed the teacher's examination and was allowed to go down the mountain for four months a year to go down to the mountain, and he was able to find his mother. When he was sixteen years old, he came to the Jade Yin Temple by chance, and recognized the young and beautiful woman with very different silver hair at a glance, and he confirmed that she was the mother he was looking for.
In the next four years, as long as he could go down the mountain, he would most likely come to Yuyin Temple to accompany his mother. No one in the Imperial City cared about his whereabouts, he was just an inconspicuous child who was thrown out by the Emperor in disgust.
At the age of eighteen, he finally opened a palace, as the last prince to open a palace, he never received the support of powerful ministers in the court, and for the next two years he spent all his energy planning one thing---- assassinating Empress Xiuwen. All of his cronies were born in the rivers and lakes, and even his soldiers were never trusted by him. Even with such caution, the assassination arranged on the way out of the palace to pray for heaven by the queen still failed, he underestimated the power around the queen too much, and none of the dead soldiers he brought with him survived.
Cao Ran stood beside him, and the forest was a little clammy and cold, and her heart was also cold. Her voice softened, "But she is love, and she once told me that she never resented your father." I admire her love. ”
Zhu Xuan lowered his head and wiped away something, looked up at Cao Ran's eyes when he looked up, and said seriously: "Ranran, don't trust men." Mother just believes in her father too much, and there has never been a shortage of beauties around her father for so many years, but her mother has lived too bleakly. ”
Cao Ran was stunned for a moment, and suddenly heard him call himself like this, and asked in his heart: "Aren't you just a man?" She opened her mouth slightly, and then changed the words to her lips: "Well, I know." As soon as the words came out, I found that their conversation was like an old father who was worried about his daughter's bumpy love road and told him, and her answer was very cooperative.
She took a deep breath, "Don't resent your father too much, after all, he is the king of a country, and he has no choice but to do so." The reason why I admire Madame is that I admire his deep affection for your father, although I also feel that your father is not worthy of Madame's friendship, but I respect Madame's love, and I believe that she never regrets that love and not that person. Cao Ran's purpose in saying this was not to make him turn against his father because of this, putting aside the father-son friendship, with Zhu Xuan's current ability, he couldn't compete with the queen, how could he let him hit the stone with an egg again.
Zhu Xuan was silent, kneeling in front of the grave for a long time, Cao Ran was lightly afraid of hitting his slightly twitching shoulder, he turned around and buried his head in her shoulder, and the choked sound sounded in her ear. Cao Ran caressed the back of his lowered neck like a child, "Release it, after the grief is over, go to be the you that Madame wants to see, and be the way you should be." ”
Zhu Xuan put away his uncontrollable emotions, and finally kowtowed three more times, and said to the grave: "Mother, I will eventually kill that slut to avenge you!" ”
On the way back, the night was quiet and the wind stopped. Zhu Xuan was silent all the way, and when he arrived at the gate of the courtyard, he stopped and said to Cao Ran: "Tomorrow I will get up and go to Beiyan, if you don't want to stay here, I can take you down the mountain by the way." ”
Cao Ran poked her temples with her fingers, pursed her lips and thought for a while, and then smiled and said, "I have nowhere to go, but I don't want to marry here." ”
He bowed his head and said: "In this case, I can take you all the way to Beiyan, your five-day appointment with me has long ended, if you want to leave when, just let me know." ”
Zhu Xuan actually didn't want to take her to Beiyan, after all, he was gambling on this trip, so why bother to increase the stakes to an innocent person. But he was glad she was able to stay with him.