Chapter 39: Can I Hold You?
"Huh?" I always thought that Guan Shi and Cangli were ghosts, but the little monk suddenly said that they were not ghosts, I was very confused and puzzled, and asked: "They are not ghosts, so what are they?" ”
"The poor monk didn't dare to speculate, Mo Ranshi mainly wanted to know, and he could ask the donor. Amitabha, the poor monk said goodbye, and the donor did not have to send it again. ”
As soon as he finished speaking, the little monk pedaled downstairs with his travel bag on his back, and I couldn't stop screaming.
Looking at his departing back, I felt melancholy.
Guan Shi and Cangli are not ghosts, what will they be?
With this doubt, I stare upstairs in confusion.
When I got upstairs, I didn't see Cang Li at first sight, and I thought Cang Li was tired and went back.
When I entered the room, I saw Cang Li sitting in the corner with his arms crossed, looking at Guan Fan on the bed without blinking, his face full of worry.
I came in, and he didn't look at me.
I didn't feel right, so I hurriedly walked over and asked, "Cang Li, are you tired?" If you're tired, go back and rest, I'll just watch here. ”
In my memory, Cang Li hadn't woken up for so long.
Cang Li didn't speak, just shook his head slightly, and his eyes didn't leave Guan Yu.
I wanted to ask Cang Li what they were, but seeing Cang Li like this, his heart was full of guan, how could I bear to ask, so I didn't ask, sat beside him, and waited with him.
Cang Li, who usually has a lot to say when he sees me, is quiet at this time as if he doesn't exist.
With such a huge contrast, at first I only thought that Cang Li was so quiet because he was too worried about the shutdown. Later, when I talked to him, he was unreasonable, and I realized that it wasn't.
Only then did I realize that Cang Li might have a problem with me.
yes, he must have had a hard time with me.
Because the little monk who beat his father to a serious injury was found by me.
Although he didn't ask anything, he knew everything and knew that the little monk was found by me.
Cang Li, will he beat his father to a serious injury because of the little monk I found, and ignore me in the future?
When I think of this, a trace of panic rises in my heart, and there is an indescribable discomfort.
It was also at this time that I really discovered that in less than a month of contact with Cang Li, I already had a deep affection for him.
It is precisely because of this relationship that when I heard that he was going to accompany Guan to death, I couldn't bear it and came back.
"Cang Li......" I called Cang Li sadly, I wanted to explain something but didn't know how to explain, my mouth opened for a long time, and I squeezed out a sentence: "Can I hug you?" ”
"Mom." Cang Li threw himself into my arms.
I reached out and hugged him, hugged him tightly, and was about to say sorry to him - although I don't think it was wrong for me to find the little monk, but I still have to say sorry, after all, it was the little monk I found who seriously injured his father, and I worried him-
But before I could say this sorry, I heard Cang Li say, "Mom, I forgive you." Because you don't remember the past. If you remember, you feel sorry for me and my father, and you won't find someone to deal with me and my father. ”
Cang Li's words made my heart sour, tears almost fell, I hugged Cang Li tightly, choked up: "Cang Li, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......"
I'm really sorry!
I just wanted to leave, and I didn't think about hurting anyone, especially Cang Li.
"Mom, you don't have to tell me I'm sorry, I don't blame you." Cang Li raised his head, raised his little hand, and wiped my tears.
That sensible look made my tears come out at once.
I felt like an adult, and I was embarrassed to cry like this in front of him, grabbed his little hand, and pressed him into my arms.
Cang Li lay in my arms and said softly, "Mom, I know what you think. But don't leave again, okay? ”
"Good!" The moment I decided to come back, I didn't think about leaving.
"Mom, I love you."
Hearing this mother, I love you, my heart is more sour, and my tears are even more fierce.
Cang Li, he mistook me for his mother, and transferred his love for his mother to me, I can't hurt him anymore, I really can't hurt him anymore.
I secretly made up my mind that I must be good to Cang Li in the future, not to mention being good to him like his mother, at least to be good to him like a mother.
After that, Cang Li and I didn't talk anymore, just hugged like this, quietly.
"Mom." Cang Li suddenly raised his head, and looked at me with a pair of dark eyes, "You wait patiently, wait a little longer, you will find that Daddy is good, and you will fall in love with Daddy." ”
"...... "I didn't expect Cang Li to say these words to me, so I was stunned for a while, and I didn't know how to answer."
Actually, falling in love with Guan Shi, it's not like I haven't thought about this, it's just-
It's just that when I think of Guan Shi and a lady who has been in love for hundreds of years and is difficult to let go, I don't dare to be tempted by him.
Because I know that it will be hard to have a person's love in between.
"Definitely!" Cang Li blinked his right eye firmly, and had great confidence that I would fall in love with Guan Yan.
I didn't have such confidence in myself, I didn't know how Cang Li could have so much confidence in me, and I didn't want to ask him, so I didn't say anything.
Just thought that this was Cang Li's wishful thinking, and he didn't take it to heart.
Who knew that Cang Li then explained the reason, he said: "Because my father said that my mother liked my father first." So, this time, mom, you will also like daddy again, fall in love with daddy. ”
It turned out that Cang Li was so sure that I would fall in love with Guan Shi because his mother liked Guan Fu first.
For this reason, I can't help but laugh.
At the same time, I thought that someone as gentle and careful as Guan Shi, who seemed to be unable to find a flaw, didn't know how long it took Cang Li's mother to chase him.
"Then do you know how long it took your mother to chase your father?" I couldn't help but ask curiously.
Cang Li stretched out a finger, "Guess." ”
"One ......"
If you say a year, the time is too long, ancient times are not like modern times, and if you can't get a response after chasing for a year, most of the women feel embarrassed and will give up.
Even if the woman doesn't feel embarrassed and doesn't give up, the woman's family will persuade her to give up.
One day, the time is too short, so you have to give Guan Shi a time to think about it.
So, I guessed, "A month?" ”
"That's not right." Cang Li shook his head, his eyes were full of laughter, but he pursed his mouth tightly and held back the laughter.
"A week?" When I said this, I remembered that there was no such thing as a week in ancient times, but there was a term like ten years, so I changed my words: "Ten years? ”
"Not really." Cang Li still shook his head.
I couldn't guess a little and said, "You give me some hints." When I didn't guess correctly, you said too much, or too little. ”
"That's a lot." Cang Li immediately understood, and said that it had been more than ten years.
Ten days is only ten days, and ten days is more.
And in ancient times, there was no such thing as a week, so there was only one day left.
So, I guessed with certainty, "One day, right?" ”
Unexpectedly, Cang Li still shook his head: "It's too much." ”
Ah, it's a day, that'......
"An hour?"
"That's a lot."
"One ......," I searched in my mind, what other ancient timekeeping methods with one were there, "a moment?" A meal? A cup of tea? A stick of incense? ”
But I said everything I could think of, and Cang Li said it was short.
I couldn't think of a timekeeping method that was shorter than a stick of incense, so I said, "I can't guess." Tell me, how long. ”
"All of a sudden." Cang Li covered his mouth and smiled, his eyes crooked when he smiled.
All of a sudden, this, this answer...... Is that the answer?
I dare to say that few people saw Cang Li stretch out a finger and could guess that it was all at once.
I can't help but sigh that children's brain circuits are amazing, and they are different from adults.
"Mom, don't you believe it?" When Cang Li saw that I didn't speak, he thought I didn't believe it.
I really don't believe it, it's not that I don't believe that Cangli's mother will catch up with Guan Shi so quickly, but I don't believe that the answer is all at once.
"It's all of a sudden. Daddy said Mom, as soon as you say you like him, he immediately likes you, isn't it all at once? ”
"Yes, all at once." It's me who underestimated Guan Shi's liking for Cangli's mother, maybe he fell in love with Cangli's mother when Cangli's mother said he liked him.
After talking to Cangli for a while, I suddenly remembered that the little monk told me before leaving that Guan Shi and Cangli were not people, nor were they ghosts, and I wanted to ask Cangli before, but I didn't ask when I saw that he was in a bad mood.
took advantage of Cang Li's good mood now and asked this doubt: "Cang Li, can I ask you a question?" ”
"Mom, what do you want to ask?"
"Well, the master said that you are not human, and you are not ...... Not ghosts, I want to know what you are. ”
Cang Li was still dissatisfied with the little monk, and as soon as he heard the word master, the smile on the corner of his mouth was closed. When he heard my words again, the smile on his face was gone, not even in his eyes, and he didn't speak with his face.
In this way, it is a bit similar to Guan Shi. (Cang Li's appearance is not very similar to Guan Shi, probably more like his mother.) )
Seeing him like this, I thought he was blaming the little monk, and told me the fact that they were not humans or ghosts, so I spoke for the little monk and said: "Cangli, don't blame the master, if you want to blame, blame me, I found him." He told me this for my own good. ”
Cang Li looked up at me, looked at me for a while, and said, "Mom, when you think of the past, you will know what we are." ”
"Can't you tell me now?" I didn't dare to tell Cang Li, I'm afraid I'll never remember what he said about the so-called past.
Because, I am not his mother at all.
Cang Li didn't speak, lay in my arms, and played with my collar.
I know Cang Li won't tell me.
Cang Li didn't tell me, and presumably Guan Shi wouldn't tell me either.
Time flickered, and it was noon.
I hadn't eaten since last night, I hadn't eaten breakfast, and by noon my stomach was hungry and gurgling.
Cang Li asked me to go down and eat something, but I didn't have an appetite.
However, you can endure it without eating, but you can't help it.
I went down to the bathroom.
When I came back again, I saw Cang Li holding his chest, very uncomfortable, I remembered that since I knew Cang Li, he had never woken up for such a long time, and hurriedly walked over and said, "Cang Li, you are tired, go back and rest." ”
"No!" Cang Li shook his head stubbornly, looked at Guan Fu on the bed and said, "I'm going to wait for my father to wake up." ”
Seeing him so stubborn and sensible, I was very distressed.
Cang Li pulled the corners of his lips, opened his hands to me, and said with a smile: "Mom hug." ”
I took him into my arms, and he lay on top of me and said contentedly, "With my mother to hug me, I won't be tired." ”
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