Chapter 60: A Painful Past
After Gu Ying rescued Tang Yifeng, she handed over the follow-up things to Mu Yun, and quickly returned to the room, when she came out, she went out from the skylight on the top, and when she came back, she naturally walked the skylight, jumped down from above, just stood up, took off the black towel on her face, and heard someone clapping her hands, Gu Ying was shocked, looked at the voice, and suddenly breathed a sigh of relief: "You scared me to death!" ”
Hua Peony came over with a fan, picked up the teapot on the table and poured a glass of water: "Come, drink some tea to suppress the shock!" ”
Gu Ying glanced at him, sat down across from him, picked up the cup and took a sip of water.
Hua Peony looked at her and smiled: "I didn't expect Miss Gu to have such good skills!" He originally just thought that Gu Ying was not as weak as she looked, but he didn't expect her to have such good martial arts, from going out to coming back, it was just a cup of tea, and she quietly rescued people.
Gu Ying put down the teacup and looked at him: "Why?" ”
"What?" Flower peony puzzled.
"Why can't you marry Xiaoyun?" After talking to Mu Yun, this matter has always been in her heart, she treats Mu Yun as her own sister, and naturally hopes that she can be happy, since she likes flower peonies so much, she has to help her.
Hua Peony's expression darkened, and she slowly closed the fan: "She told you?" ”
"Yes!" Gu Ying replied, "Do you love her?" ”
"Love!" Flower Peony said very surely.
Gu Ying looked at him for a while, as if to determine whether he was telling the truth, after looking at it for a long time, she nodded and said, "Okay, I believe you, but she said you can't marry her, why?" If you love each other, why can't you be together? ”
Hua Peony smiled bitterly: "Didn't she tell you the reason?" ”
Gu Ying shook his head: "No!" ”
Hua Peony said: "It seems that she still cares about my face, in fact, ...... It doesn't matter! After a long silence, he spoke again: "It's not that I don't want to marry her, if I still have someone in this world, that person must be her!" It's just that...... I can't give her happiness, how can I hurt her? ”
Gu Ying was puzzled: "Why can't you give her happiness?" If it's because of your identity, then I can help you, you can leave Black Dragon Village, leave Maple City, go to a place where no one knows you and start over, and live the life you want to live. ”
Hua Peony shook her head: "I have thought about it too, but no matter where I go, there is one thing that can never be changed, and that is ...... I can't give her happiness as a real man! ”
Gu Ying was stunned, she had never experienced the affairs of men and women, and she didn't know much about them, but Hua Peony's words were very strange, what does it mean that she can't be happy as a real man? Isn't he just a man?
Looking at Gu Ying's appearance, Hua Peony also knew that she didn't understand, sighed, and said: "This matter, I didn't plan to tell anyone, but now for Xiaoyun, I can only tell you that I ......" He grew a mouthful, and continued: "When I was born, my mother passed away because of dystocia, my father was an alcoholic, raised me until I was six years old, one day I went out to drink, and when I came back, I passed by a river, accidentally fell into the river, and never woke up, I also have an uncle, at first he raised me for a year, But he had a lot of children in his family, and he couldn't afford to raise them anymore, so he sold me to the opera troupe, and from that time on, I learned to sing with the class master. At first, he was still nice to me, and even helped me take a bath and put me to sleep, but gradually, I found that he was not normal, and he ...... He treated me as his plaything, and even destroyed my dignity as a man in order to let me stay with him forever, and made me lose the most basic thing to be a man. ”
Gu Ying understood! She didn't know that the truth turned out to be like this!
Hua Peony closed his eyes, as if he didn't want to mention the past, for him, it was the humiliation of his life, once he thought about committing suicide after killing the class master, but at that time he met Mu Yun, and suddenly he had a glimmer of hope for life, and even felt that maybe he could bring Mu Yun happiness, but then the facts told him that what the lost ones represented, he could never be a real man!
For Mu Yun's happiness, he could only refuse, although they have been in contact for several years, but he has not made any promises, and even once in order to make Mu Yun die, let her see her body, after the initial shock, I didn't expect Mu Yun to choose to accept, she said that she loves his person, not his body, no matter what he looks like, she likes him the same and wants to accompany him for a lifetime!
It's impossible not to be moved, but after being moved, it's a cruel reality, he can't be so selfish, he can't hurt her for the rest of his life because he wants her to stay by his side, but he understands Mu Yun's character, so only when he dies, she will give up!
"So, you want to use your death to fulfill her future happiness?" Gu Ying asked.
Hua Peony nodded: "She is so insistent now, in addition to her love for me, there is more or less sympathy, if I accept it selfishly, maybe she will live in pain for the rest of her life, but her character is clear to you, if I live, she will never give up, if you want her to give up, there is only one way, that is, I die!" ”
This is why Hua Peony is bent on sacrificing herself, Gu Ying is silent.
Hua Peony looked at Gu Ying's appearance and smiled: "You don't want to be like this, you know that I am most afraid of others sympathizing with me, I would rather you hate me than I want you to sympathize with me!" ”
"I don't have sympathy for you!" Gu Ying said: "I'm just thinking, how do you decide Xiaoyun's happiness?" What do you think would happen to her if you did die? Will you give up on you as you wish, and forget about you, and find someone to marry after a while? Is this what you want? ”
Hua Peony didn't speak, his heart ached at the thought that Mu Yun would marry someone else in the future, of course he didn't want to, but what could he do?
Gu Ying said: "I haven't experienced emotional matters, and I don't understand them, but with my understanding of Xiaoyun, she will never forget you just because you are dead!" ”
In fact, Hua Peony also knows that it is precisely because he knows that she is a good girl who is affectionate that he will fall in love with her, but it is precisely because she is a good girl that he wants her to be happy, which is really a contradiction!
Gu Ying thought for a while and said, "I won't tell anyone about this, but I hope you can give Xiaoyun a chance, and also give yourself a chance, you haven't tried it, how do you know, what happiness she thinks is!" She came to me and asked me to help you, and if you wanted, I could find you a place where no one knew you, so that you could live well. ”
Hua Peony stood up and said: "Let's talk about this matter, now I only hope to end the Black Dragon Village as soon as possible, so that the eldest brother and they can live well, Tang Sanshao has already gone back, I think soon he will act according to our agreement, when the time comes, please also ask Miss Gu to let the eldest brother and the second brother have a way out, Hua is grateful!" ”
Gu Ying watched Hua Peony leave, she knew that Tang Yifeng had already gone back to deploy, and on the way to come, Black Dragon Village was about to disappear from Fengcheng, what about Hua Peony? Where will he go from here?