Brother scumbag went out of the stall, Qin Ling sat at the long table with sleepy eyes and ate cold buns, he was wearing a dark green coat, his chest was open, and he had a cyan jade pendant hanging on his chest, unkempt, with a deep tiredness on his face, and he didn't rest well last night.

"Qin Li, do you have any arrangements for today?"

I lit a cigarette and sat down across from him, Xiao Ran following behind me, not leaving an inch.

Qin Li took a sip of porridge, glanced at me and said, "The door of my house is not closed tightly, it is estimated that the door frame is deformed, I want to repair that door today." ”

"The basement is damp, the wooden door frame has expanded and deformed after a long time, we don't have tools, let's find a carpenter master to come and take a look."

Xiao Ran stood behind me, her body swaying slightly, humming a song she hadn't heard before.

The sun in the jungle sneaked into the embrace of the sea, and made a prayer for the deep blue with sparkling tears, but the call of Mother Light could still pass through the boundless sea of clouds and chase it all the way to trot, child, enough of playing, to think about going home, outside is dangerous and lively.

Her voice echoed in my ears like a heavenly sound, like a warm current in winter, melting the snow and warming people's wet and cold hearts.

"Xiao Ran, who taught you this song?"

I turned slowly and looked at her intently.

She stopped humming, lowered her head a little embarrassedly, and whispered, "I learned it when I was picking up garbage, and it was played on the stereo in the mall." ”

Qin Yan took out a tissue and wiped his mouth, stood up and said, "Xiao Ran sings so well, you can become a singer in the future." ”

"It depends on talent."

I took a quick boiling kettle and boiled a pot of water, poured it into the washbasin, mixed it with a lot of cold water, put my hand into the water, adjusted the water temperature, I looked at Xiao Ran and said, "Xiao Ran, come and wash your hair, I'll take you to buy clothes in the afternoon." ”

Xiao Ran said a little reluctantly: "After washing your hair and buying clothes, are you going to send me away?" ”

"Of course not, it's to take you out to play, today on New Year's Day, my uncle has a good friend coming, the three of us will go shopping together in the afternoon, okay?"

I said this sentence very unconfidently, I only felt that I had deceived her, and the guilt was overflowing.

She said half-incredulously: "Are you going to the mall to buy clothes?" ”

"Of course, what kind of clothes do you like?"

"I don't know, I think I'm wearing this one very well."

She muttered, untying her head, her hair was dirty and shaped like dead grass, without nourishment and shine.

I took a closer look at what she was wearing, the upper body was wearing a black and gray cotton suit, the cotton clothes had many scratches, the white cotton wool was exposed, like a quail coat, she looked very embarrassed, and the lower body was wearing a pair of dark blue jeans, the pants were unusually fat, this was obviously an adult's pants, the trouser legs had been trampled by a pair of orange sneakers, and the whole body was dirty and shiny, it was really ragged, and I couldn't bear to look at it.

At this time, the phone rang, and I hurriedly walked to the table, picked it up and checked, it was Zhang Xueyao calling.

"Hey, Xue Yao."

"Are you out of the stall?"

Zhang Xueyao's lazy voice came from the other side of the phone, as if she had just gotten up and hadn't woken up yet.

"No, isn't it New Year's Day today, I just happened to have something happening here, so I didn't come out of the stall."

I turned around and glanced at Xiao Ran, who was squeezing her shampoo, and a basin of clear water had turned black at this point.

"What's going on?"

She let out a long yawn as if she were refreshed.

"Hey, it's hard to say, didn't you go to work today?"

"Go to work every day, do you want to exhaust me, I really don't know how to pity the fragrance and cherish the jade, let's talk to you about the right thing."

"Uh, wait a minute."

I put my phone on the table, and when I saw that the water in the basin was dirty and couldn't be washed, I hurriedly walked over to Xiao Ran and said, "I'm helping you change the basin water." ”

I splashed the dirty water in the yard, picked up the quick-boiling pot again, poured the remaining hot water into the basin, mixed it with cold water, and put it on the stool where Xiao Ran washed her hair.

"After washing for a while, there is a hair dryer in the house, the weather is cold, don't freeze and catch a cold."

I carefully admonished, and went to the table again to pick up my phone.

"What did you just say?"

I sat down in a chair and lit a cigarette.

"The leaders are very satisfied with the clothes that I bought from you last time, but there are too many summer clothes, our company wants a batch of winter clothes, and you still have a supply there, right?"

As soon as I heard that the order was coming again, all the gloom in my heart went with the wind.

"Of course there is a supply, but are there any requirements?"

I took a deep breath of my cigarette and was very emotional.

"I'm going to buy with you this time, what style do you want, let's see it then, anyway, try to pick some fashionable, more fashionable, outdated and offline clothing resolutely don't."

"Okay, you pick."

Xiao Ran was wiping her hair with a towel, she slowly walked to my side, the dirt on her face was rinsed off, revealing a delicate and playful cheek, her white and tender skin was like a shelled egg, which could be broken by blowing, and it was extremely delicate.

"Go inside and dry your hair, it's cold outside, beware of the cold."

She gave me a blank look and walked into the basement with a pout, I sighed, took my phone and continued, "Then when are you going to get into the costume?" ”

"Today, you just don't come out of the stall today, and I'll call you when I'm ready."

"But..."

I glanced at the direction of the basement, and I didn't know if I would go out with Zhang Xueyao to buy goods, and Xiao Ran would follow, which made me a little dilemma.

"What's wrong with you? Scattered in the morning, is there anything else? If there is something important, we can go another day. ”

"It's okay, I'll wait for your call."

After hanging up the phone, I put out the cigarette in my hand, Zhang Xueyao helped me contact such a large order, and it was the kind that I didn't want to return, I had no reason to refuse.

After Qin Li finished washing, put on his clothes and prepared to go out, he came to the courtyard, saw me sitting on the bench in a daze, and asked in a low voice, "Are you at home with Xiao Ran today?" ”

I came back to my senses and smiled and said, "Why are you going to go out in a while?" ”

"I'll go find a carpenter and fix the door of my house."

He tightened his cotton clothes, put his hands in his pockets, and his handsome face was a little pale, which obviously showed that he had been resting very badly these days.

"You should call the landlord first, and theoretically she is responsible for these door and window repairs."

"Don't dream, she doesn't care at all, saying that a house at this price can be lived in if she can, and if she doesn't live in it, she will move out, and her attitude is very bad."

Qin Yan gritted his teeth and said, a trace of elusive sadness flashed on his delicate cheeks.

"It's okay, turn left when you go out, walk straight for twenty minutes, and there will be a door and window shop, you can ask the master carpenter to come and have a look."

He nodded, and strode out of the yard, as if to vent all his resentment in those feet.

I took my phone, clicked on WeChat, found Xue Xinyan's avatar, clicked in, and typed in the chat box: Xinyan, I figured it out, I didn't do it right this time, I was impulsive and emotional, I will take care of this matter, don't worry.

Click send, the thousand pounds of boulder in my heart finally landed, I took a long breath, there was a sense of relief, I have passed the age of willfulness, I have to consider the consequences of everything, Xue Xinyan's inner world is very delicate, she will not cry with me, nor will she quarrel with me, for so many years, I follow my heart in everything I do, she nodded silently, cheering for me in the invisible place, what reason do I have to disobey her.

In the morning, Zhang Xueyao and I came to a clothing wholesale company, and Xiao Ran stayed at home to accompany Qin Yan to repair the door.

The clothing company is large and focuses on supplying goods to all kinds of wholesale markets.

"Xue Yao, there is a handsome guy in our yard, do you want to get to know him?"

I looked at Zhang Xueyao, who was driving seriously, and suddenly thought of Qin Li, they are of the same age, talented and beautiful, if they can succeed in matching, it will not be in vain for her to work hard for me.

Zhang Xueyao glared at me and teased: "You better take care of your own business, Miss Ben is not in a hurry." ”

"Not in a hurry? Didn't your parents arrange a blind date for you recently? ”

I looked at her with a smirk, clearly questioning what she had just said.

"I've said that I'm not in a hurry, they will arrange a blind date for me, and I won't go."

She spoke in a very low voice, as if she was muttering, as if she was talking to herself, as if she had a lot of distress and didn't want to be seen through by others, but she had to face it, which made me feel a little sad.

"You might as well go and have a look, that young man is quite self-motivated, he used to be a civil servant in his hometown, his ex-girlfriend's home is in this city, he gave up his job and came to his girlfriend from thousands of miles away, but he didn't expect his girlfriend to have been splitting his legs for a long time, he was heartbroken and wanted to make a career in this city, so he stayed."

I talked endlessly, telling Qin Yan's experience of tossing and turning, so that Zhang Xueyao could have a general understanding of him.

"So he doesn't have a job yet?"

Zhang Xueyao glanced at me, and seemed to have a hint of interest in Qin Li.

"Well, that's the case at the moment, but with his level, it's still easy to get a job in this city."

I said seriously, deliberately portraying Qin Yan's image better, in order to enhance Zhang Xueyao's good impression of him.

"Wang Dagongzi, don't stand and talk without back pain, now it's not as easy to find a job as you said, our company recruited interviews a few days ago, on the position of three trainee designers, there are more than 70 interviewers, you may not know much about the workplace, now the pressure of job competition is very high, he used to be a civil servant, suddenly into this high-frequency, high-paced work environment, will definitely not adapt, and the new intern salary is very low, even the most basic living security is difficult, not to mention what to buy a car and a house, Marrying Bai Fumei is at the peak of life, so it is better to recognize the reality and work hard to improve yourself, so that you can find a foothold in this rapidly changing society. ”

What Zhang Xueyao said is the reason why I don't want to go to work, because I have limited education, and I won't be a white-collar worker, and I will sit in front of the computer to spend a leisurely life, and I can only find some jobs to barely make ends meet, but this goes against my original intention of coming to this city, and the reason why the lady does not recognize me is that my income is very low, living in a dirty and messy basement, eating coarse tea and light rice, going out early and returning late, but there is no improvement.

"That's why I chose to set up a stall, although it was a little harder, but fortunately, I didn't have to worry about food and clothing, and it was no problem to support myself."

I justified myself as the car pulled into the courtyard of a garment factory and slowly stopped in front of an office building.

Zhang Xueyao unbuckled her seat belt, looked at me and said, "You think it's okay to support yourself now, and when you get married and have children, you will understand how insignificant your income is." ”

Her words can be regarded as a tranquilizer for me in advance, let me calm down in the fantasy, the road ahead is still very long, people have no foresight, there must be near-term worries, I deeply realize how heavy my burden is, how bumpy the road ahead is, an invisible sense of crisis quietly attacked, caught me off guard, and let me muster up the courage to face it calmly.