(Foreword)

The lamb of sin grows in the scorched earth, and under the head of the spear is the despair of weeping and banishing.

(Text)

"Yes~ You are right, then can you help me up now?"

"Helping you up?" Jiang Hai looked at the woman inexplicably.

The woman said aggrievedly: "My foot is broken, I ran in a hurry in front, and now it hurts a lot." ”

Jiang Hai sighed, and did not reach out to help the woman up, but directly carried it on his back: "Forget it, just like you, I'll carry you back directly." ”

The woman smiled sweetly, hooked Jiang Hai's neck firmly with her hand, and was carried back by him.

"By the way, I don't know your name yet?" The woman sitting on the bed looked into Jiang Hai's eyes and asked curiously.

"My name is Jiang Hai, the river of the river, the sea of the sea."

"Jiang Hai? It's such a good name, it's a hero when you hear it! The woman chuckled.

"Heroes? I'm afraid you're the only one who thinks so, right? I'm just an ordinary sailor, drifting with the sea, swimming wherever I go. Jiang Hai said with a smile.

The woman leaned her head towards Jiang Hai and said jokingly: "How interesting is that, your freedom belongs to the vast and boundless sea, and your romance belongs to an unrestrained life." Why don't I follow you? Drift with you and experience the taste of freedom. “

Jiang Hai flicked the woman's head with his hand and bounced her away, "You are just fresh for a while, and a young lady like you will not really adapt to this kind of life." “

Jiang Hai shook his head, got up and walked in the direction of the door.

The woman shouted at him: "I'm not called Miss, I have my own name, my name is Luo Xue'er, do you remember?" “

Jiang Hai waved his hand and disappeared at the end of the door.

May 5, 2019 at 11:56 p.m. on the bow deck

The sea breeze blew Jiang Hai's hair, and with the just right comfortable coolness gently brushed his face, he slowly opened his eyes and saw Luo Xue'er sitting cross-legged beside him. Luo Xueer smiled sweetly, holding a sketchbook in her hand.

"How are you? When did you come? ”

"Me? I've already arrived. It's just that I see that you have been sleeping soundly, and I can't bear to disturb you. Luo Xue'er narrowed her eyes into a slit.

"Since you can't bear to bother, then you just have to go back." Jiang Hai muttered in a low voice, his eyes falling on her sketchbook, "What is this?" ”

"Sketchbook."

"I know it's a sketchbook, but what I'm trying to ask is what's in it?" Jiang Hai asked, looking at the sketchbook.

"What do you want to see?" Luo Xueer picked up the sketchbook.

Jiang Hai nodded.

"If you want to see it, I'll show it to you."

She opened her sketchbook and flipped through the portraits of children of all colors and races with longing and real eyes.

"...... these kids?"

"These children are my dream and my continuation." Luo Xueer said with a smile.

"Dream and continuation?"

Luo Xue'er touched the Buddhist beads in her hand, and a trace of sorrow flashed in her eyes, "Have you ever seen refugees, famines, and those children in the mountains?" I've seen it before. Obviously, they were also born as human beings, but they lived a different and miserable life, and it was difficult for them to even survive.

Still, what I see most in their eyes is 'longing'. “

"Longing?" Jiang Hai looked at Luo Xue'er puzzled.

"Yes, desire. Eager to live, eager for everything in the outside world, longing for a better future...... All sorts of cravings. That's when I started thinking, what is my desire? What do I want? So I drew their faces one after another, packed my bags and boarded the ship.

But now it seems to me that I have always been an empty soul. I don't have my own dreams, I don't have my own desires, so when I meet their eyes, the whole world starts to get lost. “

"Are you still confused?"

Luo Xue'er smiled, looked at the starry sky, and the stars were shining in her eyes: "This world is too big, and people are so small, I want to see the prosperity and desolation with my eyes, walk through the thousands of worlds with my feet, experience the warmth and coldness of human feelings with my heart, and draw it down with my hands." Maybe only then will I really understand what I desire, and maybe only then will I really understand this world.

So what I said to you before that I wanted to drift with you is not a lie. Instead of spending this life in a mess and finding someone who is just right to get married, it is better for me to wander and experience a different life. “

Jiang Hai looked at Luo Xue'er's side face, and it was only now that he suddenly realized that she had white skin, curly eyelashes, long hair, and a goose egg face, and she was also a delicate child.

"Your vision may sound good, but I'm unrestrained and unrestrained, and I'm not a master who can serve you." Jiang Hai shook his hand.

Suddenly, the wind blew the sketchbook to the last page, and the sketchbook was painted with Jiang Hai's defenseless side face sleeping soundly. Jiang Hai looked at the sketchbook and coughed twice, "You...... Why are you painting me? ”

"No, I just like it." Luo Xueer pretended to be casual, looked up at the starry sky, and ran her hair with her hand.

"Portrait rights, you violated my portrait rights, tear them up for me immediately."

"Portrait rights? Okay, so can you make an offer? I bought it and hung it on my bedside every day. Luo Xue'er touched the string of Buddhist beads in her hand and brought her face to Jiang Hai. Jiang Hai was speechless for a while, his cheeks became hot, and he was flushed.

"I ...... I don't care about you woman, you woman has no face and no skin, so don't be ashamed! Jiang Hai stood up and was just about to walk back to the room, Luo Xueer suddenly pointed to the starry sky with one hand and shouted: "Look, this starry sky is so beautiful~"

Jiang Hai looked in the direction of Luo Xue'er's finger, but Luo Xue'er got up and kissed him on the side of his cheek, "Even if the person I identify is at the end of the world, I will follow him for the rest of my life." ”

Luo Xue'er smiled sweetly, her smile was deeply imprinted in Jiang Hai's mind and branded in his heart.

He shoved Luo Xueer away and stumbled back to his room like a panicked fawn. Luo Xue'er's unconventional behavior made Jiang Hai lose his square inch for the first time, and all he thought about that night was her smile and all he read was what she said. For the first time, he kept a woman firmly in his heart, and for the first time, he thought about a woman who couldn't sleep all night.