126. It's me who is hypocritical
In the ten seconds I was amazed, melodious piano music sounded all around, and I was completely stunned, really, completely.
Zou Moyan called me in a low voice, "Jiajia? ”
I came back to my senses, looked at Zou Moyan, who was kneeling on one knee in front of me, affectionately, and looked around at the romantic atmosphere around me, I instinctively clenched my fists, and I didn't want to stretch out at all.
How much I used to love the man in front of me, at that time my greatest wish was to be Mrs. Zou, I regarded love as the best goal in my life, and I regarded the man in front of me as my lifelong dependence.
But at this time, I was surprisingly eager to escape from this place.
"Jiajia?"
Zou Moyan called my name again, I looked down at him for a while before saying, "Moyan, this is too sudden. I'm not ready. ”
"Jiajia, let's get married."
I bit my lower lip and didn't reply for a long time.
I guess there must be a lot of people around, because when I lowered my head and pondered, I heard the sound of several people inhaling loudly, I looked at Sun Yao beside me, Sun Yao made a color to me, which probably means, don't let Zou Moyan kneel like this.
"Mo Yan. You get up first. ”
Zou Moyan's affectionate gaze gradually became a layer of gloom, and his tone of voice was a little lower: "What else do you need to consider?" ”
"I just think, I think we ......" I can't even say a reason now, but the distance between me and him in the past two years, and the time I missed in the past two years, have magnified some of the problems between us.
For example, his current ruthless methods, unpredictable personality, and of course, that desire to control, which is enough for me to pass through!
I was stunned and lowered my head, not daring to look at Zou Moyan's gaze, I know that I am very willful now, but this is my true thought, because no matter what point of view, now is not the time for us to get married, "Mo Yan, I ........."
"Don't talk about it." Zou Moyan stood up, with a cold arrogance around him, he looked at me, his face was expressionless, the piano music on one side had stopped, I don't know who turned on the light, Zhou Luo, Zhou Ling, He Changan, Sun Yao, Pan Yiming, and Lu Xiaoxiao were all looking at me behind him, they were very embarrassed, I could see from Sun Yao's posture that he wanted to escape.
Zou Moyan strode past me and left quickly, I stood in place, looking at the red candles everywhere, and my heart was full of flavors.
Candles red tears, flowers and stars.
Because love is brave, because of the bravery at the beginning, now it is timid...
"Jiajia, that.... Zou Moyan proposed to you, this is all arranged by him on the spot, the lamp, he glued it little by little, he said that you like to look at the stars, and this rose was shipped from France, he said that this is the rose in a manor that you once went to, you liked it at that time, and the diamond ring, is...."Sun Yao glanced at He Changan, for fear that he would say something that he shouldn't say, "That, yes..... It's precious. ”
Zou Moyan doesn't make do with anything, I know that.
But how precious it is, I can't imagine.
Lu Xiaoxiao walked up to me at this time and asked me in a low voice, "Why don't you agree?" ”
I didn't know how to answer Lu Xiaoxiao, I just stared at everything around me, although I was more or less hypocritical in their eyes, but this is me.
"Let's go, the romantic love idol drama has become a one-man show, what else is there to watch!" Walking Zhou Luo took Zhou Ling and walked out of the room first, followed by He Changan, Sun Yao obviously had something to say, he was frightened back by He Changan's eyes, and honestly followed him out, and finally Pan Yiming, he walked to Lu Xiaoxiao's side and said, "I'll wait for you outside." ”
Lu Xiaoxiao sighed, "Jiajia, don't you love him very much?" ”
"I love him and want to be with him for the rest of my life, but now is really not a good time, Lu Xiaoxiao, do you know, I don't even have an equal chance with Zou Moyan, I know he loves me, but now he is very different from before, I am in front of him, like a pet being raised, I have no self-care ability at all, he spoils me and loves me, but I don't want everyone in my family to rely on him, then I will feel very uncomfortable." "You're doing it."
"I'm stubborn, but I can't help it, since it's impossible for us to go back to two years ago, then from now on, I hope everything between me and him can be equal, he loves me, he loves me as a person, not our past."
Lu Xiaoxiao looked at me with a complicated expression, and said lightly, "He Jiaran, the stubbornness in your bones will make your heart ache sooner or later." ”
"If there really is a day, I admit it."
"Jiajia, why do you have to make your life so hard? We have all watched the two of you love to die and come back to life, and we have experienced so many things along the way, why now, you don't agree when people propose marriage? Are your pride, your self-esteem, really more important than Zou Moyan? ”
"Xiaoxiao, I don't know, I don't know." I grabbed my hair in a panic, and all the things that had happened in my mind flashed over the past few days, and suddenly I felt that Zou Moyan's marriage proposal made me very happy, but I felt very sad. "There are a lot of things between us that we really can't explain in one or two sentences."
"I know, Jiajia, I want you to be happy more than anyone else, although you can't be with my brother, but I have always regarded you as my best friend, no matter what you decide, I will support you!"
Lu Xiaoxiao hugged me and went out, her words of comfort did not make me feel comfortable, there was no one in the hall now, I looked at the empty and exquisite surroundings, and felt unprecedented loss.
The rectangular table was topped with fine wines, goblets of my favorite style, delicate desserts were placed next to them, and I saw champagne specially prepared for the celebration.......
Zou Moyan thinks that I will agree.
But I'm not the He Jiaran I used to be,
But think about it, He Jiaran two years ago, but he didn't even go to the marriage proposal ceremony.....
I poured myself a glass of wine, and by the light of the candle, I drank it without hesitation.
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I don't know how much I drank, but when I woke up I was lying on the floor of this room, the morning sun shining on my face, and I struggled to open my eyes, surrounded by everything from last night, the burnt candles on the floor, the empty bottles of red wine, and the roses that were still delicate.....
I rubbed my face, stood up slowly, and slowly walked to the window, the city was shrouded in the morning light, and I was waking up dimly, and I, He Jiaran, also woke up.
I don't want to stay in this room for a minute, at this time Jingqi called me, saying that it was for me to check the matter of eyebrows, he asked when we could meet, I said anytime.
Jing Qi made an appointment with a Chinese restaurant according to my preference, and my reason was simple, I was hungry.
I arrived a little early, took the menu and ordered a few dishes, Jingqi I don't know what the taste is, so I ordered some light sauce fragrant, the staple food is meatloaf with gnocchi soup, I am hungry now and can swallow an elephant!
I thought of Lu Chengying saying that I had no heart and no lungs, I didn't think so, but now, I really think about myself.
Yesterday I rejected someone's romantic proposal, I was drunk, and now I am resurrected with full blood, eating meatloaf gnocchi soup, I am a fucking weird one!
Jing Qi came quickly, I asked the waiter to serve the food, Jing Qi looked at me and suddenly laughed, "He Jiaran, why is your face so bad?" ”
"It's okay, tell me what you found there?"
"After you told me about the situation, I used my own means to go to the nursing home to check the surveillance video, I found that Aunt Cai's room surveillance video is incomplete, there will always be a few days a week, and the next day, there will be a bouquet of flowers on the table, I asked a few flower shops according to the color and shape of the bouquet, and the result is that they said that this bouquet is very simple, I can't remember what I did when I did it, I asked a few nurses, and they all said that the man was tall and thin, wearing a mask, and he left after two or three minutes of coming in every time, Never stay longer. ”
"Why are you so panicked?" I looked at him, "Didn't you find anything else?" ”
"The account of the nursing home will come with a fee at the beginning of each month, I inquired, the purpose of this fee is that they do not disclose, but I checked, after the money comes in, Aunt Cai's treatment fee will be deducted, and now there is a lot of balance."
What does that mean, that is, there are still people who send money to the nursing home's account every month?
Now I listened more and more confused, and felt very strange, "Where is the account?" ”
"I can't find this for the time being, but one thing is for sure, there is indeed someone helping Aunt Cai to treat her illness."
I can't help but start to wonder, who is this man?
"I'm checking the accounts, as well as the footage of the entire hospital, and I've found that someone is deliberately preventing me from discovering these things, although it's a bit difficult, but I'll give you an answer as soon as possible."
I also had no bottom in my heart, so I had to say, "Then this matter will trouble you." ”
"You're welcome, I didn't help you before, I'm already embarrassed."
The dishes have been served, Jing Qi looked at the dishes on the table and was surprised and didn't know what to say, "Why did you order so much?" ”
"I'm hungry." I added a piece of tofu to my mouth, still thinking about Aunt Cai's affairs in my head, as if this incident had caused me to fall into a fog....... Who is that man? Does he have anything to do with Aunt Cai's car accident?
I came back to my senses and saw that Jing Qi had been looking at me, so I asked him: "You eat yours, don't be polite, I'll invite you this meal." ”