After Lin Xiu left, Cai Fence came over, carrying a large basket of eggs.

"Didn't you tell your mother? Don't give eggs every day, in this case, your family will not be able to bear it, and I really can't afford to spend so much on me all day. ”

Cai Liang blinked: "But my mother said that you need nutrients in your body now that you have a baby, so she must let me bring it." ”

I know that the village chief's daughter-in-law really feels sorry for me, otherwise she wouldn't have done so much for me.

I can't afford these great kindnesses.

"It's okay, teacher, you can eat it, we have a lot of chickens, and they're all eggs that aren't worth much."

Cai Li was very sensible at a young age, and I don't know who I learned from, and I learned polite words, but I was very useful.

At least, they genuinely cared about me.

"Okay, I got it," I took the egg from her hand, and I smiled and touched her head; "Thank you for your hard work."

Cai Fence smiled shyly.

This child is not like her mother at all, the village chief's daughter-in-law is a particularly bold woman, but Cai Li is a shy girl.

"Ah, teacher, what is this?" She saw the picture book that Lin Xiu had taken before on the coffee table, and she was very curious.

It is normal that she grew up in the mountains and has never seen this kind of painting, so I walked over and stroked her little head: "This, is it a collection of stories drawn by your teacher Lin Xiu according to those, and fairy tales, is it beautiful?" ”

Cai Liang nodded: "It's good-looking." ”

"Then you can take it and see it."

I touched her head: "Anyway, these two little ones can't see it now, you can see if you like to draw or not, if you like it, the teacher can take you to a place where you can learn to paint another day." ”

I like Cai Fence from the bottom of my heart, because she is too well-behaved and obedient, and I always feel that she is particularly like me in a certain way, and I don't know if it's my delusion.

"Teacher, I'm a little curious."

It was because I was too gentle tonight, and Cai Li was willing to talk to me, and she asked me, "Who is the baby's father?" I've never seen it, and I've never heard you mention it. ”

yes, I never mentioned it.

Laughed a little, I was in a trance, since I gave birth to a child, it has been more than a year, what kind of memory has Lu Junxun brought me?

I almost forgot about it.

My phone has always been hidden with me, but I don't want to look at it, I don't want to know what news is in it, or what is there.

Even if it's Wang Qian, I don't want to contact her, one less person knows, I'm always down-to-earth in my heart, but for some reason, I've always started to be in a trance recently.

It was as if something was about to burst out of my head.

"Teacher, I'm just asking, if you don't want to say it, then forget it, I don't have to listen."

Cai Liang smiled embarrassedly, then walked to the two babies and looked at them: "They look so cute, I wonder if I have a chance to watch them grow up?" ”

How old she was, she began to be so sentimental, I patted her little head melon seeds: "What do you think?" You're sure you'll be able to grow up with them, and you'll be able to accompany them to their college ......."

"University?"

Cai Li looked me in the eye and looked forward to it: 'University, what kind of place it is. ’

"It's a very beautiful place, and you can learn a lot of things, all the things that the teachers teach you, all from the university."

I patted her little head: "So, you must work hard, and after you are admitted to university, you will come back to take out this small county town, as well as those younger brothers and sisters in your mountains, and live a good life, okay?" ”

This is the best plan and arrangement for her life that I can think of.

Maybe, she can listen, maybe she can't.

But...... At least I said it with my heart, and I will continue to teach and encourage her until she is able to improve on her own.

"One more thing, I want to tell you about the teacher." Cai Li probably thought that I was really sincere to her, so she hesitated for a moment before looking at me worriedly.

I laughed a little: "Whatever it is, you just say it directly, there's no need to hide it." ”

"That, I said, don't be angry, my mother said it, don't let me say it in front of you, say that your temper will definitely be angry, but I don't say it, one day others will say it in front of you, you will be sad."

As she spoke, she secretly looked out the door, as if she was afraid that someone else would come in.

"Say it." I pulled her to sit down and looked at her eye level: "It's okay, the teacher won't be sad, you can say it." ”

"Hmm."

She nodded, as if she was organizing the language, and then said, "When I was outside before, I heard people outside, you and Teacher Lin, they said that you are together, is that so?" ”

"Who said that?"

I frowned: "Isn't that nonsense?" When did I stay with Mr. Lin? ”

"But they're all talking, and it's telling the truth."

Cai Liang said, his eyes widened, and said: "They also said, maybe you knew each other before, but it was because some things were awkward, so they broke up, you came first, and then Teacher Lin chased after you." ”

"What is this?"

I couldn't laugh or cry.

But I'm not angry, the people in the mountains, without knowledge, I don't blame them.

Moreover, recently, I have indeed gotten closer to Lin Xiu, even if he has deliberately kept his distance from me, but with his mouth on other people's faces, I have no way to control what others say.

"Teacher, don't be angry, my mother said, you can't be angry now, and besides, it's about to enter winter, and the climate is already cold, so you must take care of your body."

Cai Fence kept telling me like a little adult.

He smiled and touched her head: "Okay, I see." ”

"Well, then I'll give you some water to wash your feet, wash your feet, and let's rest early."

Cai Fence smiled happily.

Seeing that she is much more lively than before, I am really happy in my heart.

Even though she started late, with her intelligence and eagerness to learn, she has learned a lot of things from me during the year, even smarter than those children who go to school early, and I am very pleased.

At night, I slept with the little treasures, and Cai Fence slept on the sofa bed in the living room, but my door would not close, in case something happened outside, I could go over as soon as possible, and Cai Fence would sometimes come over at night to help me see if the child was covered.

She is so young that she is really loveable and distressed.

At night, after breastfeeding my two children, I fell asleep completely.

In a trance, I seemed to have returned to the house where Lu Junxun and I lived together before, and he was not at home, as if he had gone out to buy groceries.

I was a little surprised, he didn't know how to cook, but this thought was a normal thought in my head.

Pushing open the door, there was no one inside, only a lonely crib, and there were some handwriting written by Lu Junxun himself on it, hoping that I would come back soon.

But now that I'm back, there's no one in there.

"Ah Yan ......"

It seemed to be true or false, I heard a voice, it seemed to be Lu Junxun, and I suddenly turned my head to look.

I saw him squatting in the doorway, and then the whole person was facing away from me, he refused to look at my face, but his voice was so anxious.

"Do you miss me?"

I asked him, but he didn't answer.

Taking two steps forward, I saw that he had been covering his face, as if he was crying, and I was a little distressed, "Lu Junxun, long time no see, don't you want to see my face?" ”

But he just didn't look, he kept his back to me.

"I ...... It's back. ”

I opened my mouth with difficulty, saying what I had always wanted to say, and even when I put down my pride and said I was back, he still wouldn't look back at me.

There was no way, I smiled bitterly: "It seems that you still don't want to see me, then I'll leave, you take good care of yourself." ”

"Don't go."

I felt him tugging at my sleeve, and I looked back in surprise, only to find that he was still facing away from me, but his hand was holding my sleeve and begging me: 'Don't go.' ’

"But you won't let me see your face."

As I spoke, I slowly walked up to him, at first he resisted, but I firmly wanted to hold his face, his voice was very ugly and hoarse: "Ah Yan, you will regret it." ”

"I won't."

I picked up his face all of a sudden, and then I saw that his face was blurred with flesh and blood, and I couldn't find where his facial features were, and his whole body was as if someone had given him a layer of skin.

I screamed and woke up from my dream, but luckily I didn't wake up from my sleep.

But Aman frowned dissatisfied, then shrunk his thumb and smacked his lips and fell asleep.

The two babies were right next to me, and looking at their faces from the same template as Lu Junxun, my fingers even trembled slightly.

The dream just now came back to my mind.

I don't want to think about it, but I miss this emotion, and I keep wandering in my body.

Yes, I miss him, but I can't admit it, because I know that I came out of there first, so if I go back first, then I admit defeat, I bow my head first, proving that I care more about him.

There is no right or wrong in love, there is no priority, but I have dignity, and my dignity does not allow me to bow my head first, at least, I am not allowed to bow to him now.

After coaxing Aman to sleep, I couldn't sleep anymore.