On Chinese New Year's Eve, when you look out the window, you can see the small county town covered with snow. On the eaves, on the dead trees, on the road, on the wide flat ground, there was no thick snow that had fallen the night before.

The temperature was cooler again, and people walking on the streets wore heavy down jackets. Large snowflakes accompanied by the howling winter wind blew down the earth, and people were in the middle of it, and it was not long before the exposed skin was frozen by the wind and snow.

At the crossroads in the small county, sanitation workers wore fat orange sanitation suits, bulging vests and thick fluffy earmuffs on their ears. They braved the heavy snowstorm and shoveled the snow on the road blocking the passage of vehicles.

As far as the eye can see, the gray dirty snow and ice are mixed, and the ground that has been shoveled through the snow is always wet.

Su Wen put on her thickest down jacket, a knitted scarf around her neck, but it was still frozen as if it was directly exposed. He wore woolen gloves on his hands and heavy cotton boots on his feet, but his hands and feet were still cold and stiff.

"Mom, do we really want to go back to our hometown for the New Year these days? It's probably so cold at home! The girl's nose was red, and she sniffed and said.

The hometown in the countryside has not yet been equipped with air conditioning, and Su Wen already wants to get the cold and damp in the bed of his hometown.

"Definitely! The Chinese New Year is in my hometown, and my grandparents are still in my hometown! I definitely want to go back for the New Year! Su Mu replied with a smile.

"It's so cold!" Su Rui covered his hands and stomped on the ground, the snow on the ground had been trampled into ice piles by passers-by, and the frozen feet touching the ice surface increased the force on his feet.

The little boy wore fluffy gray earmuffs on his ears, and his big eyes were filled with tears under the wind and snow.

Su Wen looked at her younger brother and thought, why didn't she inherit her mother's big eyes?

After waiting for more than half an hour in the wind and snow, Su Wen's family finally waited for the bus to the countryside. The road was slippery in the snow, and the car was a few minutes slower than usual, and it took three hours to reach the countryside in less than two hours.

The bus driving into the countryside travels all the way, from the bustling area of the small county town to the long critical point between the county and the village, and the farther you go to the countryside, the farther away from the high-rise buildings in the county. What remains unchanged is the snow all the way, and the lively atmosphere that comes to your face after entering the village and town.

The car drove slowly all the way, and when it arrived at the village, Su Wen was so sleepy that his eyelids were fighting.

Carrying large bags and small bags along the way to his hometown, Su Wen thought about how to greet Yunyun when he saw his grandparents. Su Wen has been taken by his parents since he was a child, and he rarely gets along with his grandparents, and the relationship between grandparents and grandchildren is weak, which does not seem to be a good thing.

The younger brother Su Rui spent less time with his grandparents than Su Wen, but the younger brother was favored by a hundred times more than Su Wen.

Just as when she returned to her hometown, her grandparents enthusiastically came out to greet her son's family, who had not returned home for a long time, and her grandmother stepped forward and directly ignored Su Wen who was standing in front of Su Rui, regarded Su Wen as an invisible person, and hugged her lovely little grandson.

A passionate "grandma" in the girl's chest was stuck in her throat, and it became an open but silent word.

"Xiao Ruirui, is it cold?" The gray-haired grandmother stared kindly at her little grandson, whom she hadn't seen for a long time.

"It's so cold! Grandma, you don't know, there is snow shoveling everywhere in the county, and as soon as you go out, people will freeze into ice! Su Rui opened a pair of big sparkling eyes, and he didn't forget to raise his chubby hand to draw a big circle in the air as he spoke.

"Are you frozen into ice?" Grandma's wrinkled face was filled with a bright smile, and she bent down and scraped Su Rui's red nose with a pair of calloused hands.

Su Rui pouted and said, "Yes! Grandmother! Su Rui froze into ice! I can't walk! ”

"Grandma hug you!" Grandma hunched her back slightly, and struggled to hug her beloved little grandson, while saying enthusiastically, "Hurry up and go into the house to roast the fire!" Grandma makes you something to eat! ”

"Yay!" Su Rui jumped up happily.

"Xiao Rui, go by yourself! What a child, grandma is old, and she still lets grandma hug her, so she is not ashamed! Mother shouted with a smile.

"Then grandma will take you back to our house!" Grandma was extra pleasant.

During this period, Su Wen has been standing aside as ignored as air, embarrassed and unsure of what to do. Until grandma took Su Rui's hand and passed by her, Su Wen tried hard to pull the corners of her mouth, "Grandma......"

“…… Ay! Grandma noticed Su Wen at this time, her displeased expression flashed, and she immediately changed into a warm smile, and turned around to beckon her son and daughter-in-law into the house, "Let's all enter the house!" What are you doing outside the station? It's not cold! ”

"Xiaowen, is it cold? Come inside and have a fire! Grandpa looked at Su Wen with a smile and pulled Su Wen's arm.

"Grandpa!" The girl looked up, comforted by the grief of being overlooked.

Since Su Wen was born, he has never been pampered by his grandparents. Since I can remember, in the time I lived in my hometown, my grandmother had never given Su Wen a good look. When her parents were by her side, her grandmother could still turn a blind eye as if Su Wen didn't exist.

Little Su Wen didn't understand why her grandmother showed her disgust for herself, she didn't understand why her grandmother never treated her, and she didn't understand what she had done wrong. When you take the initiative to get close to your grandmother, you are often treated coldly or abusively by your grandmother. As a result, Su Wen was hit by his grandmother's cold words since he was a child, and he became timid and afraid to express himself.

When he was a little older, Su Wen finally understood the meaning of the words that his grandmother had been chattering about since Su Wen was a child.

"What's the use of giving birth to a girl like you? I can't do any work, and I'm as delicate as a lady! ”

"I said I was going to lose you, but your parents refused, now it's okay, raise a daughter for someone else! When you grow up and get married, you don't recognize your own family! ”

"What use do you say? What's the use of giving birth to a girl like you? ”

"You shouldn't have been born in the first place! I should have secretly thrown you into the mountains to feed the wild dogs! ”

As he grew up, Su Wen learned more and more about the truth when he was born. Locals believe that when a pregnant woman is pregnant for 10 months, her daughter must be born when her belly is round, and her son is born when her belly is pointed.

When Su's mother was pregnant with Su Wen, her belly became more and more sharp, and the family was happy, thinking that Su's mother's first child must be a boy. On the day Su Wen was born, her grandmother prepared a stack of firecrackers that were only set off during the Chinese New Year, intending to light firecrackers to celebrate the moment the child cried when she was born.

But who knows, when the child's sharp cry resounded throughout the house, the grandmother was excited, holding a lighter in her hand and preparing to light the firecracker, the rural midwife hurriedly walked out of the delivery room, shouting at the grandmother and said, "It's a female doll!" Don't set off firecrackers! Otherwise, other people's families will think that your family gave birth to a male doll! ”

Grandma froze in place, her voice trembling, "What? Are you sure? Female doll?! ”

"That's not it!" The midwife said unusually, "Big sister, come and help!" I still have to clean up the delivery room! ”

It is said that on the day Su Wen was born, her grandmother had a gloomy face, and as soon as she heard that she had given birth to a girl, she turned her head and ran into her room to wipe her tears alone. Not to mention cleaning the delivery room with the midwife in the village, even the dinner that day was left aside, the family had a hasty dinner, and the grandmother locked herself in the room, no matter how the family dissuaded, there was no water and rice.

The day after Su Wen was born, the grandmother stepped into Su's mother's delivery room for the first time, only glanced at the baby sleeping in the cradle, rudely picked up the baby and walked out of the room, muttering in a weird voice: "Girl, what to give birth to!" A useless thing! Why don't you give me a male doll! This kind of upside-down money goods are lost early, so it saves trouble! ”

Su's mother lay on the bed weakly and yelled, and the grandmother ignored Su's mother, who was sitting in confinement, and resolutely hugged Su Wen, who was still a baby at the time, and walked out of the door, leaving only a string of baby's cries to go farther and farther away.

"Li Shuilian, come back to me! Come back! Su's mother was in a hurry, and her voice was hoarse and anxiously shouted her mother-in-law's name, "Li Shuilian, if you dare to throw away my baby, I won't give you a good time!" Yes! ”

In addition, the feudal ideology of preference for sons over daughters in backward rural areas was deeply rooted, so the idea of giving birth to a boy for the first child prevailed, and if a girl was born, there were many people who were abandoned in the mountains and forests or on the streets, but only a few were transferred to relatives to raise. After all, it was far more important for people at that time to have a boy than to have a girl.

When the situation is serious, it is not surprising to see one or two abandoned babies everywhere on the street, or to come across the rotten corpses of abandoned babies under the bridge.

In the past few years since marrying into the Su family, Su's mother understands her mother-in-law's extreme patriarchal thinking and stubborn character, and she knows that her mother-in-law is a person who can ruthlessly abandon her granddaughter.

Tears poured out, Su's mother, who was concerned about her daughter, forgot the tearing pain all over her body after giving birth, and got out of bed barefoot in a hurry, and her abdomen was torn when she stepped on the ground, and her body was about to collapse as soon as she was weak. But as a mother, Su's mother at that time couldn't be vulnerable, if she didn't save her daughter in time, her daughter might not be able to find her wherever she was thrown by her ruthless mother-in-law.

Su's mother gritted her teeth and walked towards the living room with difficulty, every step was like a sea of fire, and the heart-rending pain of her whole body was no match for the pain of losing her daughter in her heart.

Su Mu walked forward with difficulty, panting and shouting, "Su Mengwei...... Where are you dead! ”

"Hula!" The dishes and chopsticks on the dining table in the living room were overturned to the ground by Su Mu with all her strength, and the porcelain bowls and pans fell to the ground with a loud cracking sound.

"What's going on? How did you get out?! Father Su heard the huge movement in the living room, and hurried from the kitchen behind the house.

"Why don't you chase it yet! Our baby is about to be thrown away by your mother! Whining! How can your mother be so ruthless! ”

Su Mu sat on the cold floor and cried sobbing, her whole body hurting as if she had been torn apart.

Father Su's eyes widened in horror, "What? ”

"Right...... Fast...... Go after it! Su's mother tried to calm down, sobbing and complaining, "If your mother really threw the baby away!" If something happens to the baby, I'm not done with Li Shuilian! Let's stop it! Let's get a divorce! Don't live your life, everybody! ”