Chapter 64: I took too many "autistic drugs" when I was a child
In Su Wen's initial vision, her high school life must be inseparable from natural learning, and at the same time, it is also inseparable from singleness and blandness.
I thought that high school life would be in line with the solitary and boring life of the girls in the first sixteen years, and maybe she would be luckier that she would no longer have to be ostracized by her classmates, no longer be framed as a thief and subjected to her contemptuous eyes, and no longer have to fear the crowd wandering out of the crowd. The girls are already very grateful for being so lucky. However, a girl's high school life seems to open up a new world, not only is she no longer excluded and questioned by others, but she even integrates into the collective.
In Xiao Shijie's villa, Su Wen sat on the sofa next to her, quietly enjoying the joyful chorus of the girls.
Not long after settling in Xiao Shijie's house, the girls happily sang in the living room of Xiao Shijie's house, with all kinds of audio, microphones and LCD screens, plus they were surrounded by familiar classmates, and the girls naturally regarded the living room as a KTV and enjoyed the carnival before the New Year's Eve.
turned on the phone, Su Wen saw two red missed calls in the call log, and turned on the mobile data a little, only to find that he had missed several QQ messages sent by Xu Leqiu.
7:45 .
"Xiaowen! You're so beautiful tonight! Like Lin Daiyu who came out of a painting! The performance is very good! I didn't expect you to perform such a good drama! ”
8:03 .
"Xiaowen, where are you going? I can't get through to your phone, and I want to go to the theme classroom with you! ”
9:30 .
"The second half of the party was so boring, my classmates and I went to the theme classroom and went to see Inuyasha! I don't know if you've ever seen it! ”
9:55 .
"Don't even look at your phone! Tomorrow is a holiday, will you come to my house for New Year's Day? My sister is back. ”
10:05 .
"Ignore you!! My dad came to pick me up, and I went home humming!! ”
10:25 .
"I'm home, see the message and reply to one, come to my house tomorrow for New Year's Day!"
10:28 .
"Don't tell me your phone fell into a hole and broke it!! Or did you get kidnapped? ”
After reading the news, Su Wen had a black line on his head, and hurriedly called Xu Leqiu back, "Xiaoqiu, I didn't look at my phone at night, my phone was muted, I haven't seen your message, I'm really sorry!" ”
Without waiting for the girl on the phone to respond, Su Wen continued, "My phone didn't fall into the pit, and no one was abducted, it's okay!" ”
"Then why don't you keep looking at your phone? I thought something was wrong with you?! I can't get through even when I call!! Xu Leqiu's anxious voice came from the phone, "Why are you so noisy there?" Where are you? KTV?? ”
"I didn't look at my phone! The phone is also silent! Su Wen walked to another balcony away from the living room, and the noise on the mobile phone finally decreased, "It's not in KTV, how can I go to that kind of place!" I'm in a classmate's house, it's our class flower Xiao Shijie! Her family is so big! Our drama troupe has a party in the evening! They were singing, and their classmates were having a barbecue in the yard! ”
The balcony where the girls stood faced the garden-style yard downstairs. As he spoke, Su Wen looked at the few people who were busy downstairs, Song Yu, Deng Jiaming and a few girls were making barbecues lively.
"Okay, okay, Xiaowen, you're a busy man now! I acted in a drama with my classmates, and I left me to party with others! Xu Leqiu said sourly on the other end of the phone.
Su Wen became anxious, "Oh, Xiaoqiu, don't make fun of me!" How can I have it! It just so happened that the classmates were having a party together, which was quite rare, so I came! You can't spoil other people's fun! ”
At that moment, Su Wen was full of guilt towards Xu Leqiu. always thought that Xu Leqiu had a lot of friends, Su Wen often thought that Xu Leqiu did not lack his friends, and for the sake of that ridiculous self-esteem, he didn't take the initiative to find Xu Leqiu in anger. As everyone knows, the person who has been ignoring his friends is himself.
Since when did the two people develop from the inseparable intimacy of childhood to the estrangement that they will not remember for a long, long time now? Throughout elementary school, Xu Leqiu and Su Wen were conjoined babies in the eyes of others, and when they saw one of them, they would unconsciously ask where the other one had gone? Why aren't the two of them together?
Xiaoqiu, Su Wenyi? Why didn't I see the two of you together?
Su Wen, where did Xu Leqiu go? Why aren't you with Xu Leqiu?
After the elementary school was promoted to junior high school, such seemingly redundant inquiries decreased year by year with the decreasing number of peers of the two, until no one asked the girl again, "Where did Xu Leqiu go?" Aren't you two together?" The mutual friends of each other are rapidly decreasing as the distance between the classroom increases, and to be more precise, it is Xu Leqiu who introduced Su Wen to her friends, so they have a common friend.
Su Wen was like taking "autism medicine" when he was a child, timid and cowardly, and never took the initiative to deal with people. Even if others took the initiative to show favor to Su Wen, Su Wen's timid appearance forced back many people who wanted to get close to her. For this reason, Su Wen never understood why he had taken too many "autistic drugs".
An introverted girl will never be recognized by the group of girls unless she is recognized and favored by the girls in the group as the leader. Fortunately, Su Wen, who took too much "autism medicine" when he was a child, became friends with Xu Leqiu, who was calling for wind and rain in the group of girls in the class, when he returned to his hometown from other places to transfer to another school. How did you become friends? Su Wen tried his best to recall the past, but what came to his mind was the beautiful but enthusiastic smiling face of Xu Leqiu, who was in the second grade of primary school.
That smiling face made Su Wen, who was standing at the back of the newly transferred classroom timidly looking at her new classmates, open her closed heart. Xu Leqiu's enthusiasm and kindness attracted Su Wen to get closer to her, and Xu Leqiu couldn't explain that he liked to be friends with Su Wen, so they met for the first time, and the two became close day by day, so that they became "a one-piece baby wearing the same pants" in the eyes of others.
A break with Xu Leqiu in elementary school is still vivid in Su Wen's heart, most of the girls in primary school are pampered babies at home, like to form gangs, flamboyant and coquettish, naïve age, and the girls will be called after school to announce the severance agreement, and submit the severance letter in front of everyone, assuring everyone that the two will officially break off from now on.
The two people who broke up their friendship don't count, all the girls still need to make a choice between the two people who broke up, choose which person's team to stand, from then on they are one faction, the other team is the other faction, and the two teams have broken off each other since then, and they have nothing to do with each other. Of course, the premise of setting off this battle of breaking up friendship with the girl group as the standard is that the severant agreement occupies a leading position in the girl group and has the ability to respond to every call.
Throughout the elementary school period, Xu Leqiu's status in the group of girls in their class was stable, even if Su Wen later far surpassed Xu Leqiu in terms of academic performance and the degree of love by teachers, Su Wen took too much "autism" when he was a child, even if Xu Leqiu had a good relationship with the girls in the class, in fact, Su Wen's interpersonal relationship was still linked by Xu Leqiu, and after leaving her, Su Wen's interpersonal network collapsed instantly.
So in the big breakoff incident in elementary school, since Xu Leqiu announced the severance agreement with Su Wen in the girls' group, when the girls chose the team, a large number of people resolutely stood behind Xu Leqiu, and they were evenly matched, but only three or four girls stood on Su Wen's team, but when the team was about to settle down, they quickly switched to the camp and took refuge in the obviously powerful Xu Leqiu's side.
When he was a child, Xu Leqiu was confident and flamboyant, and after the victory of the severance team, Xu Leqiu looked at Su Wen proudly. For the first time, Su Wen was hurt by his closest friend and turned around to flee the scene of the rout without saying a word, and Su Wen shed tears called sadness along the way. I forgot to go back to the classroom and carry my schoolbag home, and the next day in class, the girl was criticized by the teachers of various subjects for not completing her homework in time. But the grievances of being criticized by the teacher are far less than the sadness and grievances of being inexplicably hurt or even broken off by the closest friends.
Without Xu Leqiu, Su Wen just returned to the original appearance of taking too much "autism medicine", alone, with fewer people to talk to, but life still went on. Su Wen could feel Xu Leqiu's guilt and his desire to save face. After breaking off the relationship for more than a month, Xu Leqiu hesitated every day to apologize to Su Wen.
When I was young, I was ignorant and didn't know how to love and hate, but I was also obsessed with sincere friendship. Compared with the feeling of taking the initiative to break off friendship and then taking the initiative to ask for reconciliation and embarrassment, Xu Leqiu is more concerned about not losing Su Wen, the only friend who pays each other sincerely.
The breakup incident finally left a shadow in Su Wen's heart, although he was reconciled as before, Su Wen always remembered that he was broken off by Xu Leqiu, who was echoed by the girls in the group, and the helplessness of the single shadow came to his heart, Xu Leqiu had so many friends that he did not lack a shadow of himself and covered his heart from then on, so that the girls often hung their shadows and felt sorry for themselves, and they thought that Xu Leqiu did not need her as a friend, and no one needed herself.
However, in fact, Xu Leqiu, as Su Wen's good friend who grew up together, has always been behind her as soon as she turned around.
But why? But she can't see it?
Why, when two people grow up, they are far away from each other?
Since high school, Su Wen has been busy in his life, and suddenly remembered that he hadn't remembered for a long, long time that he had been as close as a conjoined baby.
"Hmph, no, I'm too busy to come with me now!" On the phone, Xu Leqiu said with a snort.
"Haven't you been busy studying and rehearsing dramas lately! I can't pull away every day! Su Wen was moved in his heart, and explained to his girlfriend as if begging for mercy, "I'm sorry, Xiaoqiu, I promise you, it will never be in the future!" ”
Xu Leqiu still hummed dissatisfiedly, "Okay, for your sake of being so beautiful today, I'll forgive you once!" ”