Chapter 14: I don't want to compare myself with others, I just want to surpass you

Xu Leqiu stayed away from Su Wen's life as if he had lost news, and sometimes Su Wen took the initiative to walk to the door of a class, but he couldn't find her after searching hard. finally met in the cafeteria or on the campus path, Su Wen couldn't wait to ask the doubts in her heart, but the answer to her was always her friend's avoidance and loopholes.

What is she up to? Why do you always look preoccupied? Since they met in elementary school, Su Wen and Xu Leqiu have become inseparable conjoined sisters in the eyes of others, and they never keep any secrets from each other forever and tell each other, because they are the best and most important friends in each other's lives, and they will also be the only best friends who accompany each other in life.

Prefixes such as "forever", "best", and "only" are added to the word "friend" so much that Su Wen is convinced of the relationship between "best friends" and is too sure of the friendship between the two.

When she left herself and disappeared without leaving a word, Su Wen didn't think that maybe she was not as important to the other party as she imagined. The person who has regarded the other party as his only best friend since he was a child has always been just Su Wen.

When did the conjoined sisters who were once seen by everyone start to have a distance? Girls who were once carefree with innocent smiles on their faces suddenly became mature overnight before the start of junior high school, and they no longer laughed and played heartlessly, but instead focused on their academic performance and began to worry about their future.

Yes, it is the academic performance, Su Wen suddenly thought that when the sixth grade of primary school was promoted to junior high school, Su Wen and Xu Leqiu had a big disagreement for the first time precisely because of their grades. How could Su Wen remember that little Xu Leqiu's immature face raised a stubborn and injured expression, and he roared with tears: "Why are your grades better than mine?" I'm nothing compared to you! ”

"Why are you comparing yourself to me? Do you wish I was worse than you? Little Su Wen's whole heart was hurt, and he responded stubbornly.

"I don't want to compare myself to others, I just want to surpass you!" In the sixth grade of primary school, the little Xu Leqiu pushed away Su Wen, who was standing beside her, leaving a sentence that seemed to have been backlogged for a long time and finally broke out.

Childhood always ends abruptly and suddenly, and it catches people off guard.

Su Wen froze in place in a daze, and the chill erupted from the bottom of his heart, pouring into the twigs and endings of his nerves, making Su Wen shiver uncontrollably under the hot summer sun.

After a long, long time, Su Wen realized that the chill of disappointment at that time was called chilling. And that chill comes from his "closest" friendship, a quarrel separates the sisters who were originally inseparable like conjoined babies, and the distance between them is as distant as the galaxy and the stars.

Su Wen has forgotten how the two got back together after the first estranged quarrel broke out in the sixth grade of primary school. But she followed the intermittent curve of her memory, and finally found the source of her disagreement with her friend.

Having known each other for nearly ten years, Su Wen understands Xu Leqiu's mood best, Xu Leqiu likes to compare himself with Su Wen since he was a child, and now he has squeezed into Bode by relying on his father's relationship, Xu Leqiu not only has a growing gap with Su Wen in learning, but also faces the fierce competition of the masters around him, even Su Wen, who once ranked first in the grade on the junior high school campus, is also miserable, not to mention that she is not high or low in the ordinary class on the junior high school campus?

Su Wen had expected Xu Leqiu's ranking at the bottom of the exam, although her grades were also on the verge of being at the bottom of the class, and there was an indelible difference between her and Xu Leqiu after all. The difference between a grade ranking of 86 and a grade ranking of nearly 1000 at the bottom of the class is self-evident. What's more, Bode Middle School has always had a tradition of publishing student rankings, and those who pay a little attention will notice that Xu Leqiu's results are incompatible with Bode's top class. How would she feel in her heart?

Su Wen didn't dare to think about it anymore, if Su Wen encountered this situation, I am afraid she would be even more unacceptable than Xu Leqiu.

After the exam, Su Wen was worried because he foresaw his friend's bad situation, but he never thought of a better way to comfort Xu Leqiu. It was precisely because he understood Le Qiu's sensitive self-esteem that Su Wen did not dare to easily touch the line of defense hanging in Xu Leqiu's heart.

What's more, Su Wen clearly knew that Xu Leqiu had secretly compared her with her since she was a child, with the idea of "surpassing her", and more precisely, her friends regarded her as a competitive opponent. Thinking about the dispute in the sixth grade of primary school, Su Wen Duan Ran didn't dare to touch the sensitivity in Xu Leqiu's heart.

"What's wrong with you lately? You seem to be very unhappy, and I'm a little worried about you. Su Wen was uneasy in his heart, and decided to send a text message to Xu Leqiu first. In two short sentences, Su Wen wrote and changed, changed and deleted, and finally decided on a milder version.

"Okay, Su Wen, I caught you playing with your phone!"

The boy's brisk and bright voice suddenly sounded above his head, Su Wen was shocked as if he was facing a great enemy, and hurriedly put away his mobile phone and stuffed it into the desk, raising his head and looking in panic.

The girl's eyes widened, and there was fear and panic in her eyes, like a rabbit running desperately when she ran into a pack of wolves.

"Song Yu, you're going to scare me to death, aren't you? I thought it was the head teacher! The girl glared at the boy with a hippie smile.

Boys always seem to be happy to play tricks on girls.

"Huh? What's wrong with me? As your class leader, shouldn't you be urged to study hard? Song Yu sat back in his seat facing Su Wen, resting his hands on Su Wen's desk casually, playing with the girl's stationery, looking like an adult, but his tone was full of banter.

"Yes, yes, squad leader, you're right!" Su Wen put a few strands of broken hair behind his ears, looked at the head of the class in the front seat and said helplessly, "Today is not Friday, the afternoon is all self-study class." ”

So she brought her phone to the classroom, and before she thought of a better way to comfort Leqiu, she still sent a text message to test it. Obviously, the class with his friend is just a wall, but Xu Leqiu seems to be hiding from Su Wen, and there is no one after class.

"What are your plans after school?" The boy asked casually.

"What can you do?" Su Wen looked at the boy's white face, "My family is not in the provincial capital, and I can't go home on weekends." ”

Song Yu chuckled, as if he suddenly thought of something, looked behind her over Su Wen's shoulder, made sure that Su Wen was no one in the back seat, and then urged: "Didn't Zhou Yanhong ask you to go out on the weekend?" I hear you. ”

Looking at the boy's gossip eyes, Su Wen's face turned red and white, and he said shamefully: "It's nothing." You boys are also so gossipy? ”

"No, haha, as your front desk and squad leader, I care about you!" The boy laughed and hid haha.

Zhou Yanhong is Su Wen's back table, and he is also the boy who walked arm in arm with Su Wen in the last few days of military training. When he was training in the early army, Su Wen didn't dare to look at the boy next to him out of shyness, and after witnessing the shy female classmate in the class being reprimanded by the instructor, he walked majestically and confidently with the strange boy Zhou Yanhong.

Afterwards, Su Wen used the eyes of a "city person" to educate himself that it was just a normal thing to hold arms with male classmates in a big city, and he didn't need to twist and pinch, he cared about this and that. Otherwise, wouldn't it be even more unsightly to faint in Song Yu's arms in front of everyone on the first day of military training? Every time he thinks of that erroneous hug, Su Wen's ears turn red.

As a result, the matter that originally made Su Wen shy and holding arms with boys disappeared without a trace under the influence of the eyes of the "city people". Even the hug that made Su Wen couldn't help blushing and heartbeat, was thrown out of his heart in a hurry.

But Su Wen didn't expect that on the day of the exam, she in the front seat turned sideways and passed the test paper backwards, and inadvertently looked at the boy at the back table, Su Wen recognized that the white-looking boy at the back table was the male classmate who held arms with him in military training that day. Of course, Su Wen didn't care too much about the shy eyes of the boy at the back table when he looked at him.

It's just that occasionally the sound of the two boys in the back seat talking closely will float in the ears, or more precisely, it may be the voice provoked by Shen Changdi, the boy at the back table. Suwen doesn't deliberately listen to other people's conversations, but since the topic is centered on herself, she can't care less about what others say about her.

"Don't you want to be friends with Su Wen? Then you take the initiative to talk to her! Shen Changdi blinked, pushed the boy next to him with his arm, and tried his best to encourage him.

"I, uh, I still don't want it, it's not good." Zhou Yanhong deliberately lowered his voice, left and right.

Shen Changdi had an expression of "mourning his misfortune and being angry with him", "You can't catch up with girls if you're so timid." ”

The boy's voice was full of shame, "I, I didn't say that I wanted to chase someone, don't talk nonsense." ”

"I'm really convinced of you," Shen Changdi couldn't help but roll his eyes, "Who said it there last night......

Before he finished speaking, the red-faced boy hurriedly stopped Shen Changdi, "Don't talk about you, I'll be heard later......"

"What if you hear that? Just to let her hear! "Well-intentioned but not grateful, he deserves not to chase the girl he likes.

Shen Changdi deliberately amplified the volume, causing the boy at the back table to sigh, and another movement came.

The person concerned, Su Wen, was stunned for a long time and couldn't come back to his senses.

Zhou Yanhong has a good academic performance, ranking in the top 20 of his grade in the exam, and is an authentic good student in the provincial town, but he is a shy boy. Su Wen occasionally made eye contact with him, and the boy looked at her timidly, and then looked away, showing a little shyness in his eyes. Su Wen was very puzzled by this before, until he accidentally heard the chat between the two boys behind him.

The boy sitting in the back seat of her, he's ...... Like yourself? Su Wen was ashamed of this bold imagination.

Maybe it's just a prank by someone else.

Su Wen's ignorant youth was fed all the textbooks, except for the sixth grade of primary school who received the first love letter written to him by a boy in his life, no boy has ever expressed a good impression of her. Love is such a thing, what does it look like? Su Wen has only seen it in romance novels and TV series.