I didn't understand what he meant: "Everything I want?" What are you referring to? ”

"Anything, the people you don't want to face, the gossip, the past you desperately want to forget."

Lu Chengying must be crazy, why haven't I seen him for a few days, his head seems to be short-circuited, "Lu Chengying, you can see clearly, there are some things that happen and you can't go back, I care about the past very much, but without those pasts, there would be no current me, and there would be no me in front of you." ”

"I know, so the life I want to give you is to let everything go back to two years ago, or four years ago, when you didn't know Zou Moyan."

When I mentioned Zou Moyan, I felt as uncomfortable as a thorn in my heart.

I don't want to bring it up, because now I realize that I don't know a lot about what I should have been two years ago.

"Explain to me first, how you ended up with my dad."

"Jiajia, what are you talking about? The buns are cold. My father suddenly appeared behind me at this time, I wiped my tears in a panic, looked back with a smile and said, "It's okay, it's okay." ”

The three of us sat down to eat quietly, my father was concentrating on tasting the buns, Lu Chengying didn't have much appetite, he drank some porridge after eating a boiled egg, and after sitting for a while, he said that he had something to go first.

My father asked me to send him, but I didn't want to go, so I covered it up casually.

After breakfast, I proposed to live in the place I rented, "Dad, since you are back, go to live with me, two-room, we also have a baby." ”

"I still stay in a hotel, and Chengying has been arranged." My father ignored my suggestion, "You can talk to your brother in the evening, and we will have a meal together as a family." ”

"Hmm."

"And." The father sighed, "Give me the address of your Aunt Cai's sanatorium, and I'll go see her." ”

"Okay."

I sent my father to the hotel to arrange to stay, and my father was obviously very satisfied with Lu Chengying's arrangement, and kept praising Lu Chengying for his heart, "Jiajia, I think Lu Chengying is a good child, you have been together for so long, when will you consider marriage?" ”

"What kind of marriage, Lu Chengying and I are ordinary friends."

"Nonsense, ordinary friends, can he care for me?" My father looked at me with a smile, "I heard that you talked about a boyfriend in the United States before, isn't this just a breakup, I think Lu Chengying is good, and he has been taken care of in the past two years, the young man is young, and he is still very thoughtful about doing things." ”

"Dad, how did you get to know Lu Chengying, and, how did you..." I really couldn't say the word bankrupt, so I asked in another word, "Why did you go to the United States." ”

"I followed the trend to make investments at that time, and after raising some funds, I lost all of them, and the creditors came to the door, I had no choice, let your Aunt Cai and my brother go to the United States first, but I didn't expect them to have an accident over there, I was restricted from leaving the country because of bankruptcy when I was preparing to go over, at this time, Lu Chengying came to you at home and said that it was your friend, I thought of this strategy of the golden cicada shelling, and he was also willing to help me settle in the United States, and he has been providing me with food and drink, and the etiquette is not bad at all."

I can't believe the amount of information in this, it turns out that my father used the so-called golden cicada to get out of the shell, leaving all the debt problems to me, "Then you were in the first place... To avoid debt? ”

"Those creditors are going to eat people, yes. Can I not hide? But later, I saw that Lu Chengying helped you handle things well, I asked Lu Chengying to give you some money at that time, I calculated it, if you sell the family house and a few villas and land, it shouldn't be a problem to repay the debt, but I don't want to face those people. ”

"Dad, I was... I'm only twenty-one years old, haven't you ever wondered how I'm going to deal with all this? I stood up and said sharply, "When those creditors came to the door, I almost went to the sea to be a wine lady, didn't you think about my situation?" ”

"Your brother can't count on it, so I'll count on you." Father was very calm, "Jiajia, Dad knows that what he did is wrong, but there was Lu Chengying at the time, I am very relieved, you have been held in the palm of my hand, and it is time to face some things independently." ”

It turns out that all these things I have experienced in the past two years, and the creditors I have faced, are all left to me by my father after the golden cicada came out of his shell....

Also left me a sum of money, what about that money?

So it seems that I received Zou Moyan's father's check in the first place, and it was a farce that could not have happened at all?

Originally....

Ha ha...

I finally paid for my self-righteousness.

"Jiajia; What are you stunned about? My father pushed my arm, "I'm going to rest, don't forget to ask your brother in the evening, let's eat in this hotel, I heard that the food here is pretty good." ”

I nodded, "See you in the evening." ”

After saying that, I left the room, and the moment I went out, I covered my mouth and cried.

&

I walked down the street, letting the biting cold wind blow my face, and I knew the context of my father's affairs clearly, just thinking, there were a few horns around me, I ignored it, I was absent-minded when I crossed the street, I didn't even look at whether there was a car around me, after taking a few steps, I was suddenly pulled by my arm, and then my whole person fell into a familiar embrace.

"He Jiaran, you don't have to do it this way if you want to die, right?" Zou Moyan grabbed my hand and walked to a safe place on the side, "Look at your dejected appearance, it's ugly and dead." ”

I came back to my senses a little at this time, all that was churning in my mind was what happened in my family, Zou Moyan's face was very clear in front of me, I actually smiled and asked him, "Moyan, I only regretted it before, and never felt that I was wrong, but today is different, I think it was wrong." ”

"Everyone should pay the price for their willfulness in the first place." Zou Moyan's voice was cold and abnormal, "No one is an exception. ”

"Yes, you took revenge on me before, tortured me, I still hated you, and now I don't hate it, I brought it all on myself." My fingers gently touched Zou Moyan's face, and when I touched the tip of his nose, I obviously felt his body stiffen, I put down my hand, and said with a smile, "You can do whatever you want, I am as happy as you want." ”

"You...."Zou Moyan didn't know what to say after spitting out a word, turned around and hugged me tightly in his arms, although we were both wearing thick clothes, but I could still feel the temperature of this man I loved deeply, in Zhou Luo's words, how did he hover on the edge of love and hate, I He Jiaran, do you really have that ability?

The two of us hugged each other as if no one was around, as if no one was tired, until Pan Yiming came, Zou Moyan still didn't mean to let go, Pan Yiming's face was gloomy: "Moyan, I have something to look for you." ”

Zou Moyan's expression changed, and he let go of me, "Wait for me." ”

He got into the car with Pan Yiming, I didn't stand still, turned around and walked to the opposite place.

In the morning rush hour in the imperial capital, there are always more cars than people, so I wiped my tears and took a taxi back to the line.

And some things, once they have begun, cannot be ended.

Two years of experience have taught me that no matter what happens, people have to look forward and move forward.

As soon as I arrived at the office, Lu Chengying's call came in, and he wanted to have dinner together at noon, but I politely refused.

I really don't know how to face Lu Chengying, and now that I don't want to face it, I might as well shrink into my shell and protect myself carefully.

&

I was the last to arrive at the hotel in the evening, before I gave my father's address to my brother, they had arrived, my sister-in-law was diligently pouring tea for my father, my brother was chatting with my father about something, they saw me enter the door, and asked me to sit down with a smile.

"Jiajia, you sit here, that seat is Chengying."

I looked at the empty seat next to me and was stunned for a moment, "Isn't it our family's party?" What is he doing here? ”

My father's face changed when he was teased by me, and my sister-in-law played a round on the side, "Dad said that Lu Chengying took care of him when he was in the United States, and he called him to dinner today to thank him in person." ”

"Uncle Lu, am I late?" Lu Chengying appeared at the door in a hurry, and then sat down next to me very consciously, he was not the slightest unnatural, and beckoned the waiter to take out a hot towel to wipe my hands, "Jiajia, did you just come?" ”

I nodded, and moved to the side.

The dinner was explained by Lu Chengying, the dishes were incomparably exquisite, my sister-in-law had never seen it, and I was desperately taking pictures, although my father didn't say anything to my sister-in-law who had never seen the world, but I could clearly see that he couldn't look down on it.

My brother was eating the whole time, and occasionally accosted a few words, so he didn't say anything, Lu Chengying and his father talked about some business matters, I couldn't interject, and after eating a meal, my heart was very panicked,

"I'll go to the bathroom." I stood up, and as soon as I went out, Lu Chengying chased after me, he knew that I was unhappy, and coaxed in a low voice, "Jiajia, what's wrong?" ”

"Lu Chengying, did my father give you a sum of money to pay off my family's debts?"

Lu Chengying was stunned, "Yes." ”

"That is to say, if I hadn't gone to Zou Moyan's father to ask for money back then, the money in your hand would have been enough for me to pay off these debts, right?"

Lu Chengying did not deny it, "It's...."

"You .....," I closed my eyes, feeling sad to the limit, "then why didn't you tell me?" If I had that money back then, I wouldn't have accepted Zou Moyan's father's money, and that wouldn't have happened between me and Zou Moyan! ”

"Jiajia, I gave you money back then, you didn't want it, you went to find Zou Moyan's father, you wanted to break up with Zou Moyan, it was you who said you hated him during that fire, have you forgotten?" Lu Chengying shook my shoulder, "Jiajia, wake up, there is no going back between you and him, even if there are no such things, it is impossible between you!" ”

"Why?"

"Because...," Lu Chengying's eyes lowered, and he said after a long time, "After you met Zou Moyan's father that night, he died violently." ”