Why? Su Wen also wanted to ask himself.

His thoughts suddenly drifted far, far away, so far that Su Wen even felt that he had forgotten about it.

At that time, Su Wen was still immature in junior high school, with a long ponytail, a gray face, and a black T-shirt and blue jeans all day long. The cheeks are so white that they are almost transparent, and the black clothes make the girl's face show a little sickly paleness, which looks quite like a combination of black and white impermanence, Su Wen often teases himself like this in his heart.

Black, that is the color that is closest to the color of life in Su Wen's junior high school. Wearing black on her body, Su Wen seemed to be coated with a protective film, and when she wore black clothes, she seemed to be able to resist all harm from the outside world. And black, like another herself, gives her endless companionship and comfort.

is such a grizzled Su Wen, but in Wenxi County Middle School, he is a leader in the eyes of many teachers and classmates.

The teachers never hesitated to praise Su Wen: "Look at Su Wen, you are the first in the class in the homework test and the first in the grade in every exam!" Don't learn much from Su Wen? ”

"You look at you, you know how to dress up all day long, is it useful to dress up? Does dressing up give you extra points? Su Wen won't think about how to dress up every day like you casual girls, you have to be able to work half as hard as Su Wen, and your academic performance will not be so bad! ”

How many homeroom teachers and teachers use such words to motivate students who are not motivated to study, especially girls who are smart but want to dress up with backward academic performance. The person concerned, Su Wen, ignored it, as if the object of the teacher's praise was not himself.

What about the disgraced face? In the eyes of the teachers, Su Wen's dress is clean and tidy, and it looks comfortable and pleasing to the eye. And many girls in the class with poor academic performance are obsessed with non-mainstream styles, and their hair is disheveled all day long, with long hair and thick bangs that can cover a face. In the eyes of their non-mainstream girls, only girls who dress themselves differently from ordinary clothes can show their unique personality. And girls like Su Wen, whose academic performance far surpasses them and who are dressed up in grizzle, are undoubtedly the objects they are most willing to ridicule.

Therefore, the so-called "inspired" female classmates often use Su Wen as a punching bag, but Su Wen is a girl who only has outstanding academic performance but is weak and can be bullied, and the girls who are inspired by the teacher to use Su Wen as a shield all hate Su Wen, as if the person who educates them in public and makes them lose face is not the teacher, but the always high and always indifferent and arrogant Su Wen.

So Su Wen was innocently involved in this scuffle between girls, and it was her fault that she had good academic performance? It's also her fault that she was praised by her teachers to motivate them? It's also her fault that she is introverted and doesn't like to talk?

In short, even if Su Wen doesn't do anything, as long as her people stand there, in the eyes of the girls in the class, she is some kind of existence worthy of criticism and even slander.

"What's wrong with me dressing myself? What is the matter with Mr. Guan? Do you want me to learn Su Chinese? Just like her dirty buns, is it worth learning from me? ”

"It's not good to look at Su Wen, what if you study well?"

"With a cold face all day long, it's like you owe her two hundred and five, and your grades are good and amazing? Act like a snob! ”

"I hate people like Su Wen who think they are high and pretend to be high!"

Even if Su Wen deliberately immersed himself in learning, all kinds of gossip voices behind him would still come to his eardrums from all directions. It's not that I haven't had doubts, I know that I haven't done anything, I know that I am conscientious, I have always kept to myself, I never gossip about others, and I never hurt others, why did I become the target of public criticism?

Is it her fault for studying well, her fault for being praised by the teacher, and her fault for being silent?

However, she did nothing wrong.

I once saw such a sentence in a book: There are two things in the world that cannot be looked at, one is the sun, and the other is the human heart.

It wasn't until I really experienced the feeling that I realized what a chilling thing it was.

Over time, Su Wen became more and more distant from group activities, and had a deep fear of hurtful girls, which led to Su Wen's fear and avoidance of the entire interpersonal communication. Aside from studying, she no longer cares about anything in her class, and if she doesn't have to, she rarely even interacts with her classmates.

Life in junior high school seems to be only black and white, the black part is gloomy interpersonal communication, and the white part is the only light that represents hope.

She was like a person who had fallen into the abyss of darkness, neither one had ever grabbed her when she fell, nor had anyone have rescued her from the darkness when she fell. She didn't know how deep the abyss was, all she knew was that she kept falling.

At that time, Su Wen felt that her life was extremely bad, and she didn't even understand why her life had come to that point. At first, he was just quiet and introverted, and he didn't like to talk, but with his excellent academic performance, Su Wen's popularity was not too bad. Later, more and more people came to see that she was unpleasant, and her voice of sarcasm behind her back became more and more chaotic, and Su Wen once wondered if she had done something wrong unintentionally. No matter how careful she is to get along with others, there will always be girls who find fault with her in different ways.

So Su Wen became more and more out of the group, thinking that if she didn't get close to the group of girls, she wouldn't be hurt in any way.

However, it turns out that if you don't get into trouble, trouble will come to you.

The more things are avoided, the more they will take the initiative to come to the door.

Sometimes fate is such an elusive thing.

When he was in junior high school, Su Wen simply boarded at school in order to save time to go home, even if boarding meant that he had to face the thorny girls in adolescence every day. Su Wen, who is psychologically mature and sensible, often treats those little girls with thorns with the eyes of naïve children, not the same kind of people, so naturally there is no need to walk together.

Su Wen never stood in line with the girls, she often left early and returned late, except for the daily activities that must be carried out in the dormitory, Su Wen hardly stayed in the dormitory during the day. Although Su Wen is withdrawn, she has always tried her best to do what she should do, and it is her turn to clean the dormitory, and she has never fallen behind.

But this is such Su Wen, Su Wen, who spends a lot of time reading books and doing questions every day, is far away from the noise of girls, and his life is so calm that it seems that only textbooks and homework are left. Su Wen finally found a quiet life of his own, but he didn't want to, suddenly one day, that late autumn night, Su Wen walked through the dark playground alone, returned from self-study in the classroom, and as soon as he returned to the dormitory, he was treated as an enemy by a non-mainstream female classmate in the class.

Su Wen was puzzled, what happened to this? She didn't do anything.

The non-mainstream girls usually closed the dormitory door with a bang, and the other female students in the dormitory gathered around the non-mainstream girls as if they were lively, talking about something.

"I lost a hundred dollars last week, and I thought I had done it myself." The big eyes of the non-mainstream girls like copper bells shine with a chilling light under the heavy bangs.

"And then? Found it now? Su Wen asked the girls with a concerned face, looking at the group of girls opposite in confusion, and the fear and uneasiness in his heart spread up little by little, "What does this have to do with me?" ”

"You're still pretending to be with me?" The corner of the non-mainstream girl named Wang Ling hooked up a sneer, "We all know that you stole my money, what are you pretending to be?" ”

The blood all over his body seemed to freeze at that moment, and the chill of the autumn night was actually bitterly cold. Su Wen froze in place in shock, and even his voice trembled, "I didn't, did you misunderstand?" ”

"Misunderstanding? Could this be misunderstood? Wang Ling hugged his arms and sneered, "Hehe, I saw you take a hundred yuan to charge a meal card at night, that's my money you stole from me." ”

It's not an inquiry, it's a declarative sentence that is too ordinary to be ordinary.

The literal meaning is so clear that there is no ambiguity, you stole my money.

"That's my own money! I didn't steal you, and I'll never do anything like that! Su Wen's brows were tightly furrowed, and he was so anxious that tears were about to fall.

"If I were a thief, I would never do such a thing!" Wang Ling was domineering, her tone was arrogant and affirmative, and her righteous words seemed as if she was really seeking justice for her, the victim.

"I really don't!" Su Wen was so anxious that he would only say such a sentence to defend himself.

"Hmph, usually you are always alone, we are together in the dormitory except for you, who else will it be if you don't steal?" Wang Ling's eyes widened with anger, and he spoke so fast that he did not allow others to defend himself.

"That's right, Wang Ling's money wasn't stolen by you, who else could it be?"

"Alone all day, who knows what she's doing in her dorm room alone while we're away!"

"Look at her rustic appearance, it must be that the family has no money to buy her clothes! If you don't have any money, you will steal us! ”

"That's it, what kind of good student is it, the character is so bad that it's not as good as us!"

"Tomorrow we will report to the teacher, so that everyone can see Su Wen's ugly true face, Su Wen is a person whose family is so poor that he can only steal other people's money!"

The girls were babbling about Su Wen's trial, and the scene was as lively as a vegetable market aunt bargaining with a vegetable seller for a few catties and taels.

The sharp and piercing voice rushed towards Su Wen at once, Su Wen couldn't control it anymore and let the tears gush out, she desperately held back the huge bitterness in her throat, and her voice couldn't stop trembling, "I didn't, I didn't, I really didn't!" ”

"Pretend to be pitiful? Will you cry? You think you're amazing, don't you? Wang Ling's vicious words struck again.

"You say I stole the money, do you have any proof? Is it not true that your conscience will not be hurt if you have wronged people without such empty words? ”

Do they have a conscience?

His heart seemed to be torn apart in an instant, and the gloom and bitterness of the past coupled with the vicious humiliation of that night, Su Wen felt that his heart was in pain, and he was bleeding outward.

Su Wen regretted it, why did she live in boarding at school, why did she live under the same roof with a group of unreasonable girls?

"The evidence has been ruined by you, haven't you already charged the money to the meal card? What else are you pretending to be with me? I've already seen the through you! ”

"I said it was my own money, my own! I've never done anything to steal, and if I didn't do it, I didn't do it! For the first time, Su Wen yelled hysterically in front of the girls in the class, "You go and tell the teacher, let the teacher check!" ”

"Hehe, who doesn't know that all the teachers prefer you? What's the use of talking to those teachers? Will he do justice for me? It's a laughing death. Wang Ling pressed step by step, sarcastically word by word.

Su Wen only knew that she had been falling into the abyss, and that night, she had completely fallen to the bottom, and her body and heart were torn in pain.

She shouted hoarsely, but countless words of "I didn't do it" could not get even the slightest trust from anyone.

This is the real dip, right? Without experiencing something worse, you will never know where the bad pole is.