Chapter 696: Identity Disparity
Isn't Sister Yixin a good example? She never hid her identity as an orphan, but she still did well. Therefore, her approach has given herself a lot of encouragement, and she has figured out some things, just be yourself, and don't need to care too much about the rest.
In other words, I was not so brave before, I didn't come here, and I didn't dare to directly admit that I was an illegitimate daughter, and I always felt that after I said it, people would definitely look at me with strange eyes.
In short, at that time, I also thought a lot, and I have been hiding my identity, and I don't dare to mention my family casually with the people around me, whenever I mention it, I will say that I have parents and ordinary people, in fact, what they don't know is that they do have parents, but they are just an illegitimate daughter.
How can people who have not experienced this kind of bitterness be able to understand their own feelings? At that time, I was in such a state of mind, always worrying, will anyone know that I am an illegitimate daughter, and how will they see themselves at that time?
It wasn't until later, after I came to work in the coffee bookstore, that after getting along with Shu Yixin, I gradually understood that in fact, I didn't have to care about other people's eyes so much in many cases. After all, those are very impractical things, how people want to see themselves, that is other people's business, why worry too much.
"I really didn't think of this, and it wasn't you who took the initiative to say it, I thought you were just an ordinary college student, but I didn't expect you to have such an identity." Ren Xiaoou has never been such a gossip person, she didn't say it before, so she naturally didn't find out about this problem, and thought she was just an ordinary college student.
Ren Xiaoou was indeed a little frightened by her words, maybe she never thought about it, after all, when she was usually in contact with her, she also thought that she was an optimistic and cheerful girl, but she didn't expect her to have such a life experience.
Sure enough, everyone has their own secrets, their own unspeakable secrets, and their own problems, don't just look at how beautiful the surface is, in fact, it is not as good as you look on the surface.
"I didn't dare to mention it to anyone before, I was an illegitimate daughter, and I was also afraid that people would look down on me, after coming here, my mind changed, I understand that the eyes of others don't care so much, the important thing is what I think." These words have always been in my heart, but I have never had a chance to say them, and I don't know who to say them.
I really don't want to live like that anymore, and I worry all day about whether my illegitimate daughter's identity will be exposed, and whether the people around me will know that such a day is too depressing.
"No wonder you understand these truths, from childhood to adulthood, because of this identity, you should have borne a lot of infamy, and you also feel very wronged." Ren Xiaoou hugged the girl in front of him distressedly, and suddenly, he figured out that everyone is not simple, nor is it easy.
"Actually, it's not good to get used to it, after all, I can't change these things, most of the time since I was a child, I have been dependent on my mother, as for my dad, although he often comes to see us, except for my dad, I haven't seen any other family members, and my dad has never mentioned to take me home, maybe my so-called family members, don't know that there is a me." In fact, he is not much better, but he is not as bad as Sister Yixin, who is an orphan.
Although she is an illegitimate daughter, other people do not admit her existence, but her parents still love her, at least she can see them often, at least she has no worries about food and clothing in life.
"These are things you can't change, and you can see that your dad is actually very good to you." Ren Xiaoou could only comfort her at the moment, after all, those things were not what she wanted, and these things were not something she had the ability to change.
"Don't worry, these things are not so important to me for a long time, and I have seen many things." Ye Zi didn't think there was anything, after all, although she was an illegitimate daughter, her father was really good to herself.
From childhood to adulthood, I have made myself worry-free about food and clothing, and I don't have to worry about food and clothing at all. If you have time, you will often accompany yourself.,It's just that your identity can't be confessed to the world.,Other than this.,I really don't have anything else to worry about.。
"Okay, don't talk about it, don't think about those unhappy things, just know that you exist, and don't care what others think." After Ren Xiaoou listened to her words, she still felt a little sorry for her, such a young child had to bear this.
After knowing this, I really sighed that it is not easy for everyone, they all have their own unspeakable secrets, and they all have their own sorrows.
"I used to care a lot about coming here, but after that, I slowly learned, I didn't care so much, but now I also understand what I should pursue, and I don't dare to think too much about the rest." After all, there is still no fate, and I am just a person.
I used to want my dad to take me back to his house and see the rest of my family. Let them know that they are still alone.
But I had already figured it out before, I was not reluctant to do this kind of thing, and I didn't have such longing thoughts. Because I don't think it's so important anymore, as long as I live well, there is no need to cause trouble for others.
"Don't they all know you exist? You've never met them before, aren't you worried about the awkwardness of meeting them in the future? "I never thought that Yezi, who was young and lively in appearance, was just an illegitimate daughter.
"I don't know, although they know that my dad has someone outside, and maybe they know that there is an illegitimate daughter, but they never know that person is me." They have never been exposed, and it is normal for them not to know that it is themselves.
It may be that a wealthy family like them doesn't care about illegitimate daughters like themselves at all. It is even more impossible to let yourself confess to the Lord and return to the sect or something, and fend for themselves, just don't get in the way of them.
"Aren't you worried that sooner or later they will come to the door, and then you and your mother's situation will become very embarrassing." Although I know very well that many people in this society are okay now, rich people will have illegitimate daughters outside.
But those things never happened in front of my eyes, I just knew that there was such a thing, but I never really experienced it.
"There shouldn't be that day, my dad never told me that he wanted me to recognize my ancestors and return to my ancestors, he just let me and my mother live a good life, financially worry-free about food and clothing, as for the rest, it should not be delusional, except for the matter of recognizing my ancestors and returning to my ancestors, everything else is easy to say." Since I was a child, I also said to myself that I have a father and a mother, so there was nothing different from others before, and as for what the illegitimate daughter herself can't care about so much.
"If you can live such a peaceful life, it's just worrying, your wife will come over to make trouble, and the last person to be embarrassed is you." Ren Xiaoou clearly knew that Ye Zi was innocent, and she didn't want to be an illegitimate daughter, but what else could be done to change this fact.
For her, this matter cannot be changed at all, and it is not something she can control, she can only be content with the status quo, face the reality, and face her identity as an illegitimate daughter.
"Actually, I don't know much about these things, I only know that I have a big brother, and as for the rest, I don't care much." As long as you do your best, you really can't manage the others, and you can't manage them.
If they really want to come to the door, then they can only cope. I don't know if this day will come, but I never thought of backing down.
"If your eldest brother knew that he would be quite happy to have a sensible sister like you." It can be seen that Ye Zi is still very eager for the family, and it can only be said that every family has a scripture that is difficult to read.
"I don't dare to think about these things, in other words, the identity gap is too big, how can you recognize me as a sister, you say yes." In their eyes, they shouldn't exist, so they don't dare to expect how good they are to themselves.
"In the end, it is still a gap in identity, and when will this problem be solved?" Ren Xiaoou felt that he knew so many things, and in the end, he couldn't escape this gap in identity.
"Since I don't know how to solve it, I don't want to think about it, I have to get by, and I'll talk about it when I really have to face it, in short, I believe that there is no endless road, and the boat will naturally go straight to the bridge." At this time, I can't figure it out even if I think so much, so why bother thinking about it?
It's better to think about nothing, it's better to let go of everything and be yourself.
Ye Zi has seen a lot, and she also knows that some things can't be forced, and the ones that are barely earned don't belong to her at all, so it's not good to be frank and honest now, and it's not uncommon for people to be big.
How can people have money is someone else's business, and they have nothing to do with themselves, they have to work hard, study hard, and there will be a good way out in the future, so why rely on others to live.
I don't want to be like my mother for the rest of my life, I don't do anything for a man, this kind of life is not what I want at all, I want to work hard for what I want, I don't want others to give alms, and I don't want to get something that doesn't belong to me.
Their Ye family has a big business, but those who have nothing to do with themselves have half a dime, and they never expect to be able to become Miss Ye family one day, and they only know that they are already very satisfied with what they are like now.