Chapter 440: Responsible for Me
Cheng Ziyu believed!
Li Chun swore that he was not comforting her, but that he really thought so! It's not that he loves the house and Wu Cai to approve of her, but after thinking and analyzing.
His eyes flashed with sincerity, and the spoiled Wang was deeper than the water in the pond and clearer than the water in the lake. So he didn't lie.
Her terrible life was not denied by him. The knot in her heart seemed to be untied.
He had a point, at least convinced her.
Not to feel like Atlas any longer!
The big stone that weighed on my heart disappeared.
At this moment, Cheng Ziyu's tears flowed in two lines.
Who can know how miserable her past life was.
Before she was fourteen years old, although she was recognized by the entire Jingxi, she had always worked hard. Writing, drawing, drawing, thinking about formulas, remembering formulas, thinking about designing, making designs, learning theories, learning operations, climbing mountains to see mines, practicing mines and mud. The entire Jingxi can't find a more diligent apprentice than her!
Just because she knew that she was talented and was the most likely person in the entire Cheng family to inherit her skills. It's just because the old man has high hopes for her. It's just because my mother often said that there is no successor to the long house, and if she can't do it, the Cheng family is afraid that it will go downhill......
Therefore, when other girls are turning the rope and kicking the shuttlecock, she is already learning to match the mud, when other girls start to learn female red, she is already following the old man to climb the mountain and knock on the ore, and when other girls learn from the female ring, she has learned to write a freehand calligraphy and painting, and has been able to take a small carving knife in the air to carve on the pottery embryo, and has been able to make a medium-grade pottery pot......
The hard work paid off, she became, became the glory of Jingxi, the youngest leader of the Dou Tao Conference, and was famous all over the country at a young age. She has earned the Cheng family a word-of-mouth reputation and a large number of orders. She thought that as long as this development was carried out, the Cheng family could continue to grow.
But the old man was sick, the illness came like a mountain, the pressure plummeted, there were repeated accidents at home and in the workshop, and there were problems with the goods sent. The Cheng family was accused of going to the yamen, and the waves were unsettled and rising again and again, and she was in a hurry, and it was difficult for her to breathe. She grabbed Zhu Changan's life-saving straw and finally floated ashore by him.
Shocked and small, she had to find a big tree to cover her. But after entering Beijing, she was even more tired. She not only has to take care of the family, but also help Zhu Changan, help him make suggestions, help him maneuver around the harem, and help him please the nobles......
The imperial doctor said, to recuperate, to recuperate! But she doesn't have time! There's so much she has to do! She wants to earn silver, earn face, earn a future, earn a backer, and help him earn a world...... Because she knew that only his big tree with lush branches could allow her and the Cheng family to enjoy the shade.
Soon, her body was lost. Otherwise, she would not have been able to be favored and have no children for several years of marriage. She was afraid that he would be disappointed, so she begged for medicine everywhere. However, while she was busy during the day and quietly studying the blueprints and recipes for the Thunderbolt clay shell at night, he struck her with a backhand, straight to the heart of her fist......
The Queen Mother fell, and so did she. She didn't even have time to check how the Queen Mother died, so she was locked up in a small courtyard. Nightmares followed......
They poisoned her, ruined her hands, cursed her, insulted her, tortured her, and the bad news came, stabbing her in the heart, and she kept asking herself, what did she do wrong? Where did it start wrong? Why is the whole world and everyone working against her? She's done her best!
She thought that after entering the painting and dying at her feet, when she nodded back to Jingxi, these mistakes should stop. But when she saw the tragic scenes of Jingxi with her own eyes, she couldn't forgive herself!
A powerful hatred had long since overwhelmed her.
Yes, she put in all her efforts, but she didn't grow the family and buried the family. She fed Zhu Chang'an's family and strengthened King An's mansion, but there was no place for her beside him! What is the death of the family, even her minions can't be saved, even her ancestral inheritance, family reputation, inheritance skills are gone, and even the prosperity and pillar industries of her hometown are gone.
All of this has to find the source, right?
Zhu Chang'an? Or who?
But even if he succeeded in killing Zhu Changan, it would be useless. She still hurts, she still hates, and she still can't make up for the loss. This hatred, this hatred, is still there.
As the head of the Cheng family, Jingxi's glory, she has no ability to recover her debts, so she puts all the sins on herself. Who told her that the turning point of everything began in her?
She felt that she was responsible!
Therefore, even if she was reborn, she never forgave herself in her heart.
She smiled very little, and her happiness was only faint. Because she felt she wasn't qualified.
Midnight dreams, either red patches of blood, or red fire. Either drown her or burn her.
It was Li Chun who rescued her!
Without him, she might have been able to take revenge, but she would still not be happy. She will always live her life with guilt.
And at this moment, after he cut through the piles in his way, the boulder of anguish in his heart disappeared, and she suddenly became enlightened.
What a blessing!
You can meet him in your past life and get his heart, if you only look at this, in fact, God has already treated her very well, isn't it?
She cried tears of joy and hugged him, but gradually let go.
She sat facing him, cautious.
"So, I told you everything. I used to be Zhu Chang'an's princess, I loved him, I lived with him for four years, I did many things for him, I still had his child in my belly when I died, do you mind? ……”
"I'm ......" Li Chun was about to speak, but she covered her mouth.
"Listen to me before you answer me. I just want to tell the truth, I don't need mercy or lies, and I don't need you to say anything responsible. If you are not happy, there is a gap, there is a thorn in your heart, you need time to think clearly, slow down, wait, I understand. If you want to leave or let go, I will naturally ......"
Her mouth was gagged.
by his lips.
"You're enough!"
His lips did not leave, and a low, hoarse voice came from his throat, not clear, but firm, with a hint of annoyance. "You've accepted my dowry, do you want to demolish the bridge after crossing the river?"
Seeing that she didn't speak, he curled his lips and held her face, and said with hatred:
"The master's real estate has been bought, and half of his net worth has been given to you, what do you have to hesitate about! Am I so superficial that I can't get along with the choices you've ever had to make? And it's from the last lifetime! Yes, I am unwilling, and that is also because of Zhu Changan! He has you but does not cherish you and keep you, he gets you but still exhausts you. I can't wait to him to feed the dogs! The fact that I was defeated at the hands of such a scumbag really makes me angry. But I also want to thank him, without him, time would not have turned back, and you and I would not have had the opportunity to do it again. I am not as cheap as him in the dust, how can I see that I am a world away from him! Hmph, don't say that again. I'm not going to leave and I won't let go, and I don't know how to prove it. But in the previous life, I gave my life to you, and in this life my people, my life, and everything I have are yours. If you don't believe it, time will tell! Then you will take a lifetime to verify it! How is it? ”
He spoke in one breath, without a single pause.
Cheng Ziyu only nodded except for tears.
He was so good, so good that she couldn't help but complain that she didn't find out how good he was in her previous life.
She was obviously the one who came to confess tonight, but it became his enlightenment to her.
Thanks to him, all the knots and apprehensions in her heart were untied. At this point, she has nothing to hide from him, and she can finally cherish him with all her heart.
Perhaps, God let her come back, but also saw his truth, and wanted her to make up for her regrets, right?
She hugged him tightly, and she was delighted like she had never felt before. A love that is stronger than the night fills my heart, and I can't dissolve it anymore.
But he spoke.
"You understand my intentions, but what about yours? You said that you are here to make up for this life, do you really like me or really make up for it? But because I died for you in my previous life, you are ashamed of me, so you chose me in this life? ”
"What do you say?" She hugged him so tightly, "Do you hear my heartbeat?" ”
"No ......" is impossible. Her heart was pounding and heavy, and of course he knew. Moreover, a long time ago, she would blush when she looked at him, and he would take advantage of him because she was nervous when she talked to him, and her eyes had a beating light. Perhaps, she liked him earlier than he knew.
"Then I'll take a lifetime to verify, how about it?" She copied his words.
"Then the master will give you a chance."
"I want to make up for you and be ashamed of you, but I also really like you and want to be with you, so, Li Chun, I will protect you in the future! Also, take good care of you, you will have a family in the future, you will have me! ”
"Very good!"
On the way back, Cheng Ziyu couldn't help but ask: "If I answer you, I am not with you because of love, but just want to make up for the guilt, will you be disappointed and leave?" ”
"No!"
Li Chun did not hesitate, "I will still be good to you, and let you die for me sooner or later." ”
"What if I like other people?"
"Then I'll get you back! But ......"
"But what?" Cheng Ziyu raised her eyes to look at him and saw that he was looking disgusted.
"Master is so hard-working, so outstanding, so outstanding, if you still can't look down on it, how blind should you be? Besides......"
"Say anything more?"
"I know you're not with me because you're guilty, otherwise, how would you still offer to let me in? Aren't you afraid I'll scare you away? In front of your family, the guilt for me has to be leaned back. So, in order to warm up your piece of ice, the master worked hard to lose weight. If you want to say that you feel guilty, it is better to say that the master has influenced you! Remember to make up for it in the future! ”
"Then you still ask me if I'm guilty...... Cheng Ziyu sighed, and was surrounded by him again. Talk to him, never win. The shrewdness and sharpness of being with others will disappear. The slightest frustration...... But it's not sad, it's a little sweet.
"In your heart, the family is more important."
"I ...... It's just that I used to think that I was not qualified to think about my personal affairs until the crisis was resolved, and with my past and my poisonous oath, I ......"
"I understand. In your past and present lives, you put your family first and fight with all your might, and I like you like this. Show that you are trustworthy, reliable, and responsible. I follow you, I feel very secure, you will definitely be responsible for me, you will not abandon me, you will not empathize with me, you will definitely grow old with me, right? ”
Cheng Ziyu smiled like a fool and bit him on the chest.
"Leave a tooth mark, make a mark, multiple vouchers, heaven and earth as a reference. Let's bite hard. ”
"Li Chun, I will love you well and cherish you! Heaven and earth, sun, moon and stars are for example! "Her chest was hot, hot.
From now on, he, like her family, is what she must protect, and it is the most important. Whoever wants to take it, she will find whoever she wants to fight hard......
At the end of the night, when the night was at its deepest, the two rode back to Pan's house.
Of course, it took a lot of work.
After all, most of the guests were scattered, although it was an all-night banquet, but at this time, most of them walked away, drunk and drunk, and many of those who stayed were asleep, and it was very deserted outside the second door.
Xia Wei waited at the intersection.
"Zhu Changan found that the heroine was missing, and he kept looking around."
Li Chun and Cheng Ziyu immediately looked at each other when they heard this, and they had some tacit understanding......
Li Chun's people transferred the guards, Cheng Ziyu was still dressed as a palace maid, stood behind the other two palace maids, and followed Li Chun back to the Pan family banquet.
Li Chun looked drunk and entered a guest house, but after a few breaths, he was the only one who came out.
He deliberately closed the courtyard gate and looked left and right before leaving with a smile......
And Cheng Ziyu changed back into clothes.
At this time, compared to when she left, the entire back garden was less than a tenth of the previous guests.
In an hour or so, it should be dawn.
Cheng Ziyu thought about it, and went back to sleep for two hours first.
However, the courtyard door could not be opened.
The two palace maids left behind by Li Chun had already fallen to the ground and fainted.
Before Cheng Ziyu could step forward to check whether they had been knocked unconscious or hit by smoke, he saw that the haunting Zhu Changan appeared in the shadow of the door.
"Where have you been?" His eyes were full of yin, and he opened his mouth with a yin measure.
This compound is remote, so it was selected by them, and Zhu Changan was able to come in quietly, thinking that there were already people outside. If she wants to go out easily, I'm afraid it won't be easy.
"What does it have to do with you?"
"You went out with Li Chun?"
"It's none of your business!"
"I just saw Li Chun go out."
"So what? Mind yourself! ”
"You...... What a shit! It's Zhu Changzhe during the day, and Li Chun at night, how cheap are you? ”
"I'm so unbearable that you still come to me, you won't be cheap? How many times have I told you that I don't want to see you! ”
"Do you really think you're the county lord? How dare you talk to me like that? ”
"Do you really think you're King An? Am I still your prisoner? I know that you can't accept the despair that you don't have anything under your control, and you can't accept the gap between your past and present lives. What can I do? It's just getting started. You will become more and more desperate and miserable! ”
"What a big breath!"
"Then guess where my confidence comes from?"
"Do you think that if you become the lord of the county and attach the prince and general, you can fight me? No matter how bad I am, I am also a prince, and as soon as I give an order, someone will rush in and kill you! ”
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