That year, I was in the fifth grade of elementary school.

The potential contradiction with Su Wen has been accumulated in Xu Leqiu's heart for many years, and his emotions have rushed out of his heart and lungs again and again, but there is nowhere to go, until he is completely exposed in the spring outing.

The reason for the quarrel still makes Su Wen unable to figure it out, the whole class went to the plant potted exhibition garden under the leadership of the head teacher to watch, the bus stopped at the destination, Xu Leqiu got off the bus one step ahead of Su Wen, and was about to jump off the last bus step, but he didn't want the long dress skirt to remain on the steps, and was coincidentally stepped on by Su Wen, who was about to get off. Xu Leqiu was pulled forward by inertia and fell directly at the foot of the passenger door of the bus, and Su Wen fell straight to her side in order to avoid Xu Leqiu who fell to the ground.

Such an accident should not have been pursued, but Xu Leqiu, who was screaming in pain on his knees, burst out with nameless anger in his heart, and insisted that Su Wen had deliberately stepped on her new skirt, so that she fell off the bus.

The memory of being vexatious when he was a child still exists in his memory, and when he grew up, Xu Leqiu couldn't understand the feeling of insisting that Su Wen deliberately caused him to fall.

Su Wen also fell hard, but when she reacted, the first thing she said was, "Xiaoqiu, are you okay?" Have you ever been injured in a fall? ”

Faced with Xu Leqiu's crackling questioning and unreasonable blame, Su Wen covered his sore knee and repeated over and over again with tears in his eyes: "Xiaoqiu, I really didn't mean it, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." ”

The nameless anger in his heart continued to erupt, and it was useless for the head teacher to persuade him on the side, until Su Wen frowned tightly and had a guilty look on his face, Xu Leqiu felt bored.

In that quarrel, everyone naturally thought that Su Wen had done something wrong unilaterally to anger Xu Leqiu, and afterwards Xu Leqiu was determined to compete with Su Wen, and called the whole class of girls to secretly gather on the playground after school, and announced his words in righteous words, and then took out the letter of renunciation that had been prepared and handed it to Su Wen with a stubborn face, saying that all girls must choose to stand in line, and those who choose Su Wen will not be able to associate with the girls who choose Xu Leqiu in the future. In short, the girls will be automatically divided into two factions with Xu Leqiu and Su Wen as the selection conditions, and the two factions exist independently and do not get along with each other.

If there was no Xu Leqiu, even if the introverted and timid Su Wen was favored by the teachers, the classmates would not have been close to her, and the stars cast envious glances at Su Wen like the moon. To a certain extent, a large part of Su Wen's popularity in the class is that she is good friends with Xu Leqiu, and it is Xu Leqiu's extensive popularity in the class that brings Su Wen's popularity.

If Xu Leqiu hadn't been there for Su Wen as the link between Su Wen and his classmates, Su Wen would have been like the first day he appeared, timidly huddled in a corner of the classroom, no one cared. Xu Leqiu was extremely sure of this, and he was completely sure in his heart, and the direction of the result was predictable.

At first, there were so many girls who chose Su Wen, but the vast majority of girls did not hesitate to stand on Xu Leqiu's team, and several girls on Su Wen's team hurriedly returned to Xu Leqiu's huge team before the severance agreement was finalized.

Su Wen stood in place stupidly the whole time, the book in his hand seemed to weigh a million pounds, like a wounded deer, and his eyes were full of helplessness and injury. Su Wen, who is in the fifth grade of elementary school, no longer combs his two long braids, and a ponytail is weakly put on the back of his head.

Xu Leqiu vented the pent-up anger in his heart, and looked at Su Wen with no one standing behind him triumphantly, but this scene made Xu Leqiu suddenly think of the scene when the two met for the first time, and Su Wen also stood helplessly.

In the end, Su Wen couldn't help but redden, she didn't leave a word, turned around and ran towards the school gate, and didn't even turn back to the classroom to carry her schoolbag home, still holding the letter of renunciation written by Xu Leqiu herself.

Looking indifferently at the direction in which Su Wen ran away, Xu Leqiu's face was filled with a smug smile that belonged to the winner, she pretended that she had never seen the strings of crystals that slipped off her cheeks at the moment when Su Wen turned around, and the thoughts of regret and guilt only flashed for a moment, and the next moment she raised a warm smile and talked and laughed with the classmates around her.

She won, and the result was expected.

In elementary school, Xu Leqiu has always been the "queen" sought after by girls among girls, even though Su Wen's appearance has shaken her status in the class, but the results of the duel show that she Xu Leqiu has always been the one who stands in the active position. Since her academic performance is not as good as Su Wen's, she Xu Leqiu is far superior to her in interpersonal communication.

It's strange, yes, when I was a child, when I didn't understand anything but went on a rampage, the closer I was, the more inevitably I would compare it with each other.

I'm happy to be better than you, better than me, and better than my best friend in everyone's eyes.

But why, after the long-awaited victory, finally arrived, and after the great revelry, my heart ached?

The direction of the wind in the girls' pile changed, and the girls who were still trying to pursue and envy Su Wen before immediately changed their faces, and they all sneered at Su Wen who fled in the wilderness.

If you don't see it with your own eyes, you will never know how the person behind your back, who usually shows a certain friendly side to you, will slander you behind your back.

"I don't like her for a long time, she always looks like a good student, and she behaves coyly!"

"Su Wen is really annoying, it's still our Xiaoqiu, who does she think she is, she was originally transferred to our class later, she is an outsider!"

"She still looks like we're bullying her, what's wrong with us? It's very unpleasant to see her deliberately pretending to be pitiful! ”

The girls were babbling and confiding the cruel words hidden in their hearts on weekdays, Xu Leqiu felt comfortable listening to it at first, as if he had vented great hatred, and the more he refuted and even maliciously slandered Su Wen, Xu Leqiu suddenly became confused.

"Well, let's go home first, and we still have homework to write." The girls of the Suwen team in the previous stations said with tangled expressions, and immediately ran away like ghosts after getting the girls' response.

Have they become so vicious?

The gossiping girls still didn't give up, "Look at them, didn't they stand Su Wen at the beginning?" Why did you come to our team again, it's really one-sided! ”

Xu Leqiu's mood became more complicated.

The day after the break-up, Su Wen came to his seat without saying a word, bowing his head and starting to write the homework he had forgotten to take home the day before.

Xu Leqiu has always been Su Wen's tablemate, and although he has broken off his friendship, he can't help but look at his former friend who has just broken off. Seeing that Su Wenhong's red eyes were obviously swollen, Xu Leqiu's heart became more and more uneasy.

However, since Hao Hao Tangtang's severance incident was proposed by himself, there was no chance to easily veto it.

On that day, Su Wen, a good student, was criticized by the teachers of each subject for handing in blank homework, and the quick-tempered teacher directly criticized: "Don't think that if you study well, you can stop doing homework!" Do you want to learn to be humble? ”

"Hmm. Thank you, teacher, not next time. ”

There are also teachers who have a kind attitude: "Remember to write homework next time, forget it this time." ”

Su Wen still lowered his head, "Thank you, teacher." ”

The days at the same table continued, and both of them stuck to the rules of breaking off friendships, ignoring each other as if they were air.

The boys felt extremely strange about this, how could the two good sisters who were conjoined babies suddenly become strangers? Only the girls knew the reason, and the girls couldn't see that Su Wen was ignoring her.

This huge severance incident lasted for a month, and during that month, Xu Leqiu fantasized about all kinds of reasons to reconcile with Su Wen every day, but he never found a step that would not embarrass him.

After a month of cold war, Xu Leqiu finally figured out the source of the problem in various tangled thoughts, and gradually realized the mistakes he made impulsively. In fact, Su Wen didn't do anything wrong, he blindly let jealousy get carried away, and even hurt his best friend in extreme terms.

Friends, friends who once thought they would be together for a lifetime, how could she forget? What's the use of being popular? Wandering among female classmates who like to gossip every day, Xu Leqiu finally realized the difference between classmates and friends. There are many girls who can talk well and talk about the world, but Su Wen is the only one who can be called a friend and pay a sincere heart.

Only Su Wen is sincere in his friendship.

Only Su Wen regarded himself as his only best friend in his heart.

Only Su Wen will not do one thing to his face and one thing on his back, he clearly sees his shortcomings but warmly tolerates himself.

Xu Leqiu was determined to take responsibility for his impulsiveness, and one day after school, Xu Leqiu blocked the intersection of Su Wen's home in advance, looking like he was going home. Su Wen always left the classroom at the latest, and Xu Leqiu waited patiently at the intersection, wrestling with the words of apology.

Dozens of versions of the apology were filtered in Xu Leqiu's mind one by one, and just as she was contemplating and thinking, the familiar figure in her field of vision walked in front of her as if ignoring her.

Xu Leqiu was so anxious that he was anxious, and the words prepared in his mind poured out, and his brain was blank, but Xu Leqiu still hurriedly shouted: "Xiaowen ......"

The girl looked back blankly and looked straight at her.

Xu Leqiu said, "I, I ,......"

The two girls looked at each other, staring at each other with big eyes, Xu Leqiu opened his mouth to "me" for a long time, and he couldn't say a complete sentence. Su Wenmuran's face finally couldn't hold back, and he laughed out loud, and Xu Leqiu laughed along with him as if he was relieved.

"You don't blame me?" Xu Leqiu smiled wryly like a stuttering patient who had just recovered.

"Well, I'm not angry anymore." Su Wen smiled calmly, his eyes full of sincerity.

The two girls reconciled like this, and no one mentioned the source of the original conflict, Su Wen didn't ask, and Xu Leqiu didn't say it.

When I was a child, the girls had their own thoughts, each had their own little problems, sometimes the war between the two girls suddenly sounded, and sometimes it suddenly went out and got back together. When quarrelling, they can be hostile to each other like enemies, and they can't wait to break off their friendship and never get along again. After reconciling, it seems that all unpleasant memories are gone with the wind, and they regard each other as the best and most important best friends in the world.

Many former good girlfriends have missed each other in that wayward time and again, and they are not mature and sensible, and they have not yet known how to cherish, so they can only miss the past friendships for the rest of their lives. But fortunately, Xu Leqiu and Su Wen did not miss each other after all, and they did not regret losing after all.

When Xu Leqiu was in elementary school, he was as naïve as those female classmates who were good at talking about right and wrong, unable to distinguish between good and bad, and only acted on instinctive thoughts. But who hasn't been vexatious when they were kids?

Xu Leqiu was slightly stunned, watching the sunset that fell on the desk gradually fade, and suddenly thought that maybe Su Wen was the few people who had never made trouble unreasonably.

Prematurely sensible, prematurely assuming the responsibility of being a person, prematurely having their own clear plans for the future, prematurely leaving the ranks of naïve children, prematurely learning to tolerate the mistakes of others, prematurely entering the psychological period of maturity, so prematurely losing the carefree joy of childhood prematurely.

In Xu Leqiu's view, Su Wen lives carefully, cares too much about other people's thoughts and wants to try his best to take care of each other's feelings, but he doesn't know that there is a thing called "only live for yourself, don't look at other people's faces", only in this way can you not let yourself be wronged in complex interpersonal interactions, and you don't have to be aggrieved by taking too much care of other people's feelings. Live only for your own feelings, so that you are happier.

Xu Leqiu didn't know if Su Wenming didn't understand, but at present, it seemed that she was living a worse life.