Lu Yao wrote in "Ordinary World": How much helplessness and regret are there in life, and what kind of sorrow and sentimentality are there? The loneliness and cangchu eroded by rain and wind must be water, quietly flowing through the days of youth struggle and touching the ideal years.

Mr. Lu Yao's view of life is very in-depth, he said: In our short and long life, we are struggling to find happiness in life, but happiness often misses us. When we spend precious youth on this, and wrinkles creep up into the corners of our eyes, we may be able to understand a little bit of what life actually means...

Yes, when we have eaten through the book of life, we may be old, and some people have not even figured out how much they have contributed to their families, society, relatives and friends in the course of their lives in just a few decades.

I seldom think about this kind of problem, those profound meanings, or leave it to the philosophers to think, to say to make a contribution, although I made some money, send it to my parents, they always say: "You are not too young, and you are divorced, find a similar girl, just live a good life, your parents are about to retire, I will save the money you send for you, and the old husband and wife do not spend much." ”

Every time I hear this sentence, I will have tears in my eyes, this is not a contribution, but in the overdraft of my parents' thoughts and worries, just divorced, how much I hated Wang Ling's approach, but for a moment, I would be grateful to her, if I don't end this marriage early, slowly consumed, in addition to the overall relationship of the family, may also completely wear out my enthusiasm for life.

After ending the blind date farce with Liang Xue, I felt extremely relaxed, and I actually had a sense of relief, from an outsider's point of view, I may have lost the ability to fall in love, but the bitterness can only be experienced by myself.

After returning to the apartment, seeing that Brother Slag hadn't come back yet, he saved up a drinking party to catch Qin Xiaolan's wind, after all, she had been in the branch for more than half a year, and she had a good relationship with Brother Slag and some old colleagues, and it didn't hurt to have a good drink.

Sitting in the small living room, the time has become quiet, and there is a wisp of floral fragrance wafting in the air, which is the jasmine that Brother Slag loves very much, fertilizing and loosening the soil, growing quite vibrant, emerald green branches, clustered with a few white petals, bowing her head shyly, like a little girl who has just opened her love, looking at it from afar, giving people an infinite sense of amazement.

There were a few protest-like hums in my stomach, dinner time came, the scumbag brother was not at home, I didn't know what to take to satisfy my hunger, I walked to the refrigerator, opened the door, and saw a row of eggs neatly placed inside, some seasonal vegetables, some beef and hairtail fish in the frozen layer, and a white porcelain plate on the top layer, which was full of steaming rice.

I closed the door of the refrigerator, walked to the coffee table and picked up the car keys, planning to go out for a meal, but after thinking about it, I haven't cooked and eaten by myself for a long time, why not make an egg fried rice, fill my stomach is not a problem, and avoid the trouble of going up and down the stairs.

I threw the car keys on the coffee table again, washed my hands by the sink, and just brought out the plate of rice, there was a piercing pain in my cheeks, I gently rubbed it with my hand, it turned out to be a standing tooth playing tricks.

I was a little annoyed by the pain, put the plate back in place, walked to the living room, sat on the sofa, licked the standing tooth with my tongue, it felt that the tooth was very strong, and there was no intention of loosening, the kind of disturbing pain really made me unbearable.

I hummed softly, my forehead was already covered with fine sweat, but I felt very thirsty, and I picked up half a cup of cold water on the coffee table and drank it gurgling.

As the saying goes, if you don't die, you won't die, and that's true, and the moment the cold boiled water slid over my teeth, I realized that I had done something stupid, and in an instant, there was an indescribable pain in my mouth, including my brain, and I even felt that my eyes became shadowy.

"Damn, fuck..."

I was distraught and cursed, and my only sober reason was wiped out by the intense pain.

I found Brother Scum's medicine box, turned out a bottle of painkiller tablets, poured out two tablets, and took it in my mouth for a while, feeling that the effect was not great, I swallowed it, making my mouth bitter, and rummaged through the cupboard, and found that there was half a bottle of liquor left over from drinking, I unscrewed the lid and poured a large mouthful into my mouth, anesthetizing the painful standing tooth.

This method is very good, but it can only anesthetize the pain for a while, when the gums get used to the stimulation of the alcohol, the sharp stinging will come again, because the liquor has been in the mouth for too long, I feel that the mouth and tongue are numb and crispy, there is an astringent feeling.

"What the hell, who can stand it if it hurts like this for a night."

I whispered insults, spat again, picked up the car keys on the coffee table, and planned to go to the hospital to get this tooth removed, just opened the door, and saw the scum brother walking in with a crimson face, he was full of alcohol, his expression was comfortable, and his eyes were a little dull, but he hadn't drunk to the point of losing his mind.

"What's wrong with you, put on a bitter face."

Brother Scumbag squeezed over, changed into slippers, and dragged him to the living room.

"I have a toothache and I'm sick to death."

I covered my cheeks and looked at the scumbag with a painful expression.

Brother Scumbag nestled on the sofa and took a long breath and said, "Is it on fire, which toothache?" ”

I sighed for a while, opened my mouth and said, "The innermost one, I looked in the mirror just now, it doesn't look like there is inflammation." ”

Brother Scumbag lit a cigarette and said, "You take some anti-inflammatory drugs first, the dentists will be off work, and you won't be able to solve the problem if you go." ”

"Isn't there a doctor on duty at the dentist?"

I frowned and looked at the scum brother with a puzzled expression.

He took a puff of cigarette and changed the subject, saying, "How did you talk to that girl?" ”

I took a breath and knew that the girl that Brother Scumbag was talking about was Liang Xue, and we were very unhappy tonight, so I just said lightly: "Blow, it's not suitable, that woman didn't tell the truth, full of lies." ”

"Why do you say that, aren't you two going on a date?"

Brother Scumbag asked in surprise.

I didn't want to talk about Liang Xue, and my toothache was unbearable, so I opened the door, waved my hand and said, "I'll go and see my teeth, I can't stand the pain." ”

Brother Scumbag shook his head helplessly, squinted at me and said, "I think you are sick with lovesickness, so you are in a hurry." ”

I pressed the doorknob and turned around and said, "Who am I missing?" ”

Brother Scum shrugged his shoulders and said, "How do I know, but it's safe to say that you must have someone in your heart, right?" ”

"Nonsense, who can I miss? Parents from afar, or Wang Ling, who is divorced? Or are those two twins who don't belong to me? ”

I was a little annoyed, closed the door with a bang, and looked at the scum brother in a daze.

"What are you yelling about?"

Brother Scum roared, flicked the cigarette ash and said: "These people, except for your parents who are worthy of your concern, Wang Ling will be spared, except for these people, Xinyan still occupies a dominant position in your heart, right?" ”

Under the stimulation of alcohol, the scumbag brother spoke a little slurred, but I still heard it very clearly, this has always been a topic that I dare not touch, I hurt her heart at the beginning, and I miss it silently in my heart at the moment, this statement is both reasonable and in line with my current mood, but it is useless to say anything, there is no regret medicine in the world, even if there is, Xinyan will not forgive me for what I did.

"You should rest early, I have a toothache and annoyance."

I glanced at the scumbag brother, and saw that he was so sleepy that his eyelids were fighting, so I walked to him, helped him to the bedroom, and after settling everything, I looked down at my watch, at half past nine in the evening, I don't know if there is a dental doctor in the hospital, I thought to myself, went to the living room, poured another sip of liquor, put it in my mouth, and went downstairs stupidly.

At this time, the streets of the city, the traffic is rolling, the pedestrians are weaving, the road is not wide, it is simply not like a word, I frowned, one hand covered the cheeks, the other hand drove, the dessert shops on both sides of the street, full of young men and women, some of them are clustered at the door, waiting for others to leave the table.

I thought to myself, what is so delicious about that kind of sweet thing, why do young couples choose this kind of place for their dates now?

This is not a problem for me to consider, I am a thirty-year-old uncle, sometimes there are a pair of glamorous and beautiful couples in the store, they are talking and laughing, very comfortable, and they are interested in choosing clothes, I secretly envy myself, when I was at their age, why didn't I talk about a sweet and sweet love, although Xue Xinyan brought me infinite good memories, but there was the obstruction of the old witch of the noble lady in the middle, and my love road seemed to be more bumpy than these couples.

The window was ajar, a wisp of cool air penetrated into my mouth, and the pain that pierced my heart hit again, I grinned, slapped myself hard, and scolded in a low voice: "Fuck, don't hurt, I'll pull you out right away." ”

I was stuck in a block for half an hour, and finally drove out of this damn road, I used to pay attention to the shops on both sides of the road, many of the dental clinics were closed, and after going around for a long time, I drove directly into the city hospital, and after parking the car, I walked into the outpatient building.

"What? Got off work? ”

I lay at the registration window, looking helplessly at the little nurse in front of me, she was wearing a white coat, the bridge of her nose was very high, like a Greek, but her eyes were small and pitiful, with a messy ponytail, on the registration table, since there were two book-sized bubble wraps, she was bowing her head and poking lightly with her nails.

I licked my teeth with my tongue and said, "Then I have a terrible toothache right now, what should I do?" ”

The little nurse raised her head, glanced at me and said, "I can prescribe you some ibuprofen anti-inflammatory medicine, go back and take it first, and come over tomorrow morning to let the dentist take a look." ”

I nodded, and thought of a question that had been coiled in my mind for a long time: "I want to ask, why can't I have a tooth extracted in the afternoon and evening?" ”

The little nurse poked a few times on the bubble paper, and said helplessly: "In the morning, the energy and physical strength of the doctor and the patient are better, and the observation time left after the tooth extraction is relatively long." ”

I thought to myself, it turns out that tooth extraction is also manual work, so thinking so, since my tooth is not too painful, I looked at the little nurse and said, "Then why doesn't the dentist work the night shift?" ”

"Your question is no different from the one just now."

She sighed and said: "After the tooth extraction, the tooth wound has a preliminary coagulation process, if the tooth is extracted in the afternoon or evening and goes home to sleep, the change of position from standing to lying down will increase the blood pressure in the head and cause bleeding from the wound." ”

As she spoke, she picked up a carbon pen, and felt that it was not fun to poke the bubbles with her fingernails, so she pricked it up again, and I laughed out loud and asked her, "Are you usually under a lot of pressure at work?" ”

"I don't answer questions that aren't relevant to work."

She gave me a blank look and continued to tinker with the already horrific bubble wrap.

I thought she was very interesting, so I smiled and said, "Then you have bubbles here, and it doesn't have much to do with work, right?" ”

"You have to take care of it."

She stared at me for a moment, then covered her mouth and giggled again.

A cool breath came into my mouth again, and I groaned, looked at her and said, "Hurry up and make an appointment with my earliest dentist tomorrow." ”

I handed her my ID card, she typed on the keyboard a few times, and said lightly: "Tomorrow morning at half past eight, Dr. Lu Fangfang." ”

Then, she handed out the registration slip and ID card out of the window and ignored me.

I walked out of the hospital and went back to my apartment with a painful face.