Chapter 469: Temporal Nature
Slowly, the years will pass, won't they? People who are forever separated between love and family affection, their faces are full of haggardness.
If you want to cry, then cry, presumably the sky of this central must be an ensemble. Reeds, reeds, I'm most afraid of seeing you withered and yellow, and I feel embarrassed when I look at your corpses everywhere. But I don't want to, and so is my love.
If you have you, please give me some time to think about it. Think about why am I lonely, or am I born lonely? We were just passers-by, and then we slowly became lovers, and finally walked into the noisy house together. You and I hate each other, and we don't want to know what we're here for. Looking at the posture of others, I am creeping forward in humility. You and I are born different, but we also destroy each other for that little bit of beauty.
Looking at the faint sky, she let out a long sigh. Result...... What was she thinking? This heart is like a mess of twine that can't be untied, and it can't be solved even if it has a headache.
Shuangxi Niang saw that the atmosphere was a little stiff, so she opened her mouth to warm up the atmosphere. She smiled: "This Cuilan, it should be the lucky star of our old Lin family." Why can't you speak well, you scumbag? Don't hurry up to wipe away the tears for others. ”
Originally...... Cuilan couldn't hold back the depression in her heart and shed tears. Lin Zixiang hurriedly hugged her, only to feel that he had suddenly crashed into a warm embrace. She couldn't cry anymore, Lin Zixiang hugged her tightly, and said, "Don't cry, don't cry, my good daughter-in-law don't cry." It's not beautiful to cry, don't cry. ”
Lin Zixiang's words seemed to have a kind of magic, not only did she not stop Cuilan, but she cried even more.
Shuangxi Niang is finally completely relieved, this little couple is afraid that they will not make trouble again after this time. Seeing them hugging each other, the double happy mother couldn't be happier.
Several mothers-in-law and double happiness were also moved, it is not easy for this husband and wife to reconcile. In a person's life, there are always some frivolous people who don't take their daughter-in-law seriously and will regret it in the end. This double happiness also slowly understood, in fact, it is good to have someone to make trouble, and it is good to be noisy. It's noisy, life is always full of fun, and it's not too haggard.
Double Happiness: "It's not easy for them, and it's not a good thing to find someone to stay with for a lifetime." ”
Second grandmother: "Yes, looking at the harmony between other couples and Meimei, I am also a little excited." ”
Several mothers-in-law nodded approvingly, they meet here and leave here, there is always something unexpected that will happen. These two can still hug each other and cry instead of leaving in the opposite direction, this is true love, isn't it?
Lin Zixiang was also touched by himself, Cuilan finally wanted to forgive himself, his heart felt like another door had suddenly been opened, this was a world he had never seen before. Here, there are only him and Cuilan, they are walking inside, there is a rain of petals, there is a fragrant grass, and there are warblers and birds. He was holding her hand, and she was also smiling softly at herself, how good this time should be.
Shuangxi Niang: "It's good now, the two of them don't make trouble in the future, just live a good life." You don't have to say that Cuilan is not good, she is not easy. ”
Lin Zixiang: "Sister, I know, I will take good care of Cuilan." When we get to Kyushu, I'll build her a house so she can live in it, won't she? ”
Shuangxi Niang: "It can be regarded as a long memory, and the daughter-in-law just uses it to feel painful." It's not for bullying, you know? ”
Lin Zixiang: "Understood, thank you, sister!" ”
After speaking, Lin Zixiang kissed Cuilan lightly on the forehead. Cuilan only felt trembling all over, she never thought that Lin Zixiang would kiss herself in public. Even though it's a forehead, she's still embarrassed.
She looked up and saw Lin Zixiang looking at her with affection. Her eyes immediately dodged, and she didn't dare to look at him. She was still a little scared in her heart, she couldn't fully trust him. She only believes in herself, and as for Lin Zixiang, she still has some mustard in her heart.
"It can be regarded as reconciliation, and this day will definitely get better and better. You, too, are the rich and noble life, as long as you are good, you will have children and grandchildren in a few years. When the time comes, you two will wait to enjoy the blessings. The second grandmother came up and said, there was still a joy between her eyebrows.
Cuilan suddenly felt that this mother-in-law was not so much of an eyesore, which sounded quite reasonable now when she listened to the words that would jump on weekdays.
Lin Zixiang: "No, we don't want any children." I can't let Cuilan suffer like that, we just need the two of us to be good together. ”
Although he said it very emotionally, Cuilan no longer had that kind of emotion at this time. Instead, there was a worry about the future, and she didn't know if she would continue to believe in him in the future, and she didn't know if she could be so good to him. Everything can make her worry, she doesn't know, how long can Lin Zixiang keep this love?
Cuilan just smiled and didn't speak, and Lin Zixiang couldn't figure out her attitude. He suddenly felt that his Cuilan was so strange, was she still the same her? Why did she feel alienated from herself?
The second grandmother is an old man, and she will not agree to such a thing as a woman not having children. So, she spoke again: "This woman doesn't give birth to children, she will be laughed at." Isn't this a slap in the face of the husband's family? I don't know, I thought it was my husband's family who snubbed this good daughter-in-law. ”
Cuilan: "You're right. ”
The second grandmother heard that Cuilan also agreed with her, and she smiled even more from ear to ear. smiled again: "Look, this girl has opened her mind, and people have followed the spirit." What's wrong with two people having a big fat boy and being lively? The bitterness will pass by gritting your teeth. ”
Lin Zixiang disagreed, he said: "How can I let Cuilan go on an adventure, or don't." Cuilan, the two of us are also very good. What do you want that kid to come out and make a noise? ”
Cuilan smiled slightly, this smile was a little vicissitudes. Actually, she was thinking...... If I hadn't given birth, you'd have thought otherwise. Isn't it ridiculous to just pin my hopes on you in my life? Therefore, having a child can also have other sustenance. I'm not going to look at you all day grieving, am I?
"Let's have a child too, so we can take good care of him. When we're old, someone else can come and see us. Cuilan said.
Lin Zixiang was speechless, and he looked at Cuilan blankly. Does she have to let go of all attachments because of herself? Will she be happy? Or is she just trying to make herself happy?
Suddenly, I feel sorry for the person in front of me, obviously not what I like in my heart, but I want to change myself in order to cater to others. In that case, she will slowly lose her color, all of which is caused by Lin Zixiang, isn't it? Thinking of this, he felt even more guilty. There is one person who always succumbs to him, and that is Cuilan.
He didn't want her to be wronged this time, he said: "Cuilan, in fact, I don't like children either." If you don't give birth, you won't give birth, I won't mind. ”
Cuilan: "But I want a child, I want to take him to the river for a walk, and I want to give him a good home." ”
Lin Zixiang: "But Cuilan, that's not your original intention, isn't it?" ”
Cuilan pursed her lips, her original intention? Is the original intention reliable? Once you get married, you don't have the protection of your mother's family, so you have to make compromises. She may not have understood it before, but now she understands that getting married, getting married, is to give up a lot of her own things to become relatives with others. Among them, of course, includes heartbreaking, but also gains and losses.
Only by kicking off his own edges and corners can this life be fulfilled. Only if you make yourself more delicate, will someone cherish you. She sighed, full of helplessness, and often made her uncontrollable.
It's a pity that she is already married. If she were allowed to do it all over again, she would definitely not marry Lin Zixiang. This man has nothing to offer, and there will be no real groveling day. No one could see the cold glint in her eyes, because she had learned to disguise. She just wants to make her life more comfortable, instead of clinging to those innocences anymore.
Forgive her for the world, she has lost the determination to continue to hold on to her inner convictions. Maybe it's tired, and in marriage, there is only compromise.
Lin Zixiang knew that his position in Cuilan's heart must be different, he was afraid, he was afraid that he was not the only one in her heart. She must have been so disappointed in herself, didn't she? Does he regret that it worked? It's useless! He forced a lively Cuilan into what she is now. Although she smiled cutely, he knew that it was a smile that did not reach the bottom of his eyes!
Slightly distressed, but helpless. Her compromise is a manifestation of her own incompetence, isn't it? He hated himself, and he hated that he didn't have the ability to keep her innocent forever.
For Cuilan, her feelings for Lin Zixiang now are: love is also long, hate is also worried. Although she knows that not everything is perfect, she still yearns for that touch of beauty. Let the good things stay in your memory, and the things that don't belong to you, just let them disappear. She confessed it, and she was tired of it, and she didn't want to pay attention to these rights and wrongs anymore.
Shuangxi Niang feels that this is the understanding that a woman should have, and she can have illusions about love, but she can't bring these fantasies to the days of firewood, rice, oil and salt, which will make people feel that the contrast is too great, and this heart is naturally uncomfortable. Who can live by himself, who is not compromising with himself? In this way, we can live a harmonious and beautiful life. If you don't understand this, you can only be troubled by it all day long. You can't have both fish and bear's paws, and women still have to learn to make trade-offs, right?