(Recommended music for this chapter: Bandari's "Childhood Memory")

Song Yu walked out of the classroom expressionlessly, and walked to the overpass between the north and south teaching buildings without looking back, turning his back to his tearful mother behind him along the way, and his cold aura always carried the cold ice that could not be melted away for thousands of years.

When I was a child, I longed to see my mother countless times, and I was disappointed again and again, from hope to disappointment, from disappointment to expectation, and again and again, Song Yu experienced expectations and disappointments back and forth in this dead cycle, so that when he grew up, he suddenly woke up, is the thing that he has been obsessed with for many years just an illusory shadow? However, the illusory bubble of his mother, a boy who was almost forgotten, suddenly became a reality one day.

After seven years of absence, you come back again and tell me, Mom is back?

"Xiao Yu, mom is back......" Qin Lu had tears in her eyes, stretched out her hand and gently pulled Song Yu's arm.

The tall and thin boy seemed to be petrified, standing in front of the fence of the overpass, his head facing the opposite teaching building, but Qin Lu was almost begging to pull the boy's arm, and the boy showed no sign of turning to Qin Lu.

"Xiaoyu, do you remember your mother? When Mom left, you were still a little bit, and in the blink of an eye...... You're taller than your mother...... Mommy almost ...... I didn't recognize you......"

Qin Lu couldn't cry anymore, her choked voice trembled to tell a mother's deep repentance, but the hand holding Song Yu's arm never let go.

"It's my mother who is sorry for you, and it has been so many years since you left...... I don't ask you...... Forgive Mom, Mom doesn't deserve your forgiveness...... Mom just wants you to sort out Mom...... Mommy I'm sorry for you...... Would you like to take a look at your mother? Let Mom take a good look at you, okay? Do you want to be a mother? Mommy really misses you ......"

"Then why didn't you keep coming back?" The boy opened his mouth coldly, and there was still a chill in his voice.

You say you miss me, so why haven't you come back for seven years?

Song Yu looked directly at the strange woman she should call "mother", and her reddened eyes were full of stubborn forbearance. After all, the mother in front of him is not the mother who held his hand and played with him as a child, and the strangeness is full of the boy's wounded heart.

Qin Lu's tearful eyes flashed with pathos, and his expression suddenly became complicated. The son finally opened his mouth to talk to himself, but these words also made Qin Lu stunned. I haven't seen her for seven years, and the first thing I said to my mother was to ask her why she never came back. Why? She had nothing to say about this, she could only let the tears flow even more violently.

Teardrops of bean size slipped from Qin Lu's beautiful eyes, and Qin Lu stared at Song Yu's face when he grew up, vaguely showing Song Yu's appearance when he was a child. How similar are those black and white eyes? The seven or eight-year-old boy in my memory has grown into a young man in front of him. As soon as she left, it was seven years, and she missed the seven years of her son's growth, and she, as a mother, really shouldn't be!

Qin Lu's slender palm touched Song Yu's face, he hadn't seen him for seven years, and he was already alive when he said goodbye. The face that was somewhat similar to Qin Lu, a somewhat unfamiliar face, was not much different from what she imagined her son to look like when he grew up. For a mother, no matter how many years she has been away from her child, her son is still a son, and although she can't stop the birth that she hasn't seen for many years, she is connected by blood, and the intimate emotional connection in her bones has never been severed.

Just like at this time, seeing Qin Lu's palm caressing his face, Song Yu's eyes widened in shock, and in those black and white eyes that resembled his mother, there was clearly anger and disdain, and his brain issued an order to the body to "go away", but his body did not move at all, as if enjoying his mother's long-lost caresses.

"Xiao Yu, do you want to be a mother?" Qin Lu caressed her son's face as if it were a treasure, eager to recover the seven years she missed with her son, "Mom really misses you......"

Qin Lu was full of joy and sorrow, tears swirled and slipped down in her eyes, but her tearful face was still beautiful, and she maintained her noble and elegant appearance at all times.

Song Yu's heart was cold to the end, staring at his mother with a pair of cold eyes and revealing a look of remorse, that tearful and moving face, he only felt false, and he only saw falsehood.

He stared at Qin Lu's tearful eyes, his face expressionless, and asked repeatedly, "Why haven't you come back?" ”

Why not come back? He just wanted to know the reason why he hadn't come back, the reason why he had been haunted for years.

"I ...... I ......" Qin Lu opened her teary eyes, shook her head but couldn't organize a complete sentence, her eyes were full of panic and uneasiness, "It's my mother who is sorry for you...... Xiao Yu ...... Mommy I'm sorry for you......"

Qin Lu repeated the words of repentance with tears in her eyes, and stretched out her hand to hug her son's thin and tall body. That cold appearance seemed to refuse her thousands of miles away, and there was no trace of the posture of stretching out her fleshy arms to be hugged by her mother when she was a child.

Mom finally hugged you, but why are you so close, but there seems to be an endless distance between the two of them?

Still no answer, hehe. Or there was no answer at all, and she didn't dare to give him an answer.

Song Yu gently pulled away from his body, deliberately separated himself from his mother for a while, didn't look over his head to look at her, and muttered to himself in the distant sky.

"I thought you were only going abroad for a year, and you wanted me to wait for you to come back, but I waited for you for a year, but I still didn't see you come back. You'll call me at first, reassure me and lie to me that you'll be back soon. I listen to you, I eat well, I study hard, I practice well, and I happily wait for you to come back every day. But year after year, you never came back...... You haven't been heard from as if you never existed......"

"I even thought you existed, and my mother was probably just a phantom in a dream. I was about to forget about you, but you said you were back. Song Yu turned his head sideways to look at his mother on the side, and the look of resentment and heartbreak in his red eyes was clear, "You said to go, you said to go back, you never told me anything." I wondered, why? Why are you lying to me? ”

Qin Lu was stunned, her body froze in place, and her expression was sluggish.

"I have known about you and my father for a long time, and I have been waiting for the day when you take the initiative to confess to me, but you don't, you will be gone for seven years!" Song Yu became more and more excited, and a huge loss enveloped this poor man who was abandoned by his mother.

If the heartbreak can be seen, he really wants his mother to see what it is like for her to tear her son's heart apart with her own hands!

"Mom, I'm sorry for you! It's mom who's sorry for you! Qin Lu choked up and only repeated this sentence, reaching out to hug his son with a heartbroken expression again.

The March sun was warm and bright, and the gentle sunlight shining above the teaching building passed through the slender fingers of the woman's left hand, reflecting a certain trace of crystal light through a certain node, but it stabbed Song Yu's eyes.

"You...... Married? Song Yu stared at the heart-shaped diamond ring on Qin Lu's left ring finger, the ring was no longer the simple one it used to be.

"Huh...... It turns out that I have been completely abandoned by you a long time ago...... Hehe......" Song Yu's eyes widened in disbelief and suddenly stepped back like a dream.

Qin Lu stepped forward anxiously and stretched out his hand to grab his son's alienated arm: "Xiao Yu, you listen to your mother's explanation!" Mom didn't abandon you, Mom really has her own hardships! ”

"Hehe, what's your problem?" Song Yu shook his head heartbrokenly, and the arm that was grabbed by his mother resolutely struggled, "You don't have to say it!" There's nothing hard about it, you just love yourself! ”

Qin Lu burst into tears, choked so much that she only shook her head and couldn't speak, and was begged by her son's free-handed hand to climb up again. Qin Lu said in a trembling voice, "Xiao Yu...... Mom...... Mommy loves you too...... It's true...... Do you trust mom...... Is it good ......?"

Song Yu stared at Qin Lu's left hand unrelentingly, and finally, as if he had recognized the reality, Song Yu turned his head away with resolute pain.

"Why do you come back now when you haven't been back for seven years? You might as well stay abroad all the time! Hehe...... My son, you should have never given birth! ”

Looking at the contemptuous smile that appeared on Song Yu's face, Qin Lu's heart ached, and he apologized incoherently and desperately: "Xiao Yu...... You're Mommy's son! You can't say that! It's Mommy I'm sorry for you...... Mom is really sorry for you...... But it's true that mom loves you...... Please believe Mom'......"

"Trust you? How can I trust someone who has lied to me for seven years and left me for seven years? Mother? I haven't had a mother since I was nine years old! Song Yu's heart was broken, and his gurgling and bleeding heart made him have a sword in his mouth: "From the moment you abandoned me, I was a person without a mother!" Hehehe...... I didn't know what my mother looked like for a long time! You are nothing but a stranger with a mouth full of lies to me! ”

Qin Lu was completely stunned in place, her legs were weak and she almost fell, holding on to the railing on the overpass, Qin Lu's moving eyes instantly fell a string of heartbreaking tears, and she looked at Song Yu who looked at her with resentment in her eyes.

It was her fault that she had to lie to him in the first place. It was also her fault that in the long period of seven years, she disappeared and started her new life in a country far away from her son, and never fulfilled the responsibilities of a mother one day. At the age when his son needed his mother's arms, he resolutely left, and never even left a word, so that his son suffered the pain of losing his mother at a young age, so that he grew up alone.

It's all her fault!

Song Yu watched coldly, as if he was watching a good show performed by Qin Lu. The face that has hardly changed much from many years ago, the young and beautiful face, the face that seems to be heartbroken and tearful, and the look of remorse, frustration, and pain that seems to be a trick for a while, is really pitiful to me.

It was she who chose to abandon him. Now she is the one who has come to beg him for forgiveness. It's a joke.

Song Yu glanced at his mother deeply, his gaze returned to the ring finger of his mother's left hand, and suddenly laughed self-deprecatingly, his smiling face was like a broken flower that was about to wither.

"What about your children?" A broken smile bloomed on Song Yu's face, and his red eyes insisted on refusing to cry.

"Is it my brother, or is it my sister?"