When Su Wen's cold and desperate heart fell into the abyss, she suddenly found that the boy at the front table always seemed to have the ability to "moisturize things silently". Different from the usual grinning giggles, the delicacy of boys is always shown in countless tiny details. He can always take care of the girl's inner feelings, understand her sensitive self-esteem, wrap the sharp thorns on the girl's body with gentle tentacles, and inadvertently heal the shackles of thought in the girl's heart.

For this, Su Wen, who suddenly woke up, was particularly grateful. So she became more and more convinced that Song Yu was not only a leader among the best, but also a rare good friend.

But what if one moment is cured? Su Wen still can't change the fact that his academic performance has fallen back to the bottom of the class. The glory of the past was infinitely magnified by the small county town of his hometown a few months ago, so that Su Wen took the fact that he was a girl with excellent academic performance as a self-righteous fact. In the final analysis, it was the narrow-mindedness of people from her small place who were responsible.

When queuing up to eat in the cafeteria at noon, Su Wen was immersed in his boundless thoughts, and a pair of slender hands behind him patted her shoulder, Su Wen's consciousness immediately came back from the infinite thoughts in his heart, and when he looked back, the smiling face was not his best friend Xu Leqiu, who had not been in touch for many days?

Even though his heart was gloomy, facing Xu Leqiu's smiling face, Su Wen also showed a happy smile when he saw his friend.

Xu Leqiu's face was filled with a sense of happiness that could not be hidden, and when he had lunch with Su Wen, Xu Leqiu shared his joy with his girlfriend: "Xiaowen, let me tell you a good news, my ranking has increased by two hundred!" It's incredible, my monthly exam is to improve my language, mathematics, English, politics and history by more than ten or twenty points, and physics, chemistry and biology have also improved a little, and I actually went up in the ranking! I'm so happy! ”

Looking at Xu Leqiu's radiant smile, as she told her progress and joy word by word, as her best friend, she should have been happy for her friend's progress, but why did Su Wen's heart cramp like a knife and drop blood? Even Xu Leqiu can improve by more than two hundred, why is Su Wen, who was much higher than Xu Leqiu from the beginning, but quickly regressed by more than a hundred?

Su Wen couldn't figure it out, but he was defeated in the face of the huge gap, and the taste of the food in his mouth was the same as chewing wax, Su Wen once again understood what kind of bitter feeling it was to not be able to swallow.

Su Wen tried to bend the corners of his mouth, smiled bitterly, and praised his friend very bluntly: "Xiaoqiu is awesome!" It will get better and better in the future! ”

Xu Leqiu was immersed in the joy of excitement and imagination of the near future, and did not notice the difference in Su Wen's face at all. She smiled confidently, her voice was so sonorous: "Xiaowen, you wait for me, I must be admitted to the key class of liberal arts with you in the liberal arts sub-subject, relying on my own strength, not relying on anything else!" ”

In an inadvertent conversation between the two after the high school entrance examination, Su Wen revealed his willingness to choose liberal arts when he was in high school Chinese science, but he did not expect Xu Leqiu to remember it in his heart, and even worked hard for the two to be admitted to the key class of liberal arts step by step. Thinking of this, Su Wen couldn't help but be moved.

"Well, come on, believe you, when the time comes, we will be admitted to the key classes of liberal arts together!" All kinds of tastes gathered in his heart, Su Wen found a touch of comfort in the bitterness, but the words of cheering were also sincere.

If the topic stops here, Su Wen may also get some kind of spiritual comfort because of the progress of his friends, and at the same time sigh the warmth of friendship, and digest his negative and gloomy emotions when he is alone. It's a pity that God doesn't fulfill people's wishes, and it still has to tear everything up and show it in front of them.

Su Wen was sad in her heart, but the smile on Xu Leqiu's face was still very bright, so bright that it stinged the girl's eye mask all the time, and she naturally asked the words that stabbed Su Wen's sensitive nerves: "Xiaowen, you must have done well in this monthly exam, right?" ”

As her best friend, as her longest-known friend, why couldn't she notice Su Wen's obvious emotional changes? Perhaps she had already noticed it, but she had chosen to ignore it with great joy in her heart. Not only did she ignore it, but she intensified her joy and pride. When Su Wen thought like this, he was suddenly surprised to realize the dark side of his thoughts.

"No, I did badly." Falling back into the bottom of emotions, Su Wen said truthfully, and hoped that the topic of performance rankings would end there.

However, the topic did not end at all, Xu Leqiu's face was incredulous, "How is it possible!" You must have done well in the exam, you don't lie to me! ”

Perhaps irritated by Xu Leqiu's ignorant and fearless smile, Su Wen said angrily: "I already did a bad job, what did I lie to you about?" ”

The scene that happened in the classroom was re-enacted in the minds of the girls, the physics teacher said in class, "There are students in our class who scored 58 points", Deng Jiaming shouted loudly in front of his classmates, "It turns out that the 58 points in the test are really you...... The indignant voices of the teacher, the surprised or sneering voices of the classmates all poured into the girl's eardrums......

58 points? 58 min?!!!

Su Wen bit her lip, and the humiliating figure had already been deeply imprinted in the girl's heart. Obviously, the monthly exam results are terrible, not only at the bottom of the class, but also regressing rapidly, but Xu Leqiu has to stubbornly say that she did well in the exam? Su Wen was extremely angry, feeling that he had been insulted again. Does she have to say the humiliating number "58" out loud and put the ranking in front of Xu Leqiu, so that Xu Leqiu is willing to believe that she really did badly?

"I know you're going to do better than me! How have you ever failed to test me? Don't be modest! Xu Leqiu didn't know what was going on, but he still spoke bluntly according to what he thought in his heart.

A sentence choked Su Wenru in his throat and couldn't speak, the meal was tasteless, and he and his best friend Xu Leqiu for many years scribbled after eating and parting unhappily. Both of them were sensitive and self-respecting people, and neither of them would back down from anyone, and the Cold War began without knowing where to end.

Su Wen has long forgotten how many similar competitions he has had with Xu Leqiu since he was a child. In elementary school, the academic performance of the two was comparable, although there was a difference, it was not obvious, and Xu Leqiu always had to compare with himself, but if he couldn't compare, he often used the willfulness of a little girl, and Su Wen was depressed.

A big quarrel with Xu Leqiu in the sixth grade of primary school is still related to grades, and the scene at that time is vivid, Xu Leqiu said angrily with tears in his big watery eyes, "Why are your grades always better than mine?" I'm nothing compared to you! ”

"I don't want to compare myself to others, I just want to surpass you!"

When Xu Leqiu was a child, his words full of grievances were deeply imprinted in Su Wen's mind and lingered for a long time. After that reconciliation, no one mentioned the hurtful words that came out of the quarrel, so Su Wen took advantage of the situation and did not pursue it as angry words. But is it really angry talk? Even though Xu Leqiu never said the same hurtful words as in that quarrel when he grew up, the two lost the innocence of their childhood, and they knew more about the maturity of being a person and cherishing their friends. Zhile Qiu Mo Ruo Suwen, the angry words for a while are actually the true words that have been hidden in the bottom of my heart for a long time.

Su Wen knew from the bottom of his mind that Xu Leqiu wanted to surpass her, and as many years passed, the gap between the two became bigger and bigger, and Su Wen became more and more incomprehensible.

Su Wen heard the word "than" a lot from his friends, and his heart became more and more disgusted. Su Wen has been puzzled since elementary school, why do good friends always compare with each other? If one side is over, should the other side rejoice? If you don't compare with one side, the other side that is behind will be depressed?

Su Wen has never shown incomprehension of this, but she doesn't know that her incomprehension stems from the fact that she has always been in a higher position than Xu Leqiu, condescending, she can't put herself in Xu Leqiu's shoes, and therefore can't understand the mood of always being compared to her best friend, so she can always stand on the moral high ground, and advise her girlfriend not to be too serious about gains and losses, and to be herself compared to herself is the most important. He often said to his girlfriends, "Why do good friends always compare with each other?" and other painless words, and even often secretly angry for things like "Xu Leqiu just wants to be better than her, I don't want her to be better".

Su Wen didn't understand Xu Leqiu's frustration and frustration because he was always lagging behind her, just as Xu Leqiu didn't understand Su Wen's disgust with the comparison between friends.

They didn't know what was right and wrong when they were young. There is one thing Su Wen is extremely sure of, human nature has weaknesses, and no one is an exception. Great men still have shortcomings, let alone small beings like them?

At some point, Su Wen was confused about the small contradictions between girls, and she also thought about it empathically, if the person who has been compared to her best friend is Su Wen, looking at her best friend Xu Leqiu, who is better than herself, can she say "There is no need to compare good friends" without any waves in her heart? Can she smile and watch her best friend rise to prominence, receive beautiful praise and praise, and be willing to play a dispensable role like Xiaocao in the shadows on the side? If the matter didn't really come to him, there would be no empathy at all, and the only thing Su Wen was sure of was that he couldn't give himself a definite answer.

In all fairness, if the best person standing in the sun is just an ordinary member of the crowd and has nothing to do with him, most people can sigh from the bottom of their hearts, "She's awesome!" She's amazing! ”。 However, the person standing in the sun has become his dearest best friend, you walk with her, the light on her body is destined to cover your light, you are destined to walk in the shadow she brings to you, always set off by the contrast that seems to be dull. And you, are you really willing to be a foil?

For girls, compared to their best friends, they may not maliciously hope that the other person must have a bad life or be inferior to themselves, and the reason may be very simple, and there is no interest or comparison involved, that is, you are another self in the mirror to each other. How can you not care about your other self?

She compares to you, but she just wants to be as good as you.

However, this simple truth 16-year-old Su Wen did not fully understand.