This is a very serious question.

"If it's just in my own heart, since I woke up, in fact, the first person I fell in love with was you. But since I recovered my memory, my mind is still mixed with memories of An Lingrun and No Complaints, mixed with their emotions, so it is difficult for me to be indifferent to the people they once loved. ”

"But Yuwen Yan is dead, and he was killed by your own hands."

I nodded and said, "That's right, I killed him, because I want to say goodbye to my past, from the day I woke up, I am already a brand new me, I am no longer An Lingrun and no complaints, let alone Lu Fengying, I am just me, another person with the same name and surname as Lu Fengying, and even with the same face, a brand new person." My past, the love and hatred I once had, I can let go. Before we left, you were the only one I loved. ”

"What about no return? Did you fall in love with him after you left? ”

My gaze drifted into the distance, and I didn't know how to answer the question.

Before I left, I had a crush on Wuhui, and I thought I was in love with two people at the same time.

But after the separation, I was a little confused, do I love him without returning, or do I use him as a lifesaver, a savior who can take me out of pain?

I never doubted my sincerity towards Wuhui, and I thought about being with him for the rest of my life.

But I also never let go of King Ryan.

"Lord, I think, you won't accept it, I have him in my heart, whether you say that feeling is love or something else, Wuhui's position in my heart is pivotal and irreplaceable, even you can't shake his weight in my heart. You are indeed very important, but Wuhui is also a very important person in my heart, so your question is meaningless, and I have no way to let go of him. If you say it's love, then I love him. ”

I thought King Ryan would be angry that he loved a woman in his heart, but he loved another man in his heart.

But Ryan Wang was only a little displeased, but quickly changed to a generous smile and said: "If you say that you don't love him, then I will think that I love the wrong person, and you are not with him because you love each other, but because of other reasons, which will make me feel that I am a failure." If you put aside love, you'd rather be with him than choose me, that's what drives me crazy. But it doesn't matter, as you said, I also have a lot of weight in your heart, I believe in myself, I can definitely do it. ”

"What can be?"

"Wu Hui was by your side when you were the saddest, helped you through the saddest time, every time you were in danger, he was protecting you, accompanying you, helping you, I am your husband, but I always bring you harm, and I can't even accompany you when you need it, I am ashamed of myself, and I have no shame to face you. Even if you can't be tempted by me again in this life, I have no right to complain. ”

"But now that there's no return, what if you're in danger when you're alone? What if you need help? What if you need comfort? Ying'er, I hope I can take over from Wuhui and become your flower messenger. Ryan said.

In fact, I'm quite happy in my heart, King Ryan actually said this to me, right in my arms!

But ah, King Ryan, how shall I deal with you? I didn't have an answer, so I smiled at him and said, "The prince's heart, I am grateful to the prince." ”

King Ryan thought I was rejecting him, because he didn't think about how much I would have a good impression of him, and he didn't show any disappointment, but he smiled very plainly and said, "You and I don't have to be so polite, do you plan to live here permanently?" The child who has no return is here, and I think your heart is also here, right? ”

"I haven't thought about it yet, maybe I'll go, right? You know, when have I been idle all these years? Even if I don't want to go, maybe something will force me to go. ”

King Ruian pretended to be relaxed and smiled: "I just came back, just two days off, and I stayed in Ning'an County, if you have something, go to me, don't be polite to me." ”

I thought that King Ryan was just polite to me, even if we were both in Ning'an County, I am afraid there would be no more opportunities to meet, but I didn't expect that night, I met King Ryan again.

When I slept until midnight, I was suddenly woken up by a noise, and when I first woke up, I thought it was a thunderstorm, and I was sighing for an autumn rain and a cold, and I might have to put on a cotton coat tomorrow morning. Unexpectedly, after a thunderclap, I actually heard a little knock on the door from the wind and rain, so I called someone to open the door.

After the doors inside and outside were opened, I saw that King Ruian was wearing a lily robe, and he was still holding something in his arms, and when he came in, he didn't even have time to take off the lily robe, so he handed the things in his arms to my arms, and said urgently: "The doctor of the palace has treated for two days and has not seen anything wrong, although she is Dou Ruoqing's daughter, but the young son is innocent, how can you be kind, help her take a look?" I beg you! ”

I found out that it was a very tightly wrapped baby, and quickly put her on my bed, carefully examined, fortunately Ping'er and An An were weak when they were born, Xun Banshan spent a lot of effort to save their lives, and I, as their mother, also learned a lot of pediatric medical skills, so I have a trace of certainty.

After some diagnosis and treatment, I said, "Our words are pneumonia, children are not well cared for, they are affected by cold winds and colds, and they cannot be treated in time, so they are very likely to get sick." For adults, pneumonia is not a serious disease, but this disease in infants and young children is a bit troublesome, and it is easy to die if you are not careful. I asked someone to boil the medicine, and the child stayed with me first, and then moved back when he was cured. ”

From diagnosing a disease to prescribing medicine to someone to grab medicine and boil medicine, a series of actions did not drag the mud and water at all, it was very natural, even Cai'er didn't expect that I would treat this child so emotionlessly.

It wasn't until the medicine was boiled and brought up, and when I was about to feed it to the child's mouth, I said, "Such a young child, I'm afraid I won't be able to drink the medicine, Lord Wang, you help me hold her." ”

King Ryan came back to his senses, hugged her and said, "I didn't expect you to really be willing to heal her, Ying'er、、、"

The child has been crying, I softly comforted her, maybe the children are attached to their mother, this child has been in her mother's arms for a few months, but suddenly lost her mother, since then no one has ever been kind to her, I am a little gentle with her, the child is very obedient. Although a pair of eyes were blank, they never left me, and they kept looking at me, which made me feel very uncomfortable.