Chapter 25: The Clavicle Bodhisattva

Buddhism has the theory of reincarnation, all encounters are reunions, and all departures are returns.

From childhood to adulthood, Shi Lei only had one friend who died on the way to school.

Early that morning, the fog was filled, and Shi Lei went to school with his friends. The green light on the sidewalk turned on, Shi Lei squatted down to tie his shoes, and the little partner took the first step, and a Santana bridge car ran the red light in violation of the rules and knocked down the little partner, and dragged forward for more than ten meters before stopping. The wheel of the car pressed against one arm, and there was a bright red blood stain on the road, which was shocking. Just now, there was a little friend who was talking and laughing, and suddenly died tragically in front of him, Shi Lei was stunned and completely frightened.

The last thing his friend said to him was: I'll wait for you on the other side of the road.

Since then, Shi Lei has had nightmares every night, dreaming of the smiling faces of his friends again and again, and he wants to say: Stop, don't go.

From then on, crossing the street became his biggest fear, and the car was like a tiger, seemingly rushing over at any moment to knock him down and chew it up.

At that time, Shi Lei was only ten years old, and every time he crossed the street, he had to walk with the flow of people, and if there was no one around, he would stand in front of the zebra crossing of the sidewalk and wait, even if he was late for school, he would not be able to muster up the courage to cross the street alone. Once, he followed a girl across the street, and the green light on the sidewalk flashed a few times and turned red, and the girl in front of him ran quickly, leaving him in the middle of the road, surrounded by traffic.

The little child, standing still and not daring to move, broke out in tears because he was so frightened.

The girl glanced back, ran back, took him by the hand, and led him down the street.

The girl was Butterfly Dance, and that year, she was also ten years old. Butterfly Dance and Shi Lei are neighbors, the same elementary school, but not in the same class, Butterfly Dance develops early, is very tall, and looks like a junior high school girl.

The street is a river, and the people are like duckweed, and that's how they met.

She didn't ask him what he was crying or what he was afraid of, she didn't say anything, she just took his hand and walked through a street, walking through the journey of life, which seemed to be a tacit understanding between two people after many years of separation and reunion. The first time they met, it was as if they had known each other for a hundred years. From then on, he followed her every day to and from school.

In the morning, when the sun was rising and the sky was full of colorful clouds, he always waited quietly in front of a video store for her to cross the street together, he hid behind a telephone pole, and then suddenly appeared behind her.

At noon, his hand swept over the iron fence of the park, and the moon flowers in the flower bed quietly opened, and he looked back to see if she had come.

In the afternoon, he stepped on her shadow, kept a distance, walked across the zebra crossing, and walked through the Chu River and Han realm of life.

Shi Lei and Diewu never spoke, and seemed to know each other, until a cloudy day a year later, the rain wet the flowers in the roadside park, wet the hair and clothes of pedestrians, sparrows fell on the wires, all the eaves were dripping with water, two little children walked in the rain, he coughed a few times, plucked up his courage, and asked cautiously, what is your name?

Butterfly Dance said, haha, I don't know your name either!

He thought her name was beautiful, and it seemed to have some kind of fragrance, and he wrote her name on a piece of paper, filled a page, and quietly threw it away, feeling that he had done something bad, so that when he saw her the next day, he was very unnatural, his heart was beating so badly, and his face was red to the base of his ears. He didn't know why he was like this.

If you've ever had your first love, you know what blushing is all about!

The first love was so beautiful that some of the words had a fragrance, such as "first love". In an ignorant youth, I don't understand the mood of liking someone, which is destined to be unspeakable love. It wasn't until many years later, in the peaks and peaks of the past, in the days that we never returned, that we suddenly remembered that a sigh still stopped in the summer of that summer, and a figure remained in the depths of the most beautiful time, never going far.

After graduating from elementary school, Shi Lei and Diewu went to the same middle school, they are used to each other's existence, two people, have walked through the wind and rain together, and have walked through the four seasons together. There began to be some gossip in the school, thinking that they were engaging in a match, and the teacher also talked to Diewu for this reason, asking her why she went to and from school with Shi Lei every day. Butterfly Dance didn't care at all, she said to the teacher, you don't understand. A bad boy spread a rumor that he saw Shi Lei and Diewu kissing at the corner of the corridor, Shi Lei and this boy quarreled, and then Shi Lei was beaten and cried. While resisting the fists of the bad boys, he cried and defended his innocence with Butterfly Dance.

Butterfly Dance pulled Shi Lei away and glared at the boy who beat people, the boy had a provocative gaze and was not afraid at all.

Butterfly Dance made an amazing move, she didn't move her fists, she didn't curse, she stepped forward and hugged the boy.

The boy was stunned, and then he was frightened, and he never dared to bully Shi Lei in the future, after all, it was a shame for the reputation of early love to spread.

She uses hugs to fight hatred and compassion to resolve conflicts.

That night, it is said that there was a once-in-a-century meteor shower, Shi Lei and Diewu did not go home after school in the evening, and the two of them sat under a cherry tree in the park and looked up at the night sky, waiting for the meteor shower. The starry sky, the gentle breeze blowing, and the moonlight shining on the cherry blossoms flying in the sky, it is a dreamlike fairy tale world.

However, the meteor shower never appeared, and only the cherry blossoms fell one by one.

To devour Butterfly Dance said: Meteor showers may be deceiving.

Shi Lei said: Wait a minute, I seem to have seen a meteor just now.

Butterfly Dance said: Then you have to make a wish quickly.

Shi Lei said: I don't know...... How do you make a wish?

Butterfly Dance said: I thought in my heart.

Shi Lei said: Don't you have to say it?

Butterfly Dance said: We can write down our wishes, put them in a bottle, and bury them here.

They dug a hole with a branch under the cherry blossom tree, wrote the wish on a slip of paper, put it in a bottle, and buried it. They didn't know what the other party wrote, but they naively thought that if the meteor shower appeared, they would be able to fulfill their wishes.

When they came home, the streets were empty at night, and she took his hand and walked across the street.

They smiled goodbye at the mouth of an alley.

If she knew that this was the moment of parting, how could she let go of his hand, how could he smile and say goodbye.

Years later, he learned that he had fallen in love with her when he was ten years old, and that he would spend a lifetime remembering her.

The next day, Shi Lei did not come to school, and he was not seen at the familiar intersection. For several days, it was like this. Diewu inquired about others and learned the news that Shi Lei would not be able to come to school in the future.

Butterfly Dance asks: Why?

The answer is – because, he is disabled.

Although Shi Lei is fourteen years old, his body is still at the stage of a ten-year-old child, and he suffers from dwarfism. Perhaps, from the day he met Butterfly Dance, he didn't grow up, everything stayed on that busy street, she turned around, walked over, and took his hand through the raging traffic.

His parents took Shi Lei to a hospital in another place for treatment, but after a few months, he was not cured.

During that time, Diewu moved, and after graduating from junior high school, she went to a secondary school, and the word disabled was imprinted in Diewu's heart.

Many partings in life are within easy reach, a turn is goodbye, a turn is a goodbye, a turn back has been separated by thousands of rivers and mountains, and it is difficult to see each other again.

They have been separated since then, and they have never seen each other again, and ten years have passed in a flash......

In those years, a lot happened to Butterfly Dance and Shi Lei. Shi Lei's house was demolished, and Diewu once looked for Shi Lei, but did not find it. He is still the timid little boy who didn't dare to cross the street, and Butterfly Dance has grown up. Shi Lei followed his mother to learn how to sew curtains, and he hardly left the house, because every time he appeared on the street, someone would call him "little turtle", "little dwarf", and "Wu Dalang".

We must admit that from the laughter of the audience caused by a certain comedian imitating the disabled, from some swear words, the discrimination against the disabled in this society is widespread.

A very ugly mute, as long as he starts at the age of eighteen, treats others kindly, faces the world with a tolerant and understanding heart, and persists in this way for thirty years, he can become a very ugly middle-aged mute.

Shi Lei usually doesn't like to talk and becomes taciturn. In order to adapt him to this society, his parents gave him a job as a hotel doorman, and he stood in front of the door, wearing a somewhat funny red uniform, and said to each guest: Welcome.

He sometimes thinks of Butterfly Dance, his first and, obviously, his last.

Shi Lei sometimes takes the bus home, and he has been able to cross the road alone, but on the bus, he needs courage to withstand the strange eyes of others. Everyone looked at this child-like adult as if they were looking at a monster.

Once, at a crossroads, Shi Lei had a sense of déjà vu, and he and Diewu had walked here.

There is a song called "River" from the roadside audio store:

This should be fate,

The footprints of life are with you step by step,

How many times tears in laughter,

It has merged into an ocean and packed into a bag of memories.

This should be called life, right?

It's too late to keep it and it's changed again,

How many times to laugh in tears, staggered time,

In the dream, I can't help but sigh,

On the river of hurried life......

We all meet the first person in our lives, accompany us for a while, and then disappear into time. That hazy love affair, many years later, I realized that it was a kind of love that never officially began. I don't know where it came from, and I don't know where it is, just like those flowers, those waters, and those passers-by in the past.

Shi Lei lived so quietly, after ten years, at the intersection where the traffic was busy, he suddenly saw a familiar figure through the glass of the bus, and he recognized Butterfly Dance from the walking posture. His heart was beating faster, he wanted to shout for the driver to stop, he wanted to run in front of her, he wanted to pass through this cold and real world that separated them, his chest was heaving from shortness of breath, he was so excited that he was about to cry...... However, he didn't get out of the car, just sat still, quietly watching her walk out of sight, fade away, and disappear into the sea of people.

Shi Lei said to himself: Is it her?

Perhaps, I recognized the wrong person.

Perhaps, she can only accompany her through such a journey in the long river of life.

If they meet, what can they do, they will walk together, they will be regarded as mother and son by passers-by, he is very inferior, and would rather not see him.

However, a few days later, Butterfly Dance finally found Shi Lei after several inquiries.

At one intersection, she took him by the hand and walked past the scornful crowd around her and through the raging traffic.

They went to the park, sat under the cherry blossom tree, and talked quietly about what had happened to them over the years.

Shi Lei said: A few days ago, I saw you on the street......

Butterfly Dance said: Then why didn't you stop me?

Shi Lei said: I don't dare.

Butterfly Dance said: You are no longer the child who is afraid to cross the road.

Shi Lei said: Diewu, I want to marry you, if it weren't for the fact that you have an incurable disease, I wouldn't dare to say this to you.

Butterfly Dance said: I told you everything, I have AIDS.

Shi Lei said: That's it, I dare to ask you.

Butterfly Dance said: You are really stupid, but I am not wrong about you, I know that you are the only one in this world who cares about me the most.

Shi Lei said: Yes, people all over the world don't want you, I want it.

Butterfly Dance said: I had a dream that I was a Bodhisattva who came down to save sentient beings.

Shi Lei said: If you die, I will become a monk, and I am willing to spend my life with you.

Butterfly Dance said: Fate has its own destiny.

Shi Lei said: I still can't believe it, how did you get sick?

Butterfly Dance said: It doesn't matter if I talk about this now, how I got AIDS is all fate, and I don't want to pursue anything.

Shi Lei said: I know that you believe in Buddhism and have a good heart.

Butterfly Dance said: But there is one person I have to find him, I have infected him with AIDS, I have to tell him, apologize.

Shi Lei said: Then you definitely didn't mean it, who is it?

Butterfly Dance said: It's the lame guy who drives the boat at the dock, he might kill me.

Shi Lei said: I'll go with you.

Butterfly Dance said: My own business, I will end it by myself, I am going to die, and I will entrust it to you.

Shi Lei said: I still want to marry you, even if you have AIDS, even if it is only for a few days, even if we don't do anything.

Butterfly Dance said: I still remember that we buried a bottle under this tree, and it contained the wishes we had made.

Shi Lei said: I don't know if the bottle is still there.

Butterfly Dance said: What is your wish?

Shi Lei said: I like to walk with you, I hope to keep walking, this is the wish I made back then......

After Shi Lei said this, tears welled up like a spring, and his heart ached. Butterfly told him something, went to the docks alone, and never returned. When the lame man heard that he had been infected with AIDS by Butterfly, he was furious, and after beating Butterfly with a folding stool, he was still angry, and slammed the ashtray on Butterfly's head several times. After Butterfly Dance's death, the cripple stuffed a bottle into Butterfly Dance's lower body, sewn it with needles and threads, and he said viciously: Let you hurt people again!

Shi Lei waited quietly for Butterfly Dance, but learned the news of Butterfly Dance's murder from the police.

This little boy who didn't even dare to cross the road back then, Butterfly Dance's death gave him great courage. He bought gasoline and set fire to the lame's boat, and the lame man was burned and sent to the hospital, where he chased him again and killed the lame with a knife.

When he fled, Shi Lei broke into the elevator with a bloody knife, and the two policemen were just one step away from catching him.

There was a woman in a long skirt in the elevator, Shi Lei realized that the police would intercept it on the first floor, he first pressed the button of the underground parking lot on the negative floor, and then threatened the woman and said: This knife has HIV on it, and if it is stained, it will be dead, you can do me a favor and let me hide.

The woman said, "Don't kill me, please, where are you hiding?"

Shi Lei got into the woman's skirt, he squatted down and pressed the knife against the woman's lower body.

The elevator went down from the tenth floor, and some people came up from the ninth and eighth floors one after another, and the elevator was overcrowded, and the woman stood aside and did not dare to move, nor did she dare to call for help, so frightened that she was afraid that this dwarf under her skirt would stab her with a knife. When the elevator went down to the seventh floor, a person walked in, the elevator was overweight, so he had to go out, this person accidentally saw a woman standing aside, her face was pale, and there was a pair of feet under her skirt, and he decisively dialed 110 to call the police.

Going down to the first floor, the crowd walked out of the elevator, and the police officer in charge of intercepting it was negligent, and seeing that there were no gnomes in the elevator, he turned his head and went straight to the stairs.

Shi Lei escaped from the basement parking lot on the first floor, he said sorry to the woman, and then said, thank you.

The woman said: Did you kill someone, and I still persuade you to turn yourself in, right?

Shi Lei said: I will atone for my sins, but not in prison.

Although the police issued an arrest warrant and urgently deployed control at the station to prevent the murderer from escaping, Shi Lei was never arrested.

After some time, Butterfly Dance's body was sent to the funeral home for cremation, and some crystals were found in her ashes, which were as bright as pearls and full of colors. The funeral parlor workers were amazed, and Butterfly Dance's parents devoutly believed in the Buddha, and after seeing this, they recited "Amitabha Buddha" in unison.

Su Mei said: Unbelievable, these beads are very similar to relics!

Bao Chu said: I have heard that only high-ranking monks can burn relics.

Painting the dragon said: Shi Lei fell in love with a female Bodhisattva, and he didn't know where he would go to atone for his sins.

Professor Liang said: In addition to prisons, they should be temples, but there are so many temples in the country, and the police cannot search them one by one.

Hualong said: Could it be that Shi Lei went to be a monk?

Su Mei said: Butterfly Dance feels that she is Guanyin Bodhisattva who came down to purify all sentient beings.

Professor Liang said: I am reminded of the clavicle Bodhisattva recorded in the "Continuation of the Mystery Record".

"There is a woman in Xiyan Prefecture, fair-skinned, quite good-looking, twenty-four or five-year-old. Lonely in the city, the young son travels with it, and there is nothing to do. After a few years of death, the people of the state are all sad, and they are buried for it. With its homelessness, it is on the left side of the road. In the calendar, suddenly there are monks from the west, see the tomb and sit down, with salute and incense, around the admiration for several days. People say that this longitudinal woman is also a husband. Because it has no belonging, it is here. How can a monk respect evil? The monk said, not Tan Yue knows, Sinai is a great sage, compassion and joy, worldly desires, all favoritism. This is the clavicle bodhisattva, the fate has been exhausted, the sage cloud ear, do not believe, that is, enlighten it. Everyone immediately opened the tomb, looked at the bones all over the body, and the hook was like a lock, and the fruit was like the monk's words. The people of the state are different, in order to set up Lent, the tower is raised. ”