I immediately calmed my mind down, this is what Hu Tianshuo taught me, my mind is confused, when I think about something, when I don't understand, I will come step by step, slowly recall, list the important things, and then think slowly, and finally connect these important things.

I began to recall what I had just done, and I continued to pick up some water, and then watched as the drops of water continued to flow out from between my fingernails, and fell into the river with a clatter.

At this time, in my mind, what I thought of was a plastic bag, but beside me, where was there a plastic bag, I quietly put my hand, loosened my grip, left some space in the middle, put it into the water, looking at the constantly flowing river, I began to think slowly.

Since a long time ago, my brain is not very flexible, when I was in elementary school, my grades were not good, junior high school, high school, all the same, however, there is one point, maybe I am better than others, at least the exam, I passed it successfully.

What I did before was the same as now, I couldn't understand a lot of things, so I could only ask my classmates or teachers for advice, and then practice, unexpectedly, with practice again and again, I never dropped the chain in the entrance exam, and I was successfully admitted to the university.

Before the college entrance examination, I did countless practice questions and kept practicing, in order to hope that in the future, I could have a stable job and help my parents as soon as possible.

And maybe when I'm studying, I don't want to study a lot of the time, it's very painful, those mathematical, physical and chemical things, but for this, I'm afraid I have to thank someone, cousin, is his reason, which affects me a little bit.

I'm looking at my cousin, who is a rich second generation, has caused countless troubles to my uncle, two heads in three days, calling parents, beating others, hanging out with my sister, and other things, a lot of trouble, over the years, my uncle's head has been big, but my cousin is a rich second generation.

Maybe since I was very young, I knew my cousin, I knew this, no matter how nonsense my cousin is, his family is rich, he doesn't have to worry about his future work, my uncle has already arranged it for him, and I am different.

My parents were just ordinary salarymen, they were getting older day by day, and I had to get into a good university and then go to work.

Now that I think about it, I laugh, it was my cousin who made me make up my mind, study, and force myself, so along the way, although I used to be very lonely, most of the time, I was in practice again and again, listening to the teacher to make up lessons for me again and again, so I was able to get through these difficulties in my lonely childhood.

The most memorable time should be when I was in college, my homeroom teacher, Mr. Qian Jiaming, my relationship with him is very good, because of my efforts, he sees it in his eyes, I am stupid, I admit, many times.

My major in college is water conservancy and hydropower engineering, at the beginning, I knew a lot of things, even connected to an electric light, and bumped into each other, and even confused the positive and negative poles because of nervousness, and I almost fainted with electricity, and fell into a laughing stock, in school, most people know.

But then, I understand more that I am not as good as others, so I spend more time than others to repeat the continuous exercises, and then let my body write down, gradually, Mr. Qian Jiaming likes my appearance very much, and from time to time explain some things to me separately and carefully.

Gradually, I and Mr. Qian Jiaming were like friends, and after graduating from university, I got a lot of teachers' recommendations to work in the Water Conservancy Bureau of H City, however, things changed, because there was only 1 quota, and the person who got that quota was originally me.

But the strange thing is that the quota was temporarily canceled for some reasons that I didn't know at all, and it became the child of internal employees, and I was very shocked, especially when I was full of thoughts about marrying Wu Xiaoli.

I have to have a stable job, and Wu Xiaoli, because I am friends with Li Nan, she directly entered the bank where Li Nan worked, as soon as I thought of this, I smiled, stood up, and quietly looked at myself in the river.

"When the hell did I become comfortable?"

I laughed at myself and smiled.

In desperation, I went to a large-scale indoor cleaning job, as a cleaner, this work, tired and dirty, at first I was a little uncomfortable, but in the company, the faster the guys, the more people who receive the work, the salary is very high, more than one or two thousand.

I seemed to have ignited hope, I began to practice constantly, the speed of cleaning, in two years, I went out early and returned late every day, received a lot of business, and at that time, Wu Xiaoli and I had a big problem, my monthly salary of six or seven thousand, which was okay.

And in order to get married, the problem with Wu Xiaoli is getting more and more serious, I was forced to have no choice but to talk to my cousin, he directly said to give me a house, I refused, and then I was optimistic about the house, I only need to repay more than 3,000 loans every month, okay, after the boss knew my relationship with my cousin, he didn't need to pay it back, I still refused.

I thought that if I had a good talk with Wu Xiaoli and give her a surprise, at least I had made some changes, however, something happened, and I have fallen into this ghost path since then, and I have been entangled with ghosts until now, and I have become a demon.

I touched the red tear line on my left cheek, which looked like a bifurcated branch, and laughed, very evil, and now my smile, the previous me, was gone.

I clenched my fists and looked at the river quietly, God seemed to really like to joke with people, when I realized that I had been involved in such a huge spiral, called the spiral of battle, Lan Ruoxi had already left, and I couldn't do anything but watch it happen.

"Still too weak, you, weak you, when will you be able to stop everything?"

I muttered to myself, crouched down again, and the two women, in the first half and the second half of my life, the most important of all, had left me because of my weakness.

Before, because they couldn't understand each other, they caused this series of problems, and after that, they understood each other, loved each other, and just wanted to firmly owe each other and go on together, and because of the impermanence of the world, yin and yang were separated, and even Lan Ruoxi's soul died together, under the huge power of the fourth nirvana.

The heart of struggle, in the past long time, I may have found it back, my own destiny, my own talent, this is the case, and I can only fight, to fight against the impermanence of this world.

More and more, I think back, at that time, when I was a student, I repeated, again and again, until I solved a problem, I would dream of it, I could recite it backwards, I smiled.

In a better mood, I continued to crouch down and began to think about the ghostly thing, this time, it was more difficult than before, and I needed to find some way to control the power in constant repetition, which I had never done before.

And just now, what I felt was that the ghost seemed to have increased a little more than before, and the original storage of ghost energy had also increased, so I picked up some water again, took a sip, and in an instant, I laughed, I found a way, this time, I can definitely do it.

I turned my head excitedly, it was already time to eat, at this time, Yi Xuehan was waiting quietly on the side, her eyes were staring at me, and I raised a hand.

"This time, I'll do it, thank you, Miss Yi."

I closed my eyes and felt the amount of ghost qi in my body, and then in a flash, I released the ghost qi, which was three times that of Yi Xuehan, she was a little surprised, and I said with a wry smile.

"A few more times, that's it, I can do it."

I continued to do it again, twice, doubled, and in an instant, I was pleasantly surprised, looking at Yi Xuehan, she showed a rare smile.

"It's very clumsy, Zhang Qingyuan, you don't have any talent, and you don't have any qualifications, if in other words, a qualified person is a piece of jade, and you are just a broken stone, no matter how you carve it, it's still a broken stone, not worth anything."

"Hey, isn't that too much?"

I said with a smile, and Yi Xuehan giggled, smiling like a flower.

"However, such a cumbersome thing, if it were me, I would have been unable to stand it for a long time, and you, persevered, everyone has their own path, and you, too, Zhang Qingyuan, when a broken stone is carved to the extreme, perhaps, the light emitted will be more than a piece of jade, maybe, I am looking forward to it, the next stage, you can start, and when you are at night, you can also control the power."

I nodded excitedly, and the reason why I did it was thanks to the fact that these days, I have been repeating one thing continuously, the ghost, as if it is a plastic bag that will continue to produce water from far away, and the yin qi on the outside is like water wrapped in a plastic bag.

The ghost gas released is like a small hole in the plastic bag, and the water will flow out, and the water in the plastic bag will immediately produce water, but if I deliberately plug the broken hole in the plastic bag, it will continue to release water.

The plastic bag inside would swell, and then I would open the little hole, and the water wrapped around the outside would flow back into the plastic bag, and I did, and the ghost was something like that.

Ghost qi can be withdrawn after it is released.