CH.41 I Love You, I Don't Need to Say It
"Okay, I'm going to class, you have to be less cranky and study more...... Well, so be it! This is the first time that Feng Yifei took the initiative to end the chat.
"Don't be too tired! Bye-bye......" Jin Yefeng watched Feng Yifei's image go from existence to nothing, it turned out that the feeling of being turned off the video was so bad, seeing his portrait of killing Matt turn into a ruthless gray, there was a feeling of being abandoned by the world...... She is often very rough offline, does Feng Yifei feel the same?
Feng Yifei, who was in a hurry to turn off the video, was not because he was calm, but because he was about to lose control of his emotions, seeing Jin Yefeng's image disappear from front of his eyes, his strong consciousness also disappeared...... What he was most afraid of finally happened, although it was not without warning, since Jin Yefeng first told him about his neurotic brother, he had an inexplicable sense of crisis, and after seeing Li Jinghao, he was even more sure of this feeling: he was calm, calm, and unhurried, he was the kind of "man like the sea" that Jin Yefeng liked, and he would always be a scumbag in Jin Yefeng's eyes, so he couldn't change it? Is it useless to do anything?
He really wanted to change, he had already started to study hard, he had trained himself to do housework: cooking, washing dishes, tidying up his own room, and he no longer spent money indiscriminately, and even went to learn how to manage money from Uncle Edward, who was a stock trader...... Aren't any of this useful? Is it too late? Is it useless to do anything!!
Maybe in the near future, he will no longer be able to hold Miss Feng's hand, no longer be able to hold her shoulders, no longer be able to hold her casually, and no longer be able to sleep together...... His maple girl can no longer talk to him, lose his temper, scold him, roll his eyes at him, smirk at him, watch the sunrise and sunset with him, play guitar and piano with him, and keep secrets with him...... And all this power will belong to another man, and that person will become her most important person, will she also give him a "happy rabbit tail"? Is he going to be a fake?
Feng Yifei felt a terrible headache, he went into the bathroom and turned on the faucet, and couldn't wait to dip his head in cold water. The stinging sensation of opening his eyes in the water was far less than the pain in his heart, and he would rather choke himself to death than be crushed to death by the big stone in his heart! My chest is so stuffy, I'm about to lose my breath......
He jerked his head up from the water and looked at himself in the mirror, never feeling so ugly or embarrassed. He seemed to see that Jin Yefeng took Li Jinghao's hand and walked over slowly, his eyes were full of shyness: "Da Fei, thank you, we will be happy in the future!" ”
Feng Yifei smashed the mirror with one punch, and finally cried out bitterly: "Jin Yefeng, you are a big liar, you obviously said that you would be with me forever, why do you want to fall in love with others!" I'm your white horse boy, it's really me, I know! Only you don't know, stupid, stupid, big stupid......"
The crimson blood slipped from the mirror into the cold water, like poppies that gradually bloomed, blooming bigger and bigger, spreading to the extreme, but turning into a bitter smile, so bitter that it was out of reach, so bitter that nothing could be done......
When Zhou Qingqing opened the door with the key, it was pitch black in the house, and Jin Yefeng hadn't come back yet? Could it be that she is with Li Jinghao? Zhou Qingqing didn't know whether she was sad or happy in her heart, she sighed and turned on the light in the living room.
"You're here, why don't you turn on the lights?" Zhou Qingqing was really startled, Jin Yefeng sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, his hair was scattered, and his eyes were wide open, but they were swollen like walnuts, "What's wrong with you?" Crying? Is it what happened to Li Jinghao to you? ”
"Qingqing...... I remembered it, I remembered it all, and it was great! Jin Yefeng suddenly jumped up excitedly from the ground, the smile on her face was like a dewy but energetic rose in the morning, she picked up the white paper on the ground, sat down quickly in front of the piano, and drew her right hand on the paper like a gust of wind.
"What do you remember? ......" Zhou Qingqing was a little inexplicable, she approached Jin Yefeng, wondering what she was painting?
Jin Yefeng kept drawing notes on the stave that he had already drawn with a ruler: "Qingqing, if you want to help me, can you help me draw a few more staves?" Please! ”
"Oh, yes!" Zhou Qingqing collected the white paper scattered on the ground, put the drawn lines next to Jin Yefeng, and picked up a pencil and ruler on the blank paper and began to draw lines according to the format that had been drawn.
Although I can't figure out what she is painting, it must be an important thing, Zhou Qingqing looked at Jin Yefeng with a serious face, completely immersed in his own world, and felt that he didn't know her at all, could this be the legendary artist who suddenly came to inspiration......
I don't know how long it took, Jin Yefeng kept drawing notes, Zhou Qingqing helped her draw lines until she almost fell asleep, just when Zhou Qingqing wanted to yawn, Jin Yefeng suddenly stopped writing.
"It's done!" Jin Yefeng clenched his fists with his hands excitedly and stretched his waist widely.
"Is it finally finished?" Although Zhou Qingqing was sincerely happy for her, she had been waiting for Jin Yefeng to explain to her what she was doing.
"Well, it's done, this is the score for my adaptation of "Canon" with four hands!" Jin Yefeng sorted out a stack of music scores and put them on the music score rack, "I watched Li Jinghao's version today, but I always feel that there are shortcomings, I have been thinking about what is missing just now, but I can't think of anything...... My dad used to say that if you don't understand something, you have to go back to the source, and you can find the answer from the source. So I thought, where is my origin, the first time I played "Canon" was when I was in the music classroom of high school with Feng Yifei, he didn't know how to play the piano at all, he insisted on playing with me with four hands, at that time I choked him enough, he also choked me enough, and his strange fingering now makes me happy to have a stomachache when I think about it......"
Jin Yefeng couldn't help but smile from his heart, so beautiful that Zhou Qingqing, who was watching from the sidelines, was a little amazed. She was still immersed in her own memories, not knowing whether to talk to herself or to Zhou Qingqing.
"I first liked this piece because the scene in the movie where the male protagonist holds a rose and gives it to the female protagonist playing the piano is super loving...... What I yearn for most in my heart is: 'I love you, I don't need to say it at all', two people who love each other can understand it...... What is lacking in Li Jinghao's music is this feeling, and I finally understand! ”
"I love you, I don't have to say it?" Zhou Qingqing was shocked by Jin Yefeng's words, she seemed to understand that the origin of what Jin Yefeng said was actually just Feng Yifei! The power of fate is really terrible, the arrogant Yue'er in her previous life also fell in love with Yide unconsciously, the two of them went through several partings before finally coming together, I really admired Yue'er at that time, and I always stuck to my promise to Yide, and waited for him for so long, God would give them a chance to be together again...... Could it be that in this life, it is their fault to match Yue'er and Xiha?
"That's right, that's how it feels, although Li Jinghao likes me very much, but his feelings are too exposed, so he will lose this feeling, although it has nothing to do with falling in love, but I can help him get it back! The score I have adapted must be very moving! Jin Yefeng said as if it had nothing to do with him, and he was also a little incoherent, as if all the focus was on this song, "I have to discuss it with him tomorrow, so let's stop here today!" ”
Jin Yefeng cleaned up the score by himself as if no one was around, carefully covered the lid of the keys, and did not forget to carefully wipe its white skin from head to toe, as if he was taking care of his lover.
"Good night, little darling!" Jin Yefeng kissed the piano and went back to his room.
Zhou Qingqing stood stupidly in place, "enjoying" the feeling of being ignored, Jin Yefeng must have been stimulated by something today......
I don't know if this is stimulating, Jin Yefeng took out a Feng Yifei's sweatshirt from the closet and dragged it into her own quilt, she got into the quilt and rolled her body into the sweatshirt, Feng Yifei's taste made her instantly feel much more at ease, and she kept comforting herself:
Don't think too much, there are still a lot of things waiting for her to do, she must study hard and be worthy of her future and dreams! Participate in the competition and bring glory to the school and college! Feng Yifei will come back on December 22nd, and it will only be 2 months, and everything will be solved by then! She doesn't have to think about Li Jinghao anymore, because Feng Yifei said that she has little experience in love and can't judge herself. He's experienced, so let him judge, otherwise why do you want his friend to use it......
Jin Yefeng had an alarm clock at 5 o'clock last night, she opened her eyes before the alarm clock rang, she couldn't wait to turn on the mobile phone penguin, and sent a message to Feng Yifei as soon as possible: "Remember to brush your teeth before going to bed!" After sending the message, she began to wash and dress, and left a note to go out before Zhou Qingqing woke up.
This time, she went straight to the staff passage of the canteen, preparing to squat here to guard Li Jinghao, and sure enough, it didn't take long for Li Jinghao to come out of it.
"Senior brother!" Jin Yefeng saw him and ran over with a smile on his face.
"Why are you here!" Seeing Jin Yefeng's relaxed face, and yesterday's pale face, although he didn't know what the reason was, Li Jinghao also laughed, it turned out that today was a sunny day.
"Look, look, senior brother, this is the score I wrote last night, let's try to practice today, I couldn't figure out where the disharmony was yesterday, I believe it feels right this time!" Jin Yefeng was so excited that he took out his score as if he were offering a treasure.
So it's for this fun...... It's okay, Li Jinghao took the score and looked at it attentively, and the more he looked at it, the more he couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth: "It's really good, Senior Sister Jin, or do you feel more right than me......"
"You're not bad, I'm just changing it a little, I wanted to tell you yesterday, but I found out that I don't have your contact information at all, and you find me every time we meet...... I don't know which dormitory you live in, and I want to go to your internship hospital to find you, but I can definitely find you here! ”
"Yes......" Li Jinghao thought that he had never asked Jin Yefeng's mobile phone number, and he didn't have time to add the penguin, but he knew where she lived and her class schedule.
Jin Yefeng took out his mobile phone and handed it to him, blinking playfully: "Senior brother, tell me your mobile phone number, I can send you a message or call next time, I don't have to get up so early in the morning and run over to wait for you!" ”
This is equivalent to Jin Yefeng taking the initiative to ask him for contact information, what does this mean? Do you keep in touch in the future and accept him slowly? Can he understand it that way? Li Jinghao couldn't hide the nervousness in his heart, took her mobile phone, entered his phone number with a slight tremble, and clicked "dial out", which made the mobile phone in his pocket beat uncontrollably violently, the same as his heart......
"Are you hungry? Today is the mushroom filling......" Li Jinghao decided to divert some attention in order to suppress the excitement in his heart, and he carefully took out the freshly steamed buns from his arms, "Then, can we have breakfast together in the future?" Isn't it a bit too monotonous to let you eat buns and sandwiches every day, I'm afraid you'll get tired of eating them......"
"Of course you can, you can send a message appointment in the future, so that you don't have to go to the classroom to find me every time...... But don't you always wake up so early, it's too easy to doze off in class! Jin Yefeng's face was slightly red, and he stuck out his tongue shyly.
"Well, you can get up at what time you want, and I can also be responsible for waking you up and being your artificial alarm clock......" Seeing Jin Yefeng's shy face, Li Jinghao didn't know what to say, and began to speak incoherently.
"Senior brother, I really want to make one thing clear to you!" Jin Yefeng bit his lip and looked at Li Jinghao very seriously, "I really can't get over that hurdle in my heart now, so I don't want to fall in love yet, but I know my thoughts very well: I don't hate you!" If you don't dislike it, we can start with ordinary friends, I don't know what the future holds, but this is my truest idea right now, I don't want to lie to you! ”
"Of course I don't dislike it!" Li Jinghao anxiously confessed his inner thoughts, "Of course, there is no problem to start as an ordinary friend, I will always wait for you, don't worry!" "Isn't that the best place to start? He has been waiting for a lifetime, and he doesn't care if he continues to wait, even if he waits for another three, thirty, or three hundred generations, as long as he is given a chance, he will definitely thank God!
"Well, then it's decided, in the future, as a friend, you don't call me 'Senior Sister Jin' anymore, you call them 'Qingqing' and 'Yun Ling', and they see me like that!" Jin Yefeng pretended to pout angrily.
"Call you Feng'er, okay?"
I really want to call you Yue'er, you will definitely think that you are calling someone else...... Li Jinghao, no, Xihao surrounded his favorite Yue'er in his previous life with a doting gaze, from now on, let me take good care of you, maybe I will really get your heart in this life, the original heaven blesses, I am willing to use a switch to your heart......