"Am people like me qualified to have love?" Conan was keenly aware of Gin's wording of me and not us, and probably knew very well in his heart that he and Gray Plains were people from two worlds at all, "There is no affection between us, only the use of ......" Gin smiled self-deprecatingly, "At that time, I was just an inappropriate killer, and all the tasks I participated in ended in failure, and the situation in the organization was really unspeakable, no matter who dared to bully me, I would get hurt every night, They also said they were helping me practice. ”

Ashbara's memories follow Gin back to those dark days, when she had just returned to Japan from her studies in the United States, and was involved in someone else's experimental project in a laboratory she organized, which was a simple subject for the development of a poison, in short, a poison that could cause death without detecting the specific cause of death, which was actually somewhat similar to the later usage of APTX4869. She doesn't want to make this harmful drug for the organization, so she often can't work hard when researching, and there is no experimental result, of course, it will cause dissatisfaction among other experimenters, so her life is actually very difficult, it is impossible to raise idlers in this kind of place in the organization, and everyone who lives in the organization must use their lives to serve the ultimate goal of that gentleman.

"I know that at that time, she was also in a bad situation, she was kind by nature and refused to make poison for the organization, so she was harassed by those researchers, but fortunately they were all just civilian personnel and would not do anything out of the ordinary." Gin's words continued to ring, telling the little detective in front of him about his past with Sherry.

"I remember that the first time we met was in a dark passage in the organization, which was the only way to get out of that base, and for some reason, there was no light in the whole passage, so we could only use the dim fluorescence on my phone or watch to identify the way. (The premise took place many years ago, not in the era of today's smartphones.) Gin lit himself a cigarette with one hand before continuing to talk about their past, perhaps the tobacco helped him remember the past, "When I got to that passage, Sherry she didn't know how long she had been standing there, by the way, she wasn't Sherry then, it was Shiho Miyano......"

"You weren't Gin then, Kurosawa......" Gray Hara silently read in her mind, and she also remembered that day that fear of the dark was a common problem for every young girl, especially since she didn't want to return to this abyss-like organization in the first place. I don't know how long she stood on this side of the passage, but Gray Yuan only remembered that her legs were a little numb, and she didn't want to take that first step, and at this time, a slightly gasping voice entered her ears, and when she looked back, a silver-haired man with long hair appeared in her sight.

"I don't know why, looking at the kind of gaze she looked at, I felt the same way, it was the reluctance to have to return to this dark corner, the unwillingness to be humiliated by cold words, the coldness of rejecting people thousands of miles away, and a silent plea for help, that kind of slightly desperate request was so similar to my situation at that time." Gin's tone actually trembled slightly, and sure enough, there was no one in this world who could be completely indifferent, "I know that she hid at the edge of the passage because she was afraid of the dark, but where is the word help in the organization, and I just want to go home and bandage it quickly, and then have a good rest." ”

Your description is really to the point. Gray Yuan silently complained about Gin in his heart, like a friend who had been lost for many years. Now she has forgotten who spoke first, in short, she and Gin have argued about this matter for a long time, neither of them admitted that it was the first thing they said first, and they both felt that the other party put down their bodies to themselves first, so the truth of the matter has long been impossible to scrutinize, but the result of the matter is very sure of both of them, that is, the two injured people have indeed been connected since then.

"I walked past her, and she asked me if I could go with her, and I said yes, and that's the first thing we both said." Gin's narration is very plain but very moving, "Originally, the light of a mobile phone was very dim, but when the two mobile phones were placed together to illuminate together, the light became very bright, bright enough for us to see the road under our feet; The same is true for people, when two people who are dark and ordinary are combined, they may be able to have completely different reactions. I dragged her hand through the dark tunnel, and I could see that she was really afraid of the dark, so that her hands were trembling all the time, but she didn't say the word fear at all, she was always so stubborn. ”

Listening to Gin's description of himself, Gray Yuan wanted to shake his head and deny it and refute it, but the current situation simply did not allow it. Gray Yuan's memory is also replaying the situation at the same time, she can feel that the hand that is holding her is a little rough, thinking that it is the traces left by years of training shooting and fighting skills, and she actually knows everything about the situation of the organization, but she is forced to participate in it and has no power to change anything. Walking out of the narrow dark tunnel, a bright light stung Graybara's eyes a little, but she liked the feeling of bathing in light, and with a flick of her hand, she broke free from Gin's restraints, and Graybara ran a few steps to the brightly lit area. Looking back, Gray Yuan really saw Gin's appearance clearly, at that time, Gin's face was not so indifferent, and there was no kind of haze, on the contrary, Gin at that time was unexpectedly sunny, and his face that was not handsome but attractive enough was not flesh and blood, but it was also full of scars.

"Seeing her turn around and see the wound on my face, I subconsciously reached out to block the largest piece of my left face, in the base of the organization, there are only two situations where there are injuries on the body, either being injured by the target after failing the mission, or being bullied and injured by a companion, either is not a glorious thing." Gin sneered again, I don't know if he was laughing at himself who was a little incompetent at that time, or Sherry, who seemed out of place with everyone in the organization because of his kindness, "What I didn't expect was that she didn't mean to laugh at me at all, but took me to her house, didn't say anything, just carefully bandaged my wounds......"

"The next day was still a similar situation, because I couldn't get the trust of my superiors, I couldn't get any tasks at all, so I could only carry out boring training and beatings in the base, and she should be in a similar situation, mixed in with the experimenters and bullied, but she had no ability to refute at all." Gin continued to recount their past, "When I came to the passage after a day's training, sure enough, Sherry was already standing there, of course I knew in my heart that she was only standing there waiting for me because she was afraid of the dark, but I didn't know what to say when the words came to my lips......"

"You're probably embarrassed to bring it up again...... ' Gray Yuan secretly slandered in his heart, what Gin said to her at that time was that you were still here waiting to bandage my wounds? I really didn't expect this seemingly indifferent guy to be so sensitive in his heart, far stronger than Kudo, a wooden detective. At that time, Gray Yuan didn't expect Gin to say such a thing, and what he didn't expect was that Gin's mind was so meticulous, he obviously saw that he was afraid of the dark, and he also saw that he was ashamed to mention this fear to people, so he used the excuse of bandaging to take her out of this passage.

"Anyway, the two of us left the base together again, and she invited me to her house again, and she said that I specifically asked her to bandage me, in fact, bandaging such a trivial matter, how could we killers not? I only took the initiative to take her home because she was afraid of the dark. The cigarette in Gin's hand was a little hot, and he threw it outside the train, "Anyway, every day Sherry, she will wait for me to leave on the edge of that passage every day, and then go to her house to bandage my wounds, and so on, I don't know how long." ”

"That's how the two of us used each other in the first place, she used my presence to help her get through that dark tunnel, and I used her presence to help me bandage my injured body." Gin gives him a definition of his friendship with Ashbara.

"It's really not frank, obviously I just said that I don't need Gray Yuan to bandage him......" The detective silently complained about Gin in his heart, but he didn't dare to say this sentence at all, for fear that he would accidentally break this hard-won peaceful memory.