Chapter 34: The First Experience
He stood up and shifted to another chicken coop. This was because he suddenly felt the flame of the old flame fluttering and rising in his waist and abdomen. And he always thought that this fire was extinguished forever. He was fighting against the flames, so he turned his back on her. But the fire flowed and burned, and burned all the way down to his body, and burned around his knees.
He turned to look at her again and saw her on her knees, slowly and blindly reaching out for the chicks to run back to the mother chicken. She was so silent, so sad, and that look made him sympathize with him and make him feel like he was burning.
Before he knew it, he quickly approached her, crouched down beside her, took the chick from her hand, and put it back in the cage. He knew she was afraid of the hen. At this moment, he felt that the fire in his waist and abdomen suddenly burned even more.
He glanced at her with a frightened face, her face twisted to the side, and she wept to herself, crying out of the pain and misery of her life, and for a moment his heart turned into a spark. He reached out, fingers on her knee.
"You shouldn't cry!" He said softly.
She covered her face with her hands, felt her heart break, and wept without hesitation.
He placed his hand on her shoulder and began to gently stroke it down her back, soothing her unconsciously, all the way down to her curved waist. His hand stopped there, caressing her side with infinite tenderness, with unconsciously instinct.
She touched her tissue and wiped it on her face, trying to wipe away her tears.
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"Let's go to the hut." He said quietly.
As he spoke, his hand gently grabbed her upper arm, pulled her up, and led her slowly towards the hut, and did not let go until he was inside. He then pushed his chair and table aside, took out a brown military blanket from his toolbox, and slowly spread it out. She glanced at his face, still standing.
He was pale and expressionless, like a man who had accepted his fate.
"Lie down!" He whispered and closed the door, and the room went dark.
She inexplicably obeyed and lay on the blanket. Then she felt his hand grope softly, searching for her face. His hand caressed her face with great tenderness, bringing her infinite warmth and comfort, and finally he kissed her gently on the cheek.
She lay quietly, half-asleep and half-awake. Then she shuddered as she felt his hand groping softly but awkwardly in her clothes. But his hands naturally knew how to take off her clothes. Slowly, carefully, he pulled down her thin silk tights and pulled them down to her feet. The unspeakable pleasure made him tremble, and he began to caress her warm and soft body, and kissed her navel.
He was to enter at once, and her place was as quiet as an afternoon after a shower, and as peaceful as a winter morning. The moment he actually entered, what he felt was pure peace and contentment.
She lay quietly, as if she were asleep, as if she were asleep. Even his arms clenched around her, and even when his body rose and fell violently, she seemed to be asleep as he sowed the seeds of life in her. She didn't wake up until he was done, lying on her chest and gasping slightly.
After waking up, she began to be surprised and felt inexplicable: why, why is this? Why did the dark clouds in her heart disperse and she felt peaceful.
But her tormented moral heart could not be calmed. Is this true? What is the difference between herself and Pan Jinlian?
But she knew that if she gave herself to this man, it would be true. But if she clings to herself, it's like it didn't happen. She was old, and she felt that she was millions of years old, too old for herself to bear. Whoever takes her away will let whoever owns her, everything doesn't care.
In the darkness he pulled her clothes over her legs and stood beside her for a moment, apparently tidying up his clothes. Then he gently opened the door and went out.
She caught a glimpse of a small bright moon on the sunset at the top of the treetops, which is called "the sun and the moon shine together" in astronomy, which means auspicious. She got up at once, straightened her clothes, and walked towards the door of the hut.
Shadows hung over the low woods, and it was almost dark. But the sky above me was still bright, though no longer shining with light. He walked towards her from the shadows of the low woods, his face lifted like a pale speck.
"Shall we go?" He said.
"Where?"
"I'll accompany you to the door."
He arranged things his way. He locked the door to the hut and followed her.
"You don't regret it, do you?" As he spoke, he walked over to her.
"Nope! No! What about you? She asked.
"For that? No! He said, then adding, "But it's hard to say anything else." ”
"What else?" She asked.
"Boss Zhang. And others! All the hassles. This is not normal. ”
"What's the trouble?" She asked, disappointed by that.
"It's always like this, it's the same for you and for me, it's always troublesome." He walked unhurriedly in the dark.
"Do you regret it?" She asked.
"Sort of!" He looked at the sky and replied, "I thought I had broken this thought, but who knew I would start again." ”
"Start what?"
"Life."
"Life!" She repeated, feeling a strange excitement.
"It's life," he said, "and there's no escape." If you run away, you might as well die. So, if I had to be ruined again, I would let it go. ”
She didn't see it that way, but she still ......
"It's just love." She said cheerfully.
"Whatever it is!" He replied.
They walked silently in the woods at nightfall, until they were almost at the gate of the garden.
"You don't hate me, do you?" She asked, a little wistfully.
"No, no!" As he spoke, he suddenly hugged her tightly in his arms, and the hug was full of mixed passion, "No, I think it's good, what about you?" ”
"Me too." She said casually, a little insincerely, because she didn't feel anything.
He kissed her tenderly and passionately.
"If only there weren't so many people in this world!" He said sadly.
She smiled. When they came to the gate of the garden, he pushed the door open for her and said, "I will not be far away." ”
"No!" She reached out as if to shake hands, but he took her hand with both hands.
"Can I come again?" She looked forward to it.
"Come on, come on!"
She left him and went back alone.