Before the age of five, Cao'er either circled around her grandmother's knees at home, or played with her friends outside, except for chasing her grandparents and two aunts to tell stories, there was no other way to absorb information.

When he was five years old, his eldest uncle Yun Gang brought back an 18-inch color TV from the city. At that time, the whole family was boiling, and the third uncle Yunjin cheered like a child:

"Our family has the first color TV in the village!"

At that time, there was a family in the village that had a TV, but it was a black and white TV, and it was 14 inches. Yunjia's 18-inch large color TV was very eye-catching at the time, and it can be regarded as the efforts of the whole family have achieved some results.

Soon, the surrounding neighbors all came to Yun's house to watch TV. During the day, it is mainly some mothers-in-law who are about the same age as their grandmother, and when 7 o'clock in the evening, both men and women, young and old, move a small bench to the living room and sit around to watch TV.

At that time, the news broadcast was broadcast for half an hour at 7 o'clock, an episode of a TV series was broadcast at 7:30 until about half past eight, and the channel was changed to see variety shows on other stations at half past eight, and it was transferred back to the station at nine o'clock to watch two consecutive episodes of TV series.

Every night, Cao'er watched TV with her grandmother and saw that it was more than 11 o'clock in the evening, and even the TV series stopped broadcasting at 12 o'clock in the evening.

In fact, Cao'er doesn't understand what is happening on TV, and the words at home are far from what is said on the TV show, so she can't understand it, just looking at the expressions of those characters on TV, Cao'er will use the most intuitive judgment: Is he a good guy or a bad guy? Is she beautiful?

and then the hairstyle of the female announcer who broadcasts the news at 7 o'clock every night, Cao'er is very envious.

In her opinion, this female anchor is the most beautiful: a standard and fluent Mandarin, a handsome face, a neat and beautiful short hair, especially the slightly curly bangs on her forehead, which fascinates the grass even more.

Every time Cao'er's grandmother helped her wash her hair with the black tea cakes made after drying soaphorns and tea tree branches and leaves, she would run to the room, open the window, face the mirror, and take a comb to adjust the bangs on her forehead, wanting to bend into the appearance of a female anchor, but Cao'er's hair is naturally smooth, no matter how she bends it, it is still straight, and she can't roll it up like that beautiful female anchor at all, which makes Cao'er very discouraged.

Grandma Cao'er's favorite thing to watch is TV series. At that time, there was a hit drama on TV about five children who depended on their mothers, but their mothers later suffered from cancer, fought the disease strongly, and finally died. Grandma Cao'er wiped her tears every time she watched it, and when she heard the theme song, she said that the song was very sad.

Little grass and grandma sat side by side on the sofa, not knowing why grandma wiped her tears, and didn't know what "sad" meant.

All she could notice was the cheerful children on TV, growing up carefree under the protection of their mothers, and she watched and enjoyed together, and she couldn't understand the mother's dedication to the children in the plot.

"Grandma, what does it mean to be sad? What is Sadness? ”

Cao'er innocently asked the grandmother beside her, but her eyes did not leave the TV screen.

"Sadness is to make people look sad, very sad, and want to cry."

Grandma's answer was like a gust of wind blowing, leaving no trace in the young grass's heart, many years later, she understood what "sadness" meant, but when she asked grandma about "sadness", grandma's expression and words somehow have been engraved in Cao'er's heart.

When she was six years old, "Journey to the West" was released, which fascinated our little Cao'er, who sat motionless by the TV, watching the monkeys on the TV jump up and down, hunting monsters and monsters, this is the only TV series that Cao'er can understand without listening to them.

Cao'er, who was sitting upright, thought in her heart, this monkey is really amazing, it has fulfilled all the dreams in her heart: a somersault cloud of 108,000 miles, can see immortals, Bodhisattvas, Buddhas, these are all things that Cao'er has been fantasizing about since she was very young, but she didn't think about it, but it was realized by this monkey.

At the same time, Cao'er's desire to fly out of the small mountain village to see it became stronger, and she became more curious about the outside world and new things, which she had never seen.

At that time, some people in the village had already begun to buy small trucks to do business between the city and the countryside, in a few days, there would always be a small truck from the backyard door of Cao'er's house above the loess road, Cao'er would always chase after the car, grandma was the most inaudible smell of gasoline, in the grass smelled, but it was fresh, but also good. In her little innocent heart, she longed to be like this car, or to sit in this car, to run to the city, to have a good look in the bustling world outside, or to do something.

However, Cao'er can also go out of the city with her grandmother twice a year, once when her grandmother wants to go out to buy things, and once when Cao'er has her birthday in winter.

Grandma Cao'er knew that her granddaughter liked to go into the city, so every time it was her birthday, she boiled two eggs and put them in Cao'er's pocket and took her into the city early in the morning.

Every time before entering the city, Cao'er would get up early and ask her grandmother to help her put on the pink corduroy round collar buttoned jacket, and then put on the little cousin in the city whose little cousin in the city was too tall to wear the navy blue corduroy trousers with small flowers of various colors sent to Cao'er - Cao'er's clothes, most of them were from the little cousin in the city, and a small part were from the little aunt Yunxiu, and they couldn't wear them to Cao'er.

She herself would always take her little aunt's round mirror, sit on the threshold of the drawing-room, swing her little head, and comb her hair, which was only an inch long, but very black and smooth, especially the sea of flowing on her forehead.

Look, the little guy was fiddling with it, and the little expression on his face was a smile and a frown. The hand holding the wooden comb and the little head swaying from side to side in the mirror are not enough.

The big yellow dog at home also squatted down beside the little master for a while, and walked around her for a while.

The well below the corridor is bubbling with a faint, white vapor on a winter morning, moistening the old moss on the well platform. The long-leaved grass drilled out of the cracks of the well platform, bathed in the rising sun, crystal clear, like the face of the grass in the sun, the fine fluff can be seen in the whiteness, innocent and wonderful.

Cao'er, who chases the appearance of the female anchor every day, only stares at the unobtainable and unapproachable beauty on the screen, so that she forgets her real beauty, so she inevitably loses some confidence in natural beauty in the chase. This kind of perfectionist nature will inevitably give birth to some waves in the future, but Cao'er can't know it at that time.

When the grandparents walked through the sandy road beside the hill that had been reclaimed as a field on the edge of the pine-covered hill, and entered the city, the grandmother would still take her granddaughter to the restaurant to eat a bowl of wontons, and then weigh a big pear and put it in the grass's hands.

At this time, the grass is no longer like it was back then, and I finished walking a street after gnawing on Ya pears. She would nibble on a pear while looking left and right, looking at the small traders and vendors on the street, and watching the people coming and going on the street. All this excitement is new to Cao'er, just like the TV shows she watches every day, she is curious enough to watch it over and over again and never get tired of watching it.

It's just that Cao'er's curiosity can rarely be answered, she chases all the fresh objects in the outside world, and unconsciously silently alleviates the countless questions in her heart. Grandma just took her hand and bought her things, and then went to her sister, Cao'er's aunt, as usual.

However, before leaving, sometimes Cao'er would follow her grandmother to a small house near her aunt's house to find an old lady and give her a fortune. As the children grow up, there are more and more things about Cao'er's grandmother.