In winter, the plum blossoms bloom, and the most beautiful colors are achieved in the plum garden, which is my favorite scene.

I watched from afar.

Qingyi stayed with His Majesty the Emperor, and the emperor unconsciously hugged Qingyi with his big coat, for fear that she would be cold.

It's really enviable.

In my memory, the emperor has never been so attentive to a woman.

He first married Sheng Xuan, the current concubine of the Qi family, but the woman she married because of the rights and interests of the family is bound to not be the kind of woman who will take it to heart.

And when the woman not far in front of me did not enter the palace, the emperor's favorite was my sister, Concubine Rong Li Shiwei.

Although she was also married for family reasons, she didn't know why, the emperor always liked her sister very much, and even began to get used to her sister's pampered temper.

It stands to reason that my sister had discussed kissing before entering the palace, and such a woman would not be favored after entering the palace.

But His Royal Highness the Crown Prince at that time was very fond of his sister, and when His Royal Highness succeeded to the throne and became the emperor, he was even more favored.

And the person my sister once talked about kissing is my sixth brother.

However, the world is unpredictable, the marriage between the two families is about to be completed, and my mother's family, the Earl of Shunchang, has experienced the disaster of raiding the house.

I was the only one in the family who was spared this because I had been selected to serve in the palace a long time ago. And my sister was in such a situation where she couldn't get married, so she had to enter the palace as a concubine.

Actually, I don't want to call my sister my sister, how good it is to call my sister-in-law. But this is probably fate, I can't call her sister-in-law after all.

When I entered the palace, I found that my sister transferred all the Qingyi that she didn't show to her brother to me, and that kind of good is really closer than her sister.

At first, we entered the palace together, and my sister couldn't forget my brother, but my brother had died a long time ago, and my sister really didn't need to waste her life because of my brother.

His Majesty, who was still the crown prince at that time, showed his affection when he saw his sister, and I comforted my sister because of this: "It's useless for my sister to think about my brother, we can only live for ourselves after all." ”

"Zhenyun, don't you blame me?" My sister asked me with a slightly resentful look.

"I naturally don't want to, I want my brother to be in heaven, and I also hope that my sister can forget my brother and live a good life."

"Don't worry, I won't forget Yulang, I must know who killed Yulang and the Shunchang Earl's Mansion in the first place."

On the second day, my sister wore a pleated Ruyi horse-faced skirt with a long woven gold shirt, and a green silk tied into a cloud bun.

Later, my sister gradually let go of the knot in her heart, and began to gradually return to the hearty and smiling Li Shiwei in my memory - since her brother's death, she hasn't smiled for a long time.

Now it is good to have a man who replaces her brother in her sister's life.

My sister shouldn't have trapped my whole life because my brother was a man.

Although we are both concubines of the emperor, I always don't like the emperor.

What's more, the change in my personality made me even more afraid to approach the emperor.

In the past, I was also a hearty woman like my sister, but since the accident at home, my temperament seems to have become cringe unconsciously.

I don't dare to speak, I don't dare to provoke right and wrong, the only thing that can make me feel at ease is to stay by my sister's side.

I want my brother to miss it, and it's also my sister.

Brother, you have no fate after all.

It's just that I found out later that I actually fell in love with that gentle and elegant man. Although he seemed a little cold and even a little unkind, he was always polite to me, and did not despise me in the slightest because I was the daughter of a sinner.

That's nothing, maybe it's because of the passage of time. Or maybe I stayed in the palace for a long time, and I could only see such a man.

But that person is my sister's person now, and I will never remember that I can't snatch it away.

Besides, I didn't even dare to show my friendship.

Later, when the woman named Qingyi entered the palace, she took away the emperor's love and friendship overnight.

Although my sister is still the most favored concubine among the six palaces and the highest-ranking concubine except for Concubine Qi Shengxuan, the woman's intuition tells us that the woman named Qingyi is gradually occupying an extremely important position in the emperor's heart.

My sister was extremely panicked, but I was really envious.

I envy Qingyi for being able to get the emperor's heart effortlessly, and the two of them stand together as if the most beautiful scenery is no match for them, just dazzling and shining.

That's a real match.

Maybe I'll never be worthy.

Thinking of this, I had to sigh silently.

The backs of those two men faded farther and farther away, slowly disappearing from my sight.

I sighed softly and went back to my chamber.

There are pipa and green plums, all of which are what the emperor likes.

No one knew that I had secretly developed the art of the pipa, and I could play all the songs that the emperor liked.

It's just ridiculous that whenever someone comes here, I just hide everything about His Majesty's liking.

It can't be seen, let alone seen by the emperor.

I don't know why I'm doing this, maybe it's just because I don't deserve what His Majesty the Emperor loves.

Maybe it's because I'm talentless and beautiful, and my family background is also humble, so maybe in this life, I don't deserve to be favored by Emperor Li Chun.

Actually, you can't count on it.

It seems that the emperor's favorite concubines are extremely beautiful, and everyone envies her sister or Qingyi, but only I know how much bitterness and bitterness are behind their infinite glory.

With grace, there is also a body of right and wrong.

I gently plucked the strings, but suddenly I felt bored. Even the same piece of music doesn't attract that person.

What's more, even if that person comes, I will most likely behave poorly because I am nervous or scared, and I will lose a good impression in the emperor's heart.

The days passed like water, without any ripples.

In fact, the life of the bird in the cage is nothing more than this. No, our group of unfavored concubines are the birds in this cage, just to show the decency and dignity in the emperor's harem. Although I don't have to worry for the rest of my life, I will be trapped in this cage for the rest of my life and can't see the outside world.

If it is a favored concubine, although it is not very free, it should be more choices than we can get.

I began to gradually understand why my sister targeted Qingyi everywhere, just imagine that you were originally immersed in a dream that only you were in a person's heart, and that person was also the best one in the world for you. And one day, because of the appearance of a woman, you begin to realize that you are not the most important person in that person's heart, but the new woman is.

You have seen the truth clearly, you have seen the reality clearly. That feeling seems understandable.

Even I was a little jealous and disgusted with Qingyi - I only had a small place in the emperor's heart, and as that woman's status rose more and more, I had no status at all.

But Qingyi is really a good person, even her sister said so.

"If she hadn't taken away my place in His Majesty's heart, I wouldn't have targeted her like this." My sister said.

You see, even someone like my sister who has been so affected has said this, how can I, a humble and almost transparent existence, think so.

It's ridiculous, it's self-defeating.

I smashed all the lutes in my temple, and I threw them into the treasury forever, never to take them out again.

It's something that doesn't belong to me, and it's not something I like, so why should I practice liking it? Is it just for one person?

What's more, it's still someone I can't get close to at all.

When I realized how humble and ridiculous my own thoughts and practices had been for so many years, I even began to wonder in my own heart, whether I liked that person, or the feeling of liking someone for a long time and not letting go.

I don't know, it's just that after I realized that I was dead, I still felt my face blush and my heart beat when I saw that person.

Just like the first time I saw it, just like the moment I saw that young man.

But I shouldn't have taken away someone else's boy.

My sister didn't know what was wrong, but she started to keep a straight face at me, and even ignored me when I brought her pastries - it turned out that she liked to eat my pastries the most.

She sat in my chamber with a serious face, and she could even faintly see anger in it. She was grumpy, but she would never be like this to me.

"Say, have you been hiding anything from me lately?"

"Is my sister laughing? What can I hide from my sister?" I smiled lightly and tried to step forward and grab my sister's arm. She used to like this the most, and whenever she was angry, I only had to use this trick to coax her to stop being angry.

Although I don't know why she was angry.

"Why do you want to hide from me and practice the pipa without revealing it? Why are you destroying your lutes now? You tell me, is it for Your Majesty?" My sister is even more serious than just now.

"No, sister, what do you say?" I pretended to be relaxed, but my heart was already panicked.

"You can't hide it from me." My sister said solemnly: "I've been friends with you for so many years, what are you thinking about in your heart, I don't know if it's possible?" You like Your Majesty, don't you?"

"I ......" I didn't know how to explain it.

"If you like it, go to see Your Majesty! You practiced the pipa hard for him but didn't say anything, could it be that Your Majesty would be able to know if he was sitting in the Qianyuan Palace?"

"I ...... I don't know, I'm not worthy of Your Majesty. I don't dare ......."

"If you like it and don't say it, how can Your Majesty know?" My sister spoke to me very sincerely.

My sister held my hand tightly and said to me, "You're because of me, aren't you?" Because I like Your Majesty, don't you dare to show your friendship?"

I shook my head tightly and said, "No, no, I don't like Your Majesty in the first place. I don't want to serve Your Majesty. "

"If you lie to me again, I will not recognize you as a sister from now on." My sister has never spoken so violently, and when I saw it, I was only scared in my heart, so I had to tell the truth: "Sister, I ...... I like Your Majesty, just ...... It's just that I don't dare, I ...... Not worthy of Your Majesty. "

"Good girl, the life is your own, if you feel that you are not worthy of yourself, then you really can't deserve it. You don't have to worry about me, if you have imprisoned yourself, who will come and save you?"

At that time, my sister had a big belly, and it was a critical time when she was about to give birth, I shouldn't have disobeyed my sister, but when the words came to my mouth, I was timid: "I ...... Think again. "

This is the regret of my life.

"I'll wait for you to answer, and if you want, I'll do what I can to help you."

"Hmm."

"You have to see who you are." My sister regretted and blamed herself: "It's all my fault, it's been so many years before I found out that you are like this."

Pregnant women are the most taboo to cry and be sad, and my sister is like this for me, which is the weight that I can't repay and bear.

It's just that my sister didn't wait for my reply after all.

I will always remember that bitter winter.

Before I could see my sister for the last time, my sister was given death by the Queen Mother.

On the day when I actually went to serve His Majesty and told His Majesty about my friendship, I wanted to tell my sister that I had finally been brave once, just as my sister had hoped, but my sister would never hear me again.

Luckily, it was only a year before I was able to get back together with my sister.

It's just bitter for my child.

It's just that I didn't get into that person's heart after all.

However, after saying it, there are fewer regrets.