There are many shining moments in our lives, but there is only one eighteen-year-old.

“…… There are many similarities in our childhoods, with a picture of a red dot on the center of our eyebrows, drinking a five-cent soda and playing on the way home. At that time, my mother wore a white shirt and a yellow cardigan sweater, and my father always had a black leather jacket in his closet......"

This Friday is the coming-of-age ceremony of the third year of high school, and Sakura Radio recently broadcast a small story about growing up. Nostalgia is too far away for a senior high school student, they just want to get through the year quickly, but parting is also waiting for them on that platform.

If you write a book about things from childhood to adulthood, it must be a good story. Life is just ups and downs, and people like Xia Xiaowu are ups and downs...... In the end, it was flat, and it was too lazy to resist.

This is the kind of person who wants to grow and wants to learn to compromise.

"This Friday, the school will hold a coming-of-age ceremony, which theoretically requires the presence of each student's parents. Go home and talk to your parents, prepare a letter for you when the time comes, and you should also write a letter to your parents. Also, on Friday, everyone wears autumn school uniforms, and I have said many times that boys' hair should not go beyond the ears, and girls' bangs should not go over the eyebrows......"

Barmitzvah, what does that mean? Could it be that if you put on that red adult hat and step through the adult door, you will grow up? The inspiration for this kind of thinking of the school leaders is estimated to come from the allusion of the carp jumping over the dragon gate.

Most of the time, the word adult is too familiar and unfamiliar to us, some people say that you are still a child and you will understand it when you grow up, and some people say that you should be sensible when you grow up. So who are we, in the end?

Is it a child, or an adult?

"Uncle Feng, will your father come, or your mother?"

Chen Zifeng is still sitting quietly reading a book, and the mountain carving that has been like a day for thousands of years is reading Yu Hua's "Alive" this time. Yes, yes, it's hard to live.

"My mom is coming."

He Xiaobo muttered on the side, "My parents have to come together, saying that they have to talk to Boss Zhou before the college entrance examination." You said I passed the art exam, what else is there to talk about? ”

"Physics volume, yesterday's." He completely ignored He Xiaobo's innocent moans.

"Oh." Xia Xiaowu immediately presented it to the mountain carving like a treasure, "That, I had a few questions yesterday, and they were empty." ”

He Xiaobo hadn't given up yet, and was chattering on the side, "You said I took the college entrance examination, why are they more anxious than me?" ”

Chen Zifeng still ignored him, and drew a few small circles with a pen, "Xia Ya'an, you are wrong here again, how can the trajectory of your electrons be like this, can a magnetic field have two directions......"

Xia Xiaowu smiled awkwardly, very, very, very familiar with the opening...... In fact, there are many times when he has been crushed, and he is used to hugging the thighs of the class leader, dignity or something, as early as one day after his complaint.

And the most important thing to grow up is not to learn to compromise?

……

"Mom, I'm back." Every time I get home, Xiao Wu's mother is cooking, that kind of combat cooking, the kind that no one can get close to in the whole kitchen, for fear that if you get close, you will destroy her creative inspiration.

"Mom, what are we going to eat today, it's so fragrant......"

"You don't do a lot of homework today, do you?" Xiao Wu's mother can always make the warm atmosphere solemn all at once, "Are you done?" ”

"Hmm...... Not yet. ”

"Don't hurry up and do it, it's the third year of high school, and there is no sense of crisis all day long, when you are resting, everyone else is studying hard, you know? If you don't work hard now, some of you will regret it later! ”

Xia Xiaowu was once again mourned with his head held high, but he was a little nostalgic, at that time, sitting on the sofa of Ah Cheng's house, Ms. Lu shouted downstairs, Xia Xiaowu, come back for dinner. How good it was at that time, eating was not a sentence without leaving the grades, and the desk was not an overwhelming volume.

"Mom, who is going to go to the school's coming-of-age ceremony on Friday?"

"Friday?" Xiao Wu's mother turned off the gas, "Your dad goes to work, and I just want to have a good chat with your head teacher." ”

"Talk?" Xia Xiaowu frowned, "What do you have to talk about, our Teacher Zhou is very busy." ”

"Your grades have been so stable, and if you don't work hard in the end, how can you get into a good university in the college entrance examination! If you don't care about yourself, you want us to give you your heart, I really don't know who you are studying for? ”

For whom? In fact, she herself doesn't know, she went to elementary school when she was eight years old, and after elementary school, she continued to go to junior high school, and after junior high school, she had to go to high school, and after high school, she had to go to college. It's like a life trajectory prescribed by God, and everyone has to punch in on it.

And when is she really for herself?

Xia Xiaowu breathed a sigh of relief, stepped into the room, and then retreated, "By the way, Mom, then you can write a letter by the way, the school requires the coming-of-age ceremony to exchange letters." ”

"To whom?"

"Give it to me."

"Got it, got it." Xiao Wu's mother came again with a shovel, "Don't go in to do your homework yet, you must do the papers of the tutorial class today, do you hear?" ”

Xia Xiaowu was lying in front of the computer, and a flashing message appeared in the lower right corner, and without clicking on the opening picture, the heart began to beat again.

The Stars Only: In?

He, he can't be wrong, right? Although Xia Xiaowu had convinced himself several times not to open this dialog box, his hand still honestly followed his sensibility.

Little Five, Little Five: Yes.

The Only Star: Are you free for the coming-of-age ceremony? I have something to say to you.

What, what...... What is the coming-of-age ceremony, is there any time?

Little Five, Little Five: Senior, did you send the wrong person?

Her face was almost flushed, and although she remembered everything she had said last time, she couldn't calm down in her heart for a long time. After all, that boy was the most beautiful in her mind.

The only one in the stars: there is no wrong person. I've been invited to host tomorrow's provincial coming-of-age ceremony, so can you stay for a while? I have something for you.

……

That day, because of two things, Xia Xiaowu couldn't concentrate on studying, one was that he didn't know what to write to his mother, and the other was that he couldn't guess what Li Chenyi wanted to say to her.

Xia Xiaowu took out the diary kept at the bottom of the drawer, it turned out that this question had been buried in her heart for a long time, what kind of person is an adult? What does an adult look like?

Inadvertently, she saw the diary of a certain day a long, long time ago.

Diary: 2009/7/11 Sunny

It's not that we grow up too fast, it's that everyone gets used to this loneliness.

When was this Chicken Soup for the Soul written? Xia Xiaowu was puzzled.

……

In 2009, when he was in junior high school, after Ah Cheng's parents divorced, he became even more lonely and silent. Once, Aunt Sufen made a big fire and drove Ah Cheng out of the door, and he sat at the top of the stairs and didn't move.

When I saw him, he was crouching on the ground playing with the Rubik's Cube pendant in his pocket, not saying a word. Maybe it's the same as when he usually looks wooden and doesn't like to speak, everyone doesn't pay attention to him.

"Ah Cheng......" Xia Xiaowu poked his head out of the door and sneaked out of the house, "Walk!" A bright red strawberry with tender green leaves landed in the palm of the boy's palm.

"Why are you sitting on the ground, why don't you come to my house to play!?"

"My mom just kicked me out." The Rubik's Cube in Luo Huaicheng's hand did not stop, and he seemed to be saying this very calmly.

Xia Xiaowu was stunned and asked, "That's it...... Then you, why aren't you angry at all, don't cry and don't worry? You've been sitting for half an hour, haven't you? ”

Luo Huaicheng nodded slightly, "There's nothing to be angry about, my mother is like this, she will be fine in a while." Soon, he put a color block together and nodded in satisfaction. It was at that moment that Xia Xiaowu felt that Luo Huaicheng was a little different, no longer the Wangzi boy who would play games with her wrapped in sheets.

The inadvertent sadness between the eyebrows, the habit of saying that it's okay, and learning to fake a smile, but it is even more distressing.

"Ah Cheng, I'm a little envious of you, how do you say that idiom, young and old, it's actually good to be like you. My mom always said I wasn't old enough to be sophisticated......"

"You're good like that." The corners of Ah Cheng's mouth twitched slightly, "Every time a person grows up, there is a reason. For example, my parents have been arguing since I was a child, arguing endlessly about big and small things, and it wasn't until they separated that I realized that I was no longer sad, but really relieved for them. ”

"Ah Cheng ......"

"That's when I felt like I was mature and grown. But when I sat alone at my desk, I realized that it wasn't that I was growing up too fast, but that everyone would get used to this kind of loneliness. He scrambled the Rubik's Cube again, "Simple, naïve, there's nothing wrong with that." Xiao Wu, I really hope that you can continue like this. ”

At that time, I just felt that Ah Cheng was really powerful, good philosophy, and able to say a lot of good words and sentences that could be written into an 800-word essay. He is not only good at mathematics, but also has good literary skills.

But Ah Cheng should be reluctant in his heart, and he is reluctant to grow up inexplicably.

Write down this sentence, in fact, Xia Xiaowu didn't really use it in his composition. It wasn't until I saw this diary today that I suddenly felt a little emotional.

As for the loneliness that I couldn't understand at the time, it turned out that I had already begun to bear it silently unconsciously.

Diary: 2013/10/17 Cloudy

It turned out that Ah Cheng didn't lie to me that day, a person who has no heart and lungs is actually the best, the more I grow up, the more I like the purest and most true self. And suddenly, I seemed to understand the content of the letter I was going to write to Ms. Lu, and how I should respond to that person.

Dear Xia Xiaowu, don't pray to grow up, because it comes faster than you think, and it's more untouchable.

And if everything continues, then tomorrow will be a sunny day!

……

It wasn't until after graduation that Xia Xiaowu felt that he could really grow up in an instant, as if he had passed through the provincial campus again. The bravery and cowardice, happiness and sentimentality of that time, were forever locked in memory after crossing that adult door.

Xia Xiaowu's writing in high school was not good, so few of her articles were greatly praised by Zhang Chu, only this letter was selected as one of the outstanding student anthologies in the provincial "Adult Record".

It was a letter to Ms. Lu.

Dear Ms. Lu,

Hello! It's been a long time since I've had a good meal at the dinner table with you, my name is Xia Xiaowu, my grandfather gave me a name, I used to walk with the wind and do things boldly. When I was in elementary school, you changed my name, and I became Xia Ya'an, this name is like a seal, and since then, I have been calm and well-behaved, elegant and quiet.

You told me that growing up is what should be changed, to fade away from immaturity and put on a strong shell. So when you were younger, you had long hair in a jet-black shawl, a simple yellow plaid shirt, and neat denim flared pants, which was fashionable and individual. Dad said you used to love dancing the most, and on the dance floor, you will always be the most confident person. But in my eyes, you have neat curly short hair, a coat from two years ago that you are reluctant to change, and you often stomp your feet in a hurry for trivial things.

Does growth really have to change like this?

When I was a kid, you told me that everyone should have dreams, and yes, a lot of people said that. So Ms. Lu, what about your dreams? Have you also missed the dream that was once shining by you? At the age of ten, twenty, or thirty, people seem to be growing endlessly, but they should not forget their original intentions because of these growths.

I am Xia Xiaowu, the Xia Xiaowu who walks with the wind, does things boldly, and is not afraid of the head and tail. Growing up is not about blindly changing, but after experiencing it again and again, you have more courage to be yourself.

And Ms. Lu, on the road to the future, let's be the most authentic version of ourselves together!

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