Xie Bin reluctantly typed "GG" on the screen ("GG", referring to "GoodGame", praising the opponent for playing well in competitive games, which also means admitting defeat). "defeat" As the female voice of the LOL system sounded, the word "failure" was left on the screen, looking at the exploding base in front of him, Xie Bin felt that everything was so boring, and his body was half leaning on the second-hand gaming chair he bought, quietly in a daze. 

He lost today's eighth game, the ratio of wins and losses is 0 to eight, Xie Bin is not good or bad in academic performance, in the academic exams of the university, he often just passes, and he has hung up one or two subjects in four years, but he is not particularly good at playing games like other Internet addicted teenagers, he plays games to describe in one word as if he studyed: almost. This time the base was quickly destroyed by the other party, League of Legends is a game that Xie Bin likes very much, unlike others, he has a soft spot for the hero "dog head", most people don't like this hero, in the words of his roommate, this hero is "dumb and stupid", but Xie Bin likes the feeling of the dog head slowly growing, getting stronger and stronger, and then knocking people to death with a cane.

But today's Xie Bin's luck doesn't seem to be too good, played 8 games, five games met the opposite side with the hand of Lockas, Locke's blood anger is a perverted passive in this game, in one sentence to describe it is "one person's blood anger, the whole family ascends to heaven", especially for heroes like the dog's head, when he meets Locke, he can't live in pain, he can't develop at all, he can only hide under the tower and eat the tower knife, today's Locke is obviously better at playing, and he controls the line as soon as he comes up, so that Xie Bin's dog head can't even eat the tower knife, Such a dog head is basically scrapped. 

In the public chat channel, the other party Locke was talking, "Haha, 500 old Locke, specializing in kobolds, in front of a powerful opponent, you will find that mending knives is a luxury, hahahaha, cool ......." ”

Through the screen, Xie Bin could imagine that guy's eyebrows dancing, after all, this is the silver game, and most players are like that. 

Xie Bin didn't say anything, and silently clicked "Yes" on the option to exit the game. He scratched his head, his eyes were blank, at this time, even the League of Legends could not relieve the boredom and anxiety in his heart, he did not enjoy the pleasure of playing games before, the anxiety did not decrease, and his heart seemed to be lying on his stomach, which made people feel that their hearts were tightened. 

"Brother Bin, I want two packets of Tang Daren, plus two corn sausages, thank you!" Mao Sheng said while playing the glory of the king, Mao Sheng is Xie Bin's roommate, is an extremely free teenager, if Xie Bin is about the same in the crowd, then Mao Sheng can be regarded as an out-and-out bad student, Xinhai Academy stipulates that you can't graduate with six subjects, this guy completed this difficult task in the first year, unlike other bad students, he exudes a wise atmosphere, often publishes some pseudoscience on some difficult issues, and is very insistent on his own opinions, even if he knows that it is wrong. The lush life is very regular, and he is perfectly divided into two parts: playing games and sleeping, as for class or something, it is actually this guy's game time, by the way, all kinds of instant noodles are also his favorites.

The sunlight outside the door shone in, but it made the bedroom even darker, Xie Bin felt his head in a trance, and agreed one after another, while putting his shoes on his feet, and trotted out of the door. The hallway of the dormitory was quiet, and the snoring was clearly audible, and as he ran forward, the snoring of his roommate seemed to linger in his ears. The afternoon sun shone in through the window at the end of the corridor, and sprinkled warmly on him, and outside the window, the small leaf banyan dried all kinds of sheets, and the wind blew, and the leaves rattled on the branches. 

It's summer again, and Xie Bin is twenty-three years old this year. 

Xie Bin lives with his mother, his father died of rectal cancer when he was in junior high school, he has a younger brother named Xie Hong, who studied in a better university, Xie Hong has had excellent grades since he was a child, but what makes Xie Bin jealous the most is that his younger brother plays better than him, and his academic performance has always been better than him, and the most terrible thing is that no matter what he does, in other aspects, Xie Hong only needs to spend a little energy to do much better than him. He is entering his senior year in two months, which means that Xie Bin has to face some things he doesn't want to face, such as entering a social internship, or being separated from someone. During this period of time, it seemed that the whole world was roaring in his ears, telling him that the end was coming, and the faint sense of uneasiness in his heart let Xie Bin know that this time he was really going to the battlefield, and it may not be the so-called narrow road where the brave wins, for the helpless himself, when everything comes, some of the things he once had may be destroyed. 

Under this kind of pressure, the result is not that the greater the pressure, the greater the motivation, for Xie Bin, the extra is just a trace of anxiety, like a wire that penetrates the heart, and the people are out of breath, playing the old game of "League of Legends" has begun to be unable to cope with anxiety, fortunately, I recently found that watching movies seems to have some effect, in the senior year, most people focus on serious planning for their future, but surrounded by countless anxieties, Xie Bin can't lift a trace of strength to deal with it, Or that there is no way to deal with it. 

Like most people with poor execution, Xie Bin has had a lot of fanciful ideas that he thinks are perfect, and he has made a lot of plans for himself, but he has never worked hard to implement them, or he can't stick to them for long. 

Actually, so far, Xie Bin has been quite unlucky in his life, Xie Bin was a child, his parents went out to work, and his parents can be said to have never met, and they have no memory, but they have seen the so-called parents from the photos sent back. But fortunately, his parents can earn a lot of money by working outside, so that Xie Bin and his younger brother can be fed and clothed, and can go to school, but in this way, Xie Bin and his younger brother, who live with their grandparents, are basically unmanaged, and the enough living expenses sent back by their parents make Xie Bin, who is in the countryside, addicted to playing games when he was very young, so his grades have been fluctuating. When Xie Bin was in junior high school, his mother called Xie Bin and told him that they had made a lot of money outside, and the next time they came home, they would take them to the city to buy a house.

Xie Bin waited day by day, but the long wait was exchanged for another phone call from his mother, his father suffered from rectal cancer, spent all the family's savings, and the house could not be bought. He didn't know what rectal cancer was, but he knew that it must be a serious illness if he could spend all the money to buy a house. Later, my mother said to Xie Bin that although our family can't buy a house, we can still repair a house and a small villa in the countryside. It may be that it is in conflict with the house, there is no house, Xie Bin's father's rectal cancer suddenly recurred, and it directly spread to the late stage of cancer, which caught the family off guard, and his mother spent the money to repair the house again for his father's treatment, so Xie Bin's dream of housing was shattered, and the most unfortunate thing is that in the end, the money spent did not save his father's health, one night, his father quietly left the world in Xie Bin's arms, and before leaving, he only said one sentence: study hard and be admitted to high school.

At that moment, holding the strange and familiar man in his arms, Xie Bin silently shed tears for some reason, he knew that the person in his arms would never come back, but for so many years, he had not spoken to him properly. Maybe it was to fulfill the man's entrustment, Xie Bin, who had never liked to study, worked hard to get into the best high school in the county, for some reason, Xie Bin's grades in high school were surprisingly good, he only needed to study casually to get a high score, when everyone thought he would be admitted to a key university, when he also thought he was also a genius, Xie Bin almost fell off the list, under the financial pressure of his family, he had no choice but to go to a university that basically no one had heard of, and it should be the college appropriately.

When he first came to Xinhai Academy, Xie Bin saw that he was degenerate, most people have a way of life of eating and waiting for death, he thought that he should have gone to a key university, he should be different from others, he didn't want to live like those people, he was unwilling, so he did a lot of things that he thought was meaningful, but now it seems that it is all so ridiculous and powerless, no, there is one thing that is indeed particularly meaningful, worthy of his use of everything to protect, thinking of this, the corners of Xie Bin's mouth couldn't help but show a smile.

Xie Bin put his hands in his trouser pockets, tilted his head and looked at the ground, went downstairs, bought the soup and corn sausage that his roommate wanted in the campus supermarket, and slipped to the stall next to the supermarket and bought a 3 yuan pineapple, which she particularly likes to eat, and Xie Bin also likes it.

Xie Bin likes to read novels very much, especially online fantasy novels, he may have read sixty or seventy books since junior high school, and Xie Bin himself doesn't know how much, after reading so many novels, Xie Bin has not become a novelist, but has become a "fantasist", daydreaming every day. Xie Bin often fantasizes that he is the male protagonist in a novel he has read, and since he finished reading the first online novel in his life "Breaking the Sky", he has been out of control, often fantasizing that he has become Xiao Yan, and shouting out that sentence enthusiastically: Thirty years in Hedong, thirty years in Hexi; or become the martial ancestor admired by thousands of people - Lin Dong, dare to love and hate; There are also Fang Han, Xuanyuan, Li Qiye... Many, much, much. But back to reality, Xie Bin knows that many things in this world need money to be done, and now Xie Bin often fantasizes, but what he fantasizes about is not how to improve his cultivation, but how to make money, how to become a successful person like Ma Yun's father.

Xie Bin knew that these fantasies were just to help him pass the time, and for him, who couldn't find any merits in him, experienced family changes, and was a second-generation farmer, nothing could make him a successful person. For him, life should be, go to an unknown university, fall in love in college, come out to find a job and rent a house, maybe his parents will occasionally urge him to get married when they think of him, and then he gets married, has a child, and goes to work every day.

Xie Bin is such a person, not much good, not too bad, but like most people, he has lived to the age of twenty-three, but he doesn't know where his future is.