After seeing the soldiers leave, for a long time, I sat alone in the office, my mind was fixed, and my mind was full of Dagang's figure.

Da Gang's voice and smile before his death; From the Yellow House to the county, from the county to the university, various scenes of our interactions kept emerging, and then disappeared in an instant.

Now, I am gradually realizing that all the good things are about to freeze in this spring, and I can't help but feel more and more heavy.

The heartbreak of losing a best friend is indescribable.

I wanted to cry out loud, but my heart was so sad that it almost dried up.

I just sat there, unable to do anything, dizzy, and my thoughts seemed to be drained.

......

I don't know how long it took, but it was getting late.

I regained consciousness, stood up, called Dazhi and Peng, and informed them about Dagang.

Both of them were shocked and said that they would definitely rush back to attend their friend's farewell ceremony.

After the call, I sat down, still distraught.

Suddenly, I remembered what the soldier had just conveyed, Da Gang's last request before his death.

"I'm going back to the old county and going to the back mountain to pick a bunch of apricot blossoms for him and Lili!"

Thinking of Dagang's beautiful wish before his death, I felt the selfless and deep love of my friends for the person I liked.

I thought about my current situation again.

All at once, my tears poured out like a flood from a burst of water......

......

Time is running out, and there is still a long way to go from the capital back to the county, so I have to leave immediately.

Pack your things, get your things organized, and set off on your way.

When I arrived at the county seat, it was already nightfall.

I found a small hotel near the campus in the old county and was ready to go up the mountain the next morning.

The night in the county town was very quiet, I lay on the bed in the small hotel, listened to the "woo" wind outside the house, recalled the bits and pieces of studying and living with Dagang, tossing and turning, unable to sleep.

This kind of sadness of losing a best friend forever makes people's hearts ache and cannot be calmed, like a boulder thrown into a quiet heart lake, and the waves stirred up quickly spread throughout the body, stimulating every nerve ending in the body.

I couldn't sleep the whole night.

The next day, as soon as the day dawned, I got up early, went around to the hill behind the campus of the old county middle school, and solemnly fulfilled my friend's last request before leaving.

The scenery of the hill is the same as it was six years ago, and the apricot blossom trees are all over the mountain, and they are blooming brightly.

However, in the county facing the mountain, things are no longer human.

In sight, the row of low-rise bungalows of the cram school between me and Dagang have been razed to the ground and planned into a green space by the new owner's training school.....

I climbed a mountain and saw a huge rock on the side of the mountain path, which was where Dagang and my county cram school used to sit and sit.

Seeing things and thinking about people, the heart is like a needle prick.

Da Gang never seemed to leave, and on the forks of the small trees by the stones, the wishing red ribbon he tied before the last college entrance examination was still fluttering in the wind, but it had been bleached by the passage of several years.

A gust of spring breeze blows, and the red and white apricot blossom petals are sprinkled in front of you, and a fresh and familiar fragrance of flowers refreshes people's hearts.

In a trance, as the fragrance of flowers drifted away, Dagang's image seemed to slowly retreat into the endless sea of flowers.

......

Due to the lack of transportation, I went down the mountain from the prefecture and took a bus back to the city, and it was already noon when I arrived.

Dazhi and Ah Peng also rushed back from the south as promised.

The surprise of the reunion of several old friends is completely ruined by the sadness of losing their best friends.

Coupled with the rush of the road, the two of them even looked a little listless when they even greeted me.

At one o'clock in the afternoon, the farewell ceremony held by the fire brigade for Dagang officially began at the city funeral home.

In the farewell hall, the pine and cypress are green, and the atmosphere is solemn.

Two armed police soldiers were lined up on both sides of the podium in the main hall, a huge photo of the hero was hung in the center of the podium in the main hall, Dagang's coffin was placed in the center of the main hall, and relatives, comrades-in-arms, and friends were lined up on both sides.

The instructor of the fire brigade read out the report on the deeds of the heroes of Dagang, and in the auditorium, everyone held their breath for fear of disturbing the resting souls.

The instructor's deep voice sounded, echoing in the hall and in the hearts of everyone on the scene.

”...... Da Gang is our hero,

In the face of danger,

In the face of death,

He didn't hesitate to move forward!

Charge at the front line of saving people;

He gave up his life for righteousness,

Rescue young children in the flames,

A second before the explosion,

In order to save the mother of the child,

Still disregarding personal safety!

Desperate last stand!

however

Heroes are righteous,

The fire is merciless.

Danger is in a moment,

Sudden outbreak!

Our Heroes,

Unfortunately in an accidental explosion,

Thrown up by the roaring waves of burning fire,

Giving a young life after a serious injury.

His life was eternal.

With his brilliant and short life,

It interprets the meaning of the word hero.

He combines love with life,

Dedicated to the people.

He is the sweetest person we have!

Saving people from danger,

Sacrifice for righteousness,

What a sentiment!

His hard work,

so that the rescued life can be continued,

And his life,

But forever frozen in the best youth!

Today

We are here to remember,

Here to honor our heroes.

That's because we know,

Our Heroes,

He was never far away,

His spirit lives on,

He will always fight with us!

Dagang, our hero!

He lives forever in our hearts. ”

The mourning music sounded, and the auditorium was filled with mourning.

......

in the crowd.

I saw Daliang from afar, his expression solemn and focused, with a black veil on his right arm and a young boy in his left hand.

The boy had a white gauze on his face, presumably from a recent accident.

The child's big round eyes were watching everything in the auditorium.

After the speech of the fire brigade instructor,

He took his father by the hand and turned around to look around,

It seems that what is being found in the crowd, looking for the deceased mother? Or is he looking for his own hero?

.....

At the same time, I saw my gray-haired parents,

With the support of relatives,

Trembling facing the coffin,

Constantly wiping away tears,

Say your last goodbye to your loved ones.

......

The white-haired man sends the sorrow of the black-haired man,

Just the title of a hero,

And how much grief can be bridged?

All the people who surround the elderly,

Looking at the two old tearful faces,

All moved!

Their heartbroken looks,

It's heartbreaking!

.......

The farewell ceremony, simple and solemn.

Together with Dazhi and A Peng, I presented the apricot blossoms that had just been picked from the back mountains of the old county for my dearest brothers.

Looking at Da Gang lying peacefully in the coffin, for a moment, all the waves in my heart were as calm as water.

Yes, what is more important in life besides life and death?

In the past two days, I have been haunted by the past that I experienced together when I was young and ignorant.

At the moment, look at him lying there quietly.

But he was like a fish in his throat, his words were choked, and he only had a thousand tears.

"Come to the night and dream together, and you can't collect tears in the morning."

In our hometown, among the green hills, we used to drive the sheep together, let go of our throats and sing, and let the echo echo in the mountains.

In the cram school in the county, we used to argue about different ways to answer a question.

During the university in the provincial city, it was also the first time for the children in the mountains to enter the city, and we used to feel lost in urban life and worry about the bleak future.

.....

When we were young, we were worried about each other's love together, and even talked all night many times, analyzed and encouraged each other, and maintained the most optimistic and positive attitude towards life.

Over the past few years,

We encourage each other, support each other, trust each other, and comfort each other.

And yet all this,

will become a memory,

Everything after that,

It's all like a dream, and it can't be a reality anymore!

I remembered that last night in the small hotel next to the old county, I woke up many times in my dreams, half-asleep, and the nightmare of Dagang's eternal departure has now become a living reality in front of my eyes, cruel and real.

"Gathering and scattering is in a hurry, this hatred is endless, and this year's flowers are better than last year's red. It's a pity that the flowers will be better next year, who do you know with? ”

"The most important thing is to know each other."

Da Gang's departure, the self in my heart who lived in the spiritual world also disappeared.

His love will also be buried with the funeral in this spring, decaying, and finally ashes.

It is said that love can live forever, and who has really measured the value of love in front of life?

Can a person who dies for love really live forever?

What is eternal life?

What is the point of taking away all eternal life?

In the face of bloody death,

Love is just a concept, and fragile life is just a state of being!

To the departed,

Looking at his vigorous life,

All the obsessive pursuits of the past seem insignificant,

The beauty of everything is so fascinating.

So, what about myself?

Sent away his best friend,

In an instant,

It feels as if I'm only a shell,

Wandering in the world without nostalgia or pursuit,

What's the difference between this and dying?

How important the spiritual world is!

How important love is.

That's the most powerful support for us to survive!

Dagang took away all my friendship with him,

Ding Ling took away all the love that I thought was more important than life.

I'm left with a shell to survive,

Life goes on,

The same feeling as the other day when I woke up,

End the wanderings of the past,

Plan for the future and grasp the present!

In the evening, everything was calm again.

....。

Dazhi and Ah Peng and I left the funeral home.

Meet up and go back to the city together and find a small shop to catch up.

Just experienced a parting of life and death, and everyone was very depressed.

Dazhi ordered a few side dishes, asked for a bottle of liquor, and poured a glass for each person.

"Drink!" He raised his glass, trying to improve the dull atmosphere.

"Yes, drink." Ah Peng's mood was still a little low, he sighed, raised his glass and drank it all.

"How is Ah Peng doing? Busy? I also picked up the wine, took a sip, and asked Ah Peng with concern.

I know the situation of Dazhi, and I usually contact more people, but Ah Peng, I haven't had much contact in the past two years, and I'm a little strange.

Dazhi and Ah Peng also just met.

"Ah Peng is a lot fatter than before, it seems that the water and soil in the south support people." , Dazhi took a closer look at Ah Peng and said.

"It's not busy, but there's a lot going on." Peng smiled.

"After graduating, although I signed a contract with a unit in the south, I didn't report to the unit, and I have been helping out in my wife's family business, and there are many things, all family and miscellaneous things."

His words surprised me and Dazhi a little.

"What does your wife do at home?" , Dazhi asked.

"As a garment exporter, I've completely changed my career now. The day-to-day work has nothing to do with the engineering profession at all. Ah Peng smiled bitterly, seemingly a little helpless.

"Wouldn't it? Don't do engineering anymore? I feel a little sorry for Ah Peng.

When Ah Peng was in college, his grades were good, and his professional courses were the best among the three of us.

Before graduation, at the farewell banquet, he once said to the two of us that he would become a top expert in the industry within five years.

"I'm doing this business now, and it's pretty good. The family is together, takes care of each other, lives without worry, isn't everything to live and live better? Ah Peng said lightly, seemingly satisfied, without a trace of regret for abandoning his profession.

It can be seen that he lives a worry-free life and lives happily.

"You, depraved!" Dazhi and I almost pointed at him together, and smiled knowingly at the same time.

Yes, what is the use of living in the world, worry-free food and clothing, and happy families, so much unrealistic pursuit?

Isn't the ultimate goal of pursuit also to make life easier?

"Don't say it, I feel a lot when I come to Dagang's funeral today." , mentioning Dagang, Ah Peng's eyes turned red.

"How can there be so many feelings, just kidding, people can't look forward, don't talk about it, drink." , Dazhi wants to divert the topic.

"No, I still want to talk about the point that touched me the most." , Ah Peng ignored Dazhi's words.

"I feel that Da Gang buried himself and his youth today, and I also buried what I thought was the most important thing today."

"You're just." , Dazhi's face was a little gloomy, and Ah Peng's words seemed to evoke the sadness and grief just now.

"What did you bury?"

"As I just said to you and the big country, I gave up everything in my studies, focused on the family industry, and did not seek progress, I buried the ideal of graduating from college and having to make achievements in the industry in a short period of time!" Ah Peng said, his expression was a little abnormal, but soon a satisfied smile appeared on his face.

"The ideal is gone, I have a life, a happy family, I think it's worth it." He picked up his glass and drank it all.

I looked at Ah Peng and felt another layer of deep meaning in his words.

"I'm just like you, I feel like I'm with Dazhi today, burying what I used to think was the most important!" , I echoed Ah Peng.

"You are all poets and dreamers, I have served you, okay?" Dazhi put the wine glass in his hand on the table and muttered dissatisfiedly to us.

"What did you bury again?" He asked me, rolling his eyes at the same time.

"I buried my love!"

"However, compared to the heavy mood when I sent Dagang just now, I have figured out a lot of things at once, and I feel much more relaxed now!" I also picked up my glass and drank it all.

My words also seemed to remind Dazhi of his own sad past that he had just relieved, and he was stunned for a long time, his expression a little disoriented.

"Do you remember coming here today to bury your love, my love, I don't know where to throw it away." After a long while, Dazhi frowned, picked up the rest of the wine, and drank it all.

Wine is the best anesthetic in the world, our various pains seem to be temporarily cured in an instant, and after a few more glasses, all unpleasant moods are gradually dissolved from the body, gradually drifting out of the body, turning into a strong aroma of wine, and taking away all sorrow by the way.

"Relatives or remnants of sorrow, others have also sang. What is the way to die, and the body is the same as the mountain. ”

Yes, all the past is growth after epiphany;

All sorrow and regret,

Nor can it be an eternal wound.

Outside the shop, among the other shops on the street, there was a faint burst of cheerful singing.

Beyond the green hills in the distance, thunder sounded from far and near, a dark cloud drifted by, and the sky suddenly darkened, and it crackled and rained.

The air was filled with a smell of moisture and an inexplicable scent of flowers.

The belated spring rain seems to wash away the sorrow of the funeral that has just passed and brings new hope.