Ah Peng was very close to home, and after taking me back to the campus, like a big brother, he said reassuring words to me for a long time for the first time, and told me for a long time, asking me to pay attention to safety and pay attention to my body, and then dispersed with my friends.

After sending Ah Peng away, the whole building was quiet.

It was as if I was the only one left in the world.

I washed up and sat in the familiar dormitory, and for a while, I had mixed feelings.

In the dormitory, the smell of books piled up on the bed made my taste buds recover little by little, and the faint fragrance of books soothed my nerves.

The experience of working part-time for nearly a month has made me learn to cherish it all of a sudden, and I am more aware of the difficulty of surviving in the future.

I remembered that after I failed the college entrance examination two years ago, my father said to me what I said after drinking in a small restaurant in the middle of the county.

"You're so thin, what can you do when you go out to work? .......", it's hard to work outside, do you think it's better to be called around? ......”

"Study hard, kid, for for people like us, reading is the only way out! .......”

Lying on the bed, thinking back to my purgatory-like part-time work experience, my father's unkempt face, and sad and helpless expression resurfaced in my mind.

Is my father's part-time work experience much easier than mine?

How did he survive all these years?

What did he ever tell his family?

When I once asked for it, how could I ever think about the story behind my father's death?

Thinking about this, I can't help but be a little embarrassed.

We must admit that what motivates you to know yourself and spurs you to change yourself, even if it is pain, humiliation and suffering, whether you want it or not, whether you accept it or not, whether you agree with it or not, it will occupy a place in your heart that has not yet been opened to the world.

As a man, the humiliation of a slap in the face in college social practice has always been a scar in my heart.

However, it is such a cruel fact that has given me a deeper understanding of society.

A person's belief is the foundation that supports his survival.

This is the power of perseverance, and constantly improving myself and knowing myself will also become the guide for me to overcome all kinds of difficulties in my future life.

We must also admit that an uncivilized mind, in the face of all the correct cognition of the ugliness and goodness of society, all the understanding and speculation of human feelings, all the insight into the hot and cold world, and every growth is a necessary experience, there will be a deeper experience, because everything needs time to be tested and years to be finally evaluated.

Through the tempering of life, the perception of human warmth, and the experience of one's own experience, people will know how to cherish and grow.

After I was admitted to the provincial university, compared with our family, due to the high cost of study, in order to increase my income, my father had to change to work in other provincial projects with the construction team, in order to earn a little more money and subsidize the family.

As an adult, I gradually experienced the hardships of my parents, and gradually understood the pressure of a family's heavy burden.

.......

I began to learn to think, to learn to summarize, and all kinds of life tribulations and emotional frustrations made me sensitive, deep, and gloomy.

Premature self-reliance made me know that life is not easy, happiness is not easy, and freedom is not easy.

At the same time, self-reliance has also taught me to cherish all kinds of beauty and hate ugliness and hypocrisy.

As the Spring Festival approached, after returning to the campus from the compound of the institute, after a period of reflection, I felt the transformation of my own perception of society.

At the same time, the hurt is also a reality, and for nearly a week, I was healing myself and thinking behind closed doors.

I started to look at my current situation and for the first time I started trying to plan my future.

With his ant-like background, did he really decide that everything that happened to him was a tragedy? If everything is destined to be a tragedy, then where will I go from here? What do I have to do to change my fate?

.......

Although a weak soul has undergone a metamorphosis like a sea of rivers.

On campus, everything is still quiet.

In the end, ideology must be transformed into practical action, and only practical efforts can make a difference in life.

It's not enough to just think.

At the end of the day, I had to face the reality that I had nearly a month left to go out and find something to do.

I clearly know that at this stage, just lamenting the unfairness of fate will never solve the problem of hunger in reality.

Looking for a job again, I began to sort and screen, and with some experience, I realized the level of real people and industries, which made me set a clear goal and pay attention to some information suitable for students to do.

Once the goal was clear, I was lucky.

In a short period of time, I found a job in an advertising company, which acted as an agent for the advertising business of provincial newspapers and several television stations, and the boss was very modest, and he explained that there was no basic salary for business work, but the commission was considerable.

After completing the onboarding, I followed the company's management process and ideas, with hope to start visiting customers one by one, covering all the factories, shopping malls, stores, hotels, etc. that may have potential needs.

It's a hard job, but it's made a big difference.

Time flies quickly, half a month has passed in a blink of an eye, although there is no signing, but this business experience, the contact with the shape of the best people, so that my spiritual life has gained a lot, and the social structure and personnel class in my eyes have become as clear as the stratified terraces in the countryside.

Market vendors, merchants, celebrities, scholars, government officials...... Each of them obeys orders;

Hotels, factories, schools, hospitals, shops, ...... There is a doorway for your own line.

I see more clearly that different people are destined to have different social status and different tastes of life.

I began to observe the subtle differences between the customers in suits and leather shoes in the café and the greasy uncles in the street stalls wearing colorful green trousers and shaking puff fans, and the huge contrast between the words and wording of the ladies in the high-end commercial street and the fishy vegetable sellers in the vegetable market......

These realities made me soberly aware of what real life is.

Life divides people into different categories, and everyone has their own happiness and pursuits.

However, what everyone pursues, admires, tastes, and experiences is very different.

Life has made all kinds of things in society, and it has caused a lot of differences between people.

This experience was undoubtedly a huge shock to me, a country boy who had been immersed in reading sages and sages all the time, and had no ears to what was going on outside the window, and society showed me a kaleidoscopic state of existence. It also made me realize once again the cruelty of survival, the fierce competition and the invisible social pressure.

During the winter vacation, I lived a very fulfilling life, riding a bicycle all over the streets and alleys of the provincial capital during the day, and when I returned to the quiet campus at night, it was already night and the lights were shining.

On Chinese New Year's Eve, I was alone in the dormitory to report safety to my parents thousands of miles away, put down the phone, looked at the empty dormitory, and remembered the various situations during this time when I ran around outside trying to make money in every way, but in the end I couldn't help but feel sad.

The New Year's bell has been ringing.

Being alone on such a special day, I realised that I had indeed grown up.