Traveling alone is not necessarily a free and detached emotional release.

I decided to pack my bags and revisit the Qinghai-Tibet route again, also to find the insights and spiritual strength of a few years ago.

However, the psychological trauma caused by the frustration in the love field made me unable to fully understand many things for a while, so the bags on my back were not as heavy as my heart.

The scenery is still the same,

Changed.

I went to Naqu to visit my uncle according to my travel plan.

The construction of the railway project is nearing completion.

Most of the project management personnel have been evacuated from the original base.

The uncle's demeanor is still the same, but after a few years of wind and frost, his hair has turned a lot grayer.

More than ten years of sleeping in the open air, and the difficult conditions of the construction of the project, made the uncle's health not very optimistic, he kept coughing, and every time he coughed, the two sickly reds on his face seemed to become brighter.

Seeing that I came out alone, he didn't ask me why, and finally opened his mouth with concern: "Where is your female companion?" Why didn't Lin Xue'er, who came with you last time, come? ”

"Uncle, we broke up a long time ago, and we are not suitable for each other." , I replied a little embarrassed, mentioning Lin Xue'er, I couldn't help but feel very sad.

Lin Xue'er's incident has not weakened the blow to me so far.

Even hearing these two words hurts your heart.

After so many years, Ding Ling seems to have completely died in my heart, and is completely buried at the bottom of my soul, even if it is occasionally mentioned, it can't make any waves in my heart.

Even hatred has become so distant.

However, Lin Xueer is different from anyone, every moment with her is still fresh in her memory and haunted by dreams.

Whenever I think of her voice and smile, my heart is like a pinprick.

The person you can't let go of the most may be the person who once made you unforgettable, right?

In a person's life, how many people can make you so favored?

"In the vast sea of people, we meet and know each other."

It's easy to meet, it's hard to get to know each other, and how many people can catch each other?

Fate is really providential.

Providence arranges, gathering and scattering impermanence.

After listening to my words, Uncle sighed.

"Great country, in fact, have you ever thought that there is nothing suitable or inappropriate in this world, many things depend on your attitude, and attitude determines everything."

I nodded.

Through the office window made of uncle's container, you can see the mountains in the distance.

The mountain is so quiet and peaceful that it seems that even the wind is holding its breath.

The air is very fresh, and the inexplicable fragrance of flowers makes people feel refreshed.

I breathed a sigh of relief and felt much better.

Uncle is right, attitude determines everything.

I smiled and said to him, "It's not that I don't think I'm suitable, it's that Lin Xue'er thinks I'm not suitable for her, people are changeable and fickle, right?" ”

Uncle looked at me, not quite understanding what I meant.

He frowned.

"That little girl, I think it's quite simple, how can she still change? Has she changed her mind? Or are you not doing well? ”

Uncle's words poked at my sore spot again.

I couldn't help but feel sad.

"Yes, I have been self-reflecting since I lost Lin Xue'er, and it is true that I didn't do a lot of things well, but her final choice did have many omens in the process of our relationship, but I didn't pay attention to it, and the final reason is that I didn't pay enough attention to it and cherish it enough."

I raised my head and stared at my uncle's ravine-lined face.

"You're right, she hasn't changed, she hasn't changed her mind, it's my personal problem, the world is changing too fast, I'm still standing in place, so I'm left behind, Lin Xue'er chose to leave, it's a choice to adapt to the environment, she is very strong, she has to do everything well, and I'm not worthy of her."

As I spoke, I lowered my head and sat in my chair like a child who had done something wrong, looking a little cramped and uneasy.

"You're right, the world is changing so fast." , the uncle leaned on the side of the bed, a little emotional.

"Do you remember the scene when the two of us studied together in the Yellow Building?"

He asked me, and there was a mist in his eyes.

Then, his expression soothed, and his mood seemed to return to the unforgettable years of youth.

"Of course I do!" , His words reminded me of the Yellow Building, the various people in the Yellow Building, and the events of the various kinds.

During my time in the Yellow Mansion, I paid little attention to my uncle.

After he and I transferred to the Yellow House together, it seemed that it had been going well, and the results were far ahead, and two years later, he was successfully admitted to the secondary school, and then he and I were separated.

"One of your students in that class is named Ah Hong, right?"

Uncle asked me, the expression on his face was soothing and bright, and it seemed that Ah Hong's name lit up a happy mood.

I'm a little surprised, Uncle also knows Ah Hong?

"yes, do you know her?"

I asked curiously.

"It's not just acquaintance, I know her very well!"

He smiled slightly, and the look on his face surprised me even more.

"Why? When did you meet her? ”

"Don't forget, I'm only two years higher than you in junior high school!" , the uncle stretched his waist, his tall frame, bent by the years, some obvious hunchback.

After speaking, his expression was focused and soothing, and the wrinkles on his face also relaxed, as if he had returned to the youth of the Yellow Mansion period.

"That girl is beautiful!"

The uncle's eyes were bright, and it was obvious that his admiration for Ah Hong was also from the heart.

"I met Ah Hong when I returned to my hometown in the county seat from a secondary school and transferred trains at the station."

"It was autumn, and she was wearing a red dress, which was particularly eye-catching in the bustling crowd at the station."

After that, his eyes were a little misty, and he was completely caught in the good memories.

The expression on his face is varied, and there is a hint of childlike shyness.

"Ah Hong's secondary school is in the same city as me, and she is so outstanding in the crowd, so she attracted my attention, and I took the initiative to talk to her."

Uncle said and glanced at me.

I was completely blown away by his experience, which was something the two of us had never talked about before.

I looked at him in amazement, not knowing what he would say behind me.

What I'm thinking about now is that the world is so big, but it's surprisingly small.

Who knows, in a corner in the next second, who will be met?

"Ah Hong is very cheerful and generous, we have a lot of common language, the secondary school has organized a hometown association, and Ah Hong is also very active when she goes to school, which is the goal pursued by many boys in the hometown association. I heard that there is a county leader's son, who is the craziest, but she has always been unmoved. ”

"I mentioned you in an unintentional small talk with her."

Uncle's words paused for a moment, and his expression was a little gloomy.

"Obviously, Ah Hong admires you very much and likes you very much, and she has never hidden this."

"Do you know, big country, if she hadn't been so persistent, maybe today would have been a different ending."

With that, he smiled embarrassedly.

"Look, if you don't come today, you may never know that I still had an intersection with your classmate Ah Hong back then, right?"

"You guys? You've been in love? My tongue felt like it was stuck in my mouth, and my speech was a little inflexible.

"I did have this idea at the time, otherwise I wouldn't have known she liked you stinky boy!" , Uncle was a little annoyed.

"I wanted to pursue her, but in the end, I didn't know that you and her were in the same class, and there were so many things in the Yellow Building!"

As he spoke, he stood up, his tall body seemed to straighten up for a moment.

"Do you know why I've been away from the hustle and bustle of the city and married so early?"

"What the hell, you're so unproductive, missing out on such a great girl?!"

"If I knew such an ending, why should I bother?"

He was agitated and spoke loudly, completely ignoring my look of surprise.

Yes, how do I know about my uncle's experience?

I always thought that a person with such thick lines should never have so many emotional stories.

Surprisingly, his feelings were so delicate, and his choices were equally moving.

"Did you get in touch later?" , I dodged the uncle's angry gaze and asked timidly.

"Contact? Get in touch with a ghost! Uncle scolded me.

"The last time you came to me, I was very surprised to take Lin Xue'er with you, I thought you and Ah Hong would ...... We'll be together, but I don't have the right to interfere with your choices, you see,.... This world, my God..... I don't know what to say! He covered his face, sat down, looked lonely, and his tall body curled up again, as if he had suddenly become a lot shorter.

"I like her, I hope she is all right, I hope she can finally get her wish and guard the people she loves, but you, you........ Alas! ”

I saw bright tears rolling out of his fingers.

What is this emotion?

This is a kind of willing to give, selfless blessing.

It has always been buried deep in the heart, and it has never even been expressed, but it has long grown into a towering tree in the fertile soil of emotion, so that people can only look up to see the true face!

......

Fate is so tricky?!

More than ten years ago, if I had never known Ah Hong, things would have ended differently.

Uncle is excellent, Ah Hong is excellent, if it weren't for me, they might have an enviable emotional story, right?

The beautiful encounter of the small station, the adjacency of the secondary school and the college to the final stay, a noble soul, an outstanding female middle school elite, the combination of the two people, what a happy ending?

However, all this, by my unintentional and ignorant intervention, was destroyed into a tragedy that is different from heaven to earth.

The reason turned out to be because of a wrong emotional bias.

What's worse is that I didn't even know about it!

A wrong choice that completely changed the fate of two people.

This change sounds heartbreaking.

I can't restore the details of that year.

However, I can now see an iron-clad man, repenting of his youth.

What else in this world do we have to give up?

As long as you have faith, persistence may be the right choice.

For a while, the atmosphere in the tin room was dull and unusual.

The uncle's tall body nestled in the chair, as if his hands and feet were tied, curled up, motionless.

He ignored me and seemed to be in meditation on his own.

I stood up and felt a little depressed.

Walking out of the container office, the world outside suddenly opens up.

Standing on the platform outside the house, looking up, the mountains are like sharp blades into the sky.

Looking down at the mountains, you can see two steel dragons stretching out into the endless sky, disappearing between the cloud-shrouded ridges, like heavenly paths.

With such a rail connection, everything in the distance is so far away and so within reach.