The joint party began to talk about the encounters he might encounter after returning home - he was warmly welcomed by his family, he was disgusted by his mother for pulling the quilt and disliked him for lying in bed, he was recited by his parents for a mixed sex chanting, and he was dragged by his parents to pay New Year's greetings - he went to his grandmother's house to pay New Year's greetings, and he went to his grandfather's house to pay New Year's greetings...... After such a process, Lianfang felt that he was "incomplete" and "soulless".

Xiao Fei was originally eating meat buns, but when he heard Lianfang start to talk about his grandmother, he suddenly remembered Qinghua.

He didn't know why he suddenly remembered Qinghua.

And as soon as he thought of Qinghua's weak appearance, he felt as if his skin was crawling with ants, numb, and disgusting.

Xiao Fei took a big bite of the meat bun and chewed it, but the ants on his arm had not disappeared. He shook his arm and took another bite of the meat bun.

Sanping lay on the bed and fell asleep for I don't know how long, and finally woke up, and when he opened his eyes, he saw Yu Yun sitting on the side reading a book.

She blinked her eyes slightly, but Yu Yun seemed to hear her blinking, and he looked up from the book, "Do you want tea?" ”

The winter air always carries cold white gas, and Sanping inhaled his nose and inhaled those white gases. She touched her nose with her hand and found that it was also frozen.

But the quilt is warm. She arched in, revealing only a pair of eyes from the quilt, looking at Yu Yun.

"Why are you here again?" Sanping's voice came from the bed, buzzing.

"I want to accompany you." Yu Yun put down the book, got up and poured a glass of warm water for Sanping, "I think the person you see when you open your eyes is me." ”

Sanping didn't speak. She wanted to sit up from the bed, but seeing that Yu Yun had no intention of leaving, she could only continue to lie down.

Almost at the same time, she realized that it was even more inappropriate for Yu Yun to see her lying down, so she hurriedly sat up. But because she had been lying down for a long time, her head was still heavy, and she suddenly got up, and she suddenly lost her balance, her eyes were black, and she was about to fall off the bed.

said that it was too late, it was fast, Yu Yun took a step forward, grabbed Sanping's shoulder tightly, and straightened Sanping.

Sanpei sat nervously on the bed. Yu Yun was still sitting on the side, but instead of reading or looking at Sanping, he began to stare out the window.

Sanping had no choice but to take out the computer, open the document, and prepare to write. But it didn't take long for her to stop typing and look at Yu Yun next to her helplessly, "Principal Yu, I really don't need you to accompany me, you're here, I can't concentrate." ”

has been hospitalized for so long, and Yu Yun's frequency is higher than that of Miss Cheng and Lu Yi. And Sanping thought that Xiao Fei was a student and had his own studies, so he just asked him to come once a week.

Although Yu Yun is Xiao Fei's principal and the son of Granny Yu, Sanping is still at a loss in the face of Yu Yun, who comes so diligently.

But no matter how good she said the day before, she didn't need him to accompany her, but the next day, Yu Yun still appeared in front of her without moving.

It's not that he resists - Yu Yun didn't do anything when he came, he didn't force Sanping to talk to him, nor did he ask Sanping other questions, every time he came, he took a book and sat on the side. And when Sanping couldn't bear it anymore and took the initiative to speak, he could also put down the book and naturally take Sanping's words. Other times, he took the book and sat on the side - as if he was not interested in Sanping's affairs, which was actually exactly what Sanping wanted.

One day, Sanping's nasal cavity suddenly rushed into a strong fragrance of tea, she opened her eyes, got up to look, and saw Yu Yun on the coffee table next to her, boiling tea leisurely. He looked at Sanping's stunned expression, smiled and raised the teacup, "Accompany me for a cup of tea?" ”

Today is no exception, on the coffee table not far away, elegant jasmine tea is boiled. Yu Yun was wearing a black turtleneck, and his face, which was already bloodless, was even paler by the sweater. After listening to Sanping's words, his gaze retracted from somewhere outside the window and fell on Sanping's face, "It's not that I'm with you, it's that I want you to accompany me." ”

Sanpei looked at him speechlessly.

"You talk so much every day."

The corners of Yu Yun's mouth twitched. Sanping looked at him helplessly, "Then when you come over again tomorrow, bring me a few books too." I can't write anything, I haven't read it in a long time. ”

Yu Yun nodded slightly, then raised his hand, and the teacup that he had been holding in the palm of his hand appeared in front of Sanping, "Then can you have a cup of tea with me?" ”

"Accompany and drink." Sanping reluctantly took it, blew the tea, and then took a sip, the sweetness and fragrance of the tea poured into her mouth and nose at once, but it also diluted a lot of the indescribable turbidity in her original heart.

Putting down the teacup, she looked at Yu Yun who was looking out the window with an indifferent face, and couldn't help but ask strangely, "Why are you so idle, shouldn't you be very busy?" ”

"I'm here when I'm not busy." Yu Yun glanced at her, "I'll have nothing to do when I'm done, so I'll accompany you." ”

"I want you to accompany me." Sanping replied without thinking, "I don't know how comfortable I am here alone." ”

Yu Yun smiled, "Didn't you dare to come again if you didn't look at Lu Yi, Xiao Fei was busy studying again, I think Xiao Fei is really determined to take the art exam." He put the teacup on the windowsill and looked back at Sanping, "I'm afraid you're bored, it's definitely not because I haven't had a place to come over after work to pass the time." ”

"Thank you." It took Sanping a while to squeeze out such a sentence. After a while, she sighed again, "I guess I'd better give Lu Yi a call, right?" Does he still think I'm mad at him? ”

After all, I have been friends with Lu Yi for so many years, and it's not a taste to lose contact coldly, it's not the same thing.

"Hit." Yu Yun said, "Don't look at him all day long, in fact, the artist is very sensitive all over his body." He feels apprehensive towards you, and feels aggrieved against your parents......" Yu Yun stopped.

"You're looking for my parents?" Sanping stared at Yu Yun.

"Ahh

"They......" Sanping's voice was a little low, "how's it going?" ”

"Not really." Yu Yun replied lightly.

"No, what are you looking for them?" Sanping was a little annoyed by Yu Yun's attitude.

"Reminiscing." Yu Yun picked up the cup of tea on the windowsill, drank it all in one go, turned around and went to the coffee table to pour himself a new cup of hot tea, and returned to Sanping to sit beside him.

"Don't do that." Sanping's taste that was not a taste was turned into a grievance by Yu Yun, she pursed her lips, wanting to say something, but she didn't know what to say.

She didn't seem to be as eager to know the reason why they were looking for her parents as she imagined—or rather, she vaguely knew the reason, but whether it was the cause or the effect, she still hoped that Yu Yun wouldn't tell her.

"You really want to know?" Yu Yun put the teacup on the windowsill again, turned his face and saw Sanping shaking his head, and sighed, "If you don't want to know, don't ask in the first place." You have to learn now to stop blocking yourself. ”

"Anyway, when you want to know, no one can stop you." Yu Yun continued lightly. Yu Yun's voice is very good, every time Sanping listens to him, he feels like he is listening to the sound of water flowing through the bottom of the stream, and he feels comfortable listening to it.

After Yu Yun left, Sanping was taken by the nurse to do various examinations. Sanping stood in front of those cold instruments, feeling like a corpse without temperature.

After the examination, Sanping was taken to Dr. Hu's office again.

Dr. Hu saw that Sanping had no intention of talking, and he was not in a hurry to let Sanping speak. He took off his glasses, picked up the cloth, lowered his head and began to wipe the mirror intently. Sanping's gaze always followed Dr. Hu's movements, and finally began to watch intently as Dr. Hu wiped his glasses.

After Dr. Hu put on his glasses, he looked at Sanping and smiled, "You are like a child." ”

Dr. Hu looks a little older than Senping. Not only did his hair turn white, but even his two thick eyebrows turned white, and he was happy all day long, and his eyes were often happy in a line, looking like one of those little old men who could go to the park with a chessboard and kill his companions for a few rounds after work.

"Last time, you told me about Yonghe." Dr. Hu saw Sanping's absent-minded state in his eyes, but he did not stop talking, "You said that the time you were with Yonghe was the most comfortable and comfortable day in your life. But according to Xiao Fei and Lu Yi's reflection, after Yonghe left, you threw away all the things about Yonghe at home. ”

Sanping raised her head when she heard Yonghe's name, and she began to try to concentrate on listening to Dr. Hu.

"Why?" Dr. Hu asked.

"I don't want to see things and think about people." Sanpei replied without thinking about it.

Dr. Hu shook his head, "No. Think again. ”

Sanping was a little puzzled, "What else do you want to think?" It's not that I just don't want to see things and think about people. ”

"But if it really worked, you wouldn't be here today." Dr. Hu said directly. Sanping was speechless for a while, and then she became a little irritated, "Then tell me why I threw away all his things." ”

"Liar. You lied. Dr. Hu watched Sanping's face change and then return to normal, and continued, "You want to create an illusion for other people and yourself that you have completely let go. It's all self-deception. ”

Sanping didn't speak, but Dr. Hu couldn't help frowning when he saw that she was visibly relieved.

"Do you want to stay here again?" Dr. Hu changed his words and asked Sanping.

Sanping took the pillow next to him to his chest and hugged it tightly, "I didn't want to live here in the first place, but you just refused to let me go." ”

"Well, we're not going to let you out of the hospital now." Dr. Hu nodded and asked, "Do you think you need treatment?" ”

"Yes." Sanping answered quickly.

"Go ahead and tell me about Yonghe." Dr. Hu obviously felt Sanping's uncooperative mood today, so he could only change the topic.

"I have to say it." Sanping muttered. She frowned, "It's just that by his side, I don't have to think about whether he likes what I said or not, whether he hates me just lying on the couch and doing nothing......" She paused, as if looking for the sentence in her head, so that she could continue. Although impatient, she wanted to continue to say everything about Yonghe.

Dr. Hu watched her quietly and did not interrupt.

"He said he loved me, not because I was a violin performer. I also believe that he loves me and that he never asks me for anything. When I first met him, I always unconsciously wanted to do something for him, like buying him a gift, inviting him to dinner, or something, after a few times, he said no, he told me that he had to apologize to me, he made me misunderstand, I misunderstood what I was going to do, and he would love me. Actually, no, he said, even if I don't do anything, nothing, he loves me. ”

"At first I thought he was lying to me, and I told him to break up. Ah yes, I've been separated from him a few times, and each time I can't stand to bring it up, but I know it's not his problem, it's my problem, it's my problem from beginning to end. I wondered, could anyone really love another person so much at all costs? Even if that person can't do anything for him? Would he love her that much? I really don't believe it, I think he's hypocritical, too hypocritical. He just wanted me to do more for him, he said that. I thought I had seen through him, so I broke up with him. But he didn't give up and still followed me. He told me not to be afraid, I thought it was ridiculous at the time, how could I be afraid? What am I afraid of? It wasn't until later that I finally really understood that he really loved me so much at any cost, and what I was afraid of was his recklessness. I always felt that sooner or later, this kind of recklessness would have a very serious consequence. ”

"It turns out." Sanping's words suddenly stopped, and she stared at the water glass in front of Dr. Hu with empty eyes. Dr. Hu held his breath, he knew it was time.

"It turns out that this kind of recklessness does have a very serious consequence. It's that he died. He loves me so much at any cost, and I accept his reckless recklessness with peace of mind, it must be that God thinks this is not right, so he wants to die, and God wants to take away this kind of reckless cost before letting him die. It's my problem, it's my problem throughout. ”

"If he had never met me, would he have been able to continue living?"

In the end, Sanping was no longer impatient, on the contrary, she was completely immersed in the nostalgia for Yonghe. Even so, her narrative does not flow as smoothly as expected. In fact, she pauses for a moment almost every time she says something. So much so that it took her more than half an hour for ordinary people to finish this passage in less than a minute. After Sanping left the office, Dr. Hu played back the recording, and then wore reading glasses and typed Sanping's words into the computer word by word. As he was done, he looked at the computer and sighed.

In Sanping's uncooperative attitude, Dr. Hu could only let Sanping continue to talk about what she was willing to talk about. Then, in Sanping's chattering narrative, he earnestly sought and captured the clues in it.

In his recollection of his relationship with Yonghe, Sanpei repeated "This is my problem" more than once. Dr. Hu believes that the reason for this has to be found in her family of origin.

But Sanping has been hospitalized for so long, and Dr. Hu has not seen her parents come to visit her once. I also talked to Yu Yun about this last time, and he knew that Yu Yun had gone to her parents, and it was useless. Dr. Hu thought for a moment and picked up the phone.

Qinghua came out of the room and looked at Morihira who was already dressed, she was standing at the door in a daze, she walked to Morihira's side and gently stroked Morihira's back with her hand. Morihei's body stiffened, and he took a few steps forward, quietly avoiding Qinghua's closeness.

Qinghua smiled indifferently: "Let's go." Even the doctor called and we had to go. ”

Morihei didn't speak, pulled the door open and walked out.

"Actually, I think we should have gone earlier. After all, she's our child too. Qinghua sat in the co-pilot and sighed.

"My child, not so fragile." Moreira didn't want to answer. After a while, as if I felt uneasy, I added stiffly.

"But she's still our child. We shouldn't give up on her. Have you forgotten, when she was born, you were also very happy. ”

Morihei didn't answer again. He looked ahead with a gloomy face, his hands gripping the steering wheel tightly.

Sitting across from Dr. Hu, his face was still gloomy. He pursed his lips tightly and remained silent. Qinghua lowered her head and didn't dare to speak.

Dr. Hu was happy, "Yi Senping, Mr. Yi!" I've been to your violin recital a few times, and listening to it live is really different from listening to it on a tape recorder! ”

Senpei glared at Dr. Hu, but soon, he realized where he was now. He awkwardly withdrew his gaze and said stiffly, "Thank you." ”

"But it's a pity, I heard that your wrist is injured and you can't play the violin anymore? Oops, it's a shame. Dr. Hu ignored Senping's reaction with a smile and continued to immerse himself in his own world: "But it doesn't matter, Mr. Yi, you are no longer just an ordinary violin performer, your reputation in the industry is well-known. It will be a blessing for many young people with dreams to make good use of your influence! ”

Morihira's face was red and white. He was furious, but given Dr. Hu's status, he could only try to suppress his anger.

Qinghua glanced at Sen Ping beside her, and then looked at Doctor Hu: "By the way, Doctor Hu, you called me that day and told me that you wanted to talk to us about Sanping's situation." Is Sanpei okay now? When will I be discharged from the hospital? ”

"In fact, if the two of you had come earlier, we would have been able to start a more targeted treatment plan earlier." I don't know if it's Qinghua's illusion, she watched Dr. Hu's smile retract a little and became a little serious.

"Does it have anything to do with us?" Qinghua asked.

"It's a big deal." Dr. Hu completely restrained his smile. His gaze swept back and forth between the two faces in front of him, and he continued: "A long time ago, it has been proven that a considerable number of people with mental illness can find the answer from their original family if they want to investigate the cause of their illness. And if the child is not well cared for in the early stage of growth, it will also greatly increase the chance of him suffering from various mental illnesses. ”

"We took good care of her." Morihira said coldly: "It's her own vulnerability. What's the matter, if you don't want to play the violin, just say, I'm her father, she herself refuses to communicate with her family, she holds everything in her heart, and she is sick, ah, Lai's family is here? ”

Dr. Hu picked up the water cup in front of him, opened the lid, and took a sip of tea.

Qinghua also chimed in: "Yes, how can you blame Sanping's cause on us?" It's not rigorous, but you're a doctor, so you have to pay attention to what you say. ”

"I think the two of you misunderstood." Dr. Hu said: "I didn't say that the reason why Sanping suffered from depression was because the two of them treated her badly. In fact, the causes of depression are complex, and various factors such as genes, growth environment, and stress events are intertwined and work together to lead to the formation of depression. Moreover, the cause of each depressed patient is also different, which shows that if we want to control the condition of depressed patients and even recover, we have to find the cause from all aspects. When we were just hospitalized, we had already done an examination for Sanping. For Sanping's disease, we will have a series of treatment options. But depression is actually more of a mental illness, and what we have to do is to slowly untie the knot with Sanping. ”