Lin Xue'er's decision was very resolute and completely unexpected to me.

When I woke up the next day, I tried to persuade her to change her plans, but I lost the courage to open my mouth.

I know her very well, once you decide something, it's hard for others to change it.

After two years of studying abroad, I finally returned to China alone and lost my soul.

One can imagine how bad the mood is.

......

The plane flew from west to east, and my mind was torn apart by the distance between the eastern and western hemispheres, and I was only halfway back.

As usual, Oshi picked me up at the airport.

Seeing that I had returned to China alone, he seemed to understand what was going on between me and Lin Xue'er.

On the topic of Lin Xueer, I didn't talk about it.

Along the way, he and I were silent.

Dazhi drove and looked at me from time to time.

Finally, he spoke first.

"Dude, if you want to open up, there is no grass at the end of the world."

After all, seeing that I didn't respond, he couldn't be sure of his judgment.

I asked.

"Is Lin Xue'er not coming back?"

This time, he even changed his name to Lin Xue'er and no longer called him sister-in-law.

Dazhi knows me too well, and he can drill into my mind and guess what happened to me just from his expression.

I nodded in acquiescence, answering his question.

As soon as the plane landed, I realized that from now on, Lin Xueer and I were from two countries, and I felt so sad that I didn't even have the mood to speak.

It's winter in Beijing, and outside the car window, everything is shrouded in gray fog.

"Let's go for a drink?" , Oshi proposed.

"I've got a little surprise for you in a moment."

I didn't approve or oppose it, I was still immersed in my own emotional world and couldn't extricate myself, and Lin Xueer's decision to stay abroad after graduation made me a little discouraged.

In this case, drinking alcohol is also a good option to relieve sorrow.

Dazhi drove me to the specialty tavern we frequented during our graduation internship.

After all these years, nothing has changed in the tavern.

Push the door in, the furnishings inside are still the same, and even the layout of the tables and chairs has not been adjusted.

The scene inside reminds me of the first time I came here with Da Gang and Da Zhi; And here for the ambition to go to Shenzhen to practice, plan the ambition of the company business plan and make a proud ambition of the gentleman's agreement.

Finding the old seat that we have been accustomed to choosing when we visited in the past, sitting down, touching the familiar furnishings, my heart warms, what could be stronger than this feeling of coming home?

The owner came over to greet us, he was old, hadn't seen him in a few years, and had already brought reading glasses.

The boss knows Dazhi very well, but he doesn't remember me at all.

We asked for a special side dish that we must order every time, a pot of sake.

The dishes were basically ready, and Dazhi motioned for me to wait.

He picked up the phone and seemed to be urging someone.

After a while, he mysteriously made a gesture at me, stood up and went out to the door to greet me.

It was still early for lunch, and I watched Dazhi toss and turn, judging that he should be introducing me to an important person.

Sure enough, after a while, he hurried back from outside, taking a girl with him.

The girl is familiar.

"Isn't this Dashi's cousin?" At the first glance of the girl, I remembered the photo of him and his cousin that Dazhi had shown me more than once in the past.

"The tall figure, the round face in the shape of a goose egg, is simply carved out of a mold."

I stood up, ready to greet them.

The girl approached, and I looked at it carefully, and again denied my own judgment.

In the photo of Dashi's cousin, there is a very conspicuous mole on the forehead on the face, which the girl does not have.

Besides, if it were his cousin, he would probably have a child.

For a moment, I stood there, thinking about it in my head, and I didn't feel a little stunned.

Dazhi stepped forward and introduced us to each other.

"Big country, this is my girlfriend, Lan Hong'er."

"Lan Hong'er, this is our big brother, a big country."

Lan Hong'er stood still in front of me, a shallow smile leaking out of her face.

"Brother Daguo is good, Dazhi often talks about you." She laughed, her eyes crooked, and a dimple on her cheeks, which looked sweet.

"Oh, hello, hello." , I reacted and was happy for Dazhi.

It seems that my brother's ambition has escaped from his cousin's love curse.

The arrival of Lan Hong'er completely changed the dull atmosphere.

She is optimistic, talkative, and ambitious, there are endless topics to talk about, listening to their conversations, I forgot all my troubles for a while.

The meal was very pleasant, the dishes were exquisitely cooked, and the conversation was very happy.

After eating and drinking tea for a while, Lan Hong'er left beforehand.

"Congratulations." , I said to Dazhi with a smile.

"Congratulations on saying goodbye to singleness once and for all."

"How?" He looked at me with a smile.

"How's that?" I didn't understand the meaning of his words.

"Lan Hong'er, how do you feel about her?" , Dazhi looked very serious and seemed to care about my opinion.

"Pretty good, not bad." I answered without hesitation.

Although the first contact, you can feel that Lan Honger is an optimistic, positive and kind person, and there are many similarities with Dazhi.

Dazhi looked at me carefully and confirmed my attitude.

"Lan Hong'er is good at everything, but she talks a lot, a little heartless, and with her, I don't consciously talk a lot." After saying that, he smiled embarrassedly.

"A lot of talkativeness shows that people are cheerful, which is a plus." , I correct him.

At the same time, I thought of Lin Xue'er.

Lin Xueer is also a talker, and with her, we also have endless topics.

For a while, thinking of Lin Xue'er's various goodness, my mood was a little low again.

When I was parting overseas, looking at her resolute expression, I knew in my heart that maybe she would never return to China, and I would lose her forever.

Dazhi's evaluation of Lan Hong'er reminded me of my past with Lin Xue'er, from the county to Beijing, from Beijing to Tibet, from Tibet to abroad, all the bits and pieces came to my heart at once, and my mind was a little wandering again.

Daichi captured the change in the expression on my face.

"Big country, do you know why I deliberately introduced Lan Hong'er to you today?"

I shook my head.

I was quite surprised by this, and for more than two years, although I have been studying abroad, I have also come back, Dazhi has never mentioned Lan Hong'er, and he has never introduced me.

"Brother, I want to use my own experience to tell you that at our age, we have experienced so many things, don't believe in any so-called love anymore."

"Just find someone to live with."

With that, he let out a long sigh, as if to convince himself.

"If everything goes well, I'm going to marry Lan Hong'er at the end of the year."

Getting married is such a festive thing, and after Dazhi said it, his attitude was so pessimistic that it made me uneasy.

"Do you love Lanhong'er?" , I remembered her resemblance to Dazhi's cousin, and I was a little worried about her, if Dazhi was looking for her purely to find a stand-in for her cousin, I had to stop this matter, this is not only a question of fairness or not, this is a moral issue.

"What do you think?" , Dazhi asked me rhetorically.

I hesitated, how could I know about the two of them? And it's hard to guess.

Dazhi smiled.

"Great Power, I know what you think, and I fully understand your concerns."

I looked at him, and I didn't know what to say.

"You're worried that Lan Hong'er looks too similar to my cousin, right?"

He guessed my mind again, and I nodded.

"Actually, you're thinking too much, I don't mean to use Lan Hong'er as a stand-in at all, she looks like my cousin, just because I like their type of looks."

"You asked me if I love Lan Hong'er, I'm really not sure now, but I don't think it matters whether I love or not, the most important thing is that she is the most suitable person I have met to marry at this time period."

Dazhi's point of view did not convince me, on the contrary, it aggravated my worries.

Will you be happy if you marry someone who you can't be sure of whether you love or not?

I think of Ah Hong, Ah Hong said that she and her husband have no love, and in the end, her marriage ended in tragedy, has this problem been verified to a certain extent?

"You're not sure if you love it or not, and you're going to marry Lan Hong'er at the end of the year, isn't that a bit abrupt?" I felt I had to bring this issue up and draw his attention.

"Big brother, this is Beijing, it's 2011." , Dazhi was a little excited.

"Wake up, open your eyes and see, where is the so-called love you are pursuing?"

What Dazhi said is understood from a certain angle, it still makes sense, the current society is impetuous, the pace is fast, people are too materialistic, it is difficult to find someone to talk to with the opposite sex, love has become a luxury, and real love seems to be found in the emotional museum.

I was silent again, knowing in my heart that there was no real point in such a debate with him.

In reality, there are indeed many people who have abandoned love in the face of cruel reality, but how many older men and women in Beijing are still insisting on their feelings and struggling to find their other half?

"Listen to my brother, find a reliable person, get married and live, where in this world, there are so many ups and downs." , I can see that Dazhi still wants to enlighten me.

I understood his thoughts, from picking me up at the airport to going to the tavern and inviting his girlfriend, whom I had never met, to have a small get-together, all of this was to let me untie my knot, face reality, and return to life.

I'm touched when I think about it.

"Dazhi, I agree with your idea, but the emotional thing, it's really not clear, in this regard, you are much better than me, I think I do need a while to figure out a lot of things." , I said to him sincerely.

This is also the actual situation I am facing now, I have just experienced a parting, and I need a while to calm down and sort out my thoughts.

As for love or not, how to choose, this topic is a bit too big, different people should have different answers, the world of feelings, there is no unified standard answer.

Just like the matter of Dazhi and Lan Hong'er, I can't give any advice, if they want to get married, and this is the consensus of the two people, maybe it's a good thing.

The fog outside the window gradually dissipated, and the afternoon sun was bright.

The sunlight shines through the window of the tavern and reflects into the room, which is warm and mixed with the familiar aroma of wine, which makes us drunk and slightly drunk, have a trace of lazy sleep.

The warm winter sun in China and the spring sunshine abroad have the same warm feeling, which makes me feel the same leisure and warmth in a different but familiar corner.

It's just that he and his beloved Lin Xue'er are on one side, and they may never see each other again.