Zheng Xingxing's confession letter to Cao'er was finally not delivered. He silently placed the letter under his small wooden box in the dormitory.

He didn't know what was wrong, was it because he was cold to her when he was at the table in fourth grade? But at that time, they were at the same table, getting along day and night, and there was no need to say anything more, perhaps, Cao'er's liking for him was just a temporary freshness, or a kind of comfort in loneliness and loneliness.

He didn't hate her, however, he wanted to let her go completely.

Cao'er didn't know what Zheng Xingxing was thinking, she was used to him taking the initiative to find her. In the face of the people she likes, she is restrained and passive.

Especially in the fourth grade, when the two were at the same table, she always felt that he didn't like her so much. She wore short hair like a boy, and he probably preferred a gentle girl with long hair and fluttering hair.

When he was in the fifth grade, he took the initiative to come to her for the first time, because he liked her, but why didn't he make a clear confession to her for a long time? It seems that he doesn't like her that much, but she is self-inflicted and thinks too much. Otherwise, how could she think of Li Yunfeng on such an important festival as the Mid-Autumn Festival, but he couldn't think of her.

It seems that I don't like it enough. She couldn't help but draw conclusions with great certainty in her heart.

So, Zheng Xingxing and Cao'er, suddenly, somehow became cold, sometimes when they had to look at each other, both sides also tried not to answer each other's words as much as possible, usually passing by and meeting, they also lowered their eyes to each other, their heads twisted away in unison, both sides were a resolute look that if you don't speak, I will never speak.

Another very important reason why Cao'er was in no mood to pay attention to Zheng Xingxing's emotions was that Cao'er's father was sick.

"Cao'er, if something happens at home, don't take it to heart, no matter what, you have to go to school and study hard."

Cao'er, who came home from school at noon, had just sat down, and his father, who was sitting next to him, suddenly said.

"Hmm."

Cao'er looked up at her father in surprise, but Cao'er's father's face was relaxed, just like he usually looked at his colleagues, with a smile on his face. I don't see why I would say such a strange thing to my daughter.

The father and daughter sat silently for a while, and then Cao Erniang came back from the school cafeteria and took Jun Sheng into the house, and the family of four began to eat, but no one made a sound except for the sound of Jun Sheng talking to himself while eating.

Three days later, in the morning, Cao'er got up, saw that there was no breakfast on the table, and was wondering in her heart, Cao'er's father came out of the room, saying that he had helped Cao'er ask for leave the day before, and the family went to the hospital today for a check-up.

Cao'er doesn't know why, she hates going to the hospital the most, she has a cold spleen and stomach, and often rolls around in bed in pain, and she can't make a sound, afraid that her parents will know about her and let her go to the hospital. She didn't want to trouble her parents and make them worry, and she didn't want to go to the hospital, and when she smelled the hospital, she felt uncomfortable.

But this time, because the whole family came to the county people's hospital, she calmed down a little and didn't let her father, mother and younger brother see her discomfort.

A thick needle stabbed through Cao'er's right arm, drawing out red blood. At the end, Cao'er used the cotton swab given by the doctor to press the tube that had just been inserted into the needle, and saw that her mother and brother were the same. Fortunately, their faces were normal, no different, although Cao'er's heart was still a little strange, but they also felt that it was nothing serious, so they didn't have any special worries.

Back home, the family started to get busy. At lunchtime, Cao'er found that her father, who used to eat with everyone in a bowl, somehow changed to a beige vegetable bowl to serve rice, and added a pair of chopsticks specially for her father.

Cao'er lowered her head and ate silently, remembering the inexplicable words that her father said to her the day before, her heart couldn't help but sink, but seeing that her parents' faces were also very normal, there was no change, so she didn't dare to ask anything.

It wasn't until a week later that Cao'er learned from the chats between her parents and other teachers that her father had injured his liver and had hepatitis B because of excessive drinking in his early years, which would be contagious. Because of this, the blood test of the whole family a week ago, fortunately, I, Junsheng and my mother were all negative. Later, they also got vaccinated, which was probably the hepatitis B vaccine.

My father quit drinking, but he began to take medicine for many years.

Many years later, Cao'er remembered her father's words, and her father's smile was still in front of her, but she couldn't help but feel heartache:

At that time, the father must have discovered the abnormality of his body, and was waiting for the doctor's results, worried that if the condition was severe and serious, he was afraid that his daughter would not be able to survive, so he explained it early. And the reason why he looked so ordinary and even smiled was because he had already experienced her mother's life and death, and he knew that once death came, no one could stop it, and there was no other way but to face it. It's just that if he leaves, the grass behind him will fulfill his father's wish that she will live a good life through studying.

The grass is still too small, and she is very afraid of life and death. But when she heard that hepatitis B was a common disease, she was a little relieved, and how did she know that from now on, her father would also spend time in the fear of an illness that would never go away!

Cao'er's mother told Cao'er that her father's illness would make the family's life more difficult than before. Cao'er's father has a monthly salary of more than 1,000 yuan, Cao'er's mother does some logistics work at school, and her income is only two or three hundred, a family of four eats, drinks and Lazar, Cao'er and Junsheng's tuition and miscellaneous expenses, and she has to save some for these two children to study in high school in the future.

Fortunately, Grandpa Cao'er went to the county seat to guard some companies, and he could take care of his own life. Cao'er's father will still worry about his mother and siblings in his hometown, and when he returns to his hometown, he will secretly give Cao'er's grandmother a little living expenses.

But the only thing to save is his own medical expenses, his medicine, which was originally once a day, but Chinese medicine is expensive, so he presumptuously changed it to once every other day, and sometimes he felt better, so he drank a pair of medicines every few days. In this regard, Cao'er and her younger brother Junsheng were unaware.

Cao'er's mother once said it when chatting with Cao'er, but her father never mentioned it, and Cao'er couldn't understand the bitterness and hardship of her father, so she just blindly worried about her father's body, and prayed that her father's body could recover before going to bed every day.

The grass is still too young, and although she has experienced life and death, and the hardships of the world, she is still ignorant.

But in any case, because of her father's illness, Cao'er's happiness was a little less. She didn't have much of a mood to think about whether Zheng Xingxing would come to her again, but every day at noon, she still took Jun Sheng, the Li family brothers and a group of classmates to do her homework on the lawn at noon.

From time to time, Junsheng would go to the place where they planted the moon to see if there were any new buds. But not long after Cao'er thought of making a wish, her father was sick, and the moon was still spiritual? She was so excited that her younger brother went to see it, and she just studied hard.

Li Yunfeng was also aware of Cao'er's strangeness, but seeing that she was often stunned, he didn't say it to himself, so he couldn't help but ask, worried that asking would make her sad. For Cao'er, Li Yunfeng knew that she just blindly cared about others, but never said her thoughts outward, he suddenly felt a little pain in his heart, but he could only hide his distress silently as she pressed her own hardship.