"Chapter 13: Reflections on Life"
Jing Chen had no choice but to put down the dumbbell in his hand and take Yuanfan's phone.
"Hey ......"
"What the hell do you mean!" At this time, Xingwei could no longer suppress the collapse of her heart and began to cry.
Jingchen had no choice but to listen there, letting Xingwei keep venting her emotions.
Waiting for Xingwei to calm down, Jingchen comforted again, "Xingwei, don't cry!" ”
"Say it, Jingchen, I'll listen, let's make a decision today, and no one owes anyone!"
Xingwei sobbed, wiping her snot and tears. In fact, she knew what the outcome would be, but she was still in love with Jingchen, so she didn't want to bring it up first even if it was a breakup. It turns out that even the most arrogant woman is so helpless in the face of love, and there may still be a trace of warmth waiting for mercy in her heart.
"Xingwei, let's break up!"
Xingwei's body couldn't help trembling, how scared she was, afraid to hear such a simple sentence, how cold a voice it was, and an answer without a trace of hesitation. She wanted to beg, beg for mercy. It's not that she's cowardly, it's not that she's humble, it's that she's given so much that everything has been erased by a single sentence, how pitiful it is.
She curled up so hard that she could even curl herself up in a ball. She really didn't have the strength to cry anymore, and there was only blood flowing from the bottom of her heart.
"Break up, it's all over. You're right Jing Chen, two people who can't be together have no results, so why waste each other's time. ”
"Xingwei, I hope you understand."
"Okay, good, I can understand, goodbye, goodbye Jingchen." As he spoke, he hung up the phone.
She was silent for a long time, and let out a cry, a sound without any impurities, loud and transparent.
At the same time, Yuanfan was a little worried, although this was an emotional matter between the two people, but after all, they had been friends for many years, so he was still very worried about Xingwei in his heart.
"Jingchen, there won't be anything, right?"
"Probably not. She's not that vulnerable. ”
"You said that you two have to make such a fuss, these are all friends, how can we meet in the future!"
"It's good to pass, everyone will have emotional bonds."
"You figured it out!"
"Aren't you too! I believe that there are not a few girls who will cause trouble in your hands. ”
"That's different, I'm fraternity, I'm a person with the world in mind!"
"Hmph, fraternity, you think more openly."
Yuanfan ignored it and started the game. Jing Chen was still in good health, and he looked at the sporadic lights outside the window, which was one less trouble.
……
Mu Fan made a phone call with Xiao Nan on time again, which has become a necessity in their daily life, even more important than eating and sleeping.
After a small accident, the two of them became even sweeter. It's no wonder, like a small brand, although it hurts a little at the moment of branding, it also allows each other to find a point of relief.
"Xiao Nan, it's all your fault, I was pulled out to sing!"
"Huh? Why? Your incomplete tone is not afraid of being laughed at. ”
"If you don't blame you, when I sang to you that day, I was heard, and it was difficult for someone to refuse the bonfire party!"
"Haha, well, I think it's good, at least I can get closer to other students."
"Hmm...... It's okay, so I just went up. When I finished singing, someone invited me to form a band, and I was stunned, I didn't know if I sang well or because the person didn't know music better than me, I thought it was funny. ”
"And this kind of thing, maybe that person can't say it with his discernment! My weakness is excellent, isn't it? ”
"Haha, okay, Xiao Nan, you really lifted me,"
The two of them unknowingly talked late again. Mu Fan reluctantly hung up the phone and walked to the dormitory.
Walking on the road paved with night lights, it is quiet and you can only hear the crickets. Mu Fan's heart is very beautiful, so beautiful that the moths that keep waving their wings under the light can become a kind of scenery. He likes to listen to Xiao Nan's teasing words and praise voices, and this feeling will make him realize that he belongs to this world.
Walking to the edge of Yan Lake, a figure walked past him. He felt that the figure was thin, as if it had no life. Mu Fan didn't care, just glanced at it slightly, but saw the figure slowly walking towards the lake.
He was a little worried, for some reason, as if he saw a light of life slowly extinguishing, that kind of unexpectedly disappearing. Mu Fan hesitated, he didn't dare to think about it, and he didn't intend to stop the girl. It wasn't until he heard the sound of wading water that he realized how serious it was.
"Classmates!" He struggled to run over, "Classmate, please don't do this!" "He didn't care about everything anymore and ran into the water! The splash of mud was at their disposal. The girl began to struggle, even a thirst for death, as helpless as a torn soul. Mu Fan was pushed into the water countless times, but he desperately stepped forward to hug her, and he used all his strength to carry the girl to the shore.
The girl lay in his arms and cried vigorously, Mu Fan looked at the night sky and gasped for breath, so the two of them lay down for a long time.
"Are you okay?"
The girl didn't speak, only hearing the slight beating of her pulse.
"Look at how beautiful the night is, I like to look at the stars in the sky, although it is bright and dark, but each star has its own life. I love watching it wink for me, and I love listening to it talk to me so I don't feel lonely. I have witnessed the death of my father and I am grieved. He left with nothing left, not even a word. But I knew that he was looking at me again, watching me walking, so I wouldn't be afraid. ”
The girl could feel the warmth of the body temperature of the person next to her, it was a living thing. She sobbed softly and said sorry softly. Mu Fan didn't want to disturb, so he let the two cold bodies stick to each other to warm each other, enjoying the tranquility of this moment.
The girl got up slightly, and the two looked at each other.
"Mu Fan."
"Xingwei."
"Thank you, Mu Fan."
"Xingwei, I think maybe you're in pain, but I believe you've paid it back."
"Yes, I've already paid it back, thank you for giving me a taste of life."
"I'll send you back, Xingwei."
"Good ......"
The two of them walked on the way back, and the night was very cold and quiet, leaving only a pair of wet footprints on the ground.
Back in the dormitory, his roommates all looked at him with strange eyes!
"It's raining outside?"
The boss went out of the window to take a look.
"No, I accidentally broke the faucet and got wet."
"Yours is really there".
Mu Fan took the basin and towel and walked to the water room. He took a large basin of cold water and poured it from his head to the soles of his feet. He didn't expect that he would witness the coming of death and be so close to him. He let out a hard breath, his body shaking, letting the icy water flow through every part of his body.
He lay on the bed, wrapped tightly in a notebook, and the warmth of his body could always penetrate his heart. He remembered his father, who had been in a car accident on the way back from an exchange event when he was twelve years old. When he saw his father's cold corpse, he didn't even realize what death was. All he knew was that his father was gone, went to a far away place, and might never come back. He didn't cry at the time, just stared into his father's eyes. He had a very small wish, too small to be able to do it normally, just wishing that he could open his eyes, open his eyes and look at himself again. But he didn't do it, and he never did.
He didn't know why life was so fragile, if it was his own fragility, or if it was the ruthlessness of others, he didn't know.
Early the next morning, Mu Fan dragged his heavy body up. He was a little dizzy, and his chapped lips and tired eyes made him extremely uncomfortable. He knew he had a fever, and it was serious. But he didn't want to rest, or maybe he still had a wish, he wanted to see Xingwei.
When the assembly was approaching, Mu Fan tried to find Xingwei, but he never found her. He had no choice but to find You Xi and ask her if she knew Xingwei.
"Xingwei? What's wrong? Know, but don't know. ”
"Oh, nothing, I just asked why she didn't come to practice. You Xi: If you have any news about her, please tell me. ”
"Oh, well, you seem to care about her."
"No, You Xi, don't get me wrong, there are some special circumstances that are difficult to explain."
"If that's the case, then I'll help you inquire about other classmates, there are people who know her."
"Well, thank you You Xi."
After a while, You Xi ran over again, "Mu Fan, Xingwei seems to be sick, so she took a day off." ”
"Oh, that's it, that's it, that's okay. Thank you, Youxi. ”
You Xi didn't understand what Mu Fan said again, but he felt that he was also a little in a trance.
"Mu Fan, what's wrong with you? I feel that something is wrong with you, are you sick too? ”
"I'm fine, You Xi, maybe I have a little fever, I'll be fine in a while."
"Mu Fan, don't be reckless, I don't think it's a bit of a problem, in this way, I'll talk to the instructor and accompany you to the infirmary to have a look!"
"It's really okay You Xi, I'll go first." Mu Fan staggered away as he spoke.
"Mu Fan ......"
But before he could take two steps, he fell to the ground unconscious.
"Mu Fan!"
You Xi hurriedly ran over, and the other classmates also hurried over when they saw this. She touched Mu Fan's face, and suddenly felt a hot feeling, and then realized that Mu Fan also had a high fever again.
Mu Fan was dragged to the infirmary by a group of people, and when he woke up again, it was already close to noon. He looked around and found that You Xi and the boss had been guarding him.
"Mu Fan, you're awake! It's scared to death, do you know how many degrees you burned? 41 degrees! I've never seen such a high body temperature since I was a child, it's really scary! ”
"Thank you You Xi, thank you boss!"
"San'er, you too, you were drenched all over yesterday, and you took a shower with cold water, isn't this looking for death!"
"I didn't expect it to burn so high. It's okay, just rest and rest. ”
"Okay, I'll go get some food first, You Xi, you take care of it first."
"Well, you go first, I've got you."