The top lamp was not turned on, only the table lamp at the head of the bed emitted a dim light, fluttering and soft, with a little ambiguous taste.

Han Xiaoya sat on the edge of the bed, tilting her head sideways, and Lu Minglei's facial features in the shadows seemed to be impossible to see.

She couldn't figure it out, wondering why she had let this person in.

"Have you read the letter I wrote to you earlier?"

There is not much time, and Lu Minglei has no time to go back and forth with Han Xiaoya to test it.

It was really a coincidence that he was able to meet them on their way off work today.

He came out of Zhongxinhai, and seeing that the time was just right, he wanted to meet them.

When he was in Guangcheng, he was too busy and couldn't make many phone calls, and if he took care of Ye Hui's work and rest, there were even fewer opportunities.

It's not that he can't ask Cao Yanhua, but if he can't hang up the phone half an hour after trying once, he doesn't dare to put his hope on Cao Yanhua anymore.

couldn't guess Han Xiaoya's thoughts, and Ye Hui refused to say more, so he could only figure out his own way.

Fortunately, he heard the conversation between Han Xiaoya and Wang Yu today, otherwise he really didn't know where to start.

He will return to Guangcheng the day after tomorrow, and he will have a lot of things to deal with tomorrow, and he may have time to come back at that time, so he may have to go directly to the airport.

He only had this one night's chance, and it was sad to think about it.

Han Xiaoya thought of the content of his letter, and her ears were a little hot unconsciously.

Just like she said to Yue Wenqing, she was unwilling, and she had always been a little unwilling.

She didn't know whether she still liked Lu Minglei or not, she was only simple and unwilling to him.

When he left, the gift she gave him was indeed used for a moment, not for a gesture.

She couldn't help but sigh a little, she was not too old next year, and her heart seemed to be old.

She smiled self-deprecatingly and said, "Look." ”

Her voice was too calm, and her expression was too calm, so calm that Lu Minglei couldn't judge her mood and mentality at this time.

He took a tentative step: "That...... What do you think? ”

Actually ask her such a question?

Han Xiaoya really wanted to give him a slap: "I didn't think about anything." ”

Lu Minglei: What's the fire in the words "......"?

He was thinking quickly in his head, forget it, as long as he is not indifferent, it is always good!

"Xiaoya, can you give me another chance? Once upon a time...... It's all my fault. ”

The grievances he said were completely inconsistent with his usual style, and he had already taken another step forward as he spoke, and he was just two steps away from walking to her.

Han Xiaoya felt as if she had been waiting for this sentence, and when she heard him ask, she breathed a sigh of relief for no reason.

"How did I give you a chance?"

"It's this time that I'm chasing you, you can let me experience it all once, as long as you give me this chance."

Lu Minglei hurriedly expressed his determination, and after he finished speaking, he realized that what he said seemed to be a little messy.

Han Xiaoya sneered, lowered her eyes and didn't want to look at him again.

"So you know how excessive you were before?

"If you know, why are you embarrassed to stand in front of me and say this?

"Do you think that as long as you hook your fingers, I will immediately pounce on you like a pug?"

"No, no, I didn't think about it that way, I really didn't."

Han Xiaoya's questioning made Lu Minglei a little flustered, and he couldn't take care of the plans and routines he had prepared.

His heart was too chaotic, and he had completely begun to fail to speak.

"Xiaoya, you know that I am a soldier, and as a soldier, my life belongs to the country.

"I didn't dare to accept you before, it's not that you're bad, but you're too good, so good that I don't dare to accept you, I'm afraid...... One day I'm gone, and I'll delay you.

"You are such a good girl who doesn't deserve to live with me in fear.

"You should have a gentle and considerate person by your side who can always be there for you, who can always be by your side when you need him.

"I ...... I'm still in Guangcheng now, and I'm going back the day after tomorrow, and I'll be there for the next few years to build a new unit with Ji Fan.

"The time and frequency of time I can come back is too small, I can't take care of you when you're sick, and I can't take you home if you work overtime.

"During the New Year's holidays, there are people around you, and I may never be able to be by your side.

"As long as I think of this, I don't dare to delay you, and I am not willing to let you suffer with me."

Lu Minglei's voice was low and deep, and this was the second time he confided his true thoughts to others.

The first time was to Cao Yanhua, which made Cao Yanhua cry for a night, and then didn't urge him to marry.

It's just that at that time, he had a deliberate component, but this time he was really analyzing himself from the heart.

He took another step forward, squatted down on his knees, touched the back of Han Xiaoya's hand with his big hand, squeezed her hand tightly when she trembled slightly, and said softly.

"Do you want to despise me now? I say one thing and do another, thinking is completely different from doing?

"I also despise myself, knowing that with me, you will have a hard time, but I still regret it and want to hold you tightly.

"Xiaoya, will you give me another chance? I know that I don't have any advantage over Wang Yu, but I can swear by my epaulettes.

"From now on, my heart and life also belong to you, I will do everything I have to take care of you, love you, please rest assured that you will give yourself to me."

Let's go, let's go.

Tears fell from her eyes, and Han Xiaoya didn't know why so many tears were accumulating in her eyes.

In her heart, regret was intertwined with emotion, extremely complicated, and she couldn't say a word.

Lu Minglei raised his hand and gently wiped his tears on her face.

"I'm sorry, I didn't want to make you cry, I'm just ......"

He didn't know what else he could say again, and he was always afraid that if he continued to say it, Han Xiaoya would cry even more.

"Why didn't you tell me these words earlier?"

Even before he went to Guangcheng, as long as he clearly told her his concerns, she might be willing to wait for him to guard him.

"Man...... Sometimes there is also a bit of inexplicable self-esteem. ”

In his opinion, such a mentality of his is a sign of cowardice.

He doesn't want to be known, he hasn't been looking for a partner or getting married for this reason.

Han Xiaoya withdrew her hand and wiped her face.

"To tell you the truth, since the last time you refused me to go to Guangcheng, I allowed myself to let you go completely.

"What are you talking about now...... I don't know what to think, how to respond to you.

"I need to think again, you're right, you don't have time for me, I need to face everything on my own.

"I really don't have such a strong mentality, I can't be as good as Ye Zi, I need time to think clearly, and you should reconsider what is between you and me."