Chapter 207: Why Hurt Others and Hurt Yourself
One whistling with great interest on yellow-green blades of grass, the other chewing a long dog's tail with great interest, involuntarily went to the hibiscus tree on the road of the central elementary school that had always been close to each other.
The place where the moon was planted is still there, and there is still a long tuft of long-leaved grass in the middle of the grass with round leaves and red stems that looks like a green skirt, and it is also verdant and verdant in winter, and the color does not diminish at all.
The two of them looked at each other and smiled, and they squatted down in unison, pulling at the dense grass, as if looking for some treasure inside.
A gust of wind blew, and the two rows of hibiscus trees swayed gracefully and made some hoarse sounds.
Yun Feng's heart was like a calm lake, and the wind brought up waves in the sun. She remembered the morning at the end of August when she was admitted to college and was about to start, and he couldn't help but ask at the words he said to her:
"Why?"
"What, why?"
He didn't realize what she was asking.
"That morning, I rushed over early in the morning with great interest, wanting to tell you, uh, anyway, I just want to tell you something, and you told me those things like Li Lan'er talking about marriage."
Yun Feng talked about the scene of that day, and his heart still felt slightly painful.
"Oh, that time, that time, I was also forced to do so. Don't you understand? β
Li Yunfeng's heart was like a tilted kettle again, the hot water was flowing all over the ground, and the darkness that had been burning in his heart for a long time stabbed again.
"I, I, hey, don't say it."
Yun Feng originally wanted to say that he didn't understand, and let him give himself a good explanation, but when he saw that he was hurt from his face to his eyes, he couldn't bear it, so he stopped.
Li Yunfeng let out a long sigh, bit his lip and said:
"I haven't changed, I have never been, whether it's what I just told you about my thoughts about the countryside, or, still, what I think about our past, it's the same. It's just that I really have to do it. β
Li Yunfeng glanced at Yun Feng and lowered his head.
"Okay, okay, when I didn't ask. I didn't mean to mention these old things, but I just remembered what you said that morning, and I felt a little, uh, a little sad, and I couldn't help but ask, don't take it seriously. I thought it was all over. It would be better to say it. β
Yun Feng saw the almost pleading look in his eyes, and hurriedly waved his hand to explain.
"How is it old? Why is it all over? No, and it won't. β
Li Yunfeng unexpectedly raised his head to look at Yun Feng, and his tone increased with excitement.
"As I said, nothing has changed, it's all in my heart, it's never changed."
Li Yunfeng's firmness is not only in his pursuit of his life and career, but also in his inner emotions.
"But so what? Li Lan'er is about to give birth, I also have a boyfriend, and life is not on the same track at all. Why bother you like this? Hurt others and hurt yourself. β
Yun Feng suddenly became excited.
"I'm not talking about the form of life. It's the heart, is there anyone who understands the life feelings brought about by what we have experienced in the past?! β
Li Yunfeng's persistence and affirmation made Yun Feng reacquaint himself with him. She understands what he said.
She tried her best to calm herself down, and then, with a smile, said with relief:
"I know, I know what you're saying. It's not good for me, I know what you're thinking, and I have to bring up the old things again to affect everyone's mood. Let's not think about it anymore, that's all, it's good. It's good, isn't that exactly what you hoped for? β
"Well, yes. I'm sorry, but I probably didn't control my emotions just now. β
Li Yunfeng didn't expect that when he mentioned this, his mood would get out of control.
"It's okay, I got out of control first. I gave you a newlywed bunny, you know? β
Yun Feng changed the subject.
"Hmm. You say. β
Li Yunfeng answered, then stopped talking, and waited for Yun Feng to say.
"The white rabbit, look around. Clothes are not as good as new, and people are not as good as old. This is an ancient poem that I copied and sent to you when I was a freshman in high school, and what I wanted to express at that time was that no new face in high school was as good as the old man in my hometown. But you and Li Lan'er are married, that rabbit also expresses this poem, but the meaning is different, I hope that you and Li Lan'er will marry Qin and Jin, and from now on, no matter who you are, you can't compare to Li Lan'er, your wife. β
When Yun Feng said this, his mood finally calmed down.
No matter how Li Yunfeng can't let go of his affection for himself, but after all, he also has his own family happiness, just cherish it, and she herself also has Shanantong who loves each other, in her heart, in a certain position, there is a juvenile emotion that was once with Li Yunfeng, and now it has long surpassed the definition of love, and it is more like a relative-like true feeling, in the position of love, she can no longer let him go, but can only be Shanantong who is far away on the other side of the ocean.
Today's encounter with Li Yunfeng happened to solve this dark knot in my heart.
Li Yunfeng also understood Yun Feng's mind after hearing Yun Feng say this. It is true that the memory of feelings is incomparably precious, but people can never fully live in memory. What's more, he also has his own increasing responsibilities as a husband, a father, a brother, and various responsibilities to towns and villages? In his heart, he can only put the grass of the past, but he can no longer fully hold the current Yun Feng.
He felt even more indebted for his emotional loss of control just now, what he owed to Yun Feng and what he owed to Li Lan'er.
Yun Feng seemed to see his thoughts, and comforted him with some distress and said:
"Your choice back then was for my good, how can I blame you? Whatever you choose, to me, it's not wrong. You don't have to feel guilty. Nothing. I'm happy now. Therefore, I also hope that you can also be very happy, and even the people around you and around you can be happy because of this, from the heart. β
Yun Feng's sincerity and frankness finally calmed Li Yunfeng's ups and downs.
He finally recalled soberly and calmly that when he let go of Yun Feng and chose Li Lan'er, he hoped that Yun Feng could live according to her own way of life, and also regarded her as another self to live as he imagined. Now, indeed, why are you anxious and sad about it?
The two of them were silent for a while, and finally resolved the last knot in the hearts of these two people in the past on the Mu Furong school road where Yun Feng had been thinking about it for a long time and didn't dare to face it, and Li Yunfeng was about to come to watch and concentrate every now and thenβthey finally shook hands with each other and each other's lives in this place where they had broken up.
Although they can't communicate freely about their respective lives, at least they have a lot of relief in their hearts, and there is a lot less pain that arises when they see each other.