"The light passed away. The hustle and bustle slowly settled. All the glitz will fade into a hazy silhouette. Those things that have touched us deeply. It will be alive in the depths of our minds in its most rustic form. It will never leave. ”

。。 Zhong Liyu. Unspeakable thoughts

The sunset was yellow. I rode a horse. Passing by a rising creek. The grass next to the embankment is decaying. Behind. The lonely bird is the same color as the sky. A low hissing sound. It is finely intertwined with the water and light of Lake Lihua. Followed me all the way.

That's when I watched the dusk. There was a slight sadness in my heart. I can't help but think. Memories should be what kind of existence.

Some flowers and plants are planted at the foot of the hill of the South Bank Monastery. There are long vines. When I went, I saw that the flowers were blooming. Dense white flowers wind their way up the trunk. Light white dark green. The elegance of the fragrance and the rustic earthy fragrance are intertwined. The fragrance strikes. The things that pass away in life are like the fragrance of flowers. No matter how much it has invaded your heart. Trap your spleen. After all, you have to return it to the heavens and the earth with the breath of breath. I can't hold it anymore. The residual fragrant aftertaste lingers in the body. The breath is faint but everywhere. Stretches of long marks. Trivial and messy.

That's perhaps. It's just a memory.

The encounter was an accident. A girl who fell from the sky. Leap lightly into my arms. It's like a beautiful gift from heaven. Little by little, it melted into the depths of my life. Like a breeze infiltrating the bright water.

Every time I think of that scene. There seemed to be ripples in my heart. Lap after lap.

The sun sets fast. Sunset Pillow Mountain. Sleep soundly. Thin layers of red fell through the gaps in the leaves. The color fades more muted. There is a kind of crossing the stacked mountains. The vicissitudes of hoarseness.

I'm in an inn at the foot of the mountain. Stayed for one night.

The wizard of Lu Erya grinded the medicine made from the desert lotus into a pill the size of a grain of rice. The white color lingers in the hands. It's like a jade lotus waiting to bloom.

Tomorrow will go to the South Bank Temple. Accept a new life. From now on. Dust fetters in the past. They don't have anything to do with me anymore. This is the time. I want to miss her well.

I quietly traced her face in my mind. Jet-black hair spread over his shoulders. Stretch like satin. The eyes are pure black. It's like holding water. When turning, it has a brilliant luster. The nose is delicate and high. When you are angry, you wrinkle slightly when you are wronged. Teeth clenched into rosy lip flaps. The slightly lowered face and chin curvature are still too stubborn.

You shouldn't think about how aggrieved she looks. She cries at the thought of her. It will be sad. I just want to go back. I want to go back to the bamboo forest where we stayed. I want to make some jokes. Amuse her.

But I couldn't do it after all. I know thought I was dead. She's going to be uncomfortable. She's such an easily touched girl.

If I weren't so ill-fated. If I had a sound body. If I lived in a most ordinary family. So. I can hug her without any fears. Even if it's not me she likes. I still have self-confidence. Slowly change her mind.

The Wizard of the Road told me. The poisoner has been identified. It's my queen mother.

I wasn't very surprised at the time. I know the character of the queen mother very well. She is very stoic and persistent. I've heard. When my father was not yet the crown prince. The Queen Mother was already by his side. The queen mother was a brilliant person. tried his best to help his father ascend to the throne, but was kicked away by his father. But because she was pregnant with Liujia, she was approached to the palace. I was smart when I was a kid. My father was very fond of me. and made me prince. And the stepmother is more expensive than the son. Leap to become the mother of a country.

The wizard also said. That poison. Hidden inside the Ziluosu.

It is one of my favorite types of fish. The father deliberately introduced varieties from afar. At the expense of huge financial resources, a pond suitable for the growth of Ziluoshu was dug in Xuanyin. There is a lot of precious bait in it.

Actually, it has always been. I have a vague sense of it. The queen mother is a very powerful person. For her. I'm not without doubts. I just hope I can trust her. She's my mother, after all. I am her son.

But the truth shattered all my illusions.

What more can I say. She wanted my body to be weak. After her father was 100 years old, she would be able to take complete control of the country. She's so sure. She lived longer than her father. She was able to do it to her father. Not to mention my by-product.

Yes. She confessed it to me herself. When I told her I was going to die.

She said. She just wanted to make my physique worse. I didn't think about it. I want my life.

I know she's not going to kill me yet. My life is in danger. It's because I used to force my arms.

In the Chunsheng Pavilion of Shangsheng. I've always lived a simple and contented life. Because there. I won't eat the fish of the palace. The toxins in my body have not spread. But as soon as you enter the palace. There will always be a whisker in the big and small dishes. And I never get tired of it.

In the emperor's house. I really shouldn't have a hobby.

The Queen Mother said. When her father ruthlessly abandoned her. She has completely died to her father. She once gave him a great youth. Her stratagem. her body. All she can give.

In exchange for such an ending.

She thinks. Only by taking everything into your own hands. So that no one can hurt themselves.

I could barely blame her. He could only give her a strange expression. I guess the word quirky. The best way to describe our mother and son.

She saw me laughing. Suddenly I cried. She reached out to hug me. I dodged. The tone was cold: "Take care of the queen." ”

Then I left the palace with my head held high. No matter how much she cried behind her. How to shout loudly, "Yu'er's mother regrets it." The queen mother shouldn't have designed you. You're back."

I don't know whether to cry or laugh. Went a long way. When I passed by the foot of a mountain, I saw a lake.

Life is like this lake. People want to have a peaceful and undisturbed life. But there will always be a mountain wind around. Occasional sandy soil. Malicious gravel smashing. Turbid water is rippling. No more of the innocence of the first birth.

Even the suspended turbidity will settle little by little over time. The swaying waves of water can be smoothed out by the quiet time. The surface of the lake is like a mirror. There seems to be no waves. But those who have experienced pain will eventually understand. Accumulation of gravel blocks at the bottom of the lake. What a sharp presence to be reckoned with.

When sudden hardships in life are frequent. Huge pebbles cross the tranquil surface of the lake to the bottom of the lake. The lake is so big. Bitterness occupies the lakebed. There will be a clear lake overflowing.

I slept for a long time. Until the next day. The sun rose intensely.

Note: The quotation marks are original.