No matter how well the grass is at school, she always has to go home to face the strictness of her parents.

When I got home from school, the grass turned back into the grass, timid as a mouse, and everything was like walking on thin ice. Sighing!

At night, as usual, you have to imagine your ideal home before you can fall asleep.

Under Cao'er's strong desire to organize a new home by herself, Cao'er has undergone some subtle changes in her emotions after she is promoted to the fourth grade, and the new home she fantasizes about at night begins to have a clearer and clearer face of the hero.

Cao'er changed a homeroom teacher when she was in the fourth grade, and this homeroom teacher was also a tall male teacher, surnamed Zheng, he ordered a boy named Zheng Xingxing to be the head of the class, Cao'er to be the deputy head of the class, and let his two right-hand men share the same table.

Cao'er didn't think it was anything special at first, but every time she was called by Teacher Zheng to help change the multiple-choice questions, Zheng Xingxing was also there.

Mr. Zheng also likes his two students very much, and both of them have good grades. Mathematics and Chinese are all above 95 points without exception, especially Cao'er's compositions, which are often full marks, and Zheng Xingxing usually only deducts one or two points.

Slowly, Cao'er found that her tablemate Zheng Xingxing looked very similar to Jia Baoyu in the TV series "Dream of Red Mansions" she watched when she was a child. With a round face, big round eyes, a big red cherry mouth, fine white skin, good grades, and a good personality, I couldn't help but start paying attention to him.

Speaking of which, the grass develops late and matures late, which is particularly simple.

When she was five years old, she had seen a nude statue of David in her little aunt Yunxiu's art textbook, but she didn't feel special or surprised at all, it was just a man's body, that is, the person who came out with all the tools that her grandmother said. However, she seems to be aware of the strength and symmetry of the muscles and movements of the statues in the painting, and often turns them out.

Of course, she also likes the image of the beauty in it, but when she encounters the image of a beauty, she always likes to compare herself, and she feels like it and discouraged. I like it because it's beautiful, and I'm discouraged because I always feel that I'm not as beautiful as the portrait. It's very relaxing and pleasant to look at the man's body sculpture, because there is no discouragement after comparing with himself.

Therefore, for the two different genders of men and women, in Cao'er's heart, it is just the difference in the existence of images, and I don't think much about it. When I was in the second grade of my hometown village elementary school, the boys in the class once gossiped about the boys and girls in the class, but Cao'er laughed it off and ignored it at all.

When the girl is playing, the boy comes to make trouble, and she can't think of any other reason, everyone sees that she is young, and she really doesn't understand anything, so she no longer mentions anything related to boys and girls in front of her.

The marriage incident encountered at home is also an adult's business, and for Cao'er, it is just a fresh and lively thing, and she won't go to her heart at all.

If it weren't for the fact that she suddenly left her grandmother's side and followed her strict parents, and the transition from sensual spoiling to rational discipline did not turn well, leaving a gap in her heart, and she gave birth to fantasies to make up for it, she would not have thought that the organization of a family must require both men and women, and would not have given birth to her deep sleeping feelings.

In this way, Cao'er began to gradually pay attention to the boy next to her who looked in line with her aesthetics, and began to want to get closer to him. And this boy began to quietly become the hero of the fantasy ideal home in Cao'er's heart.

It's just that the heroes and heroines in the fantasy are just living some warm and humble lives in ordinary days of loving each other, and there is no love between adult men and women.

Although it's just a simple liking, the grass is still shy in the end. She liked Zheng Xingxing more in her heart, but she never thought to tell him.

After all, in the strict school spirit environment at that time, who would dare to openly say that there was a liking between boys and girls?

If the students knew, they would definitely make fun of them.

If it was known to the parents, it would be a great deal. She didn't dare take that risk.

But in any case, the little grass finally began to have sustenance in her heart, and she loved Zheng Xingxing more at the same table.

But Zheng Xingxing seems to be only as good as his classmates, and he is not as special as Cao'er is to him.

Cao'er's heart is extremely keen, her liking for Zheng Xingxing, and Zheng Xingxing's lack of liking for herself, she all intuitively intuitions in her heart.

As a result, although this is still a child's imitative preference, it still brings insecurity to the sensitive grass.

This kind of insecurity of treating others as oneself but worrying that he is not what he thinks, is like a small boat sailing in the narrow mountains and rivers, swaying left and right to control Cao'er's emotions in the face of Zheng Xingxing, and it is also a happy and sad heart, swaying from side to side so that Cao'er worries every day.

It's just that this kind of worry, for the lonely grass in her heart, is a slightly sweet, sour, and some green and astringent green fruit, which has opened the door in her heart that has not yet been opened.

From then on, she smelled the love between men and women, and under the strict control of her parents, the green fruit, with the fragrance of life, glowed with strange colors in the morning dew of the grass life.

In fact, Cao Er is not ignorant of all kinds of things between adult men and women, she has already read them in family magazines subscribed to by her parents, and even read in articles about how to relieve the pain after men and women. But she read it carefully, flipped through the article and read the next one, and felt that this was just a health problem for adults, and the purpose of her understanding was just to increase some health knowledge, nothing more.

Cao'er's heart, for her yearning for the love of men and women, is as clear as a crystal without impurities, crystal clear.

This is also when there are classmates around who are secretly discussing which girl seduces which male teacher and so on, Cao'er is not concerned about whether the matter between the girl and the male teacher is really true, but how the girl looks, whether she is beautiful or not, and what her temperament is.

In her opinion, how could teachers and students do such things? This is completely unreasonable, it must be a good thing for girls to laugh about.

Even if she herself secretly admires a certain teacher in her heart, such as the male teacher who just graduated from the middle school teacher who shouts every day, smiling all day long, looking very pleasing to the eye, and looking elegant and slightly chic, she likes her very much.

Every time, she had to stand in the hallway of her house, leaning on the balcony and watching her male god teacher come and go in the playground and open space. But so what? She had never thought of what else she could have, or needed, other than such a spiritual liking, and that was enough.

Moreover, she also likes two other male teachers with different styles but equally handsome at the same time, so there is no problem, right?

Therefore, Cao'er laughed at the things of these men and women discussed among the girls around her, didn't care, and forgot after hearing it, but when she saw the heroine who was discussed, she couldn't help but look at it twice to see how she became the heroine in this discussion.

When she saw the male teacher who was being discussed, she never had any bad feelings, and smiled as if she had never heard of it.

Cao'er's love for Zheng Xingxing can be regarded as the love between men and women, but it is completely different from the real love between men and women of adults.

The green fruit that grows in the heart of the grass about the love between men and women is so pure that it only has the fragrance of the tree, and there is no smell of all kinds of fertilizer in the soil.

If the love between adult men and women, no matter how pure it is at the beginning, it will inevitably fall into the soil in the end and be dyed with the fireworks of life. And Cao'er's heart for Zheng Xingxing's men and women is the smoke and clouds condensed on the distant mountains after the rain, and the smoke and clouds that do not know the fireworks in the world are condensed, and finally do not fall into the world of Vientiane, but with the change of smoke and rain, they dissolve between the pure water and spring scenery.