Chapter 209: Qi Array's Self-Statement
When Qi Jin stopped, Nan He's attention was still immersed in that picture.
She had never seen Qi Zhen like that, and when he stayed with her, he was always cautious, although he occasionally showed displeasure, but most of the time, he hid his emotions well.
The only time Nan He had seen him lose his temper was at the bottom of the Wufu Cliff, when he told her about Qingmo.
At that time, he vented all his grievances and dissatisfaction to her, as well as his strong feelings of longing, but even then, he just stood there, looking at her with those eyes that contained many emotions, and he didn't burst into tears like in the picture, crying out of breath, and didn't pull her.
All along, no matter what she did, he never stopped her, and he never touched her heart, he was very good to her, no matter what the reason was, this cannot be denied.
Therefore, Nan He now feels a little guilty about him, he always takes advantage of his kindness to her, makes him do this and that, and always hurts him, no matter how she says it, it's her fault.
Nan He's attention at this time had slowly withdrawn, she didn't think about it anymore, and she didn't think about why she saw Qi Zhen from a clear and silent perspective, she only had one thought in her heart now, which was to say sorry to Qi Zhen.
She owes him a debt, and she doesn't want to go.
But when she came back to her senses, she saw Qi Zhen staring at her, those beautiful eyes and the tails of her eyes were red, I don't know if it was because she had drunk wine or for some other reason.
Seeing that she finally looked at herself, Qi Zhen suddenly raised her hand and sent the jar of wine in her hand to her.
"Drinking?"
He asked with a smile as she looked down and landed on the jar of wine.
At this time, although Qi Zhen had a smile on his face, he was not happy, not at all.
Nan He could feel his unhappiness, but she didn't say anything, just shook her head at him.
If she had been in the past, she might have taken the jar and had a few sips with him, but now apart from the fact that it was not appropriate for the two of them to be alone, there was also the fact that she did not have that idea now, and she did not want to drink at all.
Therefore, she rejected him directly.
Because of her refusal, the smile on Qi Zhen's face that could have been forcibly pulled out couldn't be pulled out, his eyes drooped, he glanced at the jar of wine in his hand, then took a few steps back, sat directly on the ground, picked up the jar and drank it with his head up.
Seeing him like this, Nan He was a little at a loss, she stood there, not knowing what she should do for a while.
was entangled, and Qi Zhan's voice sounded again.
"You did it on purpose." The voice was resentful, and there was some grievance.
"Huh?" Nan He looked at him suspiciously, not knowing if he specifically meant that she didn't drink his wine, or if he was referring to the words he had said in front of him before.
Qi Zhen frowned when he saw her, looking like he didn't know anything, and his eyes turned red instantly.
"You just did it on purpose!" He repeated it again, and his emotions were much more excited.
Nan He was a little helpless about this, but she didn't show it, she just looked at Qi Zhen and scattered her frowning brows by the way.
She already understood what Qi Zhen was referring to.
After he calmed down a little, she walked over and squatted down in front of him: "Qi Zhen, I'm sorry." ”
She apologized to him earnestly.
It may not help, but it's better than saying nothing.
After she said this, Qi Zhen was stunned for a moment, and then raised his eyes to look at her, his eyes full of complaints: "What I do to you is my business, if I can, I don't want you to have any burden because of this, but there is no such possibility, because you are Qingmo, it is Qingmo that I have been looking forward to seeing you for so long, in order to see you again, how can I do nothing!" ”
As he spoke, he lowered his head: "I know you don't think you are Qingmo, but the facts I believe are like that, no matter what, you are my Amer, in fact, I don't have so many extravagant hopes now." ”
After experiencing Qingmo's death, he figured out a lot.
If Qing Mo hadn't been implicated with him at the beginning, she would have been promoted to an immortal and gone to the immortal realm, but because of him, her years of cultivation were ruined, and she lost her life because of it.
So when he left the last trace of her soul behind, he completely figured it out.
The feelings in this world do not have to be together.
He thought that as long as Qingmo was fine, he could no longer appear in her life.
But.
The premise is that she can get back to normal.
"I don't want to be with you all the time, I just want you to return to the way you were before, remember the past, even if you don't remember who I am in the end, it doesn't matter, I just want you to remember that you are Qingmo, Qingmo who has survived the catastrophe and can soar."
"Then, whether you choose to go to the immortal realm to be your immortal, or stay in Yangxu Palace to be your immortal chief, I will not disturb your life anymore. But you haven't recovered, and I'm going to have to show up with you and disrupt your life right now. ”
Qi Zhen lowered his head even lower, and his tone was full of guilt: "Actually, I don't want to do this, but I can't help it, if you don't recover one day, I'll worry about one day, I'm afraid that you won't be happy, I'm afraid that you'll have a bad life, and I'm even more afraid that you will be hurt, so I appeared by your side." ”
At first, it was as a return to the cloud.
When he saw that she had been suffering from poison, he came forward to give her the elixir of life, and then when he knew that she wanted to leave, he came forward to help her.
Later, he used the identity of Lan He again.
accompanied her into Yangxu Palace, accompanied her through the test, although she was directly accepted by Wei Yuanzi, which he didn't expect, but he thought that she would stay anyway, as long as she followed Wei Yuanzi to cultivate well in the future, after having cultivation, she would be able to help herself recover, who would have thought, in the end, she was driven out by Wei Yuanzi.
At that time, she still didn't know anything, so he had to reappear and save her when Di He attacked her.
When he rescued her, he still didn't use his identity, nor did he plan to use his identity, he just wanted to be by her side and watch her grow up little by little, and then he could protect himself, and then when she slowly recovered, he would leave.
But the unexpected happened at that time.
During the period when she was recuperating from her injuries, he couldn't control his identity to her, and then after that, he couldn't hold back his thoughts anymore, he wanted to be close to her, he wanted to be by her side, he wanted to be with her for a long time.
Even if he knew that as soon as this idea came out, all the efforts he had made before would be in vain, but he still couldn't help it.
Later, after she recovered from her injuries, he simply had the idea of taking her to the places they had been before and helping her recover her memory, so he told her to take her out to play, and after she responded, he took her to Soul Mountain.
"At that time, I didn't expect that my decision would be so wrong, if I knew at that time, I would definitely not take you to Soul Mountain, and I would definitely not ......" Create an opportunity for you and Di He.
As for the unfinished half of the sentence, he stopped between his lips and teeth, and then swallowed it back into his stomach.
"Ah ......" He hesitated, not calling out the sentence Ah Mo, "Ah He, you shouldn't be like that, you just did it on purpose, right?" I know you did it on purpose, you did it to make me completely dead and cut off my thoughts about you, right? ”
After going around in circles, the topic finally returned to the beginning.
Nan He knew that Qi Zhen would say so many words because she was stimulated by what she did, so when she heard him turn the topic back again, she just squatted quietly in front of him and looked at him, without saying a word.
At this time, Qi Zhen hoped that she could speak, but she didn't.
The current Nan He is indescribably cruel to Qi Zhen.
But even then, Qi Zhen knew that when the day passed, he would still follow her as usual, accompany her, watch her, and willingly obey her.
No matter what she thought, he still maintained his previous attitude.
Until she recovers, until she becomes silent.
Nan He didn't mean to comfort him at this time, after all, at this time, especially when she heard him say so much and what he had thought in his heart for so many years, she couldn't tell him that she was really not as ruthless as Qingmo.
Moreover.
She had recently begun to dream and suddenly see his past with Qingmo.
Even though she was still affirming that she was just Nan He, she still had strange thoughts in her heart.
She didn't know what was wrong with her, but she didn't want to know.
After squatting for a while, she felt her feet go numb, so she stood up.
Feeling that the person in front of him had moved, Qi Zhen didn't raise his eyes, he still lowered his head, forcibly endured the emotions that erupted against her, and tried his best to calm his mood.
Soon after she stood up, his voice began to sound again.
"Ah He, no matter what you think, my heart is like that, it will not change."
"Even if you say something like that to Di He in front of me, even if the two of you have reconciled now, I will not give up that thought in my heart, let alone leave you."
He told her his attitude.
After he said this, he finally raised his head.
He looked at Nan He, who was looking down at him not far in front of him, and opened his mouth at him, revealing a mouthful of white teeth: "Ah He, I will not leave you, never." ”
He smiled brightly, but in Nan He's opinion, he felt extremely calm, and because of the cold at night, she couldn't help but shiver directly.
Noticing her appearance, the smile on Qi's face froze, and then returned to normal again.
For what he said just now, she still had something to say, and for his two sentences at this time, Nan He didn't know what to say at all.
She wanted to tell him that nothing would change even if he followed her, but before the words could be spoken, he got up from the ground and walked up to her with the jar of wine.
Nan He subconsciously took a step back, and couldn't help frowning for a while, and there was some wariness in his eyes.
Because of her action, the light that had just lit up in Qi Zhen's eyes turned dark again, and he stopped one step away from her.
"Drinking?" He brought the jar of wine to her, as he had asked her at the beginning.
At this time, Qi Zhen's face was expressionless, so that she couldn't see the slightest emotion.
Nan He hesitated for a moment, then reached out and took the jar of wine.
The wine jar was no longer as heavy as it used to be, after all, he had already drunk most of it with his head up.
Seeing her take the wine, Qi Zhen suddenly let out a sigh, and then a smile appeared in his eyes.
Nan He didn't pay any more attention to him, she looked down at the wine in her eyes, and then brought it to her mouth and tasted it.
When she raised her hand to bring the wine jar to her mouth, Qi Zhen's afterglow noticed that she was holding this thing in her hand, so he turned his gaze to her hand.
It was a headband, a man's headband.
Something suddenly flashed in his mind, he raised his eyes to look at Nan He, and then took the hairband in her hand while she put down the wine jar.
"Ahem, cough, cough—" Nan He bent over and coughed strongly, she put the wine jar directly on the ground, her eyes full of disgust.
Although she has not drunk much wine, she has never drunk such a bad wine, even if it is not fragrant, it is still bitter, and the degree of bitterness can be compared to Coptis chinensis.
Seeing that she suddenly bent over and coughed, Qi Zhen didn't bother to look at the hairband that he got in his hand, and hurriedly reached out and patted her on the back.
When she finally recovered, he withdrew his hand.
"What kind of wine are you? How is it bitter!? Nan He wiped his mouth and looked up at him.
At this time, she didn't think about what Qi Zhen said at all, and Qi Zhen didn't pay attention to them anymore, and the two became the previous mode of getting along again.
"I don't know what kind of wine it is, the snake demon in the inn gave it to me." Qi Zhen picked up the jar of wine that she had put on the ground at will, and then under Nan He's gaze, she brought it to her lips and raised her head to drink a few sips, "Although it is bitter, it is quite distinctive, I can accept it." ”
Because his heart was bitter, and he wept more than he tasted it, he didn't care what happened to the wine.
Nan He is different from him, Nan He is now in sweetness, how can he suffer.
Thinking of this, he couldn't help but smile bitterly, and then brought the jar of bitter wine to his mouth and drank a few sips.
Nan He didn't realize who it was when she heard him talk about the snake demon at first, but after she thought for a while, she realized that he was talking about the innkeeper lady.
When her appearance appeared in her mind, for some reason she thought of Qi Zhen and her lying on the counter and laughing before, and when she came back to her senses, she had already opened her mouth to talk to Qi Zhen.
"You're very familiar with that boss lady!"
For some reason, there was still a sour feeling in his tone.
Qi Zhen was stunned when he heard this, and his eyes were full of surprise when he looked at Nan He.
When Nan He finally realized what he had just said, with the sound of the wine jar falling to the ground and shattering, Qi Zhen had already stepped forward and pulled her into his arms.
Nan He was frightened by his sudden move, and forgot to resist for a while, and then she heard Qi Zhen say in her ear, "You remembered, right?" You remember the past between us, don't you? ”
Qi Zhen hugged her in excitedly, and even trembled.
The moment she came back to her senses, Nan He didn't struggle, after all, she knew that with Qi Zhen's current state, even if she struggled, it was useless, and the disparity in strength was huge, and she couldn't struggle at all.
"Let it go." She spoke to him calmly.
This tone directly reminded her of the silent tone she saw in the picture when she was dragged here by him.
Qi Zhen obviously remembered what happened at that time.
Nan He visibly felt his body stiffen.
Taking advantage of this, she broke away from his arms directly.
When Qi Zhen came back to his senses, the temperature in his arms had gradually cooled down, and the person who was originally held in his arms was standing at the arm's length away from him at this time, looking at him expressionlessly.
Qi Zhen looked at her face, and he still repeated the sentence in his mouth.
You remembered, didn't you!?
The tone of Nan He Fang's words with him was completely consistent with Qing Mo's previous tone, plus what she said later, Qi Zhen couldn't control himself at all, he directly thought of this possibility, and only this possibility.
Otherwise, how could Nan He say such a thing to him in that tone.
Qi Zhen's whole body trembled, he resisted the urge to step forward again, looked at her and urged: "You answer me, you answer me, do you think of us......"
Nan He shook his head directly at him: "You're too worried." Just like you said before, I still insist that I am Nanhe, and it is not your so-called Qingmo, and it cannot be Qingmo. ”
Nan Ho lied.
She didn't tell him the truth, because she knew that once she told the truth, there was no room for undo.
Only if she refuses to admit it and completely breaks his thoughts, can he accept the fact that Qingmo has disappeared, instead of continuing to treat her as Qingmo.
Even if she saw the past of Qi Zhen and Qing Mo, and even saw some from Qing Mo's point of view, she still thought that she was just Nan He, and there was no doubt about this.
On this matter, Nan He will not take half a step back, after all, she has really experienced the past, she is Nan He, Nan Mu's sister who desperately protects, the little niece brought by Bi Youhuai from the late river, Nan He who has traveled a lot with Di He and has experienced a lot of things.
She's not silent, and never will be.
Qi Zhen's eyes were already full of suspicion when he looked at her at this time, but her current attitude was not flawed at all, even if he didn't want to believe it, he had to believe it.