Chapter 12: Despair and Fear

(Foreword)

People often die not because of circumstances, because of illness, because of irresistible fate,

It's because of the heart that wants to escape in the face of despair and fear.

(Text)

June 17, 2050 at 16:45 p.m

I looked at the small piece of fish on the plate and sighed deeply. Although due to Zhou Qiuxian's diligent fishing on weekdays, we still have some reserves, so we won't starve to death immediately, but with such a small number of reserves, plus we have six more people who need to eat, I'm afraid we can only resist for a while, and it can't really let us all live.

"Oh no, Zhou Qiuxian, Zhou Qiuxian is gone!" Arthur ran to the center of the living room in terror, sweating profusely, and shouted at us.

We all looked at Arthur, and Yu Bo stood up, his hands on his hips, his brows furrowed on the ground, and said to us, "We can't lose our partner anymore, let's go find her together!" ”

We nodded together and walked after Yu Bo towards the shore. When we walked along the coastline to the place where we first landed, we saw Zhou Qiuxian alone cutting down a big tree with an axe. Her hands were covered in wounds, red from the blood that had flowed out, and the shoes on her feet were tattered, soaked in mud and grinding into a large hole.

"How did you come to this place alone?" Yu Bo walked towards Zhou Qiuxian and shouted at her against the sea breeze.

Zhou Qiuxian turned around, her expression was extremely excited, she kept waving her hand towards Yu Bo, and also yelled at Yu Bo: "Let me go!" I'm going to leave this place, I don't want to be like you, I'm just going to stay here and die, I don't want to die! Even if it's just me, I'm going to live! ”

"You're fooling around! Rushing to sea is a dead end! Yu Bo roared red-faced and panting.

Wu Han glanced at him disdainfully, with a look of disdain, and then Zhou Qiuxian's words, refuted Yu Bodao: "Cut~ Then we are here now, aren't we just waiting for death?" Anyway, we might as well go to the sea and fight for it, maybe we can escape from this island and find a new way out. ”

Wu Han's words resonated with everyone, and they looked at Yu Bo together, their eyes full of dissatisfaction and anger.

Yu Bo was silent for a moment and looked at everyone.

"I know that I alone can't change your minds, but at least let me choose which day to go to sea, so that it can be safer......" When Yu Bo said this, he was like an abandoned dog, his eyes were full of helplessness and loss.

We looked at Yu Bo, agreed to his request, and made a final concession, and then Wu Han walked towards Zhou Qiuxian, snatched the axe from her hand and held it in the palm of his hand. Zhou Qiuxian sat on the ground and cried vigorously. I don't know if she wept for joy at last to be able to go out to sea, or for fear and sorrow at the raging sea, but she cried, like a child.

June 20, 2050 at 11:50 a.m

Under our division of labor in the past few days, a small wooden boat was quickly built, and after yesterday, there was finally no food left.

The six of us were facing the sea, and the sea breeze was blowing in our faces, and it brought fear as well as hope.

It's our last straw, but it's also a scythe in the hands of death.

Arthur stood next to me, her hands trembling, I took her hand, smiled at her face, and comforted her, "Don't be afraid, I'm still here." ”

Arthur smiled, the same catchy smile I had on the first day I saw her.

I didn't understand what she was thinking - she was the one who told me that only I could find "The X", but she was also the one who was in favor of going to sea. If we could really get out of the island, then why did Yin Ji and her insist on me looking for "The X"? I don't understand.

And the only thing I know now, and the only thing I can understand, is to wait and go to sea. Since we have all chosen the latter, this dangerous choice, we can only bear the responsibility and the consequences that we have shouldered.

June 20, 2050 at 12 noon sharp

Yu Bo looked at the watch in his hand, and then at the vast sky and the blue oceanβ€”the sea was calm, there was no wind and no rain. It didn't look dangerous.

"Let's go!"

Yu Bo gave the command, and the five of us stood on both sides of the small wooden boat, pulled the edge of the wooden boat and dragged it into the sea, and then stepped in one by one, grabbed the paddle on the wooden boat, and rowed towards the center of the sea little by little......

Zhou Qiuxian, holding the pulp while praying, waved it carefully, sometimes closing her eyes, sometimes opening and nervously looking around her surroundings.

Xiaoyu looked around and buried her head in Arthur's arms, trembling incessantly and making a "whine" sound.

Yu Bo sat at the bow of the boat, while Wu Han and I sat in the middle of the boat, and the three of us faced the sea, observing its movements from three directions.

This sea seems to be quiet, but there is an undercurrent surging under the waves.

Just below the ship, which we could not see, it quietly rolled up a whirlpool and spread out at a very rapid speed.

The boat kept shaking, shaking our hands holding the oars.

When the clouds suddenly obscured the sun, when the sky suddenly became gloomy, when the sea rolled up the waves, we looked around with a look of great fear.

"What to do, what to do? I don't want to die here, I don't want to die here! Zhou Qiuxian grabbed her face with both hands, only looking at everything in front of her from the slit, her head was sweating, her eyes were enlarged countless times, she stood up tremblingly, and she collapsed on the boat with a "bang", whimpering in a low voice.

Arthur immediately helped Zhou Qiuxian up with both hands, but Xiaoyu cried "woo~woo~". Arthur also wanted to cry, and Arthur was extremely afraid, but in the face of the two people beside her, she had to play the role of protector, leaning their heads tightly on her shoulders and soothing their backs.

At such moments, the calmest person besides me is Yu Bo. I don't know why, I should have lost my mind like them in this situation, but I was so calm. Even if the waves were so swift and the waters were so rapid, somewhere in my heart it was as if I had known the end, and I didn't think it would kill us, and we would live after this catastrophe.

Yu Bo looked around for a moment, and suddenly shouted at us: "Row, row!" Let's paddle together! Paddle in the direction of the island! We've only just been out to sea, and now it's our only hope to go back! ”

They were shouted by Yu Bo, and they all picked up the pulp, hurriedly turned their heads, and rowed back desperately in the direction of the island. However, driving in the opposite direction was slow and difficult, and our speed was not at all as fast as the waves hit, and in the blink of an eye, a fierce wave hit and drenched all of our bodies.

Zhou Qiuxian suddenly looked at Xiaoyu, and evil flames appeared in her eyes. I saw her stretch out her hand, push her down with a "bang", and shouted frantically: "Go down!" Go down to you! This way the boat will be lighter so we can row faster!"

"Are you crazy?! She's a human life! Arthur grabbed Zhou Qiuxian's clothes and raised his hand to hit her in the face. Zhou Qiuxian laughed maniacally and laughed at Arthur: "Hahahaha~~ She's a burden!" She can't paddle at all, staying here will only add weight to the boat, and it will only kill us! ”

"You madman!" Arthur slapped Zhou Qiuxian in the face, Zhou Qiuxian looked at Arthur with a disgusting expression, and said coldly: "Don't pretend to be high, I just did something that you all want to do but don't dare to do!"

I, not caring to listen to their arguments, quickly took off my coat and jumped into the water with a "poof".

"Char! Char! ”

Arthur was desperately calling my name on the boat, but the great tide could not allow them to wait any longer.

Maybe I didn't believe I was going to die, maybe I couldn't just watch the rain fall towards the deep sea.

I, swimming, swimming, desperately, stretched out my hand in the direction of the light rain. But her body kept falling, and I reached out several times but couldn't reach it. After she let out a final breath, my vision began to blur, but I struggled forward, finally grabbed her left hand, took her in my arms, and dragged her body forward......

I don't know what sustains me, maybe it's my belief that I won't die, maybe it's the heart I want to save her, but in the end, at the end when I see that glimmer of light, I still fall, I fall on the shore, I fall into the hope of life.

My heart once told me that we would not die in the sea. Yes, indeed, none of us died in the sea. However, when I opened my eyes, Xiaoyu was still lying cold beside me, not moving, like a puppet, with no expression and no breathing.

"Light rain, light rain!" I picked her up and leaned into my arms, sobbing sadly as I stroked her head. At that moment, a trace of blood flowed from the corner of her mouth, and I felt something suspicious, so I took a closer look at herβ€”I found a thin strangulation mark on her neck, and the short whistle she had carried with her was gone.

This...... What is it?

I, looking at my neck, the whistle was hanging on my neck!

I stood up in horror, panting and clutching my chest, my eyes bulging.

"Calm down, calm down...... Use reason to analyze the whole thing. I said to myself, slowly calming down.

I looked at my hands, and then at the strangulation marks on Xiaoyu's neck - deep on the left and shallow on the right. I couldn't have strangled it, because I didn't have such a slender tool, and I wasn't used to my left hand.

Then the possibility of my murder is ruled out, and there is only one thing left: that is, she tied the whistle around her neck to my neck, and then ran into the murderer and was killed. In this way, the logic makes sense, but she is like this, she is so weak, who wants to kill her? Who stretched out these vicious hands......

I don't know. All I know is that the murderer is among the five of us who are left, because there is no one else on this island but us.

They ran over to me. Arthur looked at the cold light rain lying next to me, silently lowered his head, and sobbed alone. Yu Bo took off his clothes, covered it on Xiaoyu's body, sighed deeply, and then walked in front of Zhou Qiuxian and slapped her in the face with a "snap": "I, Yu Bo, have never beaten a woman in my life, and you are the first one I hit!" ”

Zhou Qiuxian was blindsided on the spot, she touched her face, slumped on the ground, and stared blankly at Xiaoyu's corpse.

We looked at it, at the sea that swallowed everything. Perhaps it is only now that we truly understand fear, and it is only now that we feel hopeless for the first time.

I followed them, carrying Xiaoyu's corpse on my back, and walked towards the hut step by step.

All the fish on the seashore are dead, all the animals in the forest are dead, and in the end we are the only ones alive, and we will die eventually. Just like the group of fish that crashed into the reef, their heads broke and they bled and died in this sea.