I can finally go and spend time with her.

The wall is formed, my Bi'er.

The person on the tip of my heart that I can never forget.

When we met at that time, it was many years ago.

I'd rather that we didn't grow up with each other, and that each other would always be just children who only knew how to play and have fun at home, rather than the regret of not being able to stay by my side with all the glory of being like now.

No, I'm not worthy either.

is not worthy of being the person on the tip of her heart.

Once upon a time, I was like countless idle and rich sons in the capital, with my favorite things, playing the piano, reading poetry, and painting.

Thinking of the Yiren in the dream, under the flowers of the trees, they counted their hopes and thoughts for each other. Or sometimes I imagine my life after that.

All I want is wealth and happiness, and the years are quiet.

It's just that you were born in a two-level house, where you can really do what you want.

Sometimes, it's not even as happy as a commoner's home. At least the civilians can make their own decisions.

The so-called family glory, the so-called thousands of burdens, are just heavy shackles, which weigh us down.

Then, they drifted away from each other.

I still remember what she looked like before she entered the palace.

"Brother Wei, from now on, I will be the crown princess of the East Palace. We...... I'm afraid I won't see it anymore. ”

On that day, she was wearing a red robe, embroidered with a picture of golden lotuses and mandarin ducks all over the ground, just like her appearance, which was as gorgeous and bright as her appearance, and the most full of style.

For me, it seemed to be more like a puddle of blood in my heart, the most stinging.

Red, mandarin ducks, is clearly a symbol of the beautiful situation of love and harmony between husband and wife, but that beauty does not belong to me after all.

From now on, she can only be the wife of another person, and she will even become the queen of the world in the future.

And I will be the one who surrenders at her feet and respectfully worships and prays.

Actually, that's good.

She will become the most noble woman of the dynasty, dominate the harem, give birth to children for the emperor, and after the future of a country, her mother's etiquette will become a rich stroke in the annals of history.

And I, perhaps, was destined not to be with her.

As a Kansai nobleman, there are too many things to carry since childhood. And I myself feel that in the future, I can only become the head of the family, lead the people of Kansai, expand the glory and authority of our Kansai to the extreme, and become the most prosperous family that will influence future generations for thousands of years in the future history scribes.

Those little loves, don't mention it.

There's always something more important.

And she, in the final analysis, is just a woman, even if she loves her bones, she can't match a little glory and wealth in the family.

That's what my father taught me, and that's what I told myself.

Concentrating on the career and becoming a hero worthy of enjoying the Taimiao, and shining for a thousand years is what my Kansai boy should do.

After all, the warmth and beauty of the past can only be the past and the past, which is only suitable for occasional memories in the dead of night, and cannot become something that I will never forget.

That's what I thought.

It was only after many years that I realized I couldn't.

I heard that she had a very good life in the East Palace, and the prince was devoted to her, and he never accepted any concubines and concubines.

Then everything went smoothly, the crown prince ascended the throne, the emperor and queen were on the throne, and the good story of the deep love between the emperor and the queen continued, becoming the appearance of love that thousands of people are looking forward to.

As a result, the entire Liu family has become extremely wealthy.

And I also took my father's place, and even sat in a more prosperous position than my father back then. The power of the Qi clan has become a height that every household has not been able to reach for decades.

But, that person, after all, I can't forget it.

At first, he just entered the palace to pay homage to the queen of the middle palace during the festival season of the ministers, but from a distance, he saw that his eyes were full of melancholy and closed.

It should be the eyes of the galaxy, but now I can only glimpse a little loneliness and loss from it.

It's clearly not what she should be.

Isn't she having a good time?

"I have never forgotten you for a day, even if Your Majesty is so good to me, but I have no way to accept Your Majesty's kindness with peace of mind. I...... I can't forget you, and to this day, I miss you all the time. ”

Who would have thought that through the curtain, that person was sitting on the phoenix throne, but he said such words.

It's just that I don't know how to respond.

"...... Minister...... I'm sorry. ”

"Brother Wei, don't you have anything to say to me?"

"The Queen's Mother...... Please be cautious, if others know, the two of us will die. ”

I could hear the silent sobbing behind the curtain trying to hold back, and I was even more sorry. But he couldn't step forward, he could only touch the ground with his head, "If the queen has nothing to do, the minister will retire first." ”

I only heard her pretend to be strong and said, "Okay, this palace knows." From now on, I wish the Zuo Prime Minister a smooth career and good fortune. ”

"Thank you for your kindness, and I also wish the queen a grace and a good mother."

It's just that I know that this evil fate will never end, and I won't rest until death.

In the days that followed, he married wives and concubines, gave birth to children and raised children, and lived like all nobles, enjoying wealth and power.

I will let the emperor know that the man who is in charge of this country is me Guanxi Qi Wei, and only I, Qi Wei, am worthy of pointing out this grand country.

I am the uncrowned emperor.

In fact, once a person is contaminated with power and desire, and immersed in it and enjoys all the benefits thereof, he can no longer easily get out of it.

Immersed in this, it is like a five-stone scatter that makes people addictive, the deeper they fall, the deeper they get, the more they don't want to come out.

Watching one prince and minister after another fall at my feet, at my mercy, or deposed or deprived of life, all of them gave me a different kind of pleasure, the kind of almost madness, the sin, enough to inspire me countless revelries in the bottom of my heart.

I know, I'm crazy.

It's just that I'm willing to be immersed in this pleasure forever and never want to wake up.

That emperor, naturally, will never be able to compare to me, he just has a woman that I can never have.

I know that out of that almost crazy stubbornness and longing in my heart, I can never let go of it, and I will never forget it.

I am jealous of the emperor, why can he sit on the throne and turn such a lively and perfect person into a decent but emotionless ornament in the impersonal palace city.

If you just want to show the prosperity of the dynasty or the emperor's affection, there are thousands of women in the world, why do you want my Bicheng to fly into the fire pit.

I may be wrong, but I'd rather be wrong again and again. There have been many people who have married the Queen Mother as regent throughout the ages, although the closest one is now three hundred years, but I could have been the first person in this dynasty.

Like a tireless spinning top, the entire Qi clan will never be satisfied with its current power and status, and is frantically fighting for power in the court day by day.

So much so that later there was such a ballad among the people: "Li Fei Li, Qi Fei Qi." Li Buqi, Qi Buqi. ”

After all, it was because of my arrogance that the emperor couldn't bear me and wanted to kill me secretly through mutiny. It's just that the entire Miyagi is under my control, and he naturally can't help me.

Bi Cheng secretly sent someone to deliver the message, naturally I already knew, but I was still happy.

She has me in her heart, and I am satisfied.

I originally wanted to kill the emperor, support Bicheng's child Li Chun to ascend to the throne, and then become the regent according to my expected idea, control the government together with the queen mother, and marry the queen mother in the future, which is also my whole vision.

Bicheng, but he didn't want to.

and even forced each other to die.

She's just because I like her.

It's just that she would rather stay with that wasted emperor for the rest of her life than break free from the shackles of this royal family and become a couple with me, how can she be at ease?

I promised her, but I quietly buried this feeling in my heart.

The so-called love and joy are not useful in the slightest bit of actual power after all.

I can only continue to expand my power.

I want the Qi family, within 20 years, to become a close blood relative that Li Xin's royal family is inseparable. You have me, I have you.

Even, I used the card of my friendship to become my talisman in this palace.

Maybe women are always like that, their hearts are always soft and benevolent, so as long as Bicheng is in one day, even if I walk on the tip of a knife, I will never make too many mistakes.

I'm sure Bi Cheng will keep me.

It's just that it's too secure, and it will only make a person lose sight of the dangers and pitfalls of the future.

We are old after all, and the children who used to only know how to play and have fun have now become teenagers who can hold up for a while.

That's Bicheng's child, naturally like Bicheng.

I paid too much attention to the softness and kindness of Bi Cheng, but I ignored the fact that Bi Cheng was not a mediocre person in the first place, and her son naturally inherited her smart and domineering mind. For me, it collapsed with a bang.

For the sake of my daughter, I can only use the affection I once had, crying and affectionate confession, I believe that it is enough for today's Queen Mother to risk her life to protect Sheng Xuan.

On the day she died, I drank a lot of wine, but I couldn't extinguish the sorrow in my heart.

The more I drank, the more I wanted to cry.

In the aftermath, I was unable to survive the young man full of vitality and vitality, and became the defeated subordinate of the greatest emperor of the self-indulgent dynasty that everyone laughed at.

Even if Sheng Xuan re-entered the palace later, I knew that the glory that belonged to my Qi clan was over.

Everyone is a passerby, but the child who has become a child is destined to shine in the annals of history forever.

And knowing that I was dying, I knew that the reason why Bicheng didn't want me to get that status that day was just because he was afraid that I would have a great minister in the future but I would be deeply suspicious of the emperor and not be able to die well.

After all, she is thinking about me.

Life in the palace has smoothed her edges, so she can only protect my life by this simplest of methods.

In her own way.

But I killed her with my own hands.

The leaves of the autumn trees are falling one by one, and I can't see the autumn scenery of the coming year after all.